Disclaimer: If I owned Grey's Anatomy, I would have sent a letter to myself today. But I don't own it and I sent a letter to the people that do. And to a couple other places.

I have nothing to say except that I wish the Patriots had lost and that I want the Cowboys to lose today.And for Patrick Dempsey to show up on my doorstep.

Agreeing to go to wine country had seemed like a good idea in theory. And now that she had to pack and Derek was going to be at the house in a half an hour to got o the airport, it didn't seem like such a good idea. She had no idea what to bring. She had never gone away to wine country. She hadn't gone away with a boyfriend. Ever. And now she was freaking out.

By the time she had finished over packing, Derek was sitting in the kitchen waiting for her.

"Here's our flight information. We'll call you when we land." Meredith dragged her suitcase down the stairs.

"Just have fun," Izzie grinned.

"Oh we will," Derek wrapped his arms around Meredith's waist.

"Not that kind of fun," Meredith added.

"We'll see about that," he laughed, kissing her neck.

"Get out of here," Izzie giggled.

The flight was short. Insanely short. But it felt like they had been driving for hours. Derek had wanted to rent a car and take the long scenic route to get to their hotel and Meredith was regretting agreeing to that. There was nothing but trees around them and it didn't look like there were going to be anything but trees for miles. And now she was beginning to think they were lost.

"Derek, are we lost?"

"No. We're not lost. We have about a half an hour until we get there."

"Shouldn't you have GPS? You're head of neurosurgery. I think you can afford GPS."

"I don't need GPS. And this is a rental car. They usually don't have GPS."

"Then why are we in the middle of nowhere?"

"Because this is how you get there."

"Sorry. I've never done this before."

"Gone to Sonoma?"

"Gone away with a boyfriend."

"That's because before me you didn't' have boyfriends. You had one night stands."

"Shut up."

"Don't tell me shut up. I'll leave you out here in the middle of nowhere," he teased.

"You'd miss me too much."

"I would."

It felt like it took forever but they finally got to the hotel. It was beautiful. Clearly, Derek had picked the fanciest of the hotels in the area. Their room had a fireplace and gigantic tub and they had an unbelievable view of the vineyards.

Their room wasn't anything compared to the restaurant. Dinner had been amazing. The food was delicious and the win was unbelievable. It wasn't tequila, but it was good. It seemed like every waiter and waitress in the place knew Derek. And they were doing everything they could to make sure that he and Meredith were taken care of. They got a complimentary dessert and kept coming over to refill their wine.

She hadn't asked him but by the way they were treating him it seemed like Derek had been there before. Several times. He had probably brought Addison up here when they first got back together or came up here when he first got to Seattle. She remembered him mentioning wanting to come here.

And now he wanted to talk. On the drive up, they had both agreed that it was a good idea to get all their feelings out in the open. Meredith had put it off as long as possible. She had suggested going to dinner and taking a walk but now they were back in their room and there was no escaping it.

"Remember the night we met?"

"Of course I do. Best night of my life."

"Cheesy, Der."

"We are in wine country. Wine and cheese go together."

"We are Joe's. And you came over to me and asked me if it was a good place to hang out."

"And you ignored me."

"But you wouldn't give up."

"And then you took me home," Derek smirked.

"I'm beginning to regret that decision."

"Never."

"Never." she cuddled closer to him.

"Do you like it here?"

"It's beautiful."

"I knew you'd love it," he smiled.

"Can I ask you something?" Meredith asked.

"Anything."

"Why did Addison cheat on you?"

"I was just a little…absent. We both opened our own practices and they became priority. Our marriage came second. We wouldn't see each other for days."

"And then you found her in bed with Mark?"

"And then I found her in bed with Mark."

"Then why'd you pick her?" Meredith breathed.

"My family always taught me about marriage and how sacred it was. They didn't believe in divorce. And when Addison showed up here and wanted another chance, all I could hear was my Dad's voice in my head. I couldn't give up. But I should have realized that there was nothing left. It was beyond repair."

"So they'd probably hate me for breaking up your marriage."

"They'd love you Mer. I can't wait for you to meet them. I know that's a long way off. But I can't wait. It'll be just like when Mark came home. Except you won't sleep with my wife."

"You never told me how you and Mark met."

"We were little kids. I brought him home and my mom immediately took him in. He didn't have the best family life so he became part of ours. And now we can't get rid of him."

"It sounds like you miss him."

"He was my best friend."

"Then why don't you talk to him?"

"Because I can't promise that I won't punch him."

"Derek," she giggled.

"I'm serious," he laughed.

"So then Addison could punch me?" Meredith joked.

"Why would she?"

"Because I slept with you when you were still married to her."

"That was different," he sighed.

"How?"

"Our marriage was already over. We didn't want to admit it. But there wasn't anything we could do."

"But you still had to stay her."

"Yeah. I'm sorry, Mer."

"It's okay."

"No. It's not. I promised you something when we met. And I broke that promise. And it kills me that I hurt you."

"But you promised Addison things too. When you got married."

"Yeah. What I didn't realize was when she cheated on me, those vows didn't mean anything anymore."

They talked all through the night. Meredith told Derek how much it had hurt her that Derek chose Addison in the first place. And he continuously apologized and told her he wished he could take the decision back. It felt better. It felt like everything was out in the open. There was nothing pent up, no anger. And now they could just enjoy their vacation. Sex or no sex.

I just wanna start again
And maybe you could show me how to try
Maybe you could take me in
Somewhere underneath your skin

I'm sorry this wasn't up earlier. I wrote it and it was crap and I don't want to give you guys crap. So I rewrote it. I'm still not completely happy with it but anyway. Hope you like it. It's happy and sad and cute all at once. Let me know what you think and review! I might have another update later tonight to make up for not having one every day. I've just been really busy.