Chapter 3: The Truth

Xander walked into the library, and a sea of accusing faces fell upon him. He felt uneasy, like they knew what was going on. What was going on with them? He wondered. They couldn't possibly know. Could they? No. It was impossible. And yet...

Cordelia wouldn't look him in the eye. He saw the anger, the hurt in her eyes. Those brown orbs he knew to be filled with something other than hate for him were now totally changed. But, he knew she couldn't bring her bitchy self to cry but he knew she was holding back the tears. Xander felt a slight pang in his heart for her, but not a big one. Hmm. I guess he did care about her.

Giles kept up the stiff upper lip British act. He looked at Xander with disgust. The pouf had betrayed them all. He had fallen in love with the beast. He was Angelus's. Not theirs' anymore. Why? Why did he do it?

Willow was crying into Oz's shoulder. She was always the one to wear her heart on her sleeve. Especially when it came to her best friend, and crush's, life. She knew it was true, and she had to do something. Breaking down was the best thing for her. Now He wanted to cry. How could he hurt Will? But yet he couldn't feel sickend with himself.

Oz stroked Willow's back. That's all he could do. At least he wasn't closing himself off to her. He couldn't do that to her right now. Her Xander was gone. Now he had been replaced by someone unrecognizable.

Buffy emerged from Giles's office. Her eyes were puffy and red. Her tear stained face looked at him with pleading eyes. Buffy finally broke the silence. "Why?" Her voice sounded so weak and trembling, Xander was greatful she was the Slayer, or she would have collapsed by now.

Xander looked at her. His puppy dog brown eyes showed sorrow, but no regret. "I don't know. I honestly don't know. He's complicated. I feel...safe though. And it's strange but I feel no regrets anymore. I did in the beginning but-"

His sentence ended when Giles's fist slammed into his jaw. Xander fell to the floor, clutching his jaw, and looking up at the watcher in suprise. "NO REGRET? HE KILLED JENNY YOU PONCE!!!!!!!" Giles screamed out.

Xander stood up, and Buffy went to punch him, but her emotional state of mind slowed her down. He easily blocked it. He raced out of the library, and ran to the only place he knew where to turn. Angelus's manor.

A/N: I know I know, you waited SOOO long for this chapter. I just had a mondo case of writer's block. Now, i'm about to start on a new chapter. It will be a songfic chapter. Now. Reviiiieww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!