"This isn't your best I know your best. This is how you shoot when you don't think." Johnny said. Shawn nodded.

"This isn't his best what the heck? He freaking hit every target in the head and heart doubling the shot." Lassiter said. No one could believe this.

"Yes not his best. He isn't supposed to shoot to kill but to injure. This is how he shoots when he doesn't think of anything but Rick. And if he doesn't get his head back in the game he is going to end up worse than those targets." Johnny finished. Man he could be more boring with lectures that anyone Shawn has ever known.

"Yeah Johnny you're right. Man do you think you would be better in getting your head in the game if you were in my place? No you would be just like me. So stop with the crap. You don't know Rick like I do, you don't know how 'colorful' his torture is. With Rick it's kill or be killed. And I rather choose kill. You know if he isn't killed he's going after my friends and family. And I\m not letting that happen, ever." Shawn finished. He was pissed off by Johnny now. Who is he to give him these lectures. He didn't have to watch his friends or his partner be killed. Rick killed Nick cold blooded in front of him. That's something he will never forget. He still had nightmares about that, thank God he never had them when he was with Jules.

"Okay Spence I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said what I did. But you still have to try and get your head in the game. Like you said he will go after your friends and family, don't let that happen. Just give it your best shot Spence. Do the range again now and think this time, okay? Show them how you really shoot and I'll yell what body part." Johnny said and Shawn just nodded.

"If that will get you off my case then fine. Do your stupid routine. I don't care." Shawn said numbly.

"Okay Spence first go for the left shoulder." Johnny said. Shawn nodded and went running toward the targets. It lasted 7 minutes again but this time Shawn had a problem with his hurt leg.

And the thing is Shawn never told them how much his leg hurt. He just kept going and when he shot all the targets he collapsed to the ground unable to take the pain anymore.

"Spence what's wrong?" Johnny rushed to Shawn and so did everybody else.

"My leg hurts like hell. I think I busted my knee again." Shawn said through clenched teeth. Johnny took a look at it and saw how swollen and blue it is.

"Spence you're an idiot. Why didn't you say anything? This must be unbearable." Johnny couldn't believe how did he stand to be in so much pain.

"I didn't really feel it until now." Shawn said honestly.

"Woow Shawn we need to get you to the hospital." Henry said.

"Yeah, we have to. This looks bad." Juliet added.

"I agree, but first lets check the targets. Now help me up." Shawn said so Henry and Lassiter helped him. But obviously Shawn couldn't walk on his own. His leg was burning from pain.

"Ouch man this hurts. Why did you two stop moving? Common guys a little pain is nothing." Shawn said. Everyone stopped moving and was looking at him.

"Shawn you can barely stand let alone walk. Do you want to hurt yourself even more?" Henry said.

"Dad I'm fine. And I won't hurt myself relax. Take a chill pill." Shawn said. He knew this would piss his dad off.

"Shawn be serious for at least a second. This is no joke. He almost got you with that cyanide stunt." Henry said. He was getting really worried for his son.

"I know that dad and I'll be more careful. Now common lets move I want to see the targets." Shawn said and finally they started moving toward the targets. Sure his leg hurt like hell but he went through worse. He didn't get why they were so jumpy cause of a little knee injury. He managed to run with that knee didn't he?

"Okay Spence now this is some shooting. All doubled shots and you hit every target exactly like I said. See even though it's hard to concentrate you managed to get your head in the game." Johnny said proudly. He waited for everyone's reaction.

"Holly crap Spencer how on Earth did you manage this?" Lassiter spoke up. He never thought Shawn could shoot like that. This was amazing but he would never say that out loud.

"It's nothing Lassie face. You would shoot like that if my dad trained you too." Shawn said looking proudly at his dad who squeezed his shoulder in a thanks.

"Nothing?! You're crazy." Gus spoke up this time.

"Okay guys let Spence breathe a little. Which reminds me we need to get you to the hospital to check that knee out. No arguments." Johnny said as soon as he saw Shawn was about to say he doesn't nee da hospital.

"Ughh fine lets go." Shawn said in defeat.

**********At the hospital*************

"Okay Mr. Spencer looks like you sprained your knee pretty good. Just wear this sling for a while and you'll be fine." The Doc said and left.

"How on earth does he think I can wear that thing and train at the same time?" Shawn complained.

"Shawn you have to wear it otherwise you'll just bust your knee even worse." His dad said. He knew Shawn has to train or he probably won't survive. His chances were slim of survival at all but he had to do this. There was no way out off it.

"I know that but still. You understand why I have to train very well. Oh and you can throw that prescription away too." Shawn said and every one looked at him like he was a masochist.

"Shawn you'll be in too much pain without it." Gus said.

"Johnny knows why I'm not going to take them. So throw it away I don't want it."

"So Johnny why doesn't Shawn want his prescription?" Jules asked.

"Cause he was addicted to painkillers before and doesn't want that to happen again." Johnny said and all eyes were on Shawn again.

"Shawn are you out of your mind?! Addict? What got in to you?" Jules demanded. Why did he do it?

"Jules at that time I blamed myself even more than now. So I tried to off myself but just got high. I didn't have enough pills. And then I continued doing that cause then I didn't feel anything and that was a relief. But I figured what I was doing to myself and went to rehab and got clean." Shawn explained. He felt embarrassed that he went so low. Now he knew that wasn't an answer.

"Oh Shawn I'm sorry I didn't know." Jules said and looked down.

"Hey Jules it's okay. Everything will be okay." Shawn said and hugged her.