Authors Note: Thank you all for the reviews. Once again I do not own any of these characters.
Quick shout outs though:
Iwannahamberger2: Don't worry the idea of something happening to Frannie never crossed my mind, I like animals too much to even let them get hurt in a fictional story! So don't worry she is safe!
Also to the guest who reviewed I do agree with you about Liv not being a supportive Girlfriend, but this is just how to cookie crumbled, hopefully this chapter makes up for last.
Thank you again for all of you who review, I love to hear your comments on what you like and don't like, and I am so glad you all are enjoying the story this far.
Now without any further ado, here is Chapter 15!
"Once Alex was gone, Olivia shut the door and locked it. She walked over to the mini fridge and pulled out another bottle of vodka chugged it down not even caring about the burning sensation in her throat from all that vodka at once. "What the fuck did I do?" Olivia shouted out to nobody as she threw the empty bottle across the room hitting the wall and watched it shatter into pieces."
The phone was ringing on the bed near Olivia's head, she groaned and as she moved her hand around until she found the ringing device. "Benson" Olivia answered groggily.
"Detective Benson?" A woman asked
"Yea that's me." Olivia said back.
"Hi this is Dr. Parker I am sorry to inform you but Amanda Rollins heart stopped and there was nothing we could to revive her." Dr. Parker explained
"What?" Olivia asked not fully awake
"Yes, Amanda Rollins passed away while you were too busy kissing Alex Cabot and getting drunk." Dr. Parker told her.
Cragen, Finn, and Amaro were all in Amanda's room keeping her company, when Amanda looked at the clock on the wall and asked. "Where the hell is Liv? It's almost noon."
Cragen shook his head "I have no idea, I haven't heard from her." Cragen told her and Amaro pulled out his cell phone.
"I will call and find out" Amaro told her and walked out of the room and into the hallway.
Olivia jumped awake from the dream, she didn't remember getting into bed, all she remember was cleaning up the glass before Frannie stepped on it or worse ate it. Her head was pounding and the sun light blaring into the room was not helping her situation, nor was the ringing coming from her cell phone.
Olivia looked around for her phone and quickly answered. "Dr. Parker?"
"Dr. Parker, who the hell is that?" Nick asked confused.
"Oh my god Nick, is Amanda okay?" Liv asked quickly afraid to know the answer.
"Yeah she is, and she is asking where the hell you are" Nick told her hastily.
"Oh thank God" Olivia said releasing a sigh of relief.
"Where the hell are you Liv, it's almost noon?" Nick snapped at her.
"Shit, I'll be right there." Olivia told him quickly and then hung up the phone.
Nick walked back into the room and Amanda snapped at him "Where the hell is Liv?" Amanda asked and Finn put her hand on her shoulder.
"Hey take it easy, what did the doctor say?" Finn told her
"Yeah well Liv should be here by now" Amanda snapped
"She's on her way, she sounded just like she just woke up." Nick informed her.
Olivia got herself ready as quick as she could, took Frannie outside and fed her and then hurried to the hospital. Once she had arrived Olivia rushed to Amanda's room. "Where the hell have you been?" Amanda snapped at her girlfriend once she saw Olivia come running in the door.
"I'm sorry I overslept, had a horrible dream. None of that matters though, how are you?" Olivia asked as she made her way over to the side of Amanda's bed and leaned in to kiss her.
Amanda kissed her girlfriend hello, and then once she pulled away she asked "Liv why are you still wearing shades inside?"
Finn watched Olivia and he knew her well enough to know that Olivia never wore shades often.
"I forgot they were on" Olivia explained and took them off, but shook her head so her eyes were somewhat covered.
Finn could tell Olivia was hiding something "Come with me" Finn snapped as he grabbed Olivia by the arm and dragged her out into the hallway.
"What the hell" Olivia mumbled and Finn pushed up against the wall.
"Yeah what the hell is correct. What the hell is your problem Liv?" Finn asked her near inches away from her face.
"What are you talking about?" Olivia asked and Finn shook his head.
"Amanda your girlfriend is in the hospital and you show up now, you should have been here first thing this morning when visiting hours were open since they wouldn't let you stay." Finn snapped but before Olivia could say anything he spoke again. "But yet where were you? In your hotel room sleeping, and let's not forget that your eyes are completely blood-shot. So Olivia tell me how much have your drank?" Finn asked.
"Finn.." Olivia tried but Finn cut her off.
"No I don't even want to hear it. I know you've been through a lot we all have. But Amanda needs you; the both of you need each other. But yet instead of being here you are in a hotel room feeling sorry for yourself and drinking yourself to a drunken stupor." Finn snapped at her.
Olivia took in a deep breath, she knew he was right. "Alex kissed me" Olivia shouted a bit too loudly.
"Was that Liv, what did she just say?" Amanda asked Cragen and Nick but they both acted like they didn't hear anything, when they both heard loud and clear what Olivia Benson had just said.
"Alex as in Alex Cabot?" Finn asked in surprise and Olivia nodded her head. "Why the hell did she do that? Doesn't she know you are with Amanda?" Finn asked
"Yes, but we use to date." Olivia told him and Finn just shook his head and would leave that matter for another time. "She stopped by the hotel room last night with wine, she asked if I missed her and then she kissed me." Olivia explained and she could feel the tears in her eyes start to form.
Finn was about to speak but another female voice interrupted them "Did you sleep with her?" Amanda shouted from inside the hospital room.
"Get in there now" Finn snapped at Olivia and she did what he told her.
"Amanda let me explain…" Liv tried to tell her but Amanda cut her off.
