here's a mini chapter, go to the bottom for an update on whats happening with the story! (nothing bad, i promise!)


Rin's POV

"This is bullshit!" I shouted. I continued to pace back and forth, my hands holding my shaking head. I could feel my eyes trying to analyze the dark atmosphere around me, but they couldn't see past the spots dancing in front of my vision. Although my body was clearly reacting to the twisted scene in front of me, I refused to process it, my brain seemed to reject what was laying in front of me. I knew it was there, but I couldn't admit to being the culprit. The girls'-whose name I did not know-body was strewn across the pavement, her neck twisted at a disturbing angle.

The demon did that-no, I did that, in order to stop myself from taking her soul. This is ridiculous, it's unheard of for gods sake, and it's not like I wasn't enjoying devouring her life, it was just as wonderful as I last remember, but that god damn conscience keeps sinking its claws into my head! The girls dead blue eyes stared up at nothing, but the fear from only a few minutes ago was still frozen in place, haunting anyone who dared to look.

Oh god, I'm going to throw up, I realized. I turned to the nearest trash can and put the lunch I forced myself to eat earlier in it. After several minutes, the nausea passed and I lifted my head, breathing heavily, my nose burning from the acidic smell. The confusion was beginning to subside as anger took started to take hold.

I kicked the trash can down the alley and began to pace again. My clenched fists were trembling and my hostile attitude was returning. I almost expected myself to return to my natural state-the selfish demonic prince, but that was stupid to consider after a moments thought. I slowed down my pacing once again, putting my head against my forearm which was propped up on the wall, I began to feel myself calm down.

Something is definitely not right, I concluded. I've been at this for a week and a half now and the same thing keeps happening. Not only that, but shouldn't I, well, "finish the job", as some humans say? Obviously, these "jobs" are completely different, but after trying nine times and you still can't finish, isn't that when you consider going to a specialist about it? If only there were demon specialist-who knows, there actually may be one, I've never looked into it before, but since most demons these days are after me, it probably wouldn't be my best bet right now.

It's not like I haven't done anything to try and help, hell, I've even tried to call the human part of me out and see if he knows what the hell's going on- and if that's not crazy or desperate, I don't know what is. Anyway, I couldn't get a hold of him, I got absolutely nothing, not even a little headache! I hadn't had one for several days but I didn't think much of it at the time, now it seemed to be spiking my interest.

My thoughts were interrupted, when the morning sun got caught in my eyes. It's already the morning? Shit, how long have I been standing here? I glanced down the girl again for the last time, her shadowed face stared back at me, the dim eyes lifeless. I outstretched my hand to move the body, it was the least I could do after all for killing her, I guess-but just as I was about to, I stopped myself and pulled my hand back. The body can rot for all I care, animals will probably stumble upon it before the cops arrive anyway. I turned my back to the morning and girl, deciding to head back where the light had yet to reach.

As I walked away, I felt my worries begin to fade, I definitely wasn't going soft anytime soon. After all, I've still got a lot more damage left in me to fall behind this early in the game.


yes yes , It;s been like what four months since I last updated? something like that? i dunno a lot of stuff happening including someone taking my story and my computer crashing (again) making me lose all of my work. I had most of this typed up already as well as a lot more with yukios pov but do you know how difficult it is to retype something you've already done? It's extremely painful. Not only that, I work full time so I dont have a lot of time to type this stuff out ahha

ANYWAY, let me say this: I AM GOING TO FINISH THIS STORY. I dont care how long it takes, Im finishing this. dont worry about me abandoning it, I already have the entire ending planned and stuff so you dont have to worry about me getting stumped and being like 'yeah no more story lol'

the reason that this chapter was so short is because I wasnt planning on releasing an actual chapter ahah I was gonna post this and then decided that i might as well give them something so they know i do plan on writing-even if it is done pretty poorly ahaha

for the next chapter expect something long and better then this (I did this in like ten minutes for you guys okay) dont expect it too soon, I dont want to get your hopes up and then think I abandoned the thing, but I will do my best to get it out a lot sooner then four months ! ahah I love recieving reviews, they make me want to write more [guest], your review motivated me to do this again, so thanks and im sure others thank you as well! haha

~~ Laurissa