Chapter 8
Jax stood at the hospital room door watching as Tig and Kozik slept pinned to each other. He could feel the worry and apprehension pooling in his gut. He knew that the guys would support them both but he had no control over everybody else. Things were changing and he had no idea how it was all going to pan out. He was yanked from his thoughts when he felt a hand on the small of his back. He turned to find Tara with a soft smile on her face. "Hey babe what's up?"
"Not much just came to check on the patient make sure he's getting some rest so that he's ready to go home later." As she spoke Tara stood on her tip toes peeking into the room smiling wider when she saw the sleeping pair. "I see they've figured everything out."
"I guess so now comes the hard part."
"What do you mean; the guys aren't being difficult are they?"
"No nothing like that they love them so they'll support them and if they don't they can leave. I mean people outside of the club and the fuckers that are against us how are they gunna react to Kozik being pregnant. If they come after him and we can't stop them it will send Tig completely off the rails and we won't be able to do jack shit." Jax explained reluctantly. He sat down heavily and ran his hands through his hair trying to calm himself. Tara sat next to him and rubbed his back reassuringly.
"I don't doubt for one second that you guys will be able to look after them. Sure other people are going to think it's odd and unnatural but do you know what, that doesn't matter he's got his family and the man, that let's face it, he loves. He doesn't need anything else so don't worry about things that aren't in your control and look at it this way… we have babysitters now they're gunna need to learn everything." Jax snorted a laugh and pulled Tara close for a chaste kiss.
"You're right as usual. I better get going Tig wants a big party to celebrate so we'll have to get the ladies clued in…"
"Not for tonight Kozik will barely be out of here and I want him resting. Give it a week at least I don't want him stressed or over tired his body can't cope with that at the moment." Tara ordered seriously.
"He's ok though right like everything's good with the baby."
"Yeah he's fine and the baby's fine but he seriously needs rest. Give it a week and then you can have your party. Wait around for a minute I'm gunna go and speak to Tig see where Kozik is staying and then you can send some of the girls round to tidy up because I guarantee that neither of their places is ok for him to be in. I won't be a minute." Jax nodded and watched her walk into the room.
Tara walked to the bed and lightly shook Tig's shoulder trying to wake him up. He stirred and slowly opened his eyes looking around trying to figure out where he was. He felt Kozik's hot body under his and beamed staring up at his face. He turned and finally noticed Tara smiling at him.
"Hey doc what's up?" he went to sit up but was pulled back down by a still sleeping Kozik. He gave a small laugh and looked at Tara apologetically, "I would get up doc but I can't."
"No stay there I just wanted to know where he's going to be staying when he gets out of here tonight." Tig thought about it for a second and then looked down at Kozik's sleeping form. He rubbed his stomach and rested his forehead on his chest.
"He's staying with me." He choked out quietly. He pressed his face down and sucked in a deep breath enjoying be able to do it. Tara grinned and patted his shoulder encouragingly. Tig looked up at her with tears in his eyes. "He's gunna stay with me and have my baby. That's fucking amazing. Can you believe that." Tara opened her mouth to speak but was cut off by a gruff voice,
"Would you shut up being such an old lady and let me sleep. Yes I'm staying with you yes I'm having your baby but if you don't shut up I'm gunna be so pissed that you'll wish I wasn't." Tig and Tara both burst out laughing as Kozik drifted back to sleep.
"I'll leave you to it. I'm getting Jax to send some of the girls over to your place to give it a clean so that he can go there tonight. I'll be back in an hour or so to send you home. Go back to sleep." She patted his shoulder again and walked out of the room.
Tig lay staring up at Kozik's sleeping face and sucked in another deep breath pulling him close. He nuzzled at his stomach and slowly pulled the hospital gown up. He looked at the tight skin over the flat stomach and pressed a soft kiss against it. Kozik stirred when he felt the cold air and wet lips against his skin and slowly looked down to see Tig smiling at his stomach he went to speak but Tig beat him to it not noticing that he was awake,
"Hey baby I'm your daddy. I just want you to know that I'm not the best at feelings and shit… oops sorry ignore that word. Anyway what I was saying was that I don't really do the feelings thing but I just want you to know that I love you and your other daddy more than anything, ok, and I'm gunna try my best to be good enough for you both. I love you." he pressed another kiss to the same spot and looked up to see Kozik staring at him with watery eyes, "How long have you been awake?" Kozik coughed to clear his throat and wiped at his eyes before answering.
"A bit longer than I think you want me to have been."
"Does that mean that you heard what I said?" Kozik nodded sheepishly looking away. Tig huffed and pulled the blanket over his head in embarrassment. "You weren't meant to hear that it was between me and the baby."