"Did you sleep with her?" Amanda snapped at her through clenched teeth.
"Amanda…" Olivia tried again
"Yes or no?" Amanda asked getting more angry.
"No" Olivia stated
Cragen grabbed Nick by the arm and walked out of the room, leaving the two women to have their privacy.
Once they were gone and the door was shut, Amanda asked "Why then was she there Olivia?"
Olivia walked over to Amanda and sat down on the edge of the bed and took her hand. "Please just hear me out" Olivia pleaded and Amanda nodded her head. "I went back to the hotel, took Frannie out, fed her, and then went to take a shower. When I was in the shower there was knock at the door, I grabbed my gun and when I got to the door and looked through the peek hole, Alex was standing on the other side with two bottles of wine. When I opened the door, she said "I figured you could use some company, can I come in?" I know I shouldn't have but I let her in." Olivia told her and then took a deep breath in and continued on. "She asked how you were, I told her. We talked about why she was here, and she said Barba got his degree from a box of Cracker Jacks." Olivia told her and Amanda laughed.
"She might be right" Amanda said with a laugh.
Olivia let out a chuckle before she went on explain to Amanda. "Anyhow, she said Internal Affairs are looking into investigating me on shooting Lewis.." Olivia started but Amanda cut her off.
"That's bullshit, you did nothing wrong." Amanda snapped.
Olivia gripped Amanda's hand more tightly "Shh honey I know that. We all do, don't worry about it. But anyhow, she asked if I was happy with you, and I said I was. By this point I finished my bottle of wine, and now was cracking into the little bottles of vodka in the mini fridge." Olivia told her and she looked down at their conjoined hands and took a breath in. "Alex asked me if she could ask me something and I said yeah, and she asked if I missed her. I told her I did miss her, and that she was gone and I had no idea where she was. I loved her, and it was like none of that mattered, and that she didn't care. She said goodbye and that was it. But then she came back and I thought she was going to stay, but she had a life back where she was, and then she left again. Then when she finally did come back, all we did was fight." Olivia told her and Amanda nodded her head encouraging Liv to go on.
"Then after that she kissed me. And then she pulled back and told me she missed me too every single day, and that she hated that she had to leave like that but she had no choice. She told me she was sorry but she always loved me, and still does." Olivia told her and tears began to fill her eyes. "Then she kissed me again, and I don't know if it was all the liquor and that isn't an excuse but I didn't stop her. But when she started to untie my robe, and told me that she missed me and missed this, then it finally hit me and I stopped her. She asked what was wrong and tried to kiss me again and I told her to stop again and I pushed her back, I told her I was with you and I love you too much to do that to you. I told her we had our thing and it didn't work out, and that I wasn't willing to jeopardize what I have with you. I told her that you make me happy and that I love you. And then I told her that she needed to leave." Olivia told Amanda with teary eyes.
Both women stayed silent for minutes until Olivia spoke up "I am so sorry Amanda, I didn't mean to I swear, I love you so much, but if you want me to leave I understand."
Amanda shook her head "Just answer me one thing please?" Amanda asked and Olivia nodded her head "Do you love her?" Amanda asked
"I did, I am with you now Amanda, I never loved Alex the way I love you." Olivia told her. "Just one look from you and my heart skips a beat. The way you smile at me, the way you look at me with so much love. I never thought I could ever have that feeling in my life until I met you. Amanda you make me complete, and I know I am not the easiest person to be with, but somehow you can manage and deal with me. I never want to lose you Amanda, I love you with all my heart. But I fucked up and if you want me to go I will…" Olivia told her but Amanda cut her off by pulling her close.
"Don't ever fucking kiss her or anyone else ever again, do you understand me Olivia Benson?" Amanda asked and Olivia nodded her head. "Good because you are all mine." Amanda growled looking Olivia deep in the eyes.
"I don't want to be anyone else's." Olivia told her with a smile and tears.
"I love you too Olivia Benson." Amanda told her before she grabbed the collar of her shirt and pulled her in for a kiss, but Amanda quickly pulled back "But we need to work on your drinking" Amanda whispered against her lips and then pulled her back in for deep kiss.
Finn, Nick, and Cragen were standing in the hallway when the room they were standing outside of went quiet. "Oh jeez, I hope they aren't killing each other" Finn said with a chuckle and with that opened the door and saw Amanda and Olivia in a deep passionate kiss. "Well they aren't killing each other but they just might kill me" Finn stated with a laugh and both women broke apart.
'You know there is a thing called knocking" Amanda smirked at her partner.
"I just wanted to make sure you both weren't killing each other." Finn told her right back while Cragen and Nick came walking into the room.
"You girls good?" Cragen asked and both nodded with a smile.
Meanwhile down at Internal Affairs Alex Cabot was meeting with Ed Tucker. "What a surprise to see you Ms. Cabot." Tucker greeted her when he opened his office door.
"Wish I could say the same to you" Alex said with a smile.
"What can I do for you?" Tucker asked as he shut the door and Alex took a seat.
"I have some information for you regarding the investigation you are going to be pursuing on Detective Olivia Benson." Alex told him and Tucker sat down at his desk and folded his hands.
"Okay I am listening, what type of information?" Tucker asked
"Olivia Benson has a drinking problem, and I believe that her drinking impaired her judgment when she shot William Lewis dead." Alex told him with a smirk.
Authors Note: Well there is Chapter 15, again don't worry everything will work out in the end I PROMISE!
Please review and let me know what you all thought!
And believe it or not I really do like Alex, I just thought I would make her a bit different from all the rest of the fics out there, and her character on SVU.
