I awoke in my bed. I was completely lost on what was going on. I noticed a arm around me. Nick's arm.
I shot up. All I had on was a t -shirt. Nick's t-shirt.
Holy crap.
I shook him.
"NICK!" I said. He turned over, pulling my covers onto him more. I whapped him upside the head. He shot up.
"What?!?!?!?!" He yelled. He then looked around. "What... am I doing here?"
"I have no idea!" I got out of bed and looked around. I found a pair of sweat pants and a bra and walked to the bathroom. I came back to Nick who was half dressed in just his boxers and jeans. His body was adorable. Muscular and well built. He turned to me.
"I need that." I looked down. I was still wearing his shirt. I pulled it off and threw it at his head. I put on one of my own. "Do you remember anything from last night?" He asked.
"Not really. Do you."
"Everything."
"Nick, what happened?"
"We... kinda..." He went quiet again.
"What! We what, Nick!!!"
"Kinda... had..."
"Oh my god." I said. I sat on my bed. I burried my head in my hands. "I can't believe this..."
"Why?" He asked.
"Nick. We had sex. Thats terrible!"
"Why? We're 16. It happened. Its not like... you didn't want to." My head shot up to him.
"NICK!"
"What? You had that dream a while back."
"Thats not the point!" I said. I stood up. "Nick, We're way to young for that. Seriously."
"Was this your first?"
"Of course!"
"Oh."
"You seriously thought I'd been sleeping with people when I'm only 16?" He scoffed.
"Thanks, Iz. That hurt."
"Nick. I'm serious! Do you know what can happen when people have sex?"
"I did take Health." He said, slipping the shirt over his head of curls.
"STD's, Pregnancies? Nick. I can't handle this!" I started to get hysterical. Nick came over and put his hands on my shoulders.
"Bella. Calm down. It was once. Nothing is going to happen." I threw his hands off of me.
"YOU CAN'T BE SURE OF THAT!!!" I said. I opened the door and walked downstairs. I saw Patrick and my dad in the kitchen. I sat down at the counter. My dad was making pancakes.
"What's you're problem?" Patrick asked.
"Nothing!!! Just Leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!!" I yelled and I stuffed my head into my arms. Nick came down at this point.
"What's wrong with her?" My dad asked Nick.
"I have no idea." He said.
"Wait… What are you doing here this early?" Patrick asked.
"I fell asleep on the floor last night. Woke up to her screaming."
"Oh. Right." I have to hand it to him, Nick can lie well.
I walked into school. Nick approached me immediately.
"Hey!" He said cheerfully.
"What do you want?"
"For my girlfriend to say hello to me. Man…."
"Hi, Nickolas." I said humoring him.
"What's wrong?"
"I'm tired. I didn't sleep well."
"As I recall you slept perfectly." I turned around and covered his mouth.
"Nickolas. How could you?!?!"
"Wfft? I dfdnt tfll fnyfne." I uncovered his mouth.
"What?"
"I didn't tell anyone."
"Well, don't say anything. To anyone. As far as anyone knows, I'm still virgin."
"You? What about me? This would be my second!"
"Well, that's your fault for losing it drunk."
"Lilly. Stop." I froze.
"What did you just call me?" I felt like sobbing out in tears.
The girl who didn't cry.
Cried.
I burst out into a heavy stream of tears and ran out of the building.
"Izzy?" I heard a voice ask me from behind. I was sitting on a swing in the park in the pouring rain. The news this morning said sunshine all day.
It was raining sheets. I was soaked from head to toe. I didn't care at all.
I was heartbroken and hurt. Currently hung across the swing, practically no life left inside of me. I had used all energy crying. I couldn't even speak.
"Izzy?" The voice said again. I felt like I was in a coma, but my eyes were open. I felt a stong hand touch my shoulder. I didn't move. I don't think it was even possible.
The next thing I knew, I was staring at a pair of bright green high-top converse on a boy's feet. I didn't look up to see who it was. Only Joe wore those.
"H…. j……." was all I could cough out. He sat down. I saw his face. He wasn't nearly as wet as I was.
Granted, I had been sitting here since 9:30. Its now 4:00. Its been raining non-stop.
"Izzy… why are you dead?"
"A-A-Assk….. Yo--ooour… br---or----th--er." I barley choked out.
"Who? Nick? What did he do?" I mustered up every ounce of energy
"Every scream went bleeding these paper falls. And all the make up in the world couldn't hide the scars." I sang as best I could. " I leave today, I'm packing light: a suitcase, some toiletries
The rolling hills and willow trees of Carolina wait for me
You
never learned, the rules have changed since we were nine
This
isn't school: boys don't assault the girls they like
The taste
of blood, the claim of love: these two will here on cease
to be
sprouting from your fists and tongue 'cause Carolina waits for
me
Fields of grain go whipping by from the window seat
I'm
drifting in, I'm drifting out catching up on sleep I couldn't
get
Indentured since the very crest of 17
I left my keys and
broken dreams 'cause Carolina waits for me
I will never
forgive a single day
Mile markers seem to call my name and say,
"you're safer now.
Through every town, we'll light your way
in reflective green all the
way" The entire state of Carolina
waits for me." My breath was gone. I wasn't able to speak
anymore. Joe looked at me worried.
"What? Carolina?" I nodded.
"I need you to do me a favor."
Izzy isn't sticking around anymore.
Cause Carolina Waits For Her...
(Carolina is a song by Ben Gibbard. Its so amazing. Link in profile.)
xoxo
livi.