"Come out from in there I'm not talking to a blanket." Kozik pulled at the blanket and Tig reluctantly let it fall from his head. "Better. I did hear but I'm glad I did it was good. I appreciate it. Now get up because I am going to piss myself in about thirty seconds." Tig gave a quiet chuckle still not quite over the embarrassment and got up. Kozik shoved him out of the way and climbed off of the bed planting his feet heavily onto the floor. He stood up but suddenly swayed and reached out for something to grab onto and found Tig's outstretched hand. "Thanks."
"Are you alright, should I go and get Tara?"
"No I'm fine I just haven't stood up in ages and I haven't eaten in like two days. Just help me get to the toilet and I'll feel better." Tig gave him a wary look but stood up from the bed anyway. He placed his hand on the small of Kozik's back and slowly started to guide him to the en suite toilet. He pushed the door open and went to walk in but Kozik stopped and looked at him, "I've got it from here thanks."
"Seriously, I've seen you come, I've seen you puke everywhere oh and I've been balls deep in you but I can't be in the room when you piss. I've seen you piss before what's the big deal?" Kozik looked down at his feet his cheeks pinking with discomfiture.
"Can you just wait outside, please?" He mumbled still not looking up. Tig watched him with complete bafflement on his face and then it hit him why Kozik wanted him to leave and he laughed softly. Kozik looked up at the sound and felt hurt rising in his chest. Tig looked back and shook his head before pulling Kozik closer.
"You know you're fucking adorable sometimes. I'll wait outside." Kozik deflated at Tig's words and smiled stepping back. Just as he turned around he quickly gave Tig a quick peck on the lips.
"Thanks." Tig nodded and stepped out of the room shutting the door behind him. He walked back to the bed and laid down taking a deep sniff humming at the smell of Kozik that assaulted his nose. After a few minutes of lying there he heard the toilet door open and saw Kozik stood leaning against the frame. He sprang to his feet and reached out for him but Kozik held his hands up, "I can do it." Tig wanted to argue but didn't and stepped back. He watched as Kozik walked to the bed on shaky legs with every part of his body screaming to grab him and hold him close. After what felt like an eternity Kozik finally reached the bed and sat down.
"Have I told you yet that you look really fucking hot in this hospital thing you're wearing?" Kozik snorted a deep laugh and sat back to get comfortable.
"No you haven't, you're such a fucking weirdo seriously me in a hospital gown does it for you. I really do worry about you sometimes." Tig went to sit down but Kozik put his leg in the way. "Don't sit down I need you to do something for me." Tig raised an eyebrow suggestively but Kozik just shook his head. "Not that. Can you go and get me a McDonalds; I really want a big mac and some salty chips oh and a large coke."
"Seriously you want me to go now you'll be going home in like an hour can't you wait?"
"No I'm really hungry. Please Tiggy I really want it and I'm really hungry." Kozik said not caring that he sounded whiny and childish. Tig gave a reluctant nod and crossed his arms over his chest. Kozik cheered with excitement and grinned at Tig's softening face. "Thanks babe. Hurry up then I'm starving."
"You're so impatient. Is that all you want?"
"Umm yeah I think so… Barbeque sauce I want barbeque sauce." Tig laughed at the excitement in Kozik's voice at the thought of barbeque sauce.
"OK I'll be back in like half an hour." Tig leant forward to give Kozik a kiss bye but quickly stopped the move when he caught himself not sure how Kozik would react. Kozik just rolled his eyes and grabbed Tig's cut pulling him down the rest of the way pressing their lips together with a smile.
"Now go get my food you idiot." Tig nodded and walked away just as he got to the door it was pushed open harshly. He looked and saw that it was Juice and Chibs laughing hysterically.
"What are you doing?" Chibs looked at Tig's annoyed face and laughed harder.
"It's really fucking boring out there and nobody would tell us what was going on so we gave the charge nurse the slip and thought we'd come see." Juice explained as he caught his breath.
"Well Tig's going to get me food and I'm gunna sit and do absolutely nothing, wanna join?" Chibs and Juice both nodded and sat down in the chair's that was by the bed. Tig just huffed and walked away frowning. "Tig wait, can you get me one of those apple pie things and a Mcflurry and some mozzarella sticks as well, please. Thanks." Tig didn't say anything before he left.
An hour later Tig walked into the hospital room juggling bags and bottles precariously in his arms. "Sorry I took so long the kid behind the counter was a complete prick and worked at a fucking snail's pace I nearly killed him." He looked up taking in the room for the first time, seeing it completely empty. "Kozik, Kozi you in the toilet, Kozik." he waited for a few seconds but didn't get an answer so charged out of the room and down the corridor. He burst into the waiting room frantically, clutching at the stuff in his hands. "Where's Kozik gone, have you seen him, has Tara taken him somewhere?" he shouted out in a panicked rush.
