Recap:

"Huh, I guess you're right" He sighs "When you put it like that... I'm sorry"

The music ended and we stopped dancing. I sat on the bench and sighed "What're you sorry for?"

"I'm sorry for always putting up an act and pretending someone I'm not..." He sat next to me "I'm sorry"

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Amu's POV:

"Their's no need to apologize..." I sigh

"But their is! I'm sorry! It's depressing and it's not the real me! I know you always knew the real me but this isn't... me! This isn't how I dance, how I sing... how I talk! It's not me!" He rests his elbows on his knees and looks at me "Amu..."

"Yes?" I gulp, scared of what he might say next

"...Will...will you give me the chance to show you who I am?" He asks, sincerely

I raise an eyebrow then shyly smile "Of course" I wasn't expecting this question, I was never expecting this question!

"Great" He stands up and walks over to the music box.

I'm going through the same day, same place, same way I always do
Then I saw you from the corner of my eye
And it hit me like a ton of bricks, I can't lie.
Oh you got to me

I watched as Nagi danced, he was dancing less gracefully now but he looked happier than he did before. He looked... excited and I smiled seeing him smile. He was dancing more... agressively, a lot faster than he was before.

My life was alright, living in black an white
But you changed my point of view
Show me your colors, show me your colors
'Cause without you I'm blue
(Without you I'm blue)

I couldn't help but smile, it's so much better when you're showing your true self. I started absentmindedly singing the lyrics, I couldn't stop myself, he picked one of my favorite songs, how could I not sing along!? I kept singing as he started dancing faster and faster.

He danced over towards me and whispered in my ear "Thank you..." then he danced back over towards the dancefloor. I was shocked and slightly blushing. I stopped singing all together, I was too shocked to notice that the chorus was coming up.

Hurry up and save me
Hurry up and save me
Hurry up and save me
Hurry up and save me
I just wanna feel alive and I do when I'm with you
Hurry up and save me
Hurry up and save me
Hurry up and save me
Hurry up and save me
I just wanna feel alive and I do when I'm with you
(Show me your colors, show me your colors)

I started singing again once the chorus came up and I was smiling really big from ear to ear, I couldn't help myself. Just... dancing relieves a whole lotta stress off me. Watching Nagi dance all over the place like that was really inspiring, I just wanted to jump right in and dance with him but I resisted the urge because he's dating Rima and I'm dating Kukai... but it's just dance, it's not like we're cheating. No, stop it, Amu! You can't think this way!

I furrowed my eyebrows and whispered to myself "Why would he play this song?" I asked that over and over again "Is it some kind of message? Isn't it a girl song? Was it the first song he saw so just put it on? Why?"

Nagi was smiling and laughing as he danced, jumped, skipped, and flipped in the air, he was a natural born dancer, I could never match up to him and I know it

I have to have control of myself, my thoughts, my mind
'Cause the way it's going down in my life, I feel like a prisoner in a light
Are you feeling me?
'Cause the way you make, my break, my shake, my walls around
I feel like I'm breaking out
Show me your colors
Show me your colors
'Cause without you I'm blue
(Without you I'm blue)

I just loved this song and their is nothing nobody could do to make me feel differently. I needed to express myself no matter how hard it is... I just didn't want anybody to know... it's too late now though... they know and their's nothing I can do about except laugh it off. I didn't want to laugh it off, in fact, I wanted to hide in my room and cry... but my mom wouldn't want that. Yes, I'm staying strong for the both of us.

Hurry up and save me
Hurry up and save me
Hurry up and save me
Hurry up and save me
I just wanna feel alive and I do when I'm with you
(Hurry up, hurry up)
Hurry up and save me (Save me)
Hurry up and save me (Save you)
Hurry up and save me (Save me)
Hurry up and save me
I just wanna feel alive and I do when I'm with you

I started twirling my hair as I sang... I sang like I've had these feelings before. I tapped my foot and snapped to the beat and sang like I meant it... like I meant every word. Nagi stopped dancing for a brief moment like I did before as he examined what I was doing.

"Ha," He smiled widely "I knew it"

He continued dancing as I tried to piece together what he meant by that so I kept whispering to myself "What? He knew what? He knew it... what's it? This is too confusing, what did he mean?"

