Another letter from Alex. He's having a rough time, so forgive me for the sadness.
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Hi Claire,
It's me again.
As you can see, I launched a fashion trend: lots of people started writing something for you. At the beginning it was only us from Drovers, then came others. A few left a little card, others wrote more. I think you'll be crazy reading all this stuff…
Meg
proposed to buy a book like you can find in hotels or museum or
something, so who wants to leave a message can do it!
Everything
considered, it's not such a bad idea… then we can all at least
have a good laugh in the future…
I found something very very interesting in Vince Lavise's letter. From what he wrote you seem to be the only reason to come to this area! I think he couldn't stand the fact you didn't date him! (And yes, the thought made me laugh!)
I must admit it's still weird for me to live at Drovers… With you here it should be different, but now I feel a little out of place there… It's like when a link in a chain is missing… You are the one who bind us all…
Luckily there's Charlotte… As soon as I can, I'll tell her all of the stories about when we used to ride the Rodeos together. By chance she's not able to talk yet and she can't silence me. Indeed I think she's glad to hear me talking about you: every time I mention her Mum she lights up!
Our little angel is the only person I can pour my heart out to. Here there's a lot of work to do and when work is over we are all shattered. Tess is nothing but a bundle of nerves; I'm almost scared to mention you in her presence! I think she wants to prove at any cost, that she's up to the challenge of doing your job, and she's also worried about you, so… now she's like a powder keg, ready to blow at any time! Nick is the only one able to calm her down a bit, but he's got a lot of work to do as well at Wilgul and I can't help him as much as I would like to.
I persuaded Tess to ask Stevie back, at least for a while. So Tess can rest herself and I'll be able to help that brother of mine. Stevie knows what to do and Tess can count on her, I only hope those two don't bite each other's head off!
As always, I'm trying very hard to be positive, but a month has already passed since the accident. You didn't wake up and he doctors keep telling us there's nothing new. They only say you're stationary and all we can do is wait… But I've never been good at waiting, you know.
I
miss our arguments, your eyes, your smile, and our rides… I want to
wake up with you on my side, have breakfast with you before we face a
hard day of work. I don't know how long I'll be able to handle
this mess, all the doubt and insecurity…
I
can't keep living in waiting, paying no attention to the job. I
wish I could do something for you…
Nowadays even writing these silly letters that helped me in the beginning are able to do the trick. I keep thinking about all the time we wasted without noticing we were made for each other, and I can't get this thought out of my head.
Even working with horses reminds me a lot of moments I spent with you and I'd like to run to your bedside, find you awake and talk about all's going through my head…
Your doctors gave me permission to bring BOM to see you tomorrow. I hope this will be useful and you'll wake up. I confess I wish I could be the one to wake you up, like Prince Charming did with Sleepy Beauty, but if you'll wake up thanks to BOM, I'll be happy all the same.
Above all the most important thing is to have you back here, with me, with us.
See
ya tomorrow
Kisses
Alex
