Yet again, Mathias had to jerk of two times before being able to sleep. It wasn't out of frustration this time… he couldn't simply stop thinking about the Norwegian and imagining him there with him having sex.
The next day went the same. Mathias sent a good morning text to the Norwegian who replied hours later around noon when the Dane was already working at the church. The work was almost completely done; they only needed the finishing touches. Mathias' heart felt light and he felt eager about the evening he would spend with Niels at his place.
As soon as he finished, he went back home again, took a shower and tried to make something out of his mess. He cleared the big stuff way, threw all the dirty clothes in a corner of his room and the clean ones in the other, and then fetched all the empty beer bottles and cans to threw them in a bag and finished all the unfinished ones. Well, there were maybe too many of them to drink and he finally decided to put them away on the counter. He replaced the misplaced furniture, tried to clean a bit and got dressed in neater clothes.
Oh did he miss having a woman with him to clean up his mess when he was at work…
He pushed the sexist thought away with a smile and went to Niels' to pick him up, texting him 'Comin' babe' right before starting his engine to his car.
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Niels had been ready for Mathias to pick him up since 3 pm. It was now much later and no longer any light outside. When he got the text he placed his coat on even though he knew it take Mathias another fifteen minutes to arrive. To say the least he was looking forward to his time with Mathias. When he heard the knock at the door, he bolted up. Before he opened the door, Niels took a calming breath and placed a schooled smile on his lips.
"Hello, Mathias." he voice came out smoothly and normal even though he was tired to the point he couldn't think straight. But he knew that he was happy that Mathias here.
Taking his hand, he led them away from his apartment.
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Niels still looked like shit today; a tad worse than the last day in fact, but Mathias didn't voice it now. He would, eventually. As soon as he could find a good occasion to tell the Norwegian how awful he seemed and to plead for him to get some rest. He really was starting to get sick with worry for him in fact.
Getting into the car, Mathias drove back to his apartment, trying to get them into a decent conversation despite all the things he wanted to say to the man. No, he didn't need that, he didn't need to get himself scolded. Mathias wasn't his dad, neither his mom nor even his boyfriend… and the thought made his heart clench.
Not even his boyfriend and he still did all of these things for the Norwegian.
But he didn't care because he wanted to. He really really really liked Niels…
Taking Niels' hand, they went into the elevator and up to his apartment. Before he unlocked the door, Mathias chuckled, "Yeah well, I tried to clean up a bit but again, don't look at the mess…" he said a tad embarrassed and pushed the door, letting Niels step in, he shut the door behind. Just in case their night began to slow down, Mathias had bought them a movie earlier.
"Tell me whenever ye're hungry, I'll make us somethin' he said, looking at the pile of dishes he still hadn't washed yet with an unsure grin.
They stood there for a moment at the door still holding each other's hand. And yet, Mathias didn't feel like moving away, maybe only closer. But he didn't want to drop the man's hand.
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Niels could see the dirty dishes from where he stood and he was already hungry. Hell, Niels would only eat once a day anyways. Smiling, he gently let go of Mathias' hand and stated, "I am hungry, but let's do your dishes first." As soon as he fully entered the kitchen he wanted to take back his words. All along the counter were mountains of dishes. Coolly he asked, "Do you ever do your dishes?" Heading straight to the sink and removed the pile and washed out the basin.
Together they whittled down the piles of dirty dishes until the kitchen counters were free of them. Niels spoke as lively as he could to the Dane, though he was exhausted. He touched on subjects such as how well he did on his exams and the loud sounds that came from Eirik's room. The boy had bought a violent shooting game somehow and it was all he could hear once he was awake.
When Mathias started to get dinner ready, Niels lifted himself up on the counter, and watched the Dane, curious on what he would make.
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Well, a woman or a Niels would work to help him keep his apartment clean, he laughed at the thought. He took out of the fridge some big pieces of steak he had recently bought and put them in the sink to let the blood sink out while he took some vegetables and bread.
"My mom was always cookin' and I used to help her sometimes," he said, slicing the veggies in thin layers, "Though, I prefer to make desserts," he admitted, chuckling. He prepared a sauce he put on the stove to brown the vegetables and cut the meat in long strips and put them into the sauce, making the whole thing cook all together. This was a quick and easy recipe his mother used to cook every weekend when their father was back home.
When he was done, he dished them two plates and gave one plate to Niels before sitting on the counter as he settled himself right next to him.
Taking a long slice of meat he munched, Mathias looked up at Niels with a humoured smirk, resting on his forearms and obliviously making one of his arm brush against the Norwegian's thigh.
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Niels reached down and gripped Mathias' hand, comfortably keeping it on his thigh. Finishing eating, he pushed his plate away and looked at Mathias. The Dane had a very relaxed content look. It infected him as well and he found himself sliding down off the counter Niels lead them to the couch before they both slumped against the cushions. He ran his thumb over Mathias' hand. Completely comfortable, Niels asked smoothly, "You said you bought a movie." he asked after a few moments of just looking at the other man and sitting there comfortably.
