The Past (Chapter 17)
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The Past (Chapter 17)
Recap~
"Hey! Tris? Are you alive?" Matthew scream and wave his hand around.
"No. I'm not alive you idiot."
" Hehe yay! I got your attention~ for after 10 mins!"
"Tch." He is always like this. Happy go lucky or cheerful attitude. It just makes me wonder how he can do this everyday and not get tired?
" You ready to sing? And you're meeting me after this right..?"
" Hmph Whatever." I replied and walked away not wanting to talk to him. I don't know why but his attitude is getting to me.
End of Recap~
Tris's P.O.V
" Everyone please welcome Tris to sing her song~!" I heard the announced exclaimed. I never felt nervous about these kinds of events before but right now my feelings are going haywire. Sigh. What am I going to do? Tobias seems so depress yet he looks like he really wishes for my happiness and seeing him distressing like that is heartbreaking for me. Matthew as well. I see him and I feel sad and weird... probably because of the past and something feel off as well BUT I CAN'T PIN POINT WHAT IT IS AASDFGHJKL. Sigh. I'm just going to sing this and to hell with everything for now. I walk out to the stage determine to just sing the song to everyone out there who doesn't understand or know me yet judges me.
(Lyrics are bold, thoughts are normal font)
Song: You don't know me by Elizabeth Gillies
You think you know me
No you don't. None of you know me at all.
But you don't know me
I shake my head at the crowd and started singing calmly in a soft voice but not so soft that people can't hear me. No one really knows how I feel with all the words said about me everyday.
You think you own me
I point at the crowd looking at them confidently
But you can't control me
I than move my hand to my heart and stare at almost everyone. You can try to control me but I will not, I definitely will not let you guys succeed.
You look at me and there's just one thing that you see
You see the girl who is anti social and will let you guys bully her until you are satisfy
So listen to me
I am not just a girl you guys can play around with. You can try, but I will always gain control of the game soon.
Listen to me
I scream this sentence out and let everything, everything flow out of my heart, my mind. I'm no longer singing this peacefully and calmly rather it is loud, aggressive and ferociously. Not literally like I would kill them but yes.
You push me back
I push you back
Harder, harder
I will pay everything back 2 or more times harder.
You scream at me
I scream at you
Louder, L-L-L-L-Louder
I'm dangerous so I'm warning you
This is my second warning.
Cause you're not afraid of me
And I can't convince you
If I can't convince you I guess it will have to be settle with the other way.
You don't know me
My thought slowly trail off to Matthew and Tobias.. Sigh- I think I still love you, like Tobias had said but I don't think you know me anymore like the fangirls. Not anymore. I've seen the way you act for the past day since you arrived and you seem so distinct, so different and like you don't know anything about me at all.
You think you got me
But you don't get me
I'm not so sure if I will meet you at the rooftop anymore...after seeing Tobias that depress for the first time makes me think twice. I don't want to see him like this anymore.
You think you want me
Do you really want me Matthew? Or are you just after me to get back what was once "yours" before? Tobias, do you really love me? Or are you just after me to prove you have the ability to get any girl? I'm afraid what will happen if I let any of you in again.
But you don't know what you're getting into
There's so much more to me then what you think you see
So so much more than none of you know. If you knew you guys will probably find me disgusting. –Short flashback to what happen before behind the fence -
So listen to me
Just listen to me
You push me back
I push you back
Harder, harder
You scream at me
I scream at you
Louder, L-L-L-L-Louder
I'm dangerous so I'm warning you
But you're not afraid of me
And I can't convince you
You don't know me
And the longer that you stay, the ice is melting
The wall I put around myself is slowing melting and is going to break down soon because of everyone. Tobias, Christina, Marlene, Uriah and Will. I'm scared. I'm scared of what will happen if I have to taste betrayal again.
And the pain feels okay, it feels okay (heyy)
It feels alright because I'm use to it, the pain of being alone is better than the pain of betrayal but the happiness I gain with them seems like it will last forever...that's why I'm scared. I'm scared what will happen when they leave.
You push me back
I push you back
You scream at me
I scream at you
Louder x9
You push me back
I push you back
Harder, harder
You scream at me
I scream at you
Louder, L-L-L-L-Louder
I'm dangerous so I'm warning you
But you're not afraid of me
You're not... Both of you, you guys approach me not caring about what I say not taking any insult seriously. And when Tobias kept coming back and talked to me honestly I was a little happy
And I can't convince you
I don't have to
I don't think I have to anymore. I will just have to trust you. Trust that everything is real and none of you will betray me... right?
I think you know me
I guess you do a little... If not I will just have to let you guys in and let everyone know me even though there are risks. I will trust you Tobias. I will.
"Thank you" I said after finishing my song, " This song is for everyone who has been talking behind my back and some others. The reason I chose this song is because it explains that no one really understand who I am and what is my personality yet they are judging me. I would like to put it out there that there are many people who can get hurt by the words or actions anyone says or do. This song also explains some part of my personality where I am strong therefore I will not let myself break down that easily and I will fight back. However I am also human... Just saying."
