AN: Feelings start to unravel in this chapter, hope you guys enjoy!
Stephenie Meyer owns all of Twilight and related.
APOV
"Alice?" I slowly turned around to see Bella standing there with a worried look on her face, "may I speak to you?"
"Sure." I sat on my bed and patted a spot for her to join me. She sat on the bed next to me, and turned to look at me, Her chocolate eyes filled with sadness.
"Alice have you been avoiding me?" my eyes widened slightly, "why are you leaving?"
"It's not because of you Bella, it's because of me." I turned away from her gaze and looked at the floor, "But I can't tell you."
I felt Bella's heart beat slower and I felt guilty, "Why can't you tell me Alice?" she held my hand and I sucked in a breath, "Is it that bad?"
"It's not bad Bella." I looked back up at her and smiled sadly, "I just could never tell you." I knew she was my best friend and I could tell her anything and everything but I was afraid she was going to run away from me, I was afraid she was going to tell Edward and I'd have to be sent away. I heard sniffling beside me and I saw Bella's eyes watering.
"Bella please don't cry, I'm only going to be away for three months." I held her in my arms and inhaled her scent as much as possible, I was going to miss this, I really was, "You'll see me again in January." I rubbed her back while she sobbed and shuddered uncontrollably. Bella looked up at me, her eyes glittering from the tears that poured down her cheeks, her eyes were filled with sadness and it broke my heart to see her that way but I knew that it had to be this way.
"Alice why won't you tell me?" she gripped my shirt hard and shook me softly, I gulped and stared at her, "You won't even let Edward know." She gripped my shirt tighter as more tears fell from her eyes, giant sobs erupting from her body.
"Bella…I" I hesitated, I could tell her right now, blurt out everything. She looked up at me anxiously. "I…" I felt so nauseous I could puke…luckily my organs didn't work anymore….and I didn't care if Edward knew I kept it in long enough. I felt like we were trapped in time, all the background sounds faded away. As I spoke my voice echoed loudly in my head, it sounded like I was screaming. "Bella, I am in love with you." This rush of relief and regret flooded through me as I stared into the chocolate eyes of Bella. Her face wore shock and a hint of disgust. Her tears dried automatically and she pushed her self away from me. She stared at me like I was a wild rabid animal, a searing pain shot through my dead heart. "Bella please don't run. I-I can explain!" I jumped to my feet and tried to reach out to her. She turned away from me as if I had a dangerous disease. Her face was a mixture of pain and confusion. I whipped my head to the door way and Edward was standing there, his eyes fixed on Bella with a pained look.
"I'll be taking her home now, its her curfew time." In a blink he was in front of me scooping up Bella and carrying her bridal style. He turned towards the door way and was gone, I was left there with a gaping hole in my heart, I wish I had never met Bella, she caused me too much pain and I did the same for her. A few seconds later I heard Edward's car start up and he drove away from the house, Bella's face still fresh in my memory, I now knew leaving was the best choice, I didn't belong here and I finally knew it. I was juggling between the thoughts on leaving for three months or leaving forever.
BPOV
After my shower I made my way to bed, Edward was waiting there, a small smile on his face. I finished drying my hair and set the towel on my dresser as I made my way into bed. Edward opened his arms allowing me to cuddle into him with my back to him, but why did I feel so odd? Oh Alice, I do not hate you, its just that your confession was so true and sudden I couldn't process it. Now that I think about it do I love her? I definitely liked her more than Edward but do I actually love her? There was this part of me that wanted her, craved her….but I couldn't love her, not with Edward around. I wish that Alice was here and not him, I wished that Alice was holding me, not Edward. Her gentle whispers, her soft skin, her firm yet soft flexible body, I wanted to feel her against me right now. I shuddered, what the hell was I thinking?! I was glad Edward couldn't read my mind or I would be in big trouble. Edward suddenly leaned over, his hand resting in the center of my stomach, his face mere inches from mine, his topaz eyes staring intently into my brown ones
"Bella is something wrong?" He looked down at me, I looked up at him and put my hand on his cheek.
"No, Nothing's wrong Edward." I smiled.
BPOV
I woke up groggily, rubbing my sore aching eyes, I sat there on my bed processing what happened last night. When I remembered Alice my heart contracted painfully in my chest and I looked at the clock, It was 9:00. Edward said Alice would be leaving in the afternoon 12:00 sharp but after last night she might have left sooner. I exhaled sharply and rushed out of my bed, I threw on some clothes and headed out the door, hoping to catch Alice before she left.
When I finally reached the house and shut the car off I sighed, would Alice still want to see me after that?
"She is still here you know." I was startled by that sweet velvety voice I came to know, I turned my head towards my opened window and Edward was standing there his hands in his pockets. "If you would like to speak with her."
"I would." I looked at him and he automatically backed up as I opened the truck door, I stuffed my keys into my pocket and made my way up the steps. I hesitated to open the door, my hand mere inches from grasping it's cool metal handle. I turned around and Edward was staring at me intently, his expression strained somehow. I tilted my head side wards slightly and creased my eyebrows. He sucked in a breath, his eyes narrowing, "She hasn't been feeling well, her door was locked and she refuses to come out." He said as his eyebrows creased painfully.
I looked at him and saw the pain in his eyes, this was all because of me. I turned towards the door and flung it open as I stepped inside I could feel all eyes on me except one. I jogged to Alice's room and hesitated to knock on the door, but I did anyway.
"Alice?" I pounded my fist on the door, "Alice open up!" I shouted and I knew she knew that I was here but was she even in her room? "Alice please open the door!" I pressed my ear up against the door and couldn't hear anything, I panicked. Jasper appeared at my side his eyes shone with worry, he looked down at me and crossed his arms over his chest, he looked back at the door hesitantly and gripped the door knob. With a flick of his wrist the knob broke off with a loud snap. The door opened up smoothly and he pushed the door in, I looked up at him, he nodded and I stepped in.