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Ya, he slowly said, and not asking if the Norwegian wanted to see it, the Dane pushed himself up off the couch to go put it in the DVD player. Eirik had also told him Niels liked to watch movie, but especially at home… just like there. Mathias wished he could see himself score a point in Niels' heart so he could see if he was making any progress or was walking on place. At least, it would give him some clue on what to do or not… Niels was so hard to read.
Or well, maybe he wasn't, but the Dane had always had difficulties in reading people's mind and atmosphere.
Plopping himself back next to the Norwegian, Mathias turned the TV on and started the movie. He put the sound down a bit, wanting to keep some relaxed and smooth atmosphere. And there, he pleased himself; he scooted himself closer to Niels and wrapped his arm around his smaller waist to pull him closer. Dear God, he didn't think it could be possible, but the man was even bonier than the last time he had held him like this, which was that time at the beach.
Slightly frowning, he shook the head and gave the Norwegian a gentle smile, leaning his head on his and kissed his hair.
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The light kiss made Niels' whole body simmer. His breath quicken slightly before snuggling closer into Mathias arms until he was practically lying on the man. Contently he laid there soaking up the attention from Mathias as he appreciatively watched the movie. There was nothing like laying and cuddling with a man like Mathias. How long had been since he had watched a movie? A lot of the things that he had been doing lately with Mathias were things that he had missed. It was like the Dane knew that Niels needed to relax and how to accomplish this.
Taking the man's hand he placed a few kisses on his knuckles. Niels remembered what he had said on the beach, and he still meant it. But he couldn't help that he craved for what Mathias gave him. His heart ache thinking of the probable future where Mathias would find out Niels was a cocaine addicted prostitute. All of this would change.
Wrapping one of Mathias' arms around his waist, he tried to ignore those thoughts and kept his mind on the t.v. It was one of those comedies that made fun of partying and the such that was so popular in America. For Niels unfortunately it hit too close to home. But he watched anyways, or at least tried to. His mind was becoming more interested in Mathias' soothing touches than the movie.
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Mathias was slowly becoming hot, very hot. Having Niels like this on him ignited some frustrations he had been keeping deep down shut inside him. Not on the sexual side, but the frustrations he had kept after that night at the beach and everything he had eaten after; they were trying to come out now.
He still didn't understand how things could have changed so drastically between Niels and he since the time at the beach. He kept the gentle caresses and touches on the Norwegian's hands and waist, though, they became a bit robotic as his breathe accelerated and became a bit louder. He gulped loudly, staring at the TV, but not really listening nor watching.
He had been craving for Niels since the very first moment he had came in physical contact with him, and this stupid feeling had mutated in something a lot deeper and stronger and he couldn't control.
Dear God, he needed something to calm himself down. Without a warning, the Dane pushed himself up from the couch and turned around with a sorry look, "Are ye thirsty? I'll get some beer," and left for the kitchen to come back with two beers. He handed one to the Norwegian and took back his place, rapidly opened his bottle and downed it to the half. Better… He sighed contently and wrapped his arm back around Niels' waist with a pleased grin.
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Niels frowned at the beer in front of him. The Dane didn't know how bad it was to put a beer in front of Niels. It called to Niels to pick him up and down it. Swallowing thickly, Niels pushed the bottle away. "No thanks." he whispered. "All yours." he quickly got up and just grabbed himself a glass of water. Plopping back down, he trained his eyes on Mathias. For some odd reason, Niels loved the way that man's wild hair poked out at random places. Timidly he slid a lock that was threatening to cover one of Mathias' eyes. Trailing his hand a little farther down, his finger tips glided over his rough and bristled jaw.
His interest on the movie was gone and instead focused heavily on Mathias. Getting up his courage, just like he had tried the previous night he spoke smoothly, "Remember that one night you asked for permission?" he felt his heart pick up a bit, and he couldn't even look at Mathias once again. Not bother to see if Mathias was following or not. "Well I give you permission." That's what he had been trying to say last night, though this time it was a little bit clearer. Niels just hoped that Mathias understood what he was saying.
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It clearly took a moment to the Dane to catch up the Norwegian's words and understand. Taking a mouthful of his drink, he lightened and looked back at Niels who was looking. Really? Mathias felt like his heart stopped for thirty seconds before he nervously shook his head, bringing himself back on heart and put his beer aside. Damn, this would taste like beer but well…
"Niels…" he huskily whispered, moving a finger to pull on the Norwegian's chin and make their eyes meet before he slowly leaned and kissed his lips. Deeply inhaling as he felt his body filled with wiggling butterflies, Mathias slipped fingers on the man's neck to caress the base of his hair as he tilted his head a bit, making their lips move along before he slowly broke the kiss and backed up, giving the Norwegian a slightly flushed look.
Yes, he had craved for this moment… Thank God.
Giving Niels a genuine smile, he leaned forward again to peck his lips once and twice before looking back at him.
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For years his lips had not felt another man's lips on his own. Licking his lips, he could indeed taste the beer on his lips, but the soft imprint from the kiss was more lingering. He let a small laugh that sounded more like an exhale of air before leaning back to Mathias capturing his lips once more. The kiss was innocent and soft, Niels mainly wanted to feel a long kiss than anything else. He couldn't help it, Mathias looked so damn kissable.
