Halfway through this chapter we go into Merlin's head.

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Whiplash

Morgana stood straight up.

She wanted to watch the flame and be in awe at the power he was giving off but she couldn't.

"Get out." She whispered.

Merlin didn't register it until she had pushed him away.

"Get out! Get out! I don't want to see you again!" Morgana yelled at him.

Merlin still just looked at her blankly.

"Morgana..." He tried.

"Leave me alone Merlin! I don't want to see you! I don't want to be near you ever again!"

Merlin just nodded before he left through the door.

Agravaine couldn't believe his luck. He didn't have to turn Morgana against Merlin with lies because he had already done that by telling the truth.

Agravaine just couldn't believe that Uther had never discovered Merlin and why Morgana didn't know.

Been poisoned by your own kind. Agravaine said smiling.

He hid as Merlin left and went back to the window to see how Morgana was coping after he left.

Morgana stood in the same place that Merlin had left her.

"That bastard made me feel like a monster." Morgana shouted.

She turned to the table and cleared it in one sweep of her arm.

Her magic lashed out and made all the flames of the candles bigger.

Agravaine didn't want to intervene but if it meant save her from a fire that she caused, he would.

Morgan looked for more things to take her anger out on but felt as though she couldn't move.

Tears started falling down her face.

"Bloody powerful being." Morgana screamed as she fell to the floor. "Why does it have to be Merlin? Why can I not just love? Why him of all people? He is a lover not a fighter."

Agravaine thought that it would be best to leave her. She may not like him spying on her.

He is a lover not a fighter were the words going around Agravaine's mind as he left for Camelot.


Morgana had finally felt the eyes leave her.

She knew that she was going to get an earful from Agravaine about trusting Merlin but how was she meant to know if he told her nothing.

He had poisoned her. Her own kind had poisoned her.

That thought was the only thing that hurt.

She tried not listening to her heart.

It ached with more than that betrayal. It ached with the betrayal that everything was going to be alright, with the fact that Morgana could still love.

Morgana couldn't blame Gwen for her crush on Merlin. His boyish charm and good looks would land him any girl he wanted.

Morgana shook her head. Why was she thinking of these things? He had left her when she needed him most.

But Morgana knew that she had fallen for the country boy again and fallen hard.

Morgana loved his presence and he did keep Agravaine away from her.

Morgana had to keep her head together, something like this and Agravaine would be all over her.

She tried to pick herself off the floor but she just felt so heavy.

It was a relief to finally know who Emrys was. So why did everything feel out of place.

Morgana rested her head against the chair that Merlin made her sit in. He was right, she needed to be sitting down for that revelation.

She knew it was going to be an uncomfortable night on the floor but she had very little strength to get up with.

The candles had finally gone down so much that they had gone out and left Morgana in darkness.


Merlin carried on spurring his horse on faster.

He wanted to get away.

He knew that it wasn't going to end the way that he wanted it but he had to try.

He was glad that it was off his chest but he now couldn't go back to her.

Merlin slowed down his horse when he started to feel light head. A pain went straight through his head and Merlin let go of the reigns to grab hold of it.

Merlin had never felt pain like this before, even when he was poisoned.

Merlin felt himself sway and went for the reigns to keep him upright but fell off before he got the chance.

Merlin saw that his horse had stopped not too far from him.

He struggled to keep his eyes open but let go in the end. He knew he wasn't going to win.


Merlin's head


Merlin was back in the forest.

The poison stood in front of him.

"Seems like we had different ideas. How did you manage to control yourself to do that?" The poison said as the eyes seemed to get darker.

"I don't know. I didn't know that I was in charge. I thought you was."

"You have spoilt my plans." The poison shot a spell at Merlin.

Merlin only just managed to get out of the way in time by diving onto the floor.

"I was going to use magic to save her from a situation and now you have been all soppy and told her. Arthur is right you are just a girl's petticoat."

Merlin stood up and taller than he ever has done. "You think I am a coward. Yes in some situations I have been a coward but others I have had to do the unthinkable to get where I think I am going. There needed to be trust between me and Morgana for this ever to work. You way would have made everything worse. At least she knows I can be honest with her. Did you see the look she had on her face before she told us to get out?"

The poison took a step back.

Merlin continued. "That was awe. Total an utter awe. You have my memories that was the same face that Freya gave us. She wanted to keep us there but she just needs to think about it. We will be back to her in no time."

The poison smiled. "See you are getting into my way of thinking. You want to be on Morgana's side and to kill Arthur."

"No I don't want to kill Arthur. I can still achieve my destiny this way. Instead of Arthur, I hope to make Albion through Morgana. Arthur will remain unharmed."

"And how will that work?" The poison said cocking his head to one side.

Merlin sighed. "I haven't worked that out yet."

A surge of power rippled through the forest.

The other light was far away but it was giving off so much power.

They both looked at each other before running towards it.

Merlin tried not to look at the poison but he couldn't help but notice that he was faster than him.

How can he be faster than me? We are the same person.

The poison smiled. "I can give things to this body so that I can win. Goodbye Merlin."

The poison seemed to race ahead and ran into the light before Merlin had only just seen it.

Merlin couldn't believe it and for once believed he couldn't fight his darkness.

He had released his darkness before in the name of Arthur but could always suppress it.

Merlin knew that the war with himself was getting close to finishing and he was losing and badly.


Camelot


Agravaine carried on his way home, thinking about how he can get it to be Merlin to seem like the traitor to Arthur.

That's when he noticed a horse with no rider up ahead.

Agravaine stopped just before it and noticed Merlin's body.

He could have laughed. This was a perfect opportunity to kill him without raising much suspicion.

Agravaine jumped off his horse and grabbed the dagger that was on his saddle. He always carried this blade with him. It was the last thing that Ygraine gave him before she died and it meant the world to him. His sister may have got on better with their older brother but Uther took both of them away from him. This was all of their revenge.

He knelt down on the ground and lifted Merlin's chin up slightly.

He was just about to place the blade against his throat when and hand grabbed his arm.

"What do you think you are doing?" Merlin said to him.

"I was checking whether you were alive or not." Agravaine lied.

Merlin didn't look convinced but got up and onto his horse and rode off into the night.

Agravaine cursed at his bad luck. Nothing was going right for him and he knew that if this carried on his would never get his revenge or reward.