A/N: Hello my dear readers. I would like to take a few moments out of your time and address a few things that have been brought up. I also want to thank you all for reviewing. I appreciate it a lot and it always helps to get me going on the assembling the next chapter.

First off, I stated on the first chapter that this fic is indeed dark. Most of you might be thinking that because of this length that we are near the end, but we are not. In fact this was written about six months ago and I know for a fact that what we have seen so far is not anywhere near as dark as this fic is going to get. So if you like dark stuff, stick around. If you don't want to read about a drug addict going through his mistakes then this is not the fic for you.

I would like to point out as well that Mathias does not know what Niels is doing. He has an inkling but such is his nature, he tries to think the best out of everyone. It's natural and I hardly think Denmark would leave Norway if he suddenly lost his brother, no matter the circumstances. That is just my thoughts. And you will in the near future see a side of Mathias we have not quite shown yet.

This fic has essentially three parts. The last chapter was the beginning of the second part so we are now over 1/3 of the way done with this.

Also I am really sorry for killing Iceland. I did not like killing my favorite character at all. But I swear to you that all of this will in the end be brought together in a pleasing finale.

Thanks for reading and I hope I have not scared anyone away.

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Mathias left the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his hips, enough to hide his lower body. Though he remembered the times when he used to simply sneak out and run to his room naked. But well, they had a guest, even if that guest in question had already seen more than his own mother more than once…

As soon as he passed their bedroom's door and closed the door behind, knowing all his younger siblings were sleeping now, he fetched a chair from their kitchen set they had brought in their room and blocked the door with it, discarding his towel at the same time. At least, if his mother or father were to pass and try to open the door, Mathias would have the time to slip out of the bed and open the door, finding an excuse for the blocked door… he still wanted some privacy with Niels, knowing they would be stuck in here for quite a long time. Though, Mathias knew his parents didn't like to see the bedroom's doors closed, but if anything was to happen…

He would find an excuse!

Looking at Niels, he noticed how the man seemed changed all of a sudden, just like he seemed… happier? Damn, Mathias hadn't seen Niels smiling for quite a long time he had to admit. It wasn't a real frank smile like those ones they had shared a little bit before Eirik's death, but still, he seemed a bit more relaxed maybe…

"Hey," Mathias said in a husky voice as he leaned on the door, dressed with his complete wet nudity. He chuckled a bit and made a sorry face, "Yeah well… Hope they don't bother ye too much," he said as he walked to fetch some boxers in his clean clothes and pulled them on.

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Niels licked his lips when he saw Mathias dress. He didn't even give the man privacy and watched. It was the drugs, they always made him feel good and very alert. With a half naked Dane walking around, his body really noticed how god Mathias looked. But, he knew he couldn't do anything now. Instead he would partake in watching his little eye candy move around the room.

"You're brother wanted to make sure I didn't need anything." Niels answered once Mathias was fully clothed and sitting next to him. Sliding closer to Mathias, he felt that clingy feeling he sometimes had wash over him and placed his head on the Dane's shoulder. "So... what now." his voice was so light and calm. It was a wonder that Niels had managed to go a few weeks without it, especially during the funeral.

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Mathias cocked an eyebrow, "Who, Chris? It's very unlike him," he chuckled, wrapping one arm around Niels' waist and caressed his hip. Christoffer was more the kind of guy to take opportunities and turn everything to his own advantage. Though, he wasn't a bad guy and was, in the end, his little brother…

The Norwegian felt strange all of a sudden… Oh well, he supposed it was related all the movement, the fact they had just arrived in Denmark and he had left his past life for a better future, and Eirik's death… The weird thing would be that he would act as nothing had ever happened.

They opened the bed and Mathias dropped himself on it. It was still pretty early for them to go to bed, "Tomorrow, I'll help ye find a job in town, and I'll start workin' with my dad the next day. We need to find money rapidly if we wanna leave," Mathias said, rubbing his face, "Just if ye're ok with that," he said, looking back at the Norwegian with a slight smirk. Damn… Niels was so beautiful he could eat him at the moment. It felt like no tragedy had hit him recently, and it was a relief in fact…

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Humming softly, Niels wiggled his hand until it was under Mathias' shirt, running his palm over the rough happy trail. "Mmm I'll do anything you want." Niels whispered in a flirtatious easy voice. God he felt so good. It was a shame it was now time to go to bed, for Niels was wide awake and humming with energy.