Maybe it was a reward for treating him like a normal human being. Or rather, for being so oblivious that Mathias didn't notice what Niels was therefore was able to treat him like a normal human being. Regardless, he wound his fingers into the man's hair. God, Niels wished he could just forget his career and just enjoy Mathias as a normal man without all the dark thoughts that riddled his mind.
When he broke the kiss, his chest was heaving and his body was trembling that he didn't know what to do or say. He just sat there looking at Mathias threw the light provided by only their neglected movie.
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Mathias couldn't realise how important this kiss seemed to mean for Niels. He didn't know, but he felt relieved. He had sure kissed all his fucks before Niels when he was in Norway, and this kiss wasn't as meaningful as it was for the Norwegian. Gulping loudly, the Dane also slightly laughed and they both went into shy laughter for several seconds before Mathias kissed him back yet again and let the magic play as he grazed his lips parted and darted his tongue out to meet Niels' one.
It felt way too good, sending shivers down the Dane's back. The TV was now only a noisy light for them as Mathias let himself take Niels down on his back, but kept his touches and kisses quite innocent despite his tongue liking the other's one. His stomach was playing sick games with him, too happy to let the Dane celebrate alone. Oh yes, he was happy. Finally he had gotten what he was patiently seeking for.
Settling himself on his side next to Niels, somewhat facing him on the little space they had on the couch, Mathias parted from the kiss only to peck his lips many times. He let his fingers brush on the Norwegian's side and snake under the rim on his shirt to touch his skin and caress it. Yes yes yes… he was happy and he didn't stop his face from showing it.
Biting down on his lips to try to hide his stupid over happy smile, he broke into breathy laughter, hiding his face into the man's neck to gently kiss it.
"Thank ye," he mumbled into his clothes.
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Lightly, Niels brushed his fingers into the man's hair. He felt elevated and content. Keeping his arms around Mathias, he burrowed his face into the Dane's hair. The kisses had felt too good, it almost choked Niels up. No one could possibly understand how it felt to degrade oneself day in and day out and committing the acts that priests say were meant for married couples for a few kroner here and there. Niels had lived that way for years and had probably slept with every nationality in Europe. It was lonely, and feeling the kisses that actually meant something that would not lead to sex felt good.
Taking a shaky breath Niels whispered into the man's hair, "No, thank you." Really Mathias could not conceive what he gave Niels with those few kisses.
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They stayed there, lied on the couch and facing each other for several minutes, yet probably an hour or two, simply caressing and pecking each other's lips like a stupid happy couple. Mathias couldn't help it; he was feeling like he had chased the Norwegian for endless years while he had only been for a month and knew him for only a little bit longer. But things had been brusque between them in the first place with a proposition from Niels that had brought him into Mathias' bed for a blowjob exchange and a bit more before LUCKILY Eirik broke things up between them.
It seemed so long ago…
For Niels had changed since that very moment. It was like another person was lying next to Mathias at the moment, a total other man than the one he had almost sleep with two times. And yet, the Dane still wanted to sleep with Niels more than anything… to make him caring love. Though, as he touched his sides, he could feel his poking ribs and hips and it sent shivers down his back.
"I swear, I'm gonna leave with ye Niels and ye'll eat," he whispered in a chuckle, kissing his lips again. He really did want to give the other male quality time and a quality life. He was ready to investigate time and money in this, only for Niels and his brother…
He really really liked him…
Taking in a deep breath, Mathias tugged up on his own shirt and passed it over his head, dropping it away. His muscles were still pretty sore, but he knew Niels was feeling a lot worse for still very unknown reasons. He then scooted a tad closer and snaked his hands under the Norwegian's shirt to wrap his arms around his nude waist and hummed happily.
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Feeling the warm skin of Mathias, Niels hummed happily had he felt a few chest hairs pressing into his cheek. Lightly, he pecked the chest before returning to cuddle once more. A half naked Dane was driving him nuts. Niels luckily found himself too worn out to consider have sex. Instead he brought one hand onto Mathias' stomach and stroked the hairs just below his belly button.
"I could stay here all night." he said sleepily.
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Mathias didn't take the Norwegian's words as they were only meant to be kind, "Will ye?" he asked, caressing Niels' back with big opened hands, willing to sooth his back pains and sore muscles, "'cause ye can, huh; I've got a comfortable bed for ye over there," he whispered, mentioning his room. Oh, and having more space to caress, touch and kiss would be a really good plan.
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Niels grunted a yes before reaching up and kiss the man. His body was so sleepy that he wasn't willing to walk very far. His money situation and Berwald's threats were long forgotten. It was maddening how he couldn't stop kissing this man. "Mathias..." he breathed against the man's lips. Nipping along his jaw he felt satisfied to be able to kiss him over and over. But soon, his body became mush as exhaustion seeped back then.
It was only ten at night, and he was usually up for at least another eight hours usually ten. Yet Niels couldn't keep his eyes open if he wanted to. "I'll take that offer on the bed." he yawned.
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Slightly laughing, the Dane leaned on against Niels' lips to peck them several quick times before pushing himself up and grab the Norwegian in his sore arms. Lately, he felt like he had done the same things many times with him… though, he was so light, so frail… Rubbing his back like he would be a sleepy child, Mathias slowly walked to his bedroom, pushing the door opened and letting Niels lie on his back on the bed. At least this time, Mathias had removed all the stock on it before letting the Norwegian slip in it.
