This story takes place in the near future. Monica and Chandler are married and living in Westchester, Jack and Erica are 3. Ross and Rachel are married Emma is 5. Phoebe and Mike are married they have one child Sophie she's 2. Joey is engaged to Alex.

Disclaimer: All Friends characters belong to Warner Bros., and NBC

Title: At What Cost
Rated PG-13

Summery: After Monica gives birth she feels fat and unattractive, and afraid of losing Chandler. She does something drastic and dangerous.

Chapter 2: Showing Signs

Monica sat alone in her kitchen looking at the box of Krispie Kremes on the table. She was hungry and would have no problem eating the whole box she did it on a regular basis as a teenager but she couldn't afford to gain weight she needed to lose weight. Then she started thinking she could eat the whole box then go to the bathroom and get rid of it. She sighed softly opening the box eating one donut then another and another until the box was empty. She got up tossing the box in the trash before going to the bathroom.

Even though she'd done it several times it still took her a few minutes to make herself throw up. When she was finished she flushed the toilet and washed her face and hands. Chandler had come in with the twins as she came out of the bathroom. "Are you okay honey" he asked seeing his wife's flushed face. "Oh uh yeah I'm fine" she replied hoping he hadn't heard her in the bathroom. "You sure" he asked "I'm sure" she tried to smile "Okay, I brought home a pizza for dinner" he took her hand leading her in the kitchen the twins following.

Chandler watched his wife scarf down several slices of pizza but thought nothing of it figuring she was still used to eating for two. "I...I'll be back I'm going to check on Danny" Monica excused herself and hurried away from the table. Once she was upstairs she went upstairs and got rid of the pizza she'd just ate.

Later that night after the kids were put to bed Monica took a shower and walked to her bedroom in just a towel she smiled seeing her husband in just his boxers "Hey you" she grinned wrapping her arms around him pressing her lips to his kissing him. She pushed him back to the bed pushing him down she took off her towel and straddled him kissing him again but he pulled away "Mon we can't" he said softly "Sure we can" she grinned moving in to kiss him again.

When he pulled away again she got up and ran from the bedroom back to the bathroom. She stood looking at her naked body in the mirror. She frowned "Of course Chandler doesn't want to make love to you, you're too fat" she whispered to herself. She threw on her robe and made her way down to the kitchen tears steaming down her cheeks as she stood looking in the refrigerator pulling out food. After her binge she headed back up to the bathroom to empty her stomach of everything she'd just eaten.

Chandler was coming to look for her when he heard her in the bathroom "Mon" he knocked on the door "Honey are you okay" he asked starting to open the door when it sounded like she was being sick. "Uh yeah I…I'm fine" Monica panicked as she quickly flushed the toilet and washed her hands hoping he hadn't seen her. "Are you sure" he asked putting his hand to her forehead "Yes, I'm fine " she moved away from his touch "Lets go to bed" she left the bathroom. Chandler sighed and followed her hoping she was okay.

A few days later Chandler came in from work to find the twins coloring at the kitchen table "Hey guys where's mommy" he asked, "She's in the potty daddy" Erica answered sweetly. "Thank you princess" he kissed the top of her head and headed upstairs running into Monica coming out of the bathroom "Oh uh hey honey" Monica smiled nervously "Mon are you okay" he asked "I'm fine sweetie" she tried to walk past him but he stopped her grabbing her hand gently. That's when he noticed the marks on her fingers

" Mon what happened to your fingers" he asked "No…Nothing" she pulled her hand away from him "They're old scars from work" she lied "I'm going to go check on Danny and then go start dinner" she hurried past him to the nursery. Chandler watched her with concern something was wrong with his wife he needed to find out what it was.

Chapter 3: I'll Be There For You…Chandler enlists the help of he friends to find out why Monica is acting so weird…Coming soon!

Author's Note: Hello Children here's the next chapter… Binge eating and scaring on the fingers are actual signs/symptoms of Bulimia. I'm researching it online! I hope you're all enjoying this fic please read and review! Thanx!