A/N: Hi guys! I know right, 2 updates in one day? Weird! Well, I dunno what you guys call it, but I call it procrastination! Anywho, here is quite possibly the second last chapter of Big Time Accident and, for the person who asked for more Kendall angst, you're welcome! Enjoy my loves!
Chapter 15: Progress
After Kendall had been released from hospital, it was as if he'd never come home. It had been two weeks now, and all Kendall did was stay in his room, occasionally coming out for necessities like food or the bathroom; he was never at family meals, just took a serve to his room and ate alone, and although everyone understood his condition, they still wished he'd make an effort to get better, not only for James' sake, but for Katie's as well.
The younger girl was just as quiet as her brother lately, only speaking when spoken too and spending the majority of her time curled up in a corner with a magazine or a game of Castle Smashers. Katie, late at night, sat just outside Kendall and Logan's bedroom, waiting for him to get up to use the bathroom, praying that one night he would notice her, that he'd snap out of his numb trance and just get better! During the day, she might as well be invisible; she and Kendall had always been close, and had always shared everything with each other, but lately, since Kendall had been shutting everyone out, it felt as if they were all of a sudden strangers to each other.
Dr Johnston was making hardly any progress with Kendall, and everyone in the apartment could tell that Kendall was heading towards a breaking point,
"I just don't understand why he hasn't opened up yet," she told Mrs Knight over coffee one afternoon after her therapy session with Kendall "I don't think I've ever met someone who refuses to try and get better,"
"He's always been stubborn," Mrs Knight explained "maybe he just doesn't want to express anything to a stranger,"
"I suppose," Dr Johnston mused, bringing her mug to her lips and looking at Mrs Knight over its rim "I just wish he'd make the effort to help himself,"
Kendall let his bedroom door shut gently, turning around and sitting with against it, praying that no one would try and come in. He made sure he was right against the door before leaning forward, putting his knees up to his chest, wrapping his arms around them and resting his chin on his knees; and it was only then did he finally allow the tears that he had been holding in for so long to cascade down his cheeks.
Dimly, he heard a voice in his head scold him for being such a baby, and he knew it was right, but he didn't care anymore; right now, at this very moment, he couldn't be the leader everyone wanted him to be, he couldn't be there for his friends and family to help them get through this, because he barely knew how to get through this himself!
At first, when Kendall had met Dr Johnston, he'd been convinced that he didn't need a shrink, that the accident hasn't effected him and that all he needed was a little sleep, but now, he thought as he cried and cried into his knees, maybe he did. Maybe he was going crazy like the hospital officials had made it out to be; what guy sobbed like a little baby over practically nothing? What 17 year old boy barely spoke, and only ever made any kind of noise when he was all alone in his room? Reality found its way through Kendall's clouded mind, and sat itself, clear as day, right in front of him, willing him to say it out loud,
"It's not nothing," his voice came out hoarse and raspy from crying and little use, but he continued to talk anyway; it felt good to get it out into the open, even if no one heard it "I'm not crying over nothing, it was the accident. I'm crying over the accident," a knock interrupted him at that moment, and he scrambled to get into bed before his mother made her way into the room.
"Kendall sweetie, are you awake?" but Kendall stayed silent, hot tears stinging the backs of his eyes as he stared up at the dark roof.
A/N: I know, so short, and I'm really sorry but I got super stuck for this chapter, so this was the best I could do :( maybe it deserves a tiny little review though?