The Dane wasn't sleepy at all. He was simply too excited and happy to feel sleepy, even if he still worked pretty early on the next day, he didn't even want to think about it; but Niels needed some rest and he would give him some. Even if… well, he would probably appreciate some love quality time with him.
Hesitating a moment, the Dane reached down for his pants, undid them and removed them along with his underwear. Slipping himself right next to the Norwegian while pulling on the blanket to cover them up, he gave him a cocky grin, "I can't lie under the cover with clothes…" he whispered, embracing Niels and kissing his neck, cheek and lips.
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At first he thought Mathias had planned to sleep with him. A feeling of disgust rippled through his stomach until his explanation. Laughing loudly, Niels snuggled closer. "I'm used to falling asleep with my clothes on." In fact most nights he was so drugged he made it to his couch and passed out. With a slight flirty smile Niels ran his hands from Mathias' chest down to his pubic hair. "Besides I like you like this... so convenient." he yawned sleepily.
Sitting up for a moment he unbuttoned his shirt and removed his pants. But Niels kept his boxers on. He didn't want to give Mathias any ideas. He came to enjoy himself and relax. Sex would never be for pleasure now. Even if he one day got out of that business and settled down, he would still find sex to be a chore. Or, at least that's how he felt now.
Pulling the covers back over them, Niels situated himself on top of Mathias, placing his head on the bigger man. He listened to the soft breaths and the beating of his heart that seem to be ticking just a bit too fast. Niels didn't care, he felt so comfortable that he began to pass out.
Xxx
Mathias gently caressed the man in his arms for long minutes. Niels passed out rapidly, but the Dane kept the strokes and rubs. He felt way too happy… happy and relaxed despite his slight trembling and rapid heartbeat, but he didn't feel like sleeping. He would still swallow back his excitement and probable arousal and try to find some sleep. The most important was for Niels to sleep and rest…
On the next morning, Mathias woke up early to dress into his carpenter's clothes, which were used jeans, a white t-shirt and steal toed boots. He made all this very silently, the more silently he could. Eirik had told him his brother was a light sleeper, and thus he didn't want to wake him up… especially since he didn't want him to know he had a second job outside the library.
Rapidly leaving, sat in his car, he wrote a text to the Norwegian.
'good morning babe u were so beautiful i couldn't wake u up. i left u money on the table for a taxi if u wanna leave i'm out for the day. 3'
And he left for the church. It was his last day on the site and they didn't have much left to do. He almost hoped Niels would still be there when he would come back, and at the same time, he didn't want him to see him covered in paint and plaster. He had brought some clothes just in case.
On the counter were lying 450 kroner… he had left him some extra in case he was hungry or stuff like that, he feared he had money problems in fact.
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When Niels woke he was surprised to not see Mathias around. It was disappointing like a kid being denied their candy. Waking up, Niels had looked forward to kissing the Dane right on the lips. But the place was empty. At least he gained 450 kroner. Instead of taking the cab like Mathias instructed, Niels walked the several miles back to his place. If he was going to make quota with Berwald, he would need all the money he could get.
Coming home, he slept some more until it was late out once again. Niels woke once more thinking about Mathias, but knowing what time it was again, he needed to push the Dane out of his mind. Slipping on clothing, Niels began to prepare himself from a night out. After sleeping for so long he felt refreshed for once and didn't feel like the walking dead. Before leaving he picked up his phone and texted Mathias that he had a good time. He saw that he had many unread messages from the Dane but ignored them. If he was going to allow himself to be around Mathias, he would have to separate his work life from his private one.
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Some more days passed without Mathias and Niels seeing each other outside of work at the library. In the Dane's head after their night in his apartment when they had kissed, it was obvious they were together, that they were dating and an official couple. But after the not replying to his messages and Niels not wanting to see him after work or on day off… he doubted. In fact, he was worrying sick about it.
Sure, at the library, they would keep the kisses and touches down since they were supposed to work, even though the affectionate Dane often would go seeking for a caress or a kiss. But outside those moments, he was worried. Did he really appreciate his night with him? He couldn't actually think that it was because Niels was mad Mathias hadn't been there at his own apartment when he had woken up that morning…
Still…
Friday came by and Niels was even more absent than usual. Outside of work, he wasn't there and he wouldn't answer his message. At least not until it was very early in the morning or very late in the evening… Oh, Mathias didn't want to act like some love sick teenager, but he still maybe was…
And yet again, Niels looked down, tired, and broken. The Dane thought hard to try to guess what was happening in his life. For Niels started to look trashed all the time and that was driving him mad. Mathias sat at the computer, staring at Niels working with a light frown and trying to find something in his behaviours and manners that cried what he had been up to be so down.
Nothing… blank.
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He knew that Mathias was being clingy but he didn't know why. Whenever the Dane would come up and kiss him, Niels gladly allowed him to. A few times, when no one was around and they were ahead of time in work, Niels would let the man deepen his kisses and touch his body some.
