(A/N: ok so I got a lot of reviews to continue this story so I will. im sorry I took so long with getting you all this chapter but ive had writers block and im more into the transformers fandom currently. im sorry if this chapter isn't to good and sorry for any oocness I tried ok.)

(_'s pov)
I could feel kankri and karkat watch me worriedly but I just stayed quiet, meenah's words still ringing in my head as I continued to draw my pictures on the wall. I wasn't paying much attention to what I was drawing but on what I was going to say. there was no way in alternia I was telling them what was really going on. I sighed and looked at what I was drawing for the first time since I had started and gasped and dropped the drawing utensil I was holding and moved away from the wall. what I had drawn was something I was told stories about when I was little by my grandfathers friend and I have always feared it from the second I heard its name be uttered. I quickly ran over to my closet and pulled out a black sheet and pinned it up over the drawing and started to draw something else on another open place as I kept from meeting ether of their eyes.
(karkat's pov)
I watched shocked as _ ran around her room and doing all these things. he had never in all the time he's known her had she ever been like this. she always had a smile and always saw things like no one else, no matter what she stayed strong and stood her ground even against equius or even gamzee when he went sober. it hurts to see someone like her in a state like this to see the pain clear in her eyes and see her afraid for once. she seemed so fragile and weak like this, it just wasn't like her. why would this happen to her? how could something like this happen to her? what made her like this. as I thought I watched her my concern growing stronger but as soon as I looked over at kankri I saw it in his eyes that he was still trying to figure out that he was flushed for _. I chose to just ignore it though that was a topic I would rather not get into when it came to _. when I turned back to her I was shocked to see her in a corner of the room crying softly to herself.
(_'s pov)
I saw that nether karkat or kankri where paying attention so I crawled into my little corner and as I watched them I couldn't help but feel the tears fill in my eyes as I sat there and different memories came back to my mine and I couldn't hold the tears back any more. I just sat there crying to myself and buried my head in my hands and shaking as I saw the things I tried so hard to forget for so many years.
(flashback till in _'s pov)
I sat in my room at my laptop as I was talking to Dave and John, when I heard the front door open and slam shut. I instantly knew that my dad was home from the way it sounded he was ether pissed off at something or he was drunk. ether way I knew that this was going to end badly so I told dave and john that I had to go do something real quick and be back soon. they both said ok and I got up and walked out of my room to see where my dad was and didn't notice that he was right behind me. I was about to go back to my room when I felt someone kick me in the back sending me into the wall and cried out in pain. I barely hade enough time to get to my hands and knees before I felt something break over my back and screamed out as I felt shards of glass cut into my skin and blood flow from the new wounds. then a foot was sent into my stomach and I felt tears streaming down my face. I managed to fully get up and run to my room before I could get anymore injuries. as soon as the door shut I quickly locked it and fell to the floor pulling my knees to my chest and cried tell I couldn't cry anymore.
(end of flashback)
I felt someone hug me from close to them and I could feel their warmth but I couldn't tell who it was due to the fact that my sight was blocked my tears and my hands. i didn't care at this point i just had to get everything out of my system all the years of held back emotions and the pain that i always for some reason felt in my heart when i see those i was close to with their matespirits and others in their quadrants. i never could get over the pain of the things people always said to me back on earth. I simply just kept crying and crying tell I couldn't cry anymore but I still didn't dare look at my two guest afraid of what they might think of me now, to see the girl that they used to know fall and break so easily and without warning. I just couldn't bring myself to believe that it could happen in just mere seconds for so many years I put up with being beaten and picked on because of how different I was than anyone else.