Eventually Mathias fell asleep while Niels kept running his hand up and down the man's stomach. Eventually he had to get up and do something before he wiggled his way out of the bed. He grabbed a random book off the shelf and unblocked the door before finding the bathroom and read for hours. The sky was turning a pale color before he decided to head back to Mathias, sleeping form.

The cocaine had finally worn off enough that when he saw Mathias tangled in the sheets, his stomach showing, that Niels didn't want to leap on the Dane. No, Niels acknowledged that Mathias was sexy, but his body felt so heavy, it was as if he hadn't taken any of the cocaine. His chest was already starting to constrict with the absence of Eirik. Curling up closer to Mathias, he tried to get warm, but the ache in his chest began to make even his limbs feel cold. For a moment, Niels debated if he should take some more, but he needed sleep and decided against it. So, trying to keep his mind off Eirik, he splayed his hand out over Mathias' chest and hid his face under the man's chin.

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The next morning, the entire family was down at the dining table eating breakfast, like every day before all the older males in the family would go to work. Both Niels and Mathias ate the fastest they could, excusing their eagerness by the fact they needed to go in town before too many people began their day. Which was true. And so, they took the Dane's car after eating and went in Copenhagen central park to park the car somewhere and walk around the town to get Niels' a job. Being far enough from his parents judging eyes, they freely held hands, looking around for whatever could interest the Norwegian.

At the same time, they looked for apartments. They simply looked and memorised some key places where they would go search in the next week.

It was also really nice to simply walk hand in hand like they were a real couple… Mathias personally felt like they were and didn't really need to be told they were to think they were; for him, it was obvious they were now. But he still didn't know the Norwegian's point of view on the subject, though, he didn't really think about it; he assumed it was the same. After all Mathias had done for him, after all they had shared through the last months, he believed they were a couple.

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For Niels, he didn't know if they were or not. They wasn't anything officially said, but he had an affinity towards Mathias that made him not look anywhere else. His brother had died so suddenly that it took the place of making a real relationship. Sure, Mathias had asked once they got the 12000 kroner if they could be a real couple and Niels had agreed to it. But having something so big happen so quickly within their relationship, it shadowed the surety of their status.

Holding hands with Mathias felt great though and Niels decided he would simply let Mathias lead them where he wanted to go. Even looking at apartment buildings was nice. But Niels just wished it didn't take his own brother's death to bring him to this state in his life. For if Eirik were still with him, he would be living in the same place he had been for years, thinking more of his brother than anyone else.

Niels put in as many applications as he could. He even sent a few at fast food places where knowing English would allow him to get by. His Danish understanding capabilities were just THAT poor. It would take a few months to get a hang of the flat language.

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Mathias didn't feel like going back home already and chill the entire day while they would be waiting for the next day to come so they simply hung out around Copenhagen, walking mostly silently hand in hand. Sometimes, Mathias would explain some stuff around, telling some memories he had about certain places, like the spot where he had first kissed a girl in the park, his first job before going to work with his dad even if the man didn't want his first son to work elsewhere than with him, good club and bars around even if he reminded Eirik telling him Niels didn't like those placed.

Anything to pull Niels' mind away, in a peaceful place away from any worries.

They went back to Mathias' parents a little bit before dinner. His father and brothers weren't home yet, which wasn't so surprising; he supposed they were in some downtown bar and would be back very late at night… and so, Mathias knew what would happen that night.

So, that evening, they were alone with the youngest siblings and Mathias' mother. The ambiance wasn't the same at all, it felt a lot calmer despite the youngest children being a lot louder than older ones. The Dane's mother didn't speak a single Norwegian word, and hearing the way Niels was pronouncing his words made her teeth clench. She had problems understanding him, and in the end, Mathias simply translated. At least, Mathias had fewer problems now with Norwegian since he was around it every day with Niels. He was better in this language then English anyway…

Knowing his father would be far for quite a long time, Mathias supposed that if Niels felt up for a little moment alone together, there weren't any problems as long as they kept it down to not alarm the children. Only the idea would bring butterflies to the Dane's stomach. Though, before he could even reach the bedroom and maybe propose it to Niels, his siblings pulled him away for a game with their oldest brother. Laughing, Mathias said to the Norwegian, "Ye can go upstairs if ye want," and got dragged away by his siblings.

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Niels nodded and headed upstairs. Kids were simply annoying. It was funny how life can create loud monsters like Mathias' siblings then produce calm collected children like himself and Eirik. Throwing himself on the couch, Niels felt his feet tingle in relief after spending a whole day on them walking around Copenhagen. Slinging an arm over his eyes, he could hear the shouts and laughter of Mathias chasing his siblings around. Niels felt exhausted but couldn't fall asleep from all the noise of people.

