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Disclaimer: I do not own iCarly, or Crush by David Archuleta


Chapter 2: iAm A Little Not Over You

I walked into school Monday morning, already in my own little world. The realization that came to me Saturday night was giving me a headache. I was trying to get my head around the fact that I was still in love Sam, but I also had an amazing girlfriend who I was falling for also. Not only that, but Sam has Hunter. Man, do I hate that guy. I never really had an actual reason. I just always got this weird vibe from him. I told Carly about it and she said I still had feelings for Sam. I denied it up and down. Great, couldn't wait to hear her say "I told you so". I was still racking at my brain trying to think of some way that I could just forget that ever happened and go back to the way the things were before. Of course, there were still some feelings there, but it was bearable.

Now, all I keep thinking about is how much I miss Sam. I keep thinking of different plans to get her back. I was on my way to Carly's locker hoping to God that Sam wasn't there so I could talk to her about this. But she was there…with hunter…making out in front of her locker.

I had to contain my face of disgust. I couldn't believe how jealous I was being. I was perfectly fine whenever I saw them kiss before. But now, it was like a train hitting me, but I could see all my guts flying out of me. It hurt really bad, and grossed me out all at the same time. I was about to walk over there and interrupt them when Allie skipped down the stairs and kissed my cheek. "Hey stranger," she greeted. "You didn't call back last night. Everything ok?"

I looked at her, wanting to tell the truth. Lying has never been one of my strong suits. I smiled and kissed her softly. "Everything is wonderful now that you're here," I said loud enough so the kissing fools a couple feet from us could hear. "I just fell asleep watching T.V. I'm sorry."

Allie rolled her eyes playfully. "Well, I guess I can forgive you this time," she said.

Again, I say, this girl is amazing. She's so sweet and caring. Then I looked at Sam—who had finally taken a break to breathe and talk—and couldn't figure out for the life of me, why my heart was choosing her over Allie. Sam was obnoxious, disgusting, disrespectful, and plain out mean. Yet, I loved her with all my heart. I scolded myself. I was holding hands with my girlfriend, while I was thinking about another girl. I'm the worst boyfriend ever.

Allie told me she would meet me at lunch, kissed me, and went out her way. As I was walking up to Hunter and Sam, I heard them saying their goodbyes too. "I love you," I heard Hunter say.

My ears perked up and waited to see if Sam said it back. She smiled and then just kissed him. "I'll see you later," Sam said and then Hunter left, not even noticing that Sam didn't say it back purposely.

I walked up her and looked at Hunter's disappearing figure. This was the type you would expect to see around Sam. Hunter had that shaggy blonde hair, a motorcycle, and leather jackets. No tattoos so far, but that will probably happen in the near future. I don't even believe if this guy's a senior sometimes. He looks way too old for her.

Sam finally saw me and smiled. "Hey Freddie, what's going on?" She asked casually stuffing her books in her locker.

Again, I'm not a good liar, and Sam is the one that knows me best, as much as I hate to admit it. So, if I slip, she would catch me in a lie right away. I shrugged my shoulders. "You know you haven't been insulting me since Saturday," I pointed out. "And you actually called me Freddie today."

That was very true. For the past couple of days, Sam has been surprisingly pleasant sometimes. I was hoping it was because she was still in love with me, and just had a huge smack in the face like I did. She took out her phone and looked through it. Then she finally found something and she showed it to me. It was a text from Hunter:

"Try to be nicer to people, for a change. Bet you can't be nice to Freddie for two days."

"Oh," I said trying not to sound disappointed.

"Yep," she said putting her phone back in her pocket. "You know me, can't pass up a bet. Of course, today is the last day, and I have two days of insults to catch up on. So just be prepared tomorrow."

I laughed. "I'm always prepared," I winked at her.

She laughed and it wasn't just any laugh. It's the laugh I hadn't heard since me and her had broken up. It was that genuine laughter that made her smile. Oh, my god, that smile of hers. She could light up a whole room. She just looked so beautiful. There I was again; completely lost in her sky blue eyes. I kept trying to keep Allie in my head, but whenever I was around Sam, she just got pushed to the back of my mind. I couldn't help myself. I leaned in, wanting to kiss her.

As I leaned in slowly, I was waiting for her to tell me stop, or to lean back. But she didn't move. My heart was beating so quickly, I thought I might have a heart attack. She seemed confused but she knew what was going on. She had to have known what I was trying to do. I was almost there, with her eyes watching me slowly; nervously. Once our noses touched, I felt a spark, and also a hand on my back. "Hey guys!" Carly chimed in coming up from behind me.

I turned around quickly, trying to pretend I didn't just almost kiss my ex-girlfriend. "Hey, Carls," Sam greeted from behind me. "Where's Frankie?"

Frankie and Carly have been attached to the hip for the past couple of months they have been going out. So it was weird to see her without Frankie by her side.

"He's sick today," Carly stated sadly. "So what's going on? Having a staring contest or something?"

I gave her a strange look. "What are you talking about?" I asked her.

