We are halfway now :)
caldera - I know but it is something that good to get into. It also helps me remember to reply to guest reviews as well. Well I think we will see this chapter. Wink wink nudge nudge.
Meeting
Morgana couldn't concentrate.
She was still thinking over the things she thought in the forest.
She loved Merlin and wanted him back with her.
She hoped that he felt the same way because together they could rule the world.
Yet could she ever really trust him again. She had trusted him with her deepest secret and he hadn't told her his.
But there must have been something stopping him.
"So milady when are you going to the Southerns?" Agravaine asked turning to her.
Morgana could see that Agravaine was talking but she didn't want to listen to him she just ...
"I want Merlin back." Morgana said.
Agravaine tried to not make his face fall but he knew he would fail.
"I'm sorry. You want that liar back. All he ever has done is betray you. Look he is even Emrys. He is your doom." Agravaine stood in front of her and took her hands. "You need to be surrounded by the people that will respect you and have their trust. Morgana you always know that you will have mine. Are you sure you will always have Merlin's?"
Morgana pulled her hands out of his grasp. "Of course I will. He is bounded to me until death."
Morgana turned away from Agravaine. She needed Merlin back even if it meant going to Camelot herself to get him.
"Morgana what has got into you? You have become soft." Agravaine said.
"I AM NOT SOFT." Morgana shouted, turning back towards him.
"Then why do you want that lair back?"
"We don't have to trust him but Arthur does. He will get more secrets out of Arthur than you ever will. Arthur is fond of the boy." Morgana said.
And so are you. The voice said in Morgana's head.
She wanted to shout that it wasn't true but it was. She had become attached to Merlin and it had reminded her of better times leading her to become soft.
What was Merlin turning her into?
"I still want you to bring him with you the next time you come." Morgana said.
"And if I refuse?" Agravaine said standing his ground.
"I will get him myself from Camelot."
Agravaine glared at her. "I will not allow you to do this to yourself. He will betray you over and over again. You cannot trust him or use him. I will be the only one you can trust."
"Then I will get him myself."
Morgana started to walk towards the door. Her thoughts were killing her and she just needed to see Merlin.
Agravaine blocked the door before she could leave.
"Going to Camelot will be signing your own death certificate."
"I have done it once before. Anyway Camelot may be the strongest of the five kingdoms yet they employ the dumbest guards. They cannot see any further than the end of their noses. I will be careful."
Agravaine studied her for a second. "Are you sure he hasn't enchanted you? Are you the one under his power not him under yours?"
Morgana knew what he was doing. Agravaine was trying to put doubt in her mind but it wasn't working.
"I am sure he is under my spell. Now I am a high priestess of the old religion, you will step aside."
Agravaine remained where he was.
"I will tell him. I don't want you risking your life for some servant."
Both of them tried to stare the other down.
Morgana in the end gave up and nodded. She hoped that he would but she knew Merlin would collect herbs nearly every day, it was just finding him which would be the problem.
Agravaine wasn't going to tell him. He had to get her to trust him and get away from Merlin.
What is it with Morgana and Arthur? Are they both in love with the servant?
Agravaine was cursing as he left the hovel.
He needed some way to stop Morgana from getting into Camelot and Merlin getting out.
He would have to lie to Arthur and say that he had heard from some travellers that Morgana was building an army, getting ready to attack.
Arthur would then have to double the guard. that would stop her from getting in.
He would also have to mention that the guards are uesless.
Agravaine hated to do this but needed to.
He couldn't lose her to a servant.
Merlin had seen Agravaine return.
He sat against the window looking down on the whole of Camelot.
He couldn't sleep so went to watch the night.
Merlin looked towards his bed. The magic book laid open.
He had tried to find a spell to turn him into a bird or something so that he could listen to what Morgana had to say but Gaius' old book was … well very basic in terms of magic.
Merlin knew that he had surpassed the skills needed for this book years ago.
No Merlin needed something more challenging. That's what Merlin hoped when he returned to Morgana.
He couldn't heal well so with her teaching he could master everything. So that if there ever was a time he could look after his mistress.
He heard someone flipping through pages of a book.
"You know, this book isn't for the likes of us."
Merlin turned from Camelot back to his bedroom.
He was surpirsed to see her there.
"Morgana I'm..."
"Shut up Merlin." Morgana said make herself at home in his small room.
Morgana looked up at him.
The moonlight hit all his best features, showing them off more.
"Come down so we can talk."
Merlin slid off the window sill and sat on the table.
Morgana had taken his only chair and he didn't wish to be too far from her.
"Firstly I need to apologise to you. I shouldn't have reacted in that way towards you. You were only tell me what you knew."
Merlin sighed. "Yet I should have told you when you came to me about your magic. Gaius stopped me."
"Suppose."
Morgana took Merlin's hand in hers.
"Come back to me Merlin. I need you. I cannot trust Agravaine like I use to. I blame you for that but you are more valuable to me than he is." Morgana subconsciously started stroking his hand. "Don't make me beg because I won't."
Merlin smiled. "How did you get in?"
Morgana smiled. "Don't mention Camelot's security to Arthur. I like being able to sneak in and out without being seen."
"I won't as I won't want anything to happen to you."
They sat in silence as Morgana continued to stroke his hand, slowly making her way up his arm.
"I will never be the person I was." Merlin said starring at the wall.
"I know. I know better than anyone that the darkness changes people. I mean look at me now."
Morgana wished that he would just look at her now. She was worried that she had scared him off.
"I am not the man you fell in love with." Merlin said.
Morgana opened her mouth to say something then he turned to her.
"But nor are you the woman that I fell for."
Morgana could help but smile. It didn't matter how he found out about her feelings, it felt great to know that he felt the same way. No they weren't the same people they were a year ago. Too much had happened that changed that. But to know that his feelings for her didn't waver felt amazing.
She knew that there was always something different about him and maybe that's what attracted her to the little clumsy manservant.
Merlin rested his hand on to hers.
"Will you come back to me?" Morgana said looking into his cobalt eyes.
"Oh Morgana I never left."