Always though, Niels would stop Mathias from going too far. He never had to say a thing, for they were at work and in a library. But work and library had nothing to do with it for Niels. In fact he found the idea of getting laid in a library exhilarating. But he wouldn't allow Mathias to go too far because he wasn't too big on sex anymore. Well he did like it, but with you did something you liked with people you didn't know, it tends to lose its luster.
Each night he would allow Mathias to walk him home, and each night Niels would hold Mathias' hand and lean on his arm. Their walk was even painfully slow, mostly due to the fact that Niels really didn't want to leave Mathias and go back to his world. But he always had to. So when Mathias left that night, Niels smiled sadly to the turned back before collapsing on the couch for a few minutes before starting work.
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Berwald crossed Mathias' way without noticing him, just like the Dane did. This time though, he didn't give the Norwegian the chance to be warned of his presence and aimed for his apartment before he knew he would go out for the night and get some more money. Would he have the money he owed him this time? That would be surprising.
And so, he walked up all the stairs, stood in front of the door and knocked with a hand in his pocket.
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Niels grumbled loudly having to get up from his couch. Opening the door, he went cold again, all those good feelings that Mathias had instilled in him vanished. "Berwald." he said thickly. The man was like clockwork when it came to business. Niels should not have been so surprised.
He felt numb when he spoke, "I have most of your money, if you just give me the rest of tonight I'll be able to pay you back fully." he begged. Niels never begged in his life.
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Berwald looked at his wristwatch, unimpressed, and as usual took a little bag of cocaine out of his jacket to wave it at the Norwegian, "I fear y'won't be able t'bring me 12000 kroner in so little time, Niels," he said in his usual cool voice.
Time was business for the Swede and he didn't like to give time to bad payer. Like Niels.
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Swallowing thickly, Niels hit the bag away. "And if I don't take that bag." he spat loudly. "What will be my total then, Berwald."
Because of his nights with Mathias, he had over a half a bag full of the stuff. Niels didn't really need the bag... did he? "What you're doing is wrong and you know it." he steamed. Berwald was purposely making him pay him money he couldn't handle.
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Berwald raised an eyebrow, "Ye think ye're better than me then?" he slowly said, "I don't fuck 'roud for money" he spat, shrugging.
"I guess that if ye ain't takin' it this week, ye'll be able t'handle yer 10000 kroner week ye owe me without yer holy powder… Can't wait t'see that," he said with a somewhat amused corner grin.
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Niels snatched the bag. "Pricing me 2000 kroner of shitty quality cocaine, Berwald." he said scathingly. "I'll pay you the 12000 kroner. And our business will be done. If I'm going to be snorting this shit, I'm not going to snorting coke with glass enlaced in it."
With that he slammed the door in Berwald's face. Instantly he felt ill. Before he knew it, he was rallying all of his clients, looking and asking for money.
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On the next day, Mathias tried to text Niels but obviously, he didn't receive any answer… In the morning, he supposed he was still sleeping. And around noon he still supposed he was sleeping, but before dinner Niels was still not replying and Mathias was feeling sick worried. Oh damn it, was why he getting so clingy over a man who didn't even seem to be his boyfriend…
But fuck, for the Dane, Niels was. He was his lover, boyfriend or anything related to this. For Mathias, they were but the way things were going whenever they weren't together it was like Mathias wasn't part of Niels' life. But when they were together… he felt happy and pleased with the Norwegian. Everything was alright.
He ate alone thinking over and over about the situation. He didn't want to give up, not now. He felt like he had to work on the Norwegian's case yet again, maybe bring him to feel more stuff about him, take him to do more things he liked to gain more points maybe? Damn, this man was harder to get than a virgin girl…
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Niels never came home. It dawned on Eirik when the furniture people knocked on his door saying they weren't going to bring the couch up. He cursed them out for being so lazy. After they left, he was about to wake his lazy brother up, but then, he saw that the apartment was utterly empty. It worried him a lot. Though, he imagined that Niels would return whenever he got tired. Eirik was a big boy and he didn't need an older brother looking after him.
But that couch... he needed to get it up here before the elements destroyed it or someone stole it. Fetching his phone, he looked for Mathias' number which he had stolen from Niels' weeks ago. Letting it ring he explained the situation as soon as Mathias answered the phone. But he didn't mention that his brother hadn't come home.
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At Eirik's call, Mathias thought it was his perfect excuse for coming and see Niels. Though, he didn't wait too long before jumping in his car and going to the brother's apartment. When he arrived, Eirik was already waiting for him outside next to the still packed couch. Those bastards… But they didn't wait too long either before taking the thing and getting up the stairs.
The couch was horribly heavy! Containing a stupid bed, it was not surprise it was so heavy… But Eirik was a good boy, never complaining and still helped Mathias pulling the thing up. It took them several minutes to finally be able to pass it up their floor. But there again they needed to make it through the door. After many tries they succeeded into pushing the big thing inside… and they still had to pull the old couch out. Which they did, almost throwing it down the stairs.
And finally, both guys only plopped, exhausted on the new couch. They tested it, transforming it into a bed and placed some covers on it to prepare it for the Norwegian when he would come back and pushed the bed back in.
They poured themselves some water and returned on the new couch, bitterly satisfied.
"Hey, isn't the time ye show me that game of yers?" Mathias said, putting his glass down, kicking off his boots and taking off his coat.
