Disclaimer: This update is much happier than I'm predicting Grey's is going to be on Thursday. So I don't own it.
Sorry for this being up so late. I went shopping this morning and then we had a whole big family dinner and I had to clean my room…and you don't need to know that. But I'm sorry this chapter is late.
Derek had quite possibly had the longest day of his career. There had been no surgeries. No emergencies. Not even a concussion. Meredith had a concussion. With Meredith was the only place that he wanted to be. Except for a short visit from Cristina, she was home alone, with a concussion and broken ribs. He wanted to call her, but she got annoyed when he did. It was too overbearing. It was too much. Because they were going slow.
He wanted it to go faster. To be officially a couple again. He wanted her to trust him. It was his own fault that she wanted to take things slow. He had promised he was going to leave Addison and he didn't. He had to show her that he would be there, no matter what happened. Baby or no baby. Mark or no mark. Meredith was his. That would never change.
Bringing her dinner was the first step. It was small, but it was a step. He had to do the little things first. There was no grand gesture he could do that would bring back what they lost. And if that's what it took, that's what he would do.
"How was your day?" Meredith settled into Derek's lap on the couch after dinner.
"Uneventful. No good cases."
"Is that good or bad?"
"Good because nobody had a major head injury that required emergency surgery. Bad because it was boring and all I did was check on post-op patients and do paper work."
"Aw. Poor Der," Meredith teased.
"I know something that would make it better," Derek smirked.
"What?"
"Sex," he mouthed.
"Nice try," she giggled.
"It was worth a shot."
"You're not even divorced yet."
"We actually have a meeting with the lawyers tomorrow. Start dividing up our stuff and make any changes to the papers."
"That was quick."
"Well, they tend to move faster when there's a kid involved. Plus, the papers were already drawn up from before."
"Are you going to be okay? With Addison and Mark at the hospital?"
"I'm hoping they'll go back to New York." Derek sighed.
"And if they don't?" she asked.
"Then you and I will have a cuter baby."
"Derek. I'm serious. Will you…will we be okay?"
"I love you Meredith. It might not be easy, but I'm not going anywhere. I promise."
"Okay," she breathed.
"Hey. Look at me," he lifted her chin so she was looking at him, "I know I hurt you. I know this isn't going to be easy for either of us. And I know you have to learn to trust me again. But I promise, I'm going to be here. So don't worry."
"Okay."
"What about Gabe?" whispered.
"He um…I broke up with him after the wedding."
"Did you tell him what happened? "
"No. I just told him it wasn't going to work." Meredith replied.
"Even before…Mark and…" he trailed off.
"Even before that."
"So I better make this worth your while?" Derek teased.
"You better," she giggled.
"I will. I promise," he kissed her.
Meredith had to believe him. She had no other choice. She wanted to be with him and this was what it took, she would do that. In the past, she would have run. She wouldn't have the patience or the trust or the faith that things were going to turn out right. But she had survived a car accident. A car accident that had brought her and Derek back together. Or maybe that had been Addison getting pregnant with another man's baby. Either way, faith looked like it was on her side. And she wanted it to stay there as long as possible.
It was like they were given a second chance. Something that not many people got. They both saw it everyday in the hospital. A husband or wife, girlfriend or boyfriend or even just a friend would get killed, and that was the end. There was no second chance. They'd be apart forever. They didn't get a chance to tell the other person how they really felt or show them how much they appreciated them. But she and Derek had that second chance. Something that couldn't be taken for granted.
There's once in a lifetime
And there's once in a while
And the difference between the two
Is about a million miles
Sorry this is short. It's kind of just…filler. I had a lot of stuff to do today and I'm exhausted. Plan for tomorrow: I'm going to workout in the morning and then probably going to see Juno with my brother's girlfriend. So probably no update until the evening. But until then, let me know how much you want more and review!
