Chapter 6
Tig stalked down the corridor muttering under his breath. All he could feel was anger and hurt filling his body. He didn't know what to do or what was going on. He just wanted to make everything stop. He slammed the waiting room doors open and walked over to Clay. "I don't care what he says or what you have to do the second he's out of this place I want him gone. If he doesn't go then I will, I mean it Clay." He sieved angrily. Clay looked at him in shock completely taken by surprise. The rest of the guys all looked at them with wide eyes and opened mouths waiting for an explanation.
"What are you talking about, what's going on?"
"He's lying and saying stuff and I want him gone. I can't deal with him anymore just get rid of him." Tig went to walk away but was met by a wall of bodies holding him in place. He stared at his brothers feeling a lump grow in his throat and his eyes filling with tears. He pushed at Jax's chest but was met with only resistance. "Move!"
"No what's going on?"
"Him and Tara just gave me a picture and started talking bullshit saying he's… he's pregnant but he can't be he's a dude." Tig shouted aggressively. All of the guys looked at him with shocked looks on their face unsure what to say. "See its ballocks."
"What, I mean how, why? Brother I don't know what's going on but Tara wouldn't lie not about something to do with his health maybe you just misunderstood…" Jax said trying to reassure him. Tig shoved the picture at his chest and held it there until he took it.
"How have I misunderstood what they've said and that their lying, look she said that this is the baby and this is the uterus and this is the amniotic sac. I didn't misunderstand they're just fucking lying." Jax stared at the picture and listened to Tig's words.
"You sit here and wait and I'll go and talk to them and find out what the fuck is going on. Just sit and calm down we'll figure this out." Jax pushed Tig down onto a chair and walked away leaving the waiting room silent the only sound people breathing. He walked down the corridor and spotted Tara standing outside a room with her head in her hands. "Tara what's going on Tig's out there talking about you and Kozik lying and that Kozik's pregnant."
"I'm not lying and neither is Kozik I know that it's pretty unbelievable but it's true. He's pregnant and right now he's in there crying because Tig has just told him that he hates him. I don't care what you do fix this and make Tig sort this out." She bit back harshly. Jax looked at her in shock and pulled her into a hug seeing how tired she was.
"I don't know what I'm meant to do in this situation. Two of my brothers have fucked and one of them has ended up pregnant what the fuck do I do with that?" Tara laughed into Jax's chest hearing the words said out loud making it all the more real.
"I don't know but I know that you can't send Kozik away he needs his brothers to be there for him. By the way I've told him that if any of you do anything to hurt him me and Gemma will kick your asses so remember that." Jax snorted and nodded his head with a smile. "Go in and see him and tell him that you're on his side he needs that right now."
"Ok I'll see you later. Love you." Tara smiled and kissed Jax's cheek and walked away. Jax braced himself and pushed the door open and walked in. He saw Kozik laid on the bed with his head buried in the pillow and blankets pulled up to his neck. "Hey, Tig told us what's going on and I just want you to know that you've got the club behind you no matter what Tig says." Kozik wiped at his eyes and looked at Jax sadly.
"That's what got me into this situation in the first place people behind me." He joked bitterly. Jax laughed and stepped over to the bed patting Kozik's leg happily. "Thanks though I appreciate it. What did he say?"
"He's just freaking out he'll get over it once he's calmed down. I think." Kozik bit his bottom lip trying to stop himself from crying but to no avail. "Shit Kozi he'll understand he's just in shock he needs time that's all. Fuck, don't cry I really don't know what to do, should I go and get Tara?" Kozik shook his head pulling himself together.
"No I'm fine I'm sorry. I'm not leaving I don't care what he says I haven't done anything wrong so I'm not leaving." Kozik said stubbornly. He wiped at his face and sat up grimacing when his stomach flipped. He reached over to the table next to him and grabbed one of the small cardboard bowls and threw up in it his whole body shaking and shuddering with the effort. Jax patted his back not sure what else to do. Kozik sat back and held the bowl out away from his face grimacing again when he smelt it. He put it on the table and pushed it away rolling onto his side to face Jax. "Sorry."
"Its fine brother can't be helped. When Tara was pregnant she took these anti sickness pills I'm sure if you asked she'd give you some." Kozik groaned feeling his cheeks going bright red with embarrassment. "Anyway I better get going I need to go and talk to everyone fill them all in. Oh yeah congratulations man whatever you need remember." Kozik nodded and shut his eyes drifting off to sleep. Jax smiled and walked out back to the waiting room.
Tig sat pulling at his hair with everybody stood around him looking dumbfounded and confused. He looked down at the floor and saw the ultrasound photo and bent to pick it up. He held it in his hand and stared slowly taking it in. He didn't know what to think he was so confused and felt so helpless. He knew in his heart of hearts that Kozik wouldn't lie to him about anything let alone this, he just didn't understand. He looked up when Jax walked back in the room knowing immediately that he had made a huge mistake. He watched as Jax walked to him and sat down with a frown. "I went and saw him, its true Tara said so and so did he. You've got to figure this out because he's not going anywhere and if you try and get him to leave it will be you going."
"I know I just don't get it, how?"
"Does it matter you're having a baby like a real live baby that needs you and so does Kozik he's in there freaking out too you know. He wasn't expecting this either and then you just upped and left after telling him that you want him gone and that you hate him. He's going to sleep now so you'll have to wait but you are sorting this out." Jax said forcefully. Tig sighed and bowed his head panic rising in his chest.
