I don't own Blue Exorcist nor the songs I used.

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I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real

I wanna let go of the pain I've felt so long

(Erase all the pain till it's gone)

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I'm close to something real

I wanna find something I've wanted all along

Somewhere I belong

The teacher assigned Rin next right to Ryuji's seat, He didn't know if he should fell happy or irritated, he settled down on the chair and their teacher started to lecture, he could feel Ryuji's eyes on him, in fact Rin wanted to talk to him.

But what for? He thought

Besides what they had was over and He's sure that Ryuji moved on.

"Suguro-kun, Okumura will be your partner for your research" I looked at him and I saw him staring at me, I felt an unfamiliar knot inside me, seriously though something is wrong with me.

The class goes by as usual, the professor ended his class and their classmates started to crumpled to each other and talk about latest trends and what not. He picked his things back into his bag when a hand rested on his shoulder, when he looked up to see who it was he felt shivers went through his body, Ryuji looked at him.

"Do you need something?" he said without breaking their gaze

"Rin, I know this will be too late but… I'm sorry" he said it again, when he said it before it felt nothing but now…. Damn, why does it hard to be mad at him, He was supposedly angry and ignoring him but….

"hmm, Whatever" He said, and tore his gaze from the older teen and proceed to pack his things. Why did he just accepted him? Those nights that he had to pop drugs in order to sleep was nothing? Those thoughts that he fought when he remembered him…. Was that senseless? ….. He really didn't know.

Ryuji didn't move in his seat

"Wanna grab something to eat?" he said

"I thi-"

"Rin!" Kamiki walk and stood beside him "Let's go grab some lunch" she said and dragged him to cafeteria giving Ryuji a glare as they reached the door.


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They ate on silence, Rin can't figure out why he doesn't feel mad at Ryuji, even though he made that sick bet, he still didn't hate him, he thought that he already moved on, can he really forgive him?

"Even If Ryuji didn't say Sorry, you've already forgiven him" he heard his voice on the back of his mind

He shook his head and continue to munch on his melon bread.

"Rin, don't go near him again" Kamiki said with a piercing look on her face, he wanted to but his body react differently.

"I-I don't know, when I see him…. I just…" he said and she sighed, she scoop closer to me, too close for Rin's comfort.

"Do you remember what happened a year ago?" Rin raised his brow, he didn't like the way Kamiki said those things to him, he thought that he already bypassed those memories.

"Just.. let it go Kamiki" he said and he walk back through the class room.


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Last Subject begun thirty minutes ago and Ryuji kept glancing at Rin, they were so close to each other but it felt like they were too far away, Rin didn't even say a word, he was clearly mad at him but he was expecting some verbal hatred… or anything.

He wanted to hold his hand and say sorry for a hundred time today, he wanted get him back, he wanted to hold him like before.

No secrets, No lies

He wanted to start again, he wanted Rin to accept him again, and he knew that it was really selfish of him but damn he will do anything just to win Rin back.

When the bell rang, the professor bade his farewell and the student started to disperse from the classroom, Ryuji heard someone cleared his throat and he saw Rin waiting for him, he wanted to smile and grab Rin and kiss him like it was the last minute of his life.

"What about our research, the one Professor Shura gave" he said and Ryuji nodded like an idiot.

"I started the first part of it, it was on my room, you could see it today… if that's okay with you" he really wished that Rin agreed to that, he needed to say something to him in private.

"It's okay, Ryuji" The streak haired teen smiled at him and grabbed his bag, they exited the room and Ryuji lead the way to his dorm room.

They didn't know that a pair of eyes were eyeing them in a distance.

As they walk on a narrow alleyway, Ryuji felt their hands brush and he locked eyes with Rin, who tore away his gaze, his face couldn't hide that shade of pink on his cheeks and focused on the road.

Did Rin felt the same?

Does he still love me?

Could I have a chance?

That thought ran through his head, he wouldn't know if he wouldn't make any move right now.

Know I've done wrong,

Left your heart torn

Is that what devils do?

Took you so low,

Where only fools go

I shook the angel in you

Now I'm rising from the ground

Rising up to you

Filled with all the strength I found

There's nothing I can't do!

I need to know now, know now

Can you love me again?...

So he grabbed and held Rin's hand while they walk , Rin stopped his tracks, he was about to say something but Ryuji hold him by the waist and pulled Rin towards him, he closed his eyes and he slowly closed the gap between their lips.

Ryuji kissed him, not forcing or plotting to put his tongue on his precious Rin, but it was a gentle kiss.

He opened his eyes and he saw Rin looking at him. He couldn't hold his tears back to his eyes, he wanted him back so badly.

"Ryuji….."

"Rin, I'm really sorry, I'm sorry, I want you back…. I-I will do anything to have you back… please Rin" he said as he let those tears fall, Rin swallowed and lowered his head, Ryuji heard him sniff and tears also showed on him, Rin hugged him and let Rin cover his face on his chest. He caress the blue tresses and closed his eyes.

"Rin, I want us to start again, I promise not to hurt you again"

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Hello!

I hope that you enjoyed this chapter and I'm sorry I have a massive author's block on Master and Familiar (The notebook which I had notes of the next chapter of M&F was missing!) my ghawd.

I won't be able to update M&F for a while. Sorry :(

And college is really a bitch to me right now.

If you saw anything wrong in grammar or spelling please tell me, English isn't my first language. All of the chapters of my stories were un beta-ed (is that what you call it? XD)

Thank you..

See ya next time.