Sitting back up. Niels grabbed Eirik and took the top off finding his stash. Once again, he grabbed the book he used last and dished him up a line. Feeling the relief instantly flood his veins, Niels blinked his watering eyes and shivered. It felt so good. Niels really wanted to thank Mathias' brother. This was a gift from the Gods even though he had to pay Christoffer back.

Replacing Eirik back on the shelf, Niels walked across the room and turned on some music. Laying down he sat there and listened to the music, his whole body going limp as it concentrated on the lyrics and sounds.

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Rapidly, Mathias siblings went sleepy and his mother put them to bed. The Dane had some real talent with children, thus the reason why he wanted to become a teacher instead of working as a carpenter… though, he would have to put his dream on the waiting bench for a while, even certainly for life.

The Dane rapidly jumped up the stairs and opened their bedroom's door. Instantly, Mathias could feel the strange ambiance; the metal music he had very often heard from Niels' younger brother's room, with a relaxed looking Norwegian lied on the bed. Cocking an eyebrow, the Dane smirked and blocked the door, lowering the music's volume as he snaked on the bed to lie next to Niels, "Sorry babe, little sis' are goin' to bed," he almost whispered, looking at the man with a slight grin.

Mathias didn't know and couldn't really notice that Niels had snorted. In his head, the possibility couldn't even be possible in fact. The second they had left Norway, for him, Niels would never touch to that shit again and wouldn't try to do it either. So, seeing the Norwegian like this, in a state he wasn't used to see him, it sure felt weird, but he wasn't automatically connection this with the drug.

Clearing his throat and feeling his stomach nervously twist, Mathias crossed his arms behind his head, "So… wanna…?" he half asked, raising an eyebrow as he peeked on the side at Niels.

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Coming out of his fogginess, Niels focused on Mathias with a hungry look. Sitting up he breathed into Mathias' ear running his lips over his earlobe. His body was pumped full of feel good chemicals which always made Niels up for sex. It was why he had used it as a prostitute. With someone as sexy as Mathias asking him, he couldn't ever so no.

Running his hand devilishly high on the Dane's thigh, Niels whispered, "I don't know, you tell me?"

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Mathias felt like a horny teenager just by the way Niels was touching him. Oh damn, this sex wouldn't feel the same as the second time they had done it, oh no… Why was Niels acting like this? Only God knew at the moment, but the Dane didn't dislike it. He had really enjoyed their loving sex, though, this time, he had the feeling it would be nothing like loving sex.

"Keep it down though," Mathias whispered as he turned the head to give the Norwegian a hot heated kiss, moving one hand on Niels' clothed chest to run his fingers over his nipples and rub them against the fabric of his shirt, rolling on his side for better access. Young men should never lack of sex for too long… in fact, Mathias missed the time, long ago, when he would be in a stable relationship, when he had regular sex, always turning him incredibly pleased and relaxed. Though, recently, while chasing for Niels, he had dismissed his sexual life to catch the man, and now that he had him, well, they still both needed to get checked and he felt bad to try to pull the man into having sex while he was still mourning the loss of his brother.

Though, at the moment, he didn't look any sad at all… Mathias knew it was the best time for that. They would both enjoy it like they never did.

Messing their lips together, the Dane moved on his knee and placed one between Niels's slightly parted legs to rub their upper thigh on each other's crotch while he, kissed the Norwegian with the tip of his lips for their tongues to messily swirl around the other's.

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Crawling onto Mathias' lap, Eirik was the last thing on his mind. Instead his brain was addicted to the way Mathias' wet tongue slide against his and the growing tautness of his own pants. Niels almost felt like the whore he once was, taunting Mathias was the grinding of his hips, though he never kissed one of his clients he kept the same playful manor as he nipped Mathias' lips.

His actions were not like Niels, they never were under the influence. He became carefree and loose. Niels always received a sick pleasure when he was able to tease a man into a hot and panting fit. That was his goal as he hummed happily to Mathias touches on his chest and as he ground himself against the growing lump in Mathias' pants.

Breaking their long kiss, he shivered at Mathias' dark look and red lips. For a moment, Niels had a strong pain of guilt in his stomach. This man beneath him whom had shown him so much attention was being stabbed in the back by Niels' actions. He shouldn't have taken the cocaine, why had he? But he erased those thoughts by kissing him roughly once more.

