Disclaimer: I've wished it was, but Grey's Anatomy is not mine.
I don't have anything to say. I worked out. I didn't see Juno. I'm exhausted. Enjoy!
Meredith had been on leave for 2 weeks. 2 weeks to heal from a concussion and couple of broken ribs. All in all, she as much better. She still got headaches occasionally and if she moved in a funny way her ribs would hurt but she was ready to get back to work. She needed a good night sleep before going back to work, and that was almost guaranteed with Derek in bed with her. He had slept over for almost the entire two weeks. And today was the only day that she woke up to find him not on his side of the bed.
"Why are you up this early? You're not on until 9." Meredith looked up at Derek.
"Meeting with the lawyers. And you're not on until 9 either. Go back to sleep." He said, getting dressed
"Another meeting?" she sat up.
"We couldn't get through it all last time. It shouldn't take too long. I'll be back by the end of rounds."
"It's my first day back," she sighed.
"You'll do fine. Just take it slow, okay? I don't want you to hurt yourself again."
"Yes doctor," she mocked.
"Good luck," he kissed her.
She needed luck. Bailey wasn't one to be easy. Even if somebody had been injured in a car accident and hadn't worked for two weeks and was waiting for her boyfriend or whatever Derek was to get a divorce. Either way, it was better than sitting at home, watching TV all day and having Izzie or George or Derek calling her every five minutes to make sure that she was okay and that she hadn't passed out and hit her head. It felt good to be back at the hospital.
"Dr. Grey, welcome back. Okay, assignments. O'Malley, find Burke, Karev, the new head of plastics requested you, Yang, you're with Shepherd, Stevens, stick with me today and Grey, Montgomery-Shepherd…"You're sure you're okay to work?" Bailey stopped Meredith.
"I'm fine, Dr. Bailey."
"Good. Go."
All the interns nodded and headed off to their various assignments. The faith that had been on her side when Derek came back to her, apparently had gone away and now she was going to have to work with Derek's wife. Or soon to be ex-wife.
"Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd, I'm your intern," Meredith reported.
"Actually, it's just Montgomery now," Addison replied.
"What?"
"I'm Dr. Montgomery. The divorce was finalized this morning."
"It was?"
"Derek didn't tell you?"
"No... I haven't seen him since he left this morning.
"I'm sure he's just busy. I bet he's been trying to find you. He loves you Meredith. He didn't love me like he loves you."
"Yeah," Meredith breathed.
She wasn't supposed to find out from Addison. Derek was supposed to be excited about the divorce being done. He was supposed to come up to her smiling and tell her that he was no longer married. That he was free to be with Meredith. That there was nothing left to keep them apart. Except he didn't tell her.
"So you're not married anymore." Meredith found Derek.
"How'd you know?"
"Your wife…Well, ex-wife told me."
"I was going to tell…" Derek started.
"No. Don't do that. Don't start with the lying. Are you in this Derek? Because I am. I'm in it so bad it hurts. And I can't get into it any further if you're not in it. Because you not telling me you're divorced feels like you're not in it. So just tell me now. Tell me if I need to walk away and save whatever bit of dignity I have left."
"Meredith…"
"When you decide what you want, let me know. Until then, just leave me alone"
"Mer. Please…" he tried.
"I have a patient to prep for surgery."
Derek watched as she walked away from him. This wasn't how he meant her to find out. He was going to tell her. He just needed time to process it for himself. Time to think about how his life was going to change. And then it hit him. He was being selfish. He was making everything all about him. He had promised things would be different this time. And she had listened to him. She had agreed to give him a chance. He couldn't help but wonder if he had just ruined things for good.
"How's your first day back?" Izzie asked, taking a seat at the table.
"He's divorced."
"Derek?"
"The divorce was finalized this morning."
"So you're free to screw him all you want. Shouldn't you be happy?" Alex said.
"He didn't tell me."
"Didn't tell you what?" Alex questioned.
"That the divorce is finalized. Addison told me."
" Dude that's rough," he laughed.
"McDreamy. More like McStupid," Cristina muttered.
"I have to go. Addison has a surgery," Meredith groaned.
Cristina was furious with Derek. She had seen how hurt Meredith had been when Addison first came and she was one of the ones left to pick up the pieces and help put Meredith back together. And now he had hurt her again. It was enough and she was going to do something about it. Derek wouldn't hurt her friend again. Not if she had any say in it. Luckily, she was on his service that day, and she as going to take advantage of it.
"What's going on? I had to get my own CT?" Derek chuckled.
"I had a thing to do."
"More important than a patient with a brain injury who needs surgery?"
"I think you're the one with the brain injury," Cristina murmured.
"Dr. Yang," Derek yelled.
"Right now I'm not Dr. Yang and you're not Dr. Shepherd. You're the guy who hurt my best friend. And just when she thought she could trust you, you hurt her all over again."
"I was going to tell her," he whispered.
"Just like you were going to get divorced?"
"This is different."
"No, ya know what? It's not. Because both times, I end up picking up the pieces of my broken friend."
"I'm not going to hurt her again."
"I hope so. Because if you mess up again, it's strike three. And I'll be damned if I let you get to her again."
He should have told her. He should have been honest and not lied to her in the beginning. He should have done what he said what he would do. And now there wasn't anything he could do. Her friends wouldn't let him near her and she didn't' want to talk to him. And now she was working with his ex-wife.
"Why are we removing the uterus but not the ovaries?...Dr. Grey, are you okay?" Addison looked across the table.
"Sorry. I'm fine."
"Then you'll answer my question."
"Um…Could you repeat it?"
"I can't have somebody who is unprepared in my OR, Dr. Grey. Come back when you're completely focused and ready to assist."
This wasn't exactly how she had pictured her first day back at the hospital. Not only had she messed up in the OR and been humiliated in front of the entire surgical team, but Derek hadn't told her that he was divorced. It was easy. Or it should have been. He could have found Dr. Bailey and asked him what Meredith's assignment was for the day, and then found her and told her that the divorce was finalized. But he didn't. It was something small, something simple. And he didn't do it.
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
So this chapter isn't as bright and shiny and kind of makes Derek look like an ass. But I promise you, I'll fix it. Because in my head, he's not an ass. He's McDreamy. He's not being McDreamy on the show right now. I am not looking forward to Thursday's episode. Alright, I'm done ranting. Now all I'm going to do is ask for reviews.
