Chapter 8:
You guys could not imagine how stupid I felt when someone pointed out to me that I was spelling Scorpius wrong! Ahhh! I probably should have looked into that before I started writing
I've had trouble with fan fiction lately: Whenever I try to write the place here wizards go when they're sick it disappears from my story. Has that happened to anyone else? So, whenever i want to say that, I will say St.M ok? I'm going to be honest...not my favorite chapter. Tell me what you think!
Merry Christmas to everyone! I hope you are all enjoying the holidays. I hope you all have been liking the story. Well,It's christmas here, christmas in the story and here's my present for you. :)
P.O.V: Scorpius
I woke up the morning after we had gotten home at 5 am. Rose was still sleeping. Christmas was coming up and it was a good thing I was off work, I could never leave Rose alone after the recent events. I got up realizing I was starved. I decided to make a nice breakfast, I was sure Rose would be just as hungry when she woke up. I went downstairs to the kitchen and started making waffles and coffee.
As I stirred the batter, the realization of what had actually happened set into my mind. Rose had had a miscarriage. Our baby was gone. We weren't going to be parents.
Tears started rolling down my cheeks. 'Scorpius be a man. It's okay. You can always try again.' I thought to myself, but it didn't help. I needed to talk to someone. Not Rose, not my, or Rose's parents. I needed my best mate right now.
P.O.V: Al (as in Albus Potter. Obviously.)
Bang. The door to my bedroom flew open.
"Ahhheoijjbk, who's there." I grumbled still half asleep. I squinted into the light and saw Scorpius standing there. He had a spatula in his hand, and tears streaming down his cheeks. ]
Rose had always been my closest cousin, and we had hung out all the time. When we had gone to Hogwarts though, and I had become friends with Scorpius, we became inseparable. Rose was great, but Scorpius was Scorpius, and he was a boy.
At first, Rose had been really jealous and had hated Scorpius. After time, she learned to put up with him and soon the three of us were inseparable. At about the same time they started falling for each other and soon were snogging everywhere they could find. After a while they learned to control they're urges when I was around and practically everything went back tot when we were all three close. Then they got engaged, married and I was left to myself. We still hung out, just not as much as before.
Aunt Hermione had told mum about the miscarriage , and mum had told me before Scorp could tell me himself. I felt horrible for them but just couldn't bring myself to go visit them. What would I say? I'm sorry for your loss? No, that hadn't sounded like the right thing for me.
As I looked at him standing in the doorway, I knew I should have visited anyway. I wouldn't have had to say anything. I was his person, me being there would have been enough.
I got out of bed and did the only thing I needed to do. I hugged him. His body was shaking so I lead him to the bed. We sat down, in silence. After a while, Scorp lifted his head out of his hands.
"i just can't believe it's over." I nodded. "I just can't believe." his voice shook. He told me everything that happened. All I did was listen, that's all that he needed me to do.
We made some coffee and I decided it was an okay time to ask about my cousin.
"She's asleep right now, but before that," he shrugged "she didn't really talk. Not to me, not to her parents, not to the healers. I should probably get back to her. She's been through as much as I have, but I can imagine it's a lot worse for her."
I gave him one final hug. He stepped into the fireplace.
"Thanks Al." And he was gone.
P.O.V: Scorpius
After my visit with Al, I finished the waffles and decide I should check up on Rose. I tiptoed up stairs and found Rose awake.
"Hey, you're awake. I just finished making breakfast. I'll bring some up to you." I rushed downstairs and came up again carrying to big plates of waffles and eggs. When I got back to the room I saw tears silently running down Rose's cheeks. I rushed over.
"Hey, hey." I tried to soothe her. "It's ok. Everything will be ok." I wiped her tears away with my hand and stroked her face. She didn't talk but her tears stopped. I helped prop the pillows up behind her. She was still to weak to do much so I even lifted her up so she was in a sitting position. I set up a small table over her lap with her food on it and climbed into bed making a similar one for me. I ate. All of my food. When I looked over at Rose, she hadn't even lifted her fork. Let alone eaten anything.
"What's wrong? Do you not like it? Do you want me to make something else?"
"No" She mumbled. "I'm not hungry."
"Oh ok." I got up and brought our plates back down. Throughout the rest of the day Rose barely talked, she didn't eat anything, and all she would drink was a few sips of water. She just stayed in bed, staring up at the ceiling or at the wall. To say I was worried would be a huge understatement.
We went to bed early that night. I put my arm Rose, pulling her close to me, against my chest. We fell asleep like that.
