The Past (Chapter 20)
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Recap~
" I HATE YOU TOO!" I shouted at the top of my lungs.
"Good. Also tell the group to never ever approach me again." She replied. I don't know why but I replied her that I would definitely tell the group how she really is and what she said even though I didn't want her to leave. Eventually she disappears from my sight and I broke down on the spot crying.
End of Christina's P.O.V
End of Recap~
Tris's P.O.V
As soon as I was out of Christina's sight behind the wall, I heard her weep. It is so loud and every single one of her cries pierce through my heart. All I could do is stopping myself from punching the friggin wall and to stand there like a friggin deer staring at the car's headlights. Urgh, I feel so hopeless and so god damn stupid. But I guess this is the only way to protect them from getting hurt. The only way I can think of to stop them from getting closer to me and to distant themselves from me in a short period of time anyway. I know I'm being selfish and I know I'm hurting them a lot. I don't mind them hating me for it either. But I'm feeling something I shouldn't and it's infuriating because I cannot describe or do anything to this feeling. I shouldn't be feeling like this because I know they will be save and that I'm used to being alone. I even decided that they could hate me all they want! It's no big deal!... But it's like I'm...
Lonely and scared.
"Christina!" I heard someone shouted, interrupting my thoughts. It's Tobias and if Tobias is here then the rest of the group must be here as well.
"What happen? Are you ok?" Uriah asked her but all she did was cry even harder than before.
I could go out now and talk to them, to tell them everything as they're within an arms reach. They will understand. But no. I won't, I will not break the deal no matter what. It's for their sake. Who the hell cares anymore! I know I keep saying this but AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE! IT'S TOO MUCH! TOO ANNOYING AND TOO FRASUTRATING! Matthew will definitely get it from me. I won't let him get away and I won't let him have his way. I walked away from the wall and started to go to class without turning back. At the corner of my eyes I can see Matthew observing the group and me as if he was expecting me to break the deal so he can insert the serum in them... Wait. Expecting? Hmmmmmm maybe this could work as I thought of a plan and smirked.
End of Tris's P.O.V
Tobias's P.O.V
Christina finally calmed down and told us everything properly what happen to her. Tris is definitely planning something and or something bad happened because everything she does she has a reason for it. Sigh, I don't get myself. I said I'm going to give her up but all I ever thought of was Tris and I'm being bias towards her as well... Tris why do you make me have conflicted feelings? I guess I really cannot give up on you that easily. I chuckled and I got my determination back. To find out what happened and to win Tris heart. If this has anything to do with Matthew no matter how much he is related to it, I will bash him up till he couldn't see a single beam of light and make him wish he hadn't come back. I wonder if Tris will talk to me about it if I ask her directly... Hmmmmm maybe I will give her a surprise visit at her house today~ I smirked at the idea and at how Tris might react.
End Of Tobias P.O.V
Normal P.O.V
The tension in the class with Tris had increase when Tobias and the group finally came back. Everyone was frozen and scared of what is going to happen because it seems that they will be having a war soon. But it also makes them question what had happened between them that can change their attitudes so suddenly, where Tris is back to being cold hearted and silent while the gang has a murderous aura. In order to avoid any commotion, class talked to neither of them and just within themselves although they are also being cautious about how loud they are and what they're talking about. Soon their teacher came in to announce that the students will be having a free period as the teachers will be having a meeting today. He also announced that the singing competition is in two days as the theme is Painful Experience and the teacher left the room right after that, leaving everyone else quiet. No one was dared to move a single inch.
'Tension eh? Lol I guess that's normal considering the fact that I'm being silent and ignoring them. I wonder if this is getting on their nerves though. Well they are ignoring me too but as far as it goes they are all still glaring at me like I'm a shitty person with mood swing or having bipolar illness. Tch. They can think what they want and this way, they will be 'save' now since they think of me that way and anyone in the class probably wouldn't talk to me again. Oh well. Annoying little Matthew, you're so going down. I'm going to kill you.' Tris thought to herself as she started to walking to the door with her music on the loudest volume. But before she can completely leave the room, Uriah stopped her by grabbing onto her wrist.
Tris look at her wrist and than back to look at Uriah with only questioning thoughts in her head. 'WTH? WHY? WHAT DOES HE WANT FROM ME? IT OBVIOUS THAT I DON'T WANT TO GO NEAR THEM. SO WHY?' Tris started to get annoyed as Uriah stopped her because she is wasting her time here instead of preparing and perfecting the plan to kill Matthew.
"What?" Tris raised soullessly, glaring at him straight in the eyes. This surprised everyone including Tobias and the gang because they never expected to see Tris with such an expression. Such a lethal expression with a murderous aura. Everyone was afraid where even Tobias flinched a little but Uriah holds his ground.