"You guys were just super close to each other, and it looked like a staring contest," she said casually.

I glanced back at Sam. Her face was emotionless. Again, these are the times I wish I could read her mind. That made me question if she actually knew I that I almost kissed her. "Uh, yeah, staring contest," I lied. "She won."

"Mama always wins," Sam said. "C'mon, Carly, we got to get to class."

She grabbed Carly's hand and started walking to the stairs. I sighed heavily when they were out of sight, and rested my forehead against one of the lockers. Grunting in frustration, I banged my head. Why did she have to be so pretty, so amazing, so…Sam? I'm not that kind of guy that would cheat on anyone, and I almost did. I didn't even care about Allie or Hunter (though I never did care for him in the first place). All I could think about was her lips pressed against mine.

My problem wasn't so much that I was still in love with her and she had a boyfriend. I was still in love with her, and I had a girlfriend. And I know for a fact that I am falling in love with Allie too. I let myself for the past six months not to think of Sam like that, push those feelings away, and open up to Allie. Now, I can't think of Sam any other way.

o0o0o

I was sitting in my living room with my iPear listening to a song and singing along with it. It was hard to listen to any songs though. It was that moment where every single song made you think about that one person. "Has it ever crossed your mind, when we're hanging; spending time girl," I sang softly. "Are we just friends, is there more? Is there more?"

What was wrong with my heart? I didn't know it was actual possible to love more than one person at a time. I thought those were just excuses people made up. I had never been so conflicted in my life.

I looked down and pressed pause. I looked for another song so I could get a certain blonde out of my mind; even if it was only going to be temporary. I scrolled through the screen and found me and Allie's song. It was Next 2 You by Chris Brown. I smiled as I heard the lyrics. I really was falling for Allie. She was almost perfect. I had made up my mind. I was going to forget about Sam, and go with Allie. It was a losing battle anyway. We were both just so different and like she said that night on the elevator— we just don't click that way. The sad truth is, sometimes love just isn't enough.

o0o0o

"Ok, what is the worst date you've ever been on?" I asked over dinner with Allie. We were eating the amazing Pini's lasagna. Surprisingly, I didn't think about Sam the whole time. I think my idea to just push those feelings away worked. Not only that, but I had a gorgeous girl in front of me who was a perfect match for me.

Allie put her finger to her chin thinking. Her hair was in curls that cascaded over her shoulders so elegantly. I smiled thinking about how lucky I was to have her, and how stupid I was to even think that I wanted Sam back. "Ok," she started, "The worst date I have ever been on was when this guy named Carl from my culinary arts class invited me to dinner at his place. He said he wanted a home cooked dinner with someone very special. So I'm knocking on the door excited because this guy is super awesome, you know?"

"Uh huh," I said genuinely interested. "So what happened?"

"Well, he opened the door, and when I walked him I saw his boyfriend sitting at the dining table."

"What?" I laughed.

She laughed along with me. "Yeah, this guy wanted me to cook dinner for him and his boyfriend."

"Wow that must've sucked."

"Actually it wasn't that bad. I got paid for it and it made the night special for them." She shrugged.

I told you this girl was awesome. I have been such a jerk these past few days; although she didn't know that. But never again will I ever have to worry about choosing between Allie Jenkins and Sam Puckett.

o0o0o

I was walking upstairs of Carly's apartment to the web studio. We had an iCarly rehearsal today and I had to check the cameras and microphones before we got started. I walked in and stopped in my tracks seeing Sam facing the monitor. I wouldn't of believed it if I hadn't saw it. Samantha Puckett was doing karaoke. I silently shut the door behind me and got my phone out.

Pressing the video camera button I recorded Sam, just in case I ever needed it for blackmail or payback. But then I heard her voice and my jaw just dropped.

"My mama told me when I was young, we were all born superstars," she sang like an angel. "She rolled my hair and put my lipstick on, in the glass of her boudoir."

I have never in my life heard this girl sing. I had no idea she had this talent. Her voice was amazing and…breathtaking!

"I'm beautiful in my way, 'cause God makes no mistakes. I'm on the right track, baby. I was born this way!"

She turned around and stopped when she saw me. At first she was just in shock and we just stared at each other. Then she realized something; my phone. "You recorded me!" She shouted at me.

"Oh, um…" I trailed off.

"Benson," she growled.

That was when I started running. I heard her catching up to me fast down the stairs. I rounded the couch but she finally caught up to me. She grabbed me by the legs and pulled up. My back and head banged on the wooden floor of the apartment. OUCH! I saw Sam look up towards the kitchen. "He was…" Sam started.

"I don't wanna know," Carly interrupted. "I'll just go get the ice."

I stayed on the floor in pain waiting for Carly to get the ice for me. Sam sneered at me and went into the kitchen. "Aw, man," I said.

"That's what you get for sneaking up on me," Sam said.

The only problem was that wasn't why I said that. I just realized something. I have been lying to myself. I am totally not over her. "Oh, no," I said covering my face.


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