P.O.V: Hermione
It had been a week since Rose's miscarriage. Neither her nor Scorpius had contacted us, and I was worried about both of them. Ron and I had spent the days almost constantly together. I had cried quite a few times and I think Ron was a bit scared to leave me alone. We talked long into the nights about how the couple must be doing and how we should go visit them but we shot down our own ideas every time. The couple needed space. This morning, Ron had gone out for emergency auror business and I was making some french toast when there was a knock on the door.
Who would be here at this time of morning? It was only 8 o'clock!
"Hello?" I pulled the door open.
"Hello, Hermione" Scorpius started. He looked horrid, not as if he hadn't showered or anything. He had just lost the "shine" in his eyes.
"Scorpius, come in come in." I ushered him to the couch, sitting across from him.
"Hermione, I'm really worried about Rose. Ever since the miscarriage she hasn't eaten anything but crackers and she got really sick and is throwing up, and she has a high fever, and she has bad chills no matter how many blankets I wrap her in, and she's almost to weak to move and she won't even talk to me. And I can't even go to sleep because I'm scared something will happen to her if I do. "
"Oh my god Scorpius, who's with her now?"
"Al, she just fell asleep so I sent him a patronus and then came straight here."
"Oh honey. I'm going to go stay with her. You know Rose's or Hugo's old room? You get some sleep. I'll go take care of her." I scribbled a quick note to Ron and disapparated away.
When I got to Scorpius and Rose's room I found Al sitting next to Rose's bed.
"Hey Al." His head jerked up when I spoke.
"Hey Aunt Hermione. Is she going to be all right?" I could tell Al was really worried.
"I don't know Al, I really don't know. Would you mind doing me a favor."
"Yeah yeah anything."
"I'm going to make Rose some special potions and soups. Do me a favor and pick them up for me." I scribbled some herbs and vegetables down on a piece of paper and handed it to Al.
"Oh my baby" I murmured stroking her her head. Poor Scorpius, he had gone through the same thing as Rose, even though for her it was more severe, yet he had to act strong. Rose was falling apart and he was doing everything he could to hold her together. It just wasn't enough.
"Mum?" Rose whispered, her voice hoarse.
"Oh Rose! Why Rose, why are you doing this? You have to eat, you're scaring me and Scorpius, he is trying so hard, but he's so scared for you." She started crying.
And thats all she did. I stroked her hair and she cried and then she stopped. When Al came back he told her to get better but she didn't reply. As I made potions to get her fever down I chatted to her, but she never said anything back, she just listened. When the potion was ready she drank but threw it up less than five minutes later.
I tried making her soup, but she wouldn't eat it and soon she fell asleep, she needed her rest so I couldn't try to force her to take anything else. Ron got my note and flooed over at around 8 pm. When he saw how weak she looked he started to get emotional so I sent him home. I made sure he remembered to take good care of Scorpius, and told him I would sleep here tonight.
I woke up at 3 in the morning by the sound of Rose throwing up. Rose had barely eaten anything so all she was throwing up was water. I gave her some potions I had made earlier but she threw up all of them. I checked Rose's temperature. She was higher than she had been and she was now shivering but sweating loads at the same time. This was out of my hands. Rose needed professional healer help. I sent a patronus to Ron and in a matter of minutes he arrived. He lifted Rose up and disapparated to St.M's.
Before I disapparated I sent a patronus to the Malfoy's explaining to them what had happened and telling them they should have Scorpius stay with them until he felt strong enough to come to St.M. I figured he would rather be at his old home then staying in our house which would constantly remind him of Rose.
When I got to St.M's Ron had gotten Rose into a room and there were healers working on her right now. There was nothing I could do so I sat down next to Ron and waited.
"Mr. and ?"
I looked up. There was Rose's pregnancy healer, Healer Brown.
"I just saw that Rose was checked in, if you don't mind my asking, why is she here?"
I explained everything to her and she looked really worried. "oh my, I've never seen a miscarriage reaction like this. I'll do some research and see if I can help with anything."
Scorpius showed up a few hours later looking worried. A healer came out a few minutes later and told us everything
"After her miscarriage, Rose was so depressed that she brought on this sickness by not eating and barely drinking. , I'm sure your potions would have helped Rose, but her body's rejecting anything it gets, because just in these short days it's gotten accustomed to not eating anything. We talked to Rose, but just as I hear she's been with you, she's not being very responsive. Now I understand you are her husband?" He said pointing at Scorpius.
He nodded.
"Are you prepared to do everything to get Rose better? Cause if not, I would strongly recommend having her stay with he parents until she's healt-"
"No, I'm ready. I'll do anything for her." Scorpius interrupted.