"Answers."
"..."
"Tell me why."
"..."
"Why did you say that? Why are you ignoring us?"
"..."
"TELL ME! ARE YOU REALLY THAT COLD HEARTED? WERE YOU JUST PLAYING WITH US? ARE WE REALLY NOT YOUR FRIENDS? DO YOU HATE ALL OF US? IS ALL THE PRECIOUS TIME EVERYONE HAD TOGETHER WERE FAKE?" Uriah hollered as he couldn't take it anymore and snapped at Tris.
"... Fine. You really want to know? I will tell you. Yes. I am really that cold hearted. Yes I was just playing with you guys. Yes. You're really not my friends. Yes. I hate all of you. Yes. All the so-called precious time everyone had together were fake. This is the answered you asked for and I've just gave them to you. So let go of my hands and don't bothered me again." Tris replied back firmly, without letting any of her emotions out. Uriah was too shocked from the answer Tris gave that he let go of her hands and she left immediately. But he wasn't the only one that was shocked because everyone in the room was also shocked from her answers. They didn't expected it straight out from her, they didn't expect her to be so... ruthless.
'What happen to her?' was the thought Tris left in everyone's mind.
End of Normal P.O.V
Tris's P.O.V
Arghhhhh today is such a terrible day! First ignoring Christina, second having to announced all that lies to the class, third Matthew stuck to me like glue so I didn't get a chance to plan everything! And lastly I got hit in the head by a bird! A FRIGGIN BIRD! I swear nothing goes accordingly. Sigh, now I'm finally home, I can get some rest.
"Yo."
"Hmph." I replied without thinking but soon I become aware of who it was, I glare at him. "What are you doing here?"
"Nothing much~ Just catching up with ya" Tobias casually replied from the couch.
"Right. There's nothing to catch up on so get out."
"Nope, there are tons to catch up on."
"Like?"
"What's wrong that made you act like that?" He asked seriously looking straight into my eyes.
"N-nothing." Damn it, I stuttered. Why does he have to look straight into my eyes?
"Hmmmm really? I doubt it." He teased me. God. If he wants to do this, two can play this game.
"Haha yea~ It's true! Nothing made me act like that. It's just the real me after all. Being with you guys were tiring and annoying. Tch. Finally you guys will leave me alone. So now you know, fuck off thank you." I replied deadly with a fake and cunning smile. (Author's Note: Sorry for the swear word .) After a minute had passed and there was still no answer from him. What is he thinking of doing? I'm not going to let him get what he wants.
"Oh I see~ So everything you said is what you really believe in eh?"
"Yeah so?"
"Hmph, keep saying it to convince yourself because it doesn't seem like it's true to me at all. It seems like you are trying to make yourself believe in it instead of making others believe in it." Tobias said smiling, "I know because I can tell. It is you after all."
"You know because you can tell? Me? What do you know about me huh? What? What can you tell? YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT ME AT ALL! DON'T ACT LIKE YOU DO!" I shouted at him because what did he mean he knows because he can tell? He don't know anything about me at all... Because if he knows he wouldn't want to be close to me at all. If he knows, he will be disgusted.
"You may think I don't know you but I know you. I know I don't know your past, what you like and things like this but I know you at the same time. I know that you are actually happy that we became friends, that you became friends with Christina and people. I know that you are actually happy. I know." He said so seriously, so sincerely. Why. Why would he know? Moreover how did he know and how can he tell? How? How? How? I trembled in sadness, in fear. How could he know all these feelings I'm trying to suppressed and bringing them out so easily?
"... How?" I whispered without expecting him to answer.
"Because I love you." He said suddenly, making me whip my head to his direction and stared at him.
"I love you Tris. I can't forget about you, forget about the feelings I have for you. My eyes are always drawn to your direction, noticing every single detail about you. How you feel, what is going on your mind, what had changed, I notice them all. I love you Tris and I decided that I will win you. I will win your trust, your heart and your love. I will also find out what actually happen and I will solve it so you can be with everyone else happily." He smiled at me gently and making me blushes for a second. I composed myself as I try not to let my feelings get ahead of me.
"I-"
"You don't have to tell me anything right now. Take your time. My feelings will never change and I promise I will solve this."
He patted me on the head and started to leave my house but I stopped him. "Why? Why would you like someone like me?"
"No reasons. I guess because you're you." He laughed and left the house, leaving me to cry because this is the first time I felt this way, the first time someone can see through me. I don't know why, but I just cried, I don't know if it's because of the happiness I got from the reason he gave me of why he loves me or because of the sadness that he is going to get hurt because of me. I don't know but I know I love you too Tobias.
Author's Note~
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