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Eirik smiled sheepishly, "I only have one controller but we can share..." he went into his room disconnecting the consul before reconnecting it out in the living room's TV. Switching the game on Eirik set the sound setting to almost blaring. Flopping down contently, Eirik noticed that Mathias was looking around the apartment, no doubt looking for Niels. With the sound loud, Mathias must have put two and two together. Niels wasn't sleeping in his room.
Sighing loudly, Eirik concentrated his eyes on the screen. "He left shortly after you brought him home last night and hasn't been home since."
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Mathias knew he had a good reason to worry about Niels earlier. Where did he sleep? Did something bad happen? Where was he now? Was he alright? Was he alone? Or with good or bad people? All those innocent questions crossed his mind and he bit his lip.
But Eirik didn't seem to be bothered. It was rather strange in fact… if Niels had the habit to always to come back home, even if it was to be very early in the morning, he was still home and sleeping in a secure place. But at the moment, he could be anywhere and this troubled Mathias. Never had he thought it could be because Niels had an adventure with another person. And now, Mathias began to believe he would really need to ask question to the Norwegian and maybe know those things he was doing when the Dane wasn't there.
He didn't want to look like the desperate lover… but if the Norwegian kept acting like this, he sure would be.
He simply hoped Niels would come back home soon.
Mathias tried to calm himself down and stared at the screen while Eirik was playing his shooting game. It took him several minutes before being really alert about the game and not thinking about Niels.
They had fun though. Mathias stopped worrying about the Norwegian and Eirik and he switched the controller often to let the other play. Mathias was no good at those games, but he rapidly caught the twist and they god into long session of laughter. They soon unfolded the bed in the couch to lie on it while playing. Time was ticking, and rapidly, without them noticing, it was far passed 2 AM.
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Niels couldn't focus on anything. As he walked to his door, the walls tried to push and the floor tried come and meet him. How he ever made it to his door was beyond him. The previous night, Niels had met a man of the most shady kind. He was richer version of Berwald, and instead of hanging out with his regular female whores, he decided he wanted to deviate from that path, and that's when he met Niels on some downtown corner.
The man said Niels was perfect for his experimentation because of his girly looks. Niels tried to not be insulted, and certainly wasn't when the man offered to pay him well if he followed him everywhere for a night. What was supposed to be a night turned in two. Niels was led to the most shady places in Oslo where the drugs ran like water and so did alcohol. Niels hated to admit it, but he had stayed trashed the whole entire time. His brain couldn't even remember if he slept with the man, but he knew he did. When Niels left, he left with the biggest wad of cash he had ever seen.
The nice shady man even gave him a ride home, but it took Niels at least fifteen minutes to figure out how to climb the stairs. Opening the door it swung unexpectedly and Niels went with it and stumbled to the floor. He heard voices, gasping in shock but he paid them no heed. Instead his eyes trained on the threads of his carpet, rubbing his fingers threw them as if they were the most interesting thing in the world.
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While still being in their game, Mathias and Eirik heard the door open and a loud thud. They both didn't expected people to come, maybe only Niels, and the older male rapidly looked by the door to see Niels lied on the floor. His heart stopped beating a whole five seconds as he lost control of his body and jumped out of the bed, rapidly turning Niels on his side, "Babe, are ye alright?!" he almost yelled, giving the man a nervous look. But Niels wasn't there. Laughing and babbling unimportant words, he simply wasn't there…
First, Mathias thought he was drunk. It was pretty obvious by the way he was acting, but the absent look in his blood injected eyes and dilated pupils was saying something else the Dane didn't want to believe in. He was drunk… and tired, that's all.
But wanting to make sure of what he didn't want to believe in, Mathias rubbed the back of his hand under the Norwegian's nose, who protested a bit, and looked at his hand; nothing… though, he rapidly rubbed the inside of his nostril and found dried blood.
"Oh Niels…" he lowly said, feeling numb and useless.
Shocked, he took a little moment to find back his breathe and grabbed Niels to pull him up and drag him in his bed. He didn't want to believe what Niels was passing through, though, having younger siblings… he knew…
"Eirik, run a cold bath please," he said to the shocked boy. He didn't seem to see the link, but Mathias knew. At least, if Niels wasn't having a bad-trip, the cold water would maybe bring back some senses to him, "And bring a bowl…"
Dropping the delirious Norwegian on the bed, he worked on removing his clothes, but let him his underwear, to take him back into his arms and walk into the bathroom. He waited in the door frame with Niels in his arms, gently rocking him even if he shouldn't, until the bath was full.
As much as he simply wanted to leave and left Niels in his shit, he couldn't bring himself to do that… he just liked him that much… Though, he sure wanted to speak with him whenever his mind would come back clearer.
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Niels felt the cool water hit his hot skin making him jolt. He wasn't really sure on what was going on. Mathias was standing above him saying something and looking worried. At one point in time he tried to flirt with the Dane, trying to say how sexy he was, but all that came out were laughs and pointless words that did not get the point across.
When a towel was wrapped around his body, he felt just as alert as when he entered his house. The walls and all the items were still doing funny things and for some odd reason his couch had transformed into a bed. But when he laid on it with Mathias, he realized it had to be a bed. Or at least possibly a bed, his mind could be tricking him to think he was on a bed.