"I see, so you chose this song to express your feelings about how people don't know what your personality is and it is also about the resilience part of your personality right?"
" Yes."
"Very well. Thank you." One of the judges replied.
"Alright~! Thank you~ Now Tobias would you like to come and sing your chose of song?" I walked away as they announced it's his turn. I look at him as he walks to the stage and he looks slightly miserable still.
End Of Tris's P.O.V
Tobias's P.O.V
I regret what I say about letting Tris go with Matthew... But it's the right thing to do. I want Tris to be happy and if the only way for her to be happy is to be with Matthew than I will let her go. But if he hurts her one more friggin time I will personally kill him. Even though I say I let her go with Matthew for her happiness I know I can't just give up like this. I love her too much. I don't know why. It like I'm magnetically attracted to her and not only attracted but I love her as well. I know I sound like a lovesick puppy dog but it's true. Thank god that no one have the power to read minds or I will be embarrassed. I guess it's my turn to sing. After listening to Tris song I felt like for some part it's for me and some for Matthew but I'm not sure... If only I knew what she's thinking or feeling.
(Lyrics are bold, thoughts are normal font)
Song: Borrow my heart by Taylor Henderson
Oh love, love is a feeling that you fear
But if you open up, know I won't let you fall my dear
I won't Tris. I won't
Under the surface we're all just the same
I'm terrified of what will happen too
Follow me darling, for you I'll be brave
I'll be brave. I'll protect you
Oh love, love is a feeling that you fear
Take your time
I'll be here waiting for you
I will always be here waiting for you... Even when you chose Matthew I will be waiting. I will be waiting, loving you all the time
I won't let you go when your worlds in the dark
And if he dares to do anything to you again I will, I promise I will make sure he doesn't see light ever again. I will be there to save you; I wouldn't let you suffer alone neither will you be in the dark.
You can keep borrowing my heart
Even your fear won't keep us apart
You can keep borrowing my heart
Take it or leave it, it's yours to decide
Break it or keep it, you're safe
And I won't let you go when your worlds in the dark
You can keep borrowing
Borrowing my heart
Love, when will you lend yourself to me?
Oh if you give it up
I promise I'll return it to you safely
But under the surface we're all just the same
Follow me darling, for you I'll be brave
Oh love, when will you lend yourself to me?
Take your time
I'll be here waiting for you
I won't let you go when your worlds in the dark
You can keep borrowing my heart
Even your fear won't keep us apart
You can keep borrowing my heart
Take it or leave it, it's yours to decide
Break it or keep it, you're safe
And I won't let you go when your worlds in the dark
You can keep borrowing
Borrowing my heart
You can just borrow my heart [x2]
I won't let you go when your worlds in the dark
You can keep borrowing my heart
I won't let you go when your worlds in the dark
You can keep borrowing my heart
Even your fear won't keep us apart
You can keep borrowing my heart
Take it or leave it, it's yours to decide
Break it or keep it, you're safe
And I won't let you go when your worlds in the dark
You can keep borrowing
Borrowing my heart
"Thank you for listening and sorry about the short notice on the song changes." I commented and thanked the crowd.
"Oh it's alright~! There is no problem for you to change your mind! Plus this song definitely put the girls in a high mood!" The announcer said looking at the crowd of fangirls spazzing and shouting.
"Haha yes it certainly did. And for the reason I decided to sing this song in the end is because I'm in love with someone and this song goes out to that special person out there. I want to let them know that no matter what you will have my heart. You didn't borrow it. You took it, you stole it and I contentedly let you. This is forever and always. I will love you for infinity, in this lifetime, in the next lifetime and every other lifetime we'll ever have. I know this song may not be as related to the theme as you guys think it is but to me it does. This song shows the side of my personality where I am hopelessly in love with that one special person. It reveals how much I love that person and how much I will give up or do to save and be with her." I said it looking straight at Tris hoping she knows this is for her. "And that person mean so so so much to me, because I love her." I really do Tris. "And because I love her so much I will let her go so she can get her happiness but she needs to know I will always be waiting and be there for her. Always." My voice cracked a little but hopefully no one notices... Sigh. I thanked everyone again and went away not wanting to meet anyone.
End Of Tobias P.O.V
Matthew P.O.V
I heard Tris sing and I'm positive that the song is for Tobias and people. It wouldn't be for me right...? I know her the best... I think. Now that I'm back and if everything goes as planned, I'll be able to get her back to my side. I have to get her by my side for everything to go well and planned since she is the most important person.
Hopefully she still loves me like I still do even though I'm not suppose to fall in love with her at all. Will she listen to my explanations and understand why I did it? Sigh. Everything feels so weird. I love Tris and I hope she still love me. Tobias loves Tris so much I could tell by the song and it feels like Tris loves him a little too. And the last few days Tris and I hadn't talk at all and we've been distance... Everything will be settled after I explain what happened before. I should head to the rooftop now I guess.
Author's Note~
Chapter 17!~! YAY~!
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