Disclaimer: I wished Grey's Anatomy was mine. But that didn't come true.

I want to see Enchanted again. And I'm going to tomorrow! I don't think I could ever get enough of that movie. Just all the gorgeousness and the dancing and the singing…it makes me swoon. Seriously. It makes me swoon.

Meredith had taken the news better than he had expected. She had run away, but at least she didn't scream and yell and hit him. And now it was time to tell Addison. The drive home from the hospital seemed like it took forever because of the anticipation of what he was about to. As he pulled up in front of the trailer and turned off the ignition, he almost left. But stopped when he realized things were just going to get worse if he wasn't straight forward. Seattle Grace wasn't exactly the best place to keep a secret and if Addison found out from somebody else she would be even more upset.

"Hey honey," Addison looked up from her book as Derek came into the trailer that night.

"Hi Addie," he sighed.

"You okay?" she asked, concerned by his tone.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just…You know...Long day," he sat down on the bed and rubbed his temples.

"Well I know something that will make it better," she came up from behind him, rubbing his shoulders and kissing his neck.

"Wait…Addison," he stood up.

"What's wrong?" she said.

"We need to talk."

"Talk? Derek, what's going on? You're scaring me? Is this about the baby?"

"No, it's not about the baby," he grabbed a beer from the fridge, "It's about Meredith."

"Meredith?" she shot up, "Derek, what the hell is going on?"

"Addison, relax. I'm not leaving you. It's just…Meredith and I, we had a relationship. And I'm not saying this because I want to leave you because I don't. Meredith wasn't a fling. She wasn't revenge. I fell in love with her. And that doesn't just go away because I decided to stay with you. I can't just give her up. And I need you to understand that."

"You're in love with her? Then what are we doing here?"

"I was in love with her. But I stayed with you. Because you're my wife."

"You stayed with me out of obligation? You might as well quit while you're ahead Derek."

"That's not what I meant. I was in love with her. But you're my wife and I love you. If I wasn't in this Addison, I wouldn't be trying to have a child with you," he explained, kissing her.

"This is all my fault. Mark and…I'm sorry Derek," she cried.

"Addison. Let's try to make a baby," he tried to calm her down.

"Okay" she smiled, finally giving into his kiss and falling back onto their bed.

While Derek used the escape of trying to conceive a child to take his mind off of Meredith, she decided to go into the hospital early. Apparently, that was the only thing she could currently count on to not break her heart. Listening to Cristina talk about her upcoming nuptials sure did beat all of the bad news Derek had managed to find to tell her in the last few weeks.

"Burke wants me to pick out wedding cake. He has all these cakes spread all over the table and he keeps feeding them to me…like I'm some sort of…taste tester," Cristina complained.

"You are getting married in two weeks. He did the whole proposal thing and you said yes," Meredith chewed on her pen cap as she finished up paperwork.

"You're supposed to be on my side."

"Yeah" she agreed half-heartedly.

"Okay, What's going on?"

"Derek and Addison are going to have a baby."

"The She-Shepherd's pregnant?" Cristina asked.

"Not yet. But they're trying," Meredith winced.

"Oh god. Can you imagine a mini-Shepherd running around the hospital? I hope she's infertile."

"We're not that lucky," Meredith groaned.

"Derek's coming," Cristina pointed out as she turned around to face him.

"Excuse me, Yang. I have something to discuss with Mer…Dr. Grey." Derek interrupted.

"I think you've done enough McDreamy," Cristina said, getting in his way.

"There's an aortic aneurysm in the pit," Derek raised his eyebrows.

Cristina looked between the two of them, "Sorry Mer. You were going to have to talk to him eventually. Might as well get it over with."

Now she was screwed. Avoiding him the day before had been successful and she had managed to get Bailey to let her spend the day with her instead of being on Derek's service. She should have known that it was too good to be true. And Cristina was probably right. They were going to have to talk sometime so they might as well do it sooner than later.

"Meredith…" Derek started.

"I'm going to kill Cristina" she muttered, "What do you want Derek?"

"I just…need to talk to you. Give me five minutes. Please, Meredith," he put his hand on her elbow.

Meredith looked down at his hand before pulling away, "I can't right now. I have…stuff to do. Bailey, she has me doing…a lot of stuff."

"Fine," he conceded, "When you're done with all this stuff, will you talk to me?"

Meredith intentionally took longer than she should have to finished everything that Bailey had assigned to her. Bailey had definitely realized that Meredith was moving at a snails pace. But She had no idea what to say to Derek. Congratulations on having a baby with another woman even though I'm in love with probably wasn't the best choice.

"Wanna grab something to eat?" Izzie chirped as she came up to Meredith.

"I can't," she answered, as she typed a text message to Derek.

I'm free. Where do you want to meet?

"Why not?" Izzie pouted.

"I have a thing," she said, trying to get away.

"Meredith," Izzie suddenly turned serious, "Are you going to see Derek?"

"I just need to talk to him," she opened her cell phone as it buzzed with Derek's message.

On-call room on 4.

"I think you two should stop whatever it is that's going on. It's not healthy, Mer."

"It's not that easy," Meredith sighed.

She left Izzie and her warnings standing in the hallway and headed up to meet Derek. Izzie was probably right. She had been right that morning when she said somebody was going to get hurt. She just didn't think it would happen an hour after Izzie had told her. But it was impossible to just stop and to just let go. It wasn't that easy. She opened the door to the on-call room and went in, waiting as Derek came in a few minutes later.

"So, you done with all that…stuff?" he leaned up against the wall in the on-call room while Meredith took a seat on the bed.

"Yeah," she nodded.

"I'm sorry," he blurted out.

"For what?" she asked, looking up at him.

"For everything. For telling you I was going to leave Addison. For hurting you. For springing the news about me and Addison trying to have a baby on you this morning."

"I can't do this Derek. I can't do this relationship…this weird limbo. I'm not over you. And it hurts too much. To see you and know that you're with somebody else. I can't do it anymore."

"You want the truth?" he asked.

"The truth? That'd be nice for once."

"I'm not over you either. But I can't just give you up, Meredith. I care about you. All I'm asking for is us to be friends."

"Friends? Seriously? You think you and I can be friends?"

"Of course. You'd be lucky to have me."

"I don't know Derek. There's too much water under the thing or whatever."

"Please Meredith," he pleaded, "Just give me a chance."

"Will you be honest with Addison and tell her we're friends?"

"I actually did that this morning," he smirked.

"Oh, you did?" she asked.

"Yes. I did. And she's…fine with it."

"Your ex-wife is okay with you spending time with your ex-girlfriend?"

"She's warming up to the idea."

"Derek…"

"Just give it a chance Meredith," he said, giving her their look.

"Okay," she agreed.

Meredith felt like she gave in much too easily. But when he gave her those eyes and said, "Let's be friends," she couldn't say no. Just like he had said about not being able to give her up just like that, and just like she had told Izzie earlier, she couldn't give him up just like that. Even if meant taking him and his wife as a packaged deal.

You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long, that's wrong

Well, I got 4 reviews for the last chapter…let's shoot for 5 this time! (More would be even better!) Sorry to tell you but there's a good chance I won't have an update for a couple of days because I have plans all weekend so I made this update extra long. But we all know plans change. This story is kind of a great example of that. So who knows! Keep checking for new chapters! And keep reviewing!

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