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Something was weird in Niels' eyes. The short moment they had been staring at each other, Mathias had felt something very unnatural in the way he was looking at him, but he couldn't tell what, and yet, this thought was rapidly chased away by the man's lips back on his and his arms strongly wrapping around his neck. Mathias craved to see the man ride him again, just like the first time they had done it, but he couldn't reduce himself to request it, it wouldn't be right. Even with all that energy coming from Niels, he didn't feel like turning the situation where he would have to put the efforts into the actions.

Mathias snaked his hands under the man's shirt and rolled it up right below his chin to caress his perked nipple. Oh, he could feel Niels felt a little bit less skinny than when they were in Norway, even if it had only been one week since Eirik's death. It was a lot more agreeable to touch him and it gave him shivers. He was endlessly happy to see he was becoming a bit healthier. He really wished he became a little bit chubbier though.

But he just knew how his ass had never lost its chubbiness, or well, not that he had really noticed. So, parting from their very arousing kiss, Mathias flipped Niels on his stomach and made him bend his ass up for he could rub his still clothed groin on it. It didn't take time before Niels got bored of his pants and lowered them, allowing Mathias to do the same with his and, leaning to press his chest on the man's back, his slowly rubbed his length on Niels' butt crack, snaking a hand under him to grab his erection and pump it. He ended pointing at his bag closer to Niels for he would give him the lube and condoms.

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Gladly reaching for the bag, he fumbled it open, his concentration breaking every time he felt Mathias slide his cock between his cheeks. It was deliciously tantalizing and driving him nuts. Managing to get the bag open he tossed the lube and box of condoms up to Mathias before settling on his elbows comfortably. His body was already humming in anticipation and as he heard Mathias open the box Niels rolled his hips up against the man's erection.

When the cold lube began to be spread onto him Niels shivered and biting his lip and he tried to keep his moans and whimpers contained in his throat. But he failed when he felt Mathias add one finger inside his hole. Quickly he bucked his hips to the hand and he heard Mathias shush him. Niels should have declined sex with Mathias, he wasn't in the right state of mind to be quiet. Everything felt good and he just wanted to let out his pleasure threw long and loud moans. Biting the inside of his mouth he tried to calm himself down, but he felt so hot and arousal was painfully needy.

Taking a steady breath Niels commanded smoothly, "Add another." he really didn't need Mathias to go so slow.

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Mathias did as commanded and thrust his two fingers in and out, clenching his fingers on the man's left buttock. Damn it, that man felt so hot and arousing, Mathias felt very very excited to see him react like this and he wished they could simply have loud and hard sex… oh, the Dane would still go rough on Niels since the man seemed in the mood to do it, but he would try to keep the man mostly silent.

The room was plunged into semi darkness due to a little lamp in its corner. The sun had settled down an hour ago and the ambiance with the low metal music was still very arousing.

While adding a third finger, Mathias worked on opening the condom and roll it on his dripping erection. Oh, he couldn't wait to penetrate Niels, he felt so horny at the moment with the man's ass in the air like this begging to be fucked. When Niels actually begged for Mathias to move on, the older male slipped his fingers out, rapidly wiped them on the covers and he leaned forward, using his other hand to clasp his fingers on the Norwegian's mouth as he used his free hand to guide himself between Niels' buttocks and bucked his hips in, completely slipping in.

Mathias knew he wouldn't tough long like this, in this position, especially if Niels was to do muffled screams in his hand and wiggle as the Dane's hand would work on the Norwegian's neglected erection. But he would hold back the best he could, and in the end, he would certainly simply change the position… but like this, Niels' ass felt really comfortable as he would quite rapidly thrust in and out, brusquely stopping his hips with each contact with the man's soft ass.

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Somehow, having Mathias' hand clamped over his mouth was making Niels go nuts. Mathias would drill into him a tad too rough and Niels would try to gasp through his mouth only to have the oxygen cut off. It made his heart beat twice as fast as it should. But it was a good thing that mouth was there for Niels was letting out his moans without much control. The vibrations of voice tickled his lips as he thrust his hips out.

Everything felt wonderful and he wanted to melt into the couch below him. Before he could settle onto his stomach, Mathias was pulling Niels onto his lap, changing the position. Lazily, Niels sat on his knees as he leaned back into his chest. Once again Mathias clamped his hand over his mouth, quieting him. It felt so good to sit there and have his cock stroked and feeling Mathias' heaving chest against his back.

Removing the hand for just a second, Niels reached back to kiss Mathias sloppily. Seconds later he began to move with the Dane, rolling his hips sharply. Before Mathias could clamp his hand back over his mouth Niels demanded a tad loudly, "Dear god why haven't we done this more often?"

