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Angel in Disguise
4. Sora: Hidden
First of all, I'd just like to say I'm nobodies "baby brother". Just because Roxas was born three minutes before me doesn't mean he can call me that! I don't even let Squall call me that! Not that he would anyway.
Anyway, after I broke my leg playing Blitzball with Riku, mom made me stay at home every day. I couldn't get up and walk around or do anything on my own.
I hate being babied. It was all because I was the youngest, but I was sixteen! I could take care of myself! Mom and Roxas obviously didn't think so and I'm sure that even Riku and Kairi had their doubts sometimes. But I knew I could and that's all that mattered.
The only good things about being stuck at home were that I got to play video games whenever I wanted and my friends all brought me presents. And Riku stayed over a lot. It's a surprise that Roxas never found out about us!
Don't get me wrong, I hated hiding things from Roxas. And me dating Riku was the biggest thing that I had ever hid from him. He's my twin. We share everything with each other. We told each other who our first crushes were. The first time that Roxas had a broken bone, I was right there with him. We used to get sick on the exact same days and if Roxas had a nightmare than I'd be right there to comfort him. He did the same for me.
It's weird that Riku and Roxas have never gotten along very well. Maybe that was the reason I didn't want to tell Roxas. I was afraid of what he would think; of what he would say. I wouldn't have been able to handle it if Roxas rejected my feelings or hated me.
For once, I was truly afraid. And that, above everything else, kept me from saying anything to Roxas.
I was sitting in my room when I first noticed that Roxas seemed preoccupied about something. At first I just brushed it off, thinking that it had something to do with me and my broken leg. But when he kept on walking around and doing nothing all day, I knew it didn't have anything to do with me. Something was wrong with him and I was determined to find out what it was.
I've never been one for sneaky plans or using reverse psychology to get what I want. I'm more of a "act now, question later" kind of person. So I didn't try to be all sneaky, because then Roxas would think something was wrong with me. I just yelled for him to come in my room and then I had him shut the door so I could talk to him in peace.
"What's wrong with you?" I came right out and asked.
"Nothing." Roxas told me.
I wasn't convinced. I crossed my arms over my chest. I could be just as stubborn as him when I wanted to be. "Tell me."
Roxas gave me a warning look. "It's nothing, Sora."
"'Nothing' my ass." I snapped, irritated. "You've been moping around the house and won't even look at me. Something is bothering you and I won't stop bothering you until you tell me."
"It's nothing because I don't even know what's bothering me, okay?!" Roxas snapped back. "It's everything! It's you with your broken leg and Kairi acting all weird around you and Riku! It's this huge class project I've got to get done! It's that Axel guy--" He stopped suddenly and looked away and I knew that it was Axel who had gotten under his skin. Nothing else would have made him so bothered.
"Why would meeting Axel bother you?" I asked, curious. "He seemed really nice."
"I don't know." Roxas says softly. He was staring at the floor by that point and I could feel the confusion pouring off of him. I could tell that he was done talking, so I let the topic go.
"Hey, bet I can kick your butt at Mario cart!" I challenged boldly.
A confused expression crossed Roxas's face for a split second and then he grinned at me. "You're on!"
After that, Roxas either hid that he was bothered by something or it really was nothing. Of course, being practically confined to the house didn't help very much since I couldn't see him unless he walked by me or the room I was in.
It took me a few days to notice that Roxas kept leaving the house without telling me where he was going. I asked Kairi and Naminé about it, figuring he was hanging out with them, but they hadn't seen him. I even asked Tidus, Selphie, Wakka, and Lulu when they dropped by, but none of them had seen him around either.
Normally I would have just let it go, but being stuck in the house all day was starting to effect my mind. That and I was bored.
So in my boredom, I decided to make figuring out where Roxas was going into a game. And for that game I needed Kairi and Naminé's help. So I called them up and asked them to come over one morning before Roxas left.
They arrived, not ten minutes after I called them, and proceeded to prod me for information. Those two loved detective games.
"Okay, Roxas has been acting weird lately. He won't even talk to me and he's been going out the past few days. I can't even corner him long enough to talk to him." I told them.
"So you want to know where he is going?" Naminé asked me. I could practically see the wheels turning in her head as she tried to think of the best way to go about figuring things out.
I nodded. "Yeah. Leave out no detail."
Kairi giggled. "You're bored, aren't you?" She teased, poking my arm. "You always get like this when you're bored."
I playfully smacked away her hand. "I am not."
Naminé grinned and jotted something down in her notebook. "'Day one: Kairi and I have been sent to stalk Roxas because Sora is bored.' How's that for a beginning?" She asked, looking up.
"Ha, ha." I said dryly. "So I'm a little bored. You would be too if you were stuck inside with a broken leg!"
"Don't worry, Sora." Kairi said. "We'll find out what's up with Roxas."
Naminé nodded. "Yeah! You can leave it to us!"
I felt better knowing that I had Naminé and Kairi to count on. I know it seems like I was being nosy, but I was being just as protective of Roxas as he always was with me. He's my brother; it's my job to watch out for him.
Even if protecting him meant keeping things from him… I know it doesn't sound like not telling him that I was dating Riku was protecting him, but we had our reputations to uphold! Well, I wouldn't have cared about what others thought of me (and Riku never cared), but what about Roxas? I mean, we're twins. Identical, as a matter of fact, even if we don't really look it since I have light brown hair and he has blonde hair. It's just because Roxas spends more time outside, so the sun bleaches it.
In the eyes of others, since we were identical twins then we are exactly the same. For us, that couldn't be less true at times. There are times that I think Roxas and I are complete opposites. And then we do something like dress exactly alike or finish each others sentences or say things at the exact same time and it reminds me that we have a lot more things in common than what we don't have in common. Does that make sense?
In other words, to me, not telling Roxas about me and Riku was my way of protecting him.
I couldn't have been more wrong.
End Chapter
Oddly, Sora is one of the harder characters for me to write in the POV of. Jeez, I really need to get my word count up...
I'll probably end up going back and adding more to this later. It's way too short.
