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Elle - Thanks. I know and you find out that Merlin realises that as well in a future chapter due to the nickname he gives him. I never thought that it came over that way but I had hoped it seem that Morgana was becoming the person she was due to Merlin's presence. I suppose she does feel safe with Merlin but I think its more of the memories.
Secrets
Merlin woke up and just left the physician's chambers.
He saw that Gaius was up but didn't want to listen to him today.
He was going to tell Morgana today. He was going to tell her of his magic and his identity.
Luckily he now had his memories back so it made walking through the castle was second nature again and Merlin had quickly got Arthur's breakfast and was at his chambers.
He didn't bother knocking and walked in placing the food on the table and going towards the curtains.
"Rise and Shine." Merlin said as loudly as possible.
"Merlin" Arthur groaned from under his covers.
"Come on sire, you have training in half an hour, a council meeting just after lunch and Gaius needs me collect herbs this evening so you better make us of me now."
Arthur rolled over so that his face wasn't in the morning sun. "Just a bit longer Merlin."
Merlin walked around and grabbed the pillow from the other side. Why Arthur needs two pillows Merlin would never understand.
"Come on Sire. Don't make me do this?"
Arthur just groaned again, muttering something about Merlin being annoying and wanting more sleep.
Merlin lifted the pillow over his head and hit it on Arthur's side.
Arthur's head came out from under his covers and sitting up.
"Did you just hit me Merlin?" He said grabbing the pillow his head was just on.
"Umm..." Merlin couldn't get any words out before Arthur had hit him with his pillow right round his head.
"You're up then sire." Merlin said.
Arthur just threw the pillow at him.
Arthur got up then went over to the table with his food on it.
Merlin looked at it and now wished that he had stayed a little longer for breakfast.
Merlin held up the shield.
Apparently Merlin had made Arthur late. He tried to argue that if Arthur got up when Merlin firstly tried they would have been on time.
This now leads to Merlin being battered by Arthur and his knights.
Most of them laughed it off as just their normal behaviour but Merlin couldn't believe that he had taken this for so long.
After not blocking quick enough, Merlin had ended up with a sword biting into his forearm.
Arthur stopped the exercise and sent Merlin straight to Gaius.
Merlin didn't want to go but Arthur had asked for Gwaine to take him there.
It just meant making small talk with Gwaine until he could lose him.
Unfortunately Gwaine waited till Merlin was done but a good thing that he did waited in the room so it meant that Gaius couldn't lecture him about Morgana.
Merlin's arm felt sore for the rest of the day.
He didn't want to try a healing spell just in case Arthur asked about it.
Merlin started rocking on the balls of his feet as the council meeting slowly went by.
He could feel Agravaine's eyes on him.
He didn't wish to look at the older man.
Merlin knew that he was slightly jealous of his new relationship with Morgana.
There was always something about Agravaine that put Merlin on edge, it was mainly the way that he looked at Morgana.
Only I can love Morgana.
Morgana and Merlin lent over the map while Agravaine was glaring at them.
They were planning their next takeover. They needed an army.
"Essitir?" Agravaine said after a while.
Both Merlin and Morgana looked up at him.
"Now I am not stupid enough to ask Lot." Merlin said.
Morgana looked back a the map. "He's right. They blame me and my late sister for Cenred's death. Even if it was my sister, they won't jump at the chance to help us."
"Merica?" Agravaine suggested.
"Doubt it. They have been on good terms with Camelot ever since they came when Merlin was poisoned. I don't think they would want another war with Camelot." Morgana said, still looking over the map.
"Well Cearloen is out of the question." Agravaine said.
"There is the Saxon's but they are still quite high up in the country." Merlin said.
Morgana ghost her hand over the map and stopped it. "What have you two heard of the Southerns?"
Merlin sighed. "They are led by Helios. He is a bit of a character but other than that nothing."
Agravaine smiled. It was his time to shine. "Helios is a brash, brutish and warlike man however he can be a civilised and charming character. I wouldn't trust him much milady, he is easily lured in by women. However I am sure you could use it to your advantage as to get him on your side. He is adept leader and a skilled warrior."
"He seems perfect and if his men are like him then they seem perfect as well. But I doubt this plan will go out soon. I have something that my sister left me that I wish to use first. I think we need to break Arthur a little before we launch this attack."
Merlin smiled. Morgana had hinted that she might bring back Lancelot.
As much as he knew it would hurt Gwen and Arthur, Merlin couldn't wait to have the old Lancelot back. He had missed him and he was the only one to know of Merlin's magic and had accepted him for it as well.
"I think that is all for tonight." Morgana said.
Agravaine stood up and left with just a small bow.
He went to the same spot he was the night before.
Morgana turned to Merlin. "You should get back now. It's late and I worry that you will get caught one day. Agravaine is a lord and will get away with it but I don't know whether a servant like you would."
Merlin just nodded.
He turned to leave but stopped.
It was now or never.
"Morgana I don't know how to say this." He turning back to her.
Morgana looked up from the map.
"Know how to say what Merlin? Come on you know you can tell me anything."
Agravaine held his breath and hoped that he wasn't going to profess his love or anything. If he did, Agravaine knew that he would never get Morgana.
"It's not that simple." Merlin stood up and grabbed Morgana's hands. He led her to the chair he was on and sat her down.
She tried to get up again but Merlin kept her down.
"You will need to sit down after what I tell you."
Merlin swallowed.
"Come on Merlin. I won't bit your head off."
That's easier enough for you to say. Merlin thought.
"Morgana..."
"Merlin, you're bleeding."
Merlin looked at his arm. He couldn't believe that he hadn't noticed that the bandage and now his tunic had been soaked through.
Morgana stood up and pulled up his sleeve. She undid the bandage to show the two inch long cut.
"How did this happen?" Morgana said as she when to get a bowl and bandages.
"Arthur was annoyed at me for making him late, when he made himself late. So I became the training dummy but I was too slow to block an attack."
Morgana began to clean the wound. "You should have gone to see Gaius before you came."
"And if I did, I wouldn't be here. Gaius is trying to stop me from going to you."
Morgana wrapped the bandages tight around Merlin's arm.
"That will have to do for now." Morgana said tucking the loose end into wrap. She had no idea why but she had the urge to kiss the bandage. She managed to stop herself and put everything back.
Merlin sighed. How can I do this to her now? She obviously cares for me. But if she finds out later it will be more disastrous.
"Morgana." Merlin tried again.
Morgana sat back down where Merlin had placed her.
"I have something to tell you. Unfortunately it will affect the relationship we have. Alator did find out who Emrys was but didn't tell you because he was protecting him. Emrys may be your doom but to the magical community he is a saviour to them. Gaius warned me to keep my secret but I can't from you not for any longer. I should have done this years ago."
Morgana was so confused. Please don't say you have magic, please don't say you are a powerful magical being.
Merlin held out his hand and made a little flame.
"Morgana, I have magic and I am Emrys. I am so sorry."
So he has told her.
I hope this flowed well as it didn't seem to when I read it.