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Mathias rarely had this good of a fuck in his life. Maybe it was because the sex was simply really good, maybe it was because he was with a man or even a man he really deeply liked, maybe because they were trying to stay subtle and silent because of ears that could hear them… however, it felt endlessly good. They had rapidly turned sweaty, especially the Dane. Mathias always sweated like a fountain when having sex or, well, making any physical effort. He would not necessarily stink, but rapidly become wet.

Shakily chuckling at the Norwegian's question, he continued to buck his hips hard and deep as he kept the pumping of Niels' erection, "I wonder, mh?" he simply whispered into the man's ear, cocking an eyebrow. The answer was obvious; Niels would always come back with tons of people having passed over him… Mathias didn't want to be one of the many men who had slipped their dirty erection into the Norwegian's ass. Simply knowing his lover had been selling his body was deeply saddening him.

But Mathias had always been the guy who didn't like to look in the past and kept his eyes on the present instant, which one being the two of them having a really good fuck. It didn't feel like two lovers making love, but they both didn't care, especially Niels it seemed. Though, the whole thing felt different. Mathias didn't have much experience with Niels in the first place, still being able to count the times they had done it on the fingers of one hand only. But still… even when horny, he knew the Norwegian wasn't like this. He wouldn't be like this, he was too shy. It was like every little barrier that kept him from doing things he would normally maybe want to do but wouldn't were erased.

Mathias dropped himself on his back, taking the Norwegian with him, pressed on his chest, and moved his hips harder and deeper, the best he could, while holding his hips with one hand and keeping his hand close to Niels' mouth to hide it whenever he would make a too loud sound.

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Ah yes, Niels history of course would come and bite him in the butt with Mathias. How the man could date an ex-prostitute was beyond him. Niels could never sleep with Mathias if he had been his shoes even with a condom. The fear of getting STDs would weigh too heavily on his mind. Sure, Niels knew he had a high risk of having at least one sexually transmitted disease, though luckily he wasn't showing any signs, but that didn't mean he was a prude about it. But knowing that Mathias, he didn't sleep with him as often as Niels now was craving and it bugged him.

It was the incentive he needed to march his butt down to the nearest clinic and get tested. The deeper and better Mathias' thrusts got the more Niels wanted to experience these touches with the man. The sex was rough, making Niels arch his back with each slapping sound of skin on skin. Not to mention the delicious strokes of Mathias' rough hand along this length. Sure, Niels wouldn't want sex like this with Mathias if he hadn't been high. His body would recoil from this roughness and instead of arching his hips towards Mathias' thrusting hips, Niels would be doing everything to distance his ass from Mathias' abuse.

But that was the benefit of cocaine, he could take a lot of things and enjoy them as well. Not to mention last awhile longer too. As much as he loved having Mathias cover his mouth and keep him quiet while being fucked brutally, Niels' drugged mind had other plans. So he forced Mathias to change positions yet again making him sit up straight before straddling Mathias and taking him back inside. Eager to kiss the man comfortably as he lowered and rode the man, Niels began to curb his eager moans. Breaking the kiss he began to whisper filthy nonsense into the man's ear as he picked up the pace, feeling the burning in his thighs and the wonderful approaching peak of his pleasure. Taking cocaine was bad, but Niels wished he could say these words while sober. But he simply couldn't, he wasn't that type of man.

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Fuck, it was like Niels wanted the Dane to cum super fast with all his eager and fast movements. Well, if it was his main goal, he would soon complete his mission! Mathias was slightly wiggling in discomfort as he tried the best he could to swallow his orgasm, slowing down his own movements to breathe, but Niels didn't seem to catch the message and still stayed the sexiest he could as he rode the Dane like no one had ever ridden him. Even with the damn rubber, it felt amazing.

Speaking of which, Mathias, a bit panicked, verified the condom's position and sighed in relief as he saw it was still in place despite the really hard, rapid and deep movements he had made from the very beginning. Yes, having sex with Niels was very stressful for that. Unless he got tested and came back with positive news, he would feel a lot better using 2 layers of condom. In fact, if he could, he would boil the man to be sure that anything he could have caught was dead. He could have anything… Mathias didn't really know if Niels had made his partners wear a condom each times, especially since he would be trashed every time he did something with them… in fact, oral sex could be dangerous, but Mathias had already made this mistake at least twice with the Norwegian, and he was scared enough to also get tested.

And damn, he wished they could make love without condom soon… it was only a breaking mood thing and he would feