A/N: aaaahaha... one more chapter.. I think this is full of oblivious mistakes... w;;
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when
Sasuke was about to speak again, Naruto did just that. He turned his
head, and smiled. But the smile looked so strained, and apparently
Naruto knew that his attempt wasn't working, because his smile
disappeared, and he began to speak. "I'm fine, really.. I'll
just go home now… I am sorry that I bothered you… "
Naruto
tried to rise up, swaying in the progress, and trying not to flinch
at the pain. He was stopped by Sasuke pulling at his wrist.
"Usuratonkachi… Drop the mask… Talk to me, what is wrong?!"
He pulled Naruto onto his lap, and tried not to blush.
Naruto
however, did, but relaxed and leaned his head at Sasuke's shoulder
and sighed, trying not to cry..
when he had gathered himself, he
spoke..
"I'm really weak, ya know? I just don't want people
to see. To worry about me.. I don't want the people I see as my
friends worry just because of me… So I smile.. I smile stupidly
everyday, and come with stupid comments and arguments. Just so people
might even laugh, and think that I must be okay if I am able to act
that way.. I am surprised no one has seen through me yet… But that
might as well be because they don't look close enough. I can't
blame them, though…. "
Naruto didn't know why he was
speaking, and of all, to Sasuke about this…
But his mouth just
moved on its own accord, revealing things that he had kept to himself
his whole life, his thoughts, which he was afraid of telling anyone
of…
"This mask you say I am wearing.. is falling apart.. I am
breaking inside, Sasuke, but I wish I would just break completely, my
whole existence being erased from this earth and from everyone's
minds.. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this… I'm
so tired…"
Naruto closed his eyes, and Sasuke felt
something wet hit his arm, that was lying around Naruto's
waist..
crying again… Sasuke thought sadly. He
hated the feeling he was having right now. Here he was, right beside
Naruto, and yet, he felt so helpless.. he was mad, but he didn't
know who to direct his anger at, and he felt sorry for Naruto..
That
this problem was so big for the boy that he was crying just by
talking about it, and yet, he managed to bottle up all that sadness
inside him and hide behind a smile.
To be honest, this boy was
braver than Sasuke was. Naruto began to speak quietly.
"Everything
is so confusing. I don't know whether to be sad or angry, but at
the same time I just feel like I have no right. I understand that
people hate me. Who would they hate if not me? Being mad but having
none to aim your anger at makes you frustrated, ya know. So if it
helps them to be happier when I'm not there, by being mad at me, then
let them. In that way, I am at least to some help… "
Sasuke
didn't believe his ears.. Was this really Naruto that was sitting
here, talking like this? He was about to say something when he heard
Naruto sob quietly. "S-Sasuke I just don't know what to do! sob
I… I feel so helpless, everything I know is falling apart, and I
cant keep smiling anymore! I don't want to ! I'm so tired of
hiding, tired of it all, I wish it would just end! All of it! I feel
so alone, even when surrounded by people, even when I'm with you,
Sakura-chan and Kakashi-sensei! I.. I." Naruto started to sob
uncontrollably, so he couldn't continue. Sasuke had heard enough,
though. He wrapped his arms tightly around the smaller boys'
shoulders, and held him, whispering comforting words in his ear,
while a thousand thoughts ran through his head. Naruto wrapped his
own arms around Sasuke's waist, and buried his face in the front of
Sasuke's shirt, still crying, although the sobs were now quieter,
but Sasuke could feel his shirt getting soaked. Not that he cared,
though.. What was occupying his brain right now was thoughts like
"How can he be this sad and even though, he has been able to
hide it for this long?",
"no one should be able to be as sad
as this, especially not him. He hasn't done anything wrong, or
meant to harm anyone innocent! He doesn't deserve this"
And "
Why does he tell me all this?! Does he really trust me this much?"
He was once again abruptly pulled from his own world, when
someone was hammering at the door, and it sounded like it was about
to break. Sasuke gritted his teeth, and tried to ignore it, but
Naruto spoke.
"Just open it. Sounds urgent, right?" he made a
weak attempt at a smile again, and Sasuke stroked his hair and rose
up.
"I'll be right back." He walked to the door, and tried
to keep the blush from his face, but he must've been a little
flustered when he opened the door, because he pulled a little too
hard, thus startling the person standing there. Not that he cared
anyway, but upon seeing who it was, he wished he had never opened the
door.
"S-sasuke-kun… I-I uhhmm…"
Sakura…
Of
course it was her.
Who else would be stupid enough to run through
this storm all the way to another person's house at this time of
night? His thoughts wandered off to a certain blonde, right now
sitting on the floor in his living room, probably trying to hear the
conversation. Sakura finally gathered herself and began to speak
again. "S-Sasuke-kun, I heard in the news that a the storm is going
to continue, and its gonna be snowing a lot!"
Sasuke leaned
against the doorframe, not bothering to change his expression to
surprised.
"And so?"
"I just thought, that with your
house being so long from the village and stores, it would
be bad if you couldn't get far because of the snow, and"
Sasuke
interrupted her here.
"Sakura, listen, just go home. I have
someone here, whom I cant just leave, neither do I want to bring"
Now
Sakura interrupted Sasuke.
"who?! Sasuke-kun is someone really
staying here!?? Who?? Is it Ino?! I'll kill that bitch if she even
touches you!"
after yelling this, Sakura stormed into the
house. Sasuke went after her, to make sure she didn't do something
bad. Man, was he pissed off. If she even DARED to touch Naruto, he
would be sure to make her regret that! When they entered the living
room, Naruto had fallen asleep on the futon again.
sigh. Still
weak from the blood loss?... Sasuke turned to Sakura when she began
to speak.
"why is HE here?! Sasuke-kun the storm is starting
soon, so this morning you might not even be able to leave the house!"
"Why Naruto is here, is none of your concern. I have plenty of
food and so on, thank you."
"But do you have enough for the
both of you?! I mean, Naruto eats so much!" She was starting to get
angry. She had come here to try to convince Sasuke to come to her
home and stay a couple of days, but she hadn't expected something
like this. Why was it always Naruto that had Sasuke-kuns attention?!
Sasuke was starting to get very annoyed as well. Why didn't she
just give up already and go home?! And she says that Naruto eats too
much?!
For gods sake didn't this girl's stupidity have any
limits at all?!!
The boy was lying half naked in front of her,
and still she couldn't see how thin he was?!
That reminded him,
he didn't want her to see Naruto half naked…
So he went over
to cover Naruto in the futon.
He didn't notice the blush across
naruto's face, or that his breath was quicker than normal, when you
sleep.
Sakura stared at Naruto angry, but then turned to Sasuke
again.
"Sasuke-kun!! What if there's not enough food?! I
don't want you to starve just because of –him!!- you shouldn't
be wasting your resources on that low-life if it could damage
yourself! Look at him, he's sleeping already you can just go home
with me and leave him here! Its his own fault for passing out or
whatever that happened to him!"
here, Sasuke got really mad.
"HIS fault?! You don't even KNOW what he has been, and is
going through!!! It is in NO. FUCKING. WAY his fault!! He has done
nothing to harm ANYONE but still, people treat him like SHIT!! Like
hell I'm leaving him alone in your favour! The low-life here is
you!"
He glared at her. Sakura looked terrified, but then
she started to look angry again. why is Sasuke-kun standing up for
Naruto all of a sudden?! Che, Naruto is the only one in the way of
Sasuke-kun and me living happily ever after!! Why must he ruin
this?!!
with tears in her eyes, she picked up something random
from the floor, which happened to be a scroll, and tossed it in the
direction of Naruto.
"I HATE YOU!!!"
she screamed, with
tears in her eyes.
Neither of them noticed Naruto flinching.
She
bent down to pick something else up, but was stopped at a sharp pain
in her wrist.
She looked up. Sasuke was standing beside her, in
one of his hands, holding the scroll she tossed, which he caught it
in the air, and in the other he was almost crunching her wrist.
"That's. ENOUGH!"
He gave her the most disgusted,
hateful look he could muster, and dragged her to the door.
"Go
home to your mother and cry, you whiny little bitch!! This has
nothing to do with Naruto, and don't you dare ever speak like that
about him! You hear me?!!"
with that said, he tossed her out of
the door and slammed it shut. How could she be like that??!!
Blaming
Naruto for all this shit!
But, normally he wouldn't have acted
this way, got mad like this.. Was he overreacting? When he entered
the living room, Naruto was lying on his side, his back facing
Sasuke.
oh shit… he heard
Sasuke looked sad. He hoped
Naruto didn't hear too much, atleast not all of it. But how could
he not have? that bitch just HAD to yell.
"dobe… I know you
are awake.."