My window's opened up
Tonight I'm crawling out
Will you be there?
Are you waiting?
Will you be there?
Will you save me?
(So just save me, so just save me)
(Save me, save me)
You can save me
(Save me, save me)
I know you can save me, I know you can save me so just, so just save me

I stopped thinking about it and smiled as Nagi danced. I watched his every move, from his twirling to his flipping, I watched it all. I couldn't help but laugh when he did, he was always so independent yet he wasn't afraid to ask others for help. I liked a lot of this about Nagi. He was always so sweet and caring to everybody he meets. He isn't afraid to speak his mind. He puts things the way they are, putting the full truth out there. He prefers the ugly truth rather than a beautiful lie. And he can dance... I can name more but my mind's gone blank when I watch Nagi dance.

"Nagi..." I whispered

His smile faded as he continued dancing "What's up?"

"Oh... nothing" I smiled really big making his grin come back, he just reeeaallly loved dancing and I could tell. I loved it to, that's why I brought him here

Without you I'm blue
Hurry up and save me
Hurry up and save me
Hurry up and save me
Hurry up and save me
I just wanna feel alive and I do when I'm with you

Nagi has a really nice smile, I wish it could stay this way forever, just me and him. Wait, what am I thinking? I have Kukai whom I love and engaged to. Besides, Nagi is engaged to one of my bestfriends! I can't do that to them, and Nagi doesn't like me that way anyway. Ugh, I wish I could just yell at the top of my lungs, I'm so frustrated and a little afraid but I don't know why. Nagi's complicated, he's too hard to figure out yet he seems like the most simple guy on earth!

"Hm," I examined Nagi from head to toe and whispered "Dancing... it's so different from how he usually dances"

Hurry up and save me (I'm blue)
Hurry up and save me (Are you?)
Hurry up and save me (Are you?)
Hurry up and save me (Are you?)
I just wanna feel alive and I do when I'm with you

"I know..." Nagi grinned. I sweatdropped "Are you a mind reader?"

"No, you whisper loudly" He points out

"Dude," I cross my arms and fight off the growing blush "Just dance"

He chuckled "Way ahead of ya"

I scrunched up my nose and furrowed my eyebrows like I do whenever Kukai does something stupid. I looked around and saw an old violin case. I walked over to it and opened it, their was a perfectly good violin with perfect strings and everything. I decided to pick it up and bring it over to the bench where I continued to watch Nagi dance.

Hurry up and save me (Save me)
Hurry up and save me (Save me)
Hurry up and save me (Save me)
Hurry up and save me (Save me)
I just wanna feel alive and I do when I'm with you

I put the violin in position and played it, it sounded unbelievably good, and it was my first time playing it! It was so awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Nagi stopped dancing for a minute and looked at me wide eyed

"Amu..." but when the next part of the song came, he started dancing again

Hurry up and save me (Save you)
Hurry up and save me (Save me)
Hurry up and save me (Save you)
Hurry up and save me (Save me)
I just wanna feel alive and I do when I'm with you (Save you)
Save me, save me

The music stopped and he stopped dancing, I stopped playing. I quickly got up and put the violin back in it's case. I closed the case and zipped it, I turned around and Nagi was right there.

He stared at me wide eyed "Hey..."

"Hey..." I replied fighting off the growing blush

"You were really good" He grinned

I shoved my hands in my pockets "Not really, it was my first time playing. Oh... and I liked how you danced... I would have never guessed you liked to dance that way"

"Same here," He chuckled "That was the real me. Nobody except you and me know, not even Rima knows. And I don't really plan on telling her..."

"Your secret's safe with me, I won't tell a soul!" I nod

"Thanks," He smiles "Same with me"

"You're a good friend," I hug him "I almost feel bad for lying to you guys"

"..." Silence filled the air

"What?" He asked me, sincere "Almost feel bad? Lied?... About what?"

"About me going back to California..." I walk over to the music box and turn it off "I'm not going back..."

"What?!" He gasps "Why not?"