Snuggling up close to Mathias chest, Niels hummed and babbled until he fell asleep. Which didn't take long. Niels had, after all, been up for two days straight.
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Mathias was highly disappointed, he couldn't really hide it. He made Eirik close his console and going to bed, wishing him a good night despite the weird events he hopes the boy couldn't understand… but after all, it wasn't like he was 3.
Many questions were crossing Mathias' mind as he had a naked Niels pulled against him, like 'Is it the first tune it happens?', 'Does he takes that shit on a regular basis?', 'Does it have a link with all the long nights he passes outside his apartment?' and many more like these ones, blurring the Dane's thoughts even more.
But one in particular was keeping coming back.
'Why am I still here?'
He could simply leave and erase Niels from his life. It was easy, he could do it now. He didn't want to keep contact with some guy clung on cocaine. Oh, Mathias had many flaws, but drugs weren't part of them, not anymore. He had tried some stuff in the past, but kept coming back to his good ol' beer. This was one of his major flaw, he could conceive it… but not Niels… not his beautiful Niels… why?
What was happening in his life so he felt the need to have boosts like this? And if he were to come back home like this all the time, something might happen one day… and how did he pay this? This was probably the major reason why there was always nothing in the fridge and that they were living in such a dump… How long had he been taking this?!
Mathias couldn't find sleep until much later in the morning, and all he could do was press the smaller, so small and sickly frail man in his arms to kiss his hair and sigh his lungs in it.
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Niels hadn't slept well at all. His dreams were a playback of the last 48 hours, making him feel feverish and sick. After a long while, his body seemed to heal, and that hot and cold shivers dissipated. Stirring awake, Niels saw Mathias next to him, holding him possessively. It made him smile, but at the same time extremely upset.
Pushing his face into the man's chest, he tried to not think of the last 48 hours or the possibility that Mathias had seen him trashed out of his mind. No doubt the man connected two and two together, and knew what Niels did for a living. The precious short amount of time that he had built up with Mathias was shattered. He didn't know why he felt so badly, Niels knew this day would come. Niels imagined that as soon as Mathias woke the Dane would tell him they weren't going to see each other anymore.
Such a pity. There time together had been brief, but it had been wonderful. Lightly, Niels kissed the man's chest figuring it would be the last time he kissed another human being that way for a long time.
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Mathias had a short, dreamless and restless night. The only soothing thing that had been there during his entire night was Niels' warmth, and yes, it wasn't that soothing. The Norwegian had been really agitated, mumbling non sense, passing from almost sexually hot to death cold furnished by uncontrollable trembles.
Despite not having dreams, Mathias had almost lived living nightmares with Niels in his arms.
The little warm kiss awakened the Dane in slight panic. He fluttered opened his eyes, and looked down at the now awakened Norwegian.
"Are ye alright?" was the first thing he asked in a low tired voice. Mathias noticed it was the very first time Niels and he were laid naked together under the covers and yet… they weren't up for anything.
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He tried to smile up at Mathias. But he could feel that it was sickly and sad type of smile, one that made him look like he was about to cry. Though he was far from crying, Niels was used to disappointments in life.
"Ya." he said in a scratchy voice. His throat felt so swollen, and his lips chapped. That's right, a man had undignified shoved his cock down his throat, no matter how many times he gagged.
His heart began to beat wildly with nerves. Licking his chapped lips he looked that the man's chest before getting to the point, "What now?"
Indeed what now.. Eirik probably saw too. The boy was always in bed by midnight... so why was he up. His whole body felt weak and yet there was an itch, a craving that he needed to satisfy. The problem was, he wasn't sure what he had taken that was making him have the craving.
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Mathias didn't know 'what now'… Despite the entire night asking himself questions and yet never finding real answers, he still didn't want to leave. In fact, he wanted to stay even more with Niels and support him for whatever was happening in his life. Though, when before he stubbornly didn't want to be nosy and know what was wrong with him, now he craved to know and understand to have better chances of helping him.
And yet, the thought of Niels selling his body because of money problems related to his cocaine consumption had never passed through his mind.
"Tell me…" he begged, looking at the Norwegian right in the eyes, "Please…"
Mathias remembered that, during the night, frightened, he had looked over Niels' entire body, taking his arms and looking inside of them to see if he hadn't some needle bruises also as all the rest of his body, but luckily, he hadn't seen anything. He had been so scared…
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Niels rolled away from Mathias, pulling the blanket over his head. It wouldn't come from his lips, that he was a prostitute. No matter how much he liked Mathias, he would not tell him. Instead he would do like he had always done, tell the truth and withhold certain key details. "I'm sorry, Mathias." he voice choked and it scared Niels hearing how weak it sounded. "I work really long hours and because of my career path I have to study long hours as well. I need a boost. I can't do all of this on my own."
The warmth of Mathias' body could still be felt on his back and it took every fiber in his body to not roll over and bury his face once again. Even though he couldn't have this man, he wanted him. The beach, the dining out, the watching movies, those small touches during work that never amounted to anything, Niels wanted those to continue. But good lies had to be told while you are telling the truth, and there was no doubt that Niels could never say he wasn't a prostitute. His self-esteem wasn't high enough for that.