"Wow dude chill I'm here. I'm fine." Kozik said from a chair just out of sight. Tig sped round to him quickly passing the food to Clay. He looked Kozik up and down and pulled him into a tight hug. "What's wrong with you?" Kozik asked reciprocating the hug. Tig didn't answer just held onto him tighter. After a minute or so he slowly pulled back and looked him in the eye.
"I thought something had happened again I went back to the room and you weren't there. Why are you out here, what's going on?" he sat down not taking breaking contact with him. Kozik smiled appreciating the worry and squeezed his hand.
"Tara came round and told me that I could go home but I figured I better wait for you or you'd freak out and you have my food." Tig shook his head chuckling slightly. The guys laughed as Kozik looked at Tig's empty arms with a frown, "Talking of which where is it?"
"I believe I have that." Clay stepped forward with the food and drinks and handed them over. Kozik beamed at him and started rummaging through the bags. He looked up at Tig with joy in his eyes.
"Thanks I'll eat this then we can go. You guys can go if you like, thanks for coming I really appreciate it and thanks for not freaking out about the baby. I'll make sure it doesn't change anything like I'll still be able to pull my weight with everything." Kozik reassured happily.
"We'll talk about it when you get back on your feet a bit more and we'll have to see what Tara thinks about it. We're glad you're ok brother you had us worried for a minute there, see you tomorrow." Clay said smiling. Kozik stood up and hugged him briefly before moving on to the rest of the guys. Once they had all left he sat down with a heavy sigh and pushed away his food.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing I just want to go home." Without waiting for an answer he stood up again and walked away leaving Tig to grab everything and follow. They got outside and Kozik stood leaning against Tig's bike with a smug smile on his face. "Looks like you'll have to ride bitch."
"I don't think so it's my fucking bike you can ride bitch and deal with it." Kozik pouted but got on the back of the bike and waited while Tig sat in front of him. He started the bike and laughed as Kozik instinctively wrapped his arms around his waist. "See it's not so bad."
"Shut up and drive you prick I feel sick and unless you want me puking down your back you won't drive like a fucking crazy person." Tig slowly pulled away from the curb smiling even brighter when Kozik rested his head on his shoulder.
Half an hour later they pulled up to Tig's house and just stood looking at it for a few seconds before climbing off the bike. Kozik gave a tired sigh and pulled Tig close, "I'm freaking out here I don't know what to do."
"What do you mean?"
"We're having a baby and I don't know how to do it. I don't know where we're going to live I don't know anything." He began to panic and pushed Tig away. Tig stood looking at him for a second not sure what to do then he grabbed him and pulled him back into a hug.
"We'll figure it out. You're gunna live here with me and then once the baby's born it will live here to or if you want we can get a different place. I'll figure it out and everything will be alright, don't worry. Ok?" Tig murmured into his ear. Kozik slowly calmed down the tension leaving his body with each breath he took. "You feel better now?"
"Yeah, let's go in I am fucking exhausted I need to sleep." Tig chucked Kozik the keys to the house following up behind him. He stood and watched as Kozik fumbled the keys into the lock and pushed the door, "So this is my new home, gotta say it's not as bad as I thought it would be."
"What the fuck does that mean?" Tig asked indignantly. Kozik laughed at his tone and shoved him with his shoulder.
"I said I liked it didn't I. Now where's the bed, I need to sleep."
"No chance you're eating first I stood in that line for ten minutes and then dealt with an absolute prick behind the counter you're eating the fucking food." Tig said getting frustrated. Kozik stared at him for a second and then walked away muttering under his breath. "What are you doing? I just told you that I want you to eat that food."
"Yeah and me walking away is me telling you I don't want to. I'm going to sleep." Kozik shouted back from the bedroom. He collapsed onto the bed face first and relaxed instantly. He heard Tig's footsteps getting closer to the bed and knew that he was pissed off but couldn't bring himself to care. He shut his eyes snuggling down into the pillows. He felt the mattress dip with Tig's weight and heard him huff. "Don't start I'm not in the mood if it makes you feel better I'll eat it later just let me sleep." Tig laid back and shuffled up the bed sliding closer to Kozik. He tucked his head in the space between his neck and shoulder kissing gently at the soft skin he found there.
"You're an ass you know."
"Mmmhmm ." Kozik replied sleepily. Tig just smiled pulling him closer and shut his eyes to sleep as well.