"I can't... I only went there for vacation but someone kept me from coming back for the longest time. And I finally realize who that someone is..." I sigh "It was Kukai. But when Jay kissed me, I lost all respect and my heart tore, I couldn't dare to face Kukai after that... I just snapped and ran back home as soon as I could... but I can't go back"

"Amu... I-"Nagi... you don't understand and you never will, please stop trying to comfort me" I interrupted him and pulled out my disk from the music box. I put it in it's case and put it on a small book shelf in the corner "I've had enough of this, I brought you here because you like dance... and so do I. But I needed to come to relieve some stress, I always come here. This is our little secret, nobody else can know, do you understand?"

"Yes," He takes a deep breath "You may be right. I may never understand how you're feeling at this exact moment but I sure can try. Not being able to do something is a temporary road block, it won't be there forever, you can do anything. I'm not gonna say that it'll be alright and I'm not going to comfort you, I don't want to give you false hope. But what I can give you is a promise... I can't promise you that I will be here forever, I will move on and grow up, same as you. But I will always be thinking of you, and I want to help, I don't want to grow up and move on but we have to..."

"Why!?" I snapped, I turn around to face him "I don't want to grow up! I don't want to leave! Did you think I did!? I don't want to leave Kukai, Yaya, Utau, Rima, Rin, and you! I don't want to leave Ryo, Ikuto, Kairi, Tira, and Tora! I didn't want to! I don't want to leave Tadase, Koemi, Hoshimi, and Misori! Not even Aku! And the pain I feel that I did will never go away! Do you really understand what It feels like to leave everything behind!? Why does it have to be this way!? Why is life so complicated!?"

"Amu... try to calm down," Nagi took a deep breath "I don't know"

"Sure, that's supposed to make me feel better!?" I cross my arms

"I never said it was," He slightly smiled "I don't want to five you false hope, I told you that. I can't garantee we are all going to miss you forever, we will grow up, move on, and forget. But you will always be in the back of our minds, forever and always. We are forever friends and I wish to keep it that way. I don't want you to stay but it would be selfish of me to make you come back. And this isn't about me, it's about you, it's always been about you"

"How can it be about me when it's not what I want?" I ask but then cover my mouth immediately "No! Nevermind! Sorry! Forget I said anything!"

"What do you mean? It's not what you want...?" Came that dreading question.

"Well... um, sorry... I guess it's... it's... it's complicated" I purse my lips

Nagi furrows his eyebrows "Bull crap..."

"Fine! My father arranged for me to get married here in florida, I can't marry Kukai, I never could. I don't understand why I said yes" I looked up at the ceiling "Mikey..."

"Oh... so you were supposed ot marry that cheesey dance instructor guy? The one the called me a girl?" He crossed his arms

"Oh, mhm, yeah, he's the one..." I pursed my lips again "Oh, Mikey!"

Micheal came marching in "You called?"

"Nagi just figured out that we're engaged..." I sigh

"Oh," He puts his arm around me "He did? Interesting, but... Amu, I have to prepare for the wedding in a couple days"

"DAYS?!" Nagi gasps "I need to tell Kukai!"

"No!" I look down "Nagi! Please don't!"

"Okay, Amu... let's get one thing straight," Michael looked me in the eye "I don't love you and you don't love me, this was an arranged marrige and it's definitely not going to be a normal one so don't even think about calling yourself my 'wife', do you understand me?"

"Yes, sir" I sigh and crossed my arms looking away from Michael "As long as you don't think about calling yourself my 'husband' then we're good"

"Deal," He walked towards the door and turned around to face me "Don't think I wanted this nightmare marrige to become a reality"

"I won't as long as you don't think I ever wanted anything to do with you in the first place" I growled

"Fine!-"Fine!" I furrowed my eyebrows. He fumed and stormed out

"Amu?" Nagi raised an eyebrow

"I'm going back" I glared at the door

Nagi was taken aback "What?"

"I'm going back to California in a week," I scrunch up my nose "Mikey is a jerk"

"Even I could have told you that," He snorted "But I'm happy you decided to come back"

"Sure, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm going to be married by the time I do go back. Please don't tell Kukai, EVER! I don't want him to know! Ever! Please! Promise me you won't tell a soul!" I begged

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Don't own Shugo Chara, wait for the next chapter!