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Mathias closed tired eyes and sighed, "Sure ye can't," he softly said, wrapping his arms back around Niels to pull him closer into a loving embrace. He had thought about many things during the night, and he still wanted to know something.
"With that… do ye have money problems? Ye can tell me…" he whispered into the smaller man's year, "I can try to help ye…"
Mathias didn't have that much money, but he was ready, for Niels, to drop his job at the library and find some real carpentry contracts and make good money. There was always a solution to get out of those kinds of problems… Maybe Niels would simply not see them.
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Once Mathias' arms were around him, he almost wanted to sit there and cry out his woes on his money problems. Berwald no doubt would be so forceful next time, but Niels had made such good money that he felt sure that he could make it this time. And something about letting Mathias pay his debts felt so wrong. Niels could never ask another man to fix his problems.
"I'm sorry, but no. I can't have you helping me." at least not for free. Still how things had changed between the two of them, Niels couldn't bring himself to sell himself to Mathias again. He couldn't bring himself to even tell Mathias he was a prostitute.
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"Niels…" Mathias lowly said, enlacing the little ball Niels was forming with his arms and legs, enveloping him into a warm comforting ball, "I swear, I can help ye… I can't see ye like this another time," he almost choked on his last words. Reminding him of the Norwegian like he was some… God he didn't know… he almost feared for Niels life at a moment, when during his sleep his began to convulse and spasm.
"Let me help ye… I-I… I can stay here with ye and find a better job, I can make good money," he whispered, stroking the naked man's arms, "I swear, I can make real good money…"
Oh, he didn't want to return into carpentry, but he knew too well he would make money like water. Though, he had to find contracts and that was the stressful part of this job. As soon as he had some work, everything would flow well and when it was finished, he needed to find something else. And maybe that… maybe he wouldn't go back to school if his results were too bad.
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"I'm not going to have you wasting your future on me." Niels chided bitterly. The Dane just didn't understand what type of low trash he was associating himself with when he hung around Niels. Sure, he could say yes and help benefit Eirik's life but... It was wrong. Niels stayed there, huddled around Mathias. He did feel good. He was tired. He hurt. It was like his body had nothing left to give and he just wanted to wither away.
Reaching out he grabbed one of Mathias' hands and brought to his breast before shutting his eyes. The room still spun a tad from whatever it was Niels had took last night. Eventually, Niels looked up at Mathias with a stern expression. "Do what you want." he would be neutral on the subject. If Mathias wanted to ruin his career for him, he wouldn't get sympathy from Niels.
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Mathias gave the Norwegian a childishly happy look and kissed his forehead, "Shut yer mouth, I'm movin' in," he declared, kissing his lips before taking Niels down on the mattress and tenderly embraced him, "Ye won't regret it babe," he said in a low voice as he kissed the man's ear.
Or well, maybe he would, but as long as the Dane was there to help him let out of his problems and eventually take back the right track, he was fine with whatever he needed to do to get Niels out of his shit.
"I'll find a more rentable job soon…" he whispered, closing his eyes. Damn, he was tired, "And I'll help ye with whatever problems ye have…"
Unlike many people, Mathias had no problems to throw his money away. He didn't need extras; as long as he had enough to live a suitable life, he was alright with spending the rest, and especially if it was to give a suitable way of living to the people he lived.
Lying on the hide-a-bed, Mathias chuckled and scooted a tad closer to the Norwegian, "Comfy, isn't it?" he said, raising his eyebrows with still closed eyes.
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Niels opened his eyes and looked around his apartment. It dawned on him that he was on a bed in his living room. His heart pounded in his chest as he looked at the Dane whom had his eyes closed. At first he tried to remember when he got a bed, even with all the hard drugs he had consumed he would have remembered something like that. But, Mathias had a small smile on his lips. "You bought this?" it was more of a statement than a question.
Leaning down he kissed the man roughly on the lips showing his gratitude. However, his body was far too worn out to give Mathias any proper thanks. Instead he curled back up against the Dane and closed his eyes. The last thing that past threw his mind was how good Mathias smelled. It was welcoming and putting him quickly to sleep. Niels quite simple, slept like a log.
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Mathias was really happy Niels was. He took the opportunity to go fetch some stuff in his own apartment while the man was sleeping, like some clothes he packed in a bag and some bath stuff. He supposed he would stay for quite a long time; he was really willing to help the Norwegian. He couldn't imagine Niels coming back from his night job trashed like this with Eirik around, conscious that his brother wasn't going well and still not knowing what to do. At least, Mathias had, back in Denmark, a younger brother who had felt into such stuff and he had unwillingly learnt to bring him back down on earth.
But a sibling wasn't the same thing as a lover… Knowing Niels was stuck into the drug wheel was hurting even more he had to admit. He loved his family, but they still had their mother and father to help them, not Niels. Mathias had heard the Norwegian speak about friends one time, but he suppose these same friends were into the same shit he was…
And so, Mathias came back to the brothers' apartment with his stuff, putting them in a corner of the living room and rapidly slipped back naked next to Niels' unanimated form to take him back in his arms and try to find some lacking sleep.