"Ok then. We're going to have to in a manner of speaking 'teach Rose to eat again'. We'll start with crackers and plain things that won't make her stomach react. Then, we'll move on until we get her back to normal.
We are injecting a potion into her which will give her the nutrients she's been missing. However, I won't be able to give her this while she's at home. It's up to you to find a way to get Rose to eat."
P.O.V: Scorpius
Our christmas was uneventful. It was just a week after Rose was discharged from St.M's. So I spent christmas in bed with Rose. I gave her the christmas present from me in the morning. It was a emerald necklace I had bought her in November. She was talking a little bit now and she told me to put it on her, after I had she started crying, telling me she hadn't had time to get me anything. I hugged her and said the only thing I wanted for christmas was for her to get better. She ate some soup to make me happy. It was a step up from the crackers.
We had already told the Weasleys and my parents that we wouldn't be coming over, they didn't think we would be able to anyways.
I went downstairs to make some dinner. I was stirring some pasta sauce when i heard a big clatter.
Running up the stairs I found Rose on the floor next to her bed. She had knocked over her nightstand. I ran to where she was lying.
"Hey, what happened?"
"I'm sorry." her lip quivered. "I was going to walk downstairs for you for christmas as a present." she whispered.
I chuckled. That was such a Rose thing to do. Maybe she was coming back to her old self.
I picked her up and set her back down on the bed.
"You're a little weak for that still." I went down stairs to turn off the sauce, i wasn't very hungry anyway. I just slipped into bed next to Rose. Before I could fall asleep, she grabbed my hand and pulled it around her waist. I smiled in the dark.
Any change I had seen in Rose on christmas pretty much disappeared in the days following. Sure, she ate a bit more, she was finally able to stand and walk around a little bit but she went back to saying very few word. The week after Christmas I already had to go back to work. I felt horrible leaving Rose at home alone. There wasn't much I could do though. Hermione had to work, Ron had to work, Al had to work. The only thing she told me in the morning was "I'll be fine Scorpius."
I worried about her all day. When I finally got home I rushed upstairs only to find her bed empty.
"Rose!" Of course she didn't answer. I looked downstairs, everywhere I thought Rose might go. She wasn't anywhere. I decided I might as well look in every room.
I finally found her. She was lying asleep on the floor of the room we had left all the baby stuff in.
"Stupid, stupid." i mumbled to myself. "Why didn't you get rid of this stuff or at least lock the door, so that she couldn't get in." I walked over to where Rose was lying and saw she had tears streaks down her cheeks. There was a little piece of paper crumbled in her hand. I pulled it out and carried her to bed. I closed the door to the nursery and locked it so that only I would be able to get in. She might hate me for that, but I knew it would be better for her in the long run.
I sat down and saw that the paper Rose had been holding was a note. It read.
Dear baby,
Mummys so sorry. Mummys so sorry she couldn't hold you. I wasn't strong enough to hold you yet. I love you more than anything in the whole world and the only thing I want right now is to hold you and comfort you while you cry. I feel so empty inside without you here. I'm sitting here in your would have been nursery thinking about all the things we would have done together. I would have taught you your first spell and daddy would have taught you how to play quidditch. Daddys sad you're gone to baby. He may not know that I notice it. But I see his emotions. I know he's sad you're gone. Just as sad as I am. I was looking forward to so much with you baby. Whether you were a girl or a boy I would have spoiled you so much. Bought you toys and anything you wanted. You would have been able to have so many cousins. Your Nana and Grandpa would have loved you so much and so would uncle Hugo. I wonder if you would have been a troublemaker like daddy and all your uncles or really studious like your great uncle Percy and Nana. Maybe you would have been both. like me. I was really looking forward to seeing whether you would have the red Weasley hair like my daddy or like mine which is brownish red or whether you would have had that famous Malfoy blonde hair. I also wanted to name you. Since Daddy's family has a tradition of naming there kids after constellations, I thought we would do the same. That is if we found a good one for you. I love you so so very much baby. I miss you everyday. I don't understand why you were taken away from me. Why do I still get to live when you don't? I love you. i love you. Daddy loves you. I miss you. I'm sorry I wasn't able to hold you. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. Everyone keeps telling me to move on. But i can't move on. If I do I feel as if you will feel forgotten and I love you to much to let you go. I can tell I'm hurting Daddy and I don't want to hurt him. I love him with all my heart. But I just can't let you go.
I will always remember you and I will always love you,
Your Mummy
I could tell that Rose had been crying when she wrote the letter because her tears had fallen on the paper and messed up the ink. My tears joined hers smudging the ink even more.
I feel asleep on the couch that night. Rose's letter still in my hand.
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