"I don't know if I can do this. I love my girls more than anything but I was the shittiest dad ever I don't know how to be a dad. I don't even know if he wants me involved or if he's keeping it. What am I meant to do?" Tig began to panic the reality of the situation hitting him hard in the chest.
"Chill out would you, you're not doing it on your own you've got the club and Tara and Gemma who have said that if you hurt him they'll kick your ass so they're being supportive. Everything will be fine." Jax patted Tig's back and stood up walking away with a grimace on his face. Too many of his brothers had been crying today and it was freaking him out. Tig pulled himself together and stood looking at all of his brothers and smiled.
"So it turns out that I'm a complete prick and that I'm going to be a dad again so tonight we party." He shouted happily. The room erupted into cheers as everybody began slapping him on the back with congratulations and promises of support. "I've got to go in there and sort this out or I'm not going to get the chance to be a dad. Wish me luck." Everybody shouted luck and he walked away smiling to himself. He walked down the corridor and found the room Kozik was in and knocked on the door. He waited but there was no answer so stepped in and found Kozik curled up in a ball fast a sleep with his hands over his stomach. He stood and watched him for a second before going to him and climbing into the bed with him. He snuggled up behind him and pulled him close wrapping his arms around his waist and lightly rubbing his palm against his stomach. Kozik stirred and tried to pull away but Tig held him in place and kissed behind his ear. "I'm sorry I was a wanker and I was wrong. Forgive me?" Kozik grumbled but laid back into Tig's arms and got comfortable again.
"You owe me you really was a wanker." Tig laughed as Kozik slowly fell back to sleep. He kissed him again and shut his own eyes drifting off to sleep himself.
Kozik woke with a start when the door opened banging against the wall. He looked up and saw Tara through sleepy eyes. He tried to roll over but felt a hot heavy weight behind him and instantly began to panic; he pushed at it and heard the loud thud as it hit the floor. He started to breathe easier as soon as the weight was gone but suddenly remembered that it was Tig lying next to him. He looked over the edge of the bed and saw a groaning half-awake Tig lying on his back on the floor. "You deserved that for being a prick." Tara laughed from her spot by the door and walked in and looked at Tig before laughing again.
"Are you hurt?"
"No, help me up though." He reached his hand up and Tara grabbed it pulling him to his feet. He grunted and sat back down on the bed shaking his head. "So am I forgiven?" Kozik thought it over for a few seconds before slowly nodding and then quickly shaking his head. "Well which is it?"
"I don't know you were a fucking asshole and you didn't believe me even when I showed you, what's changed? Why all of a sudden do you want me to forgive you, what have you realised that none of that lot is on your side so you're going the easy root or is it because you're horny and looking for a quick fuck?" Kozik bit angrily. Tara looked everywhere but at the arguing pair and began moving things around.
"This is hardly the fucking easy root, I'm here because I believe you and if you want me to be here then I'll stay. You said you're pregnant and I freaked the fuck out and left and I shouldn't have but I'm back and trying so maybe you could too."
"And what if I don't want to? What if I don't even want to keep it, what then?"
"Then I don't know. Fucking hell why are you making this so hard I'm trying give me some credit for that at least." Tig shouted back losing his temper. Kozik shoved him in the chest and sneered at him as he fell backwards. Tig gathered himself and lunged at Kozik grabbing the front of his hospital gown pulling him forwards. They looked at each other sneering and growling pushing and pulling at each other. Tara grabbed at Tig's arm and tried to pull him away.
"Tig let him go now and get out. Tig I mean it let him go now before I call security." She shouted angrily. Kozik shoved him harshly and he tumbled back bumping into Tara and knocking her back. "I've had enough Tig get out and go and calm down."
"No we've got to figure this shit out now, he's having my fucking kid, I aint leaving till I know what the fuck is going on."
"We've sorted shit out you're an asshole and I'm not doing this with you not now not ever. Just fucking leave I'm done." Tig stood in open mouthed shock staring at Kozik's angry face. One of monitors started peeping loudly and Kozik started breathing heavily under Tig's gaze. "Just fuck off I don't want you here." He panted out aggressively. Tara stepped to the bed checking all the different monitors and Kozik's pulse.
"Kozik I need you to calm down for me just take slow steady breaths and everything will be fine just calm down for me." Kozik suddenly went limp and the machines began to wail loudly. Tara quickly hit a switch and turned back to Kozik. "Kozik can you hear me Kozik answer me." The room rapidly filled up with people and Tig was moved out of the way.
"Doc what's going on, what's wrong with him?"
"We don't know yet Tig but you have to leave so we can find out. I'll come and get you when I know what's going on." Tig opened his mouth to argue but Tara shook her head and he left quietly. He walked down the corridor his mind spinning. He turned as more people ran into the room he had just vacated and his stomach heaved. He crashed into the waiting room and collapsed onto a chair. Immediately his brothers were by his side asking him questions that he couldn't hear over the blood rushing in his ears. He felt a harsh sting on his cheek, looking up he realised he'd been slapped by a worried looking Chibs.
"What's going on brother?"
"I… I I fucked up again. I thought I fixed it I tried and now now he's… there's something wrong and they don't know and I fucked up it's all my fault he's not ok and my baby what if something's wrong with my baby. Oh fuck their both going to die and it's my fault." He spluttered out in a rush.
"Hey they're not going to die they'll be fine whatever is going on will get sorted. Stop worrying and breathe you daft git." Chibs drawled reassuringly. Tig shook his head and stood up hitting out at the people in front of him.
"They're going to die and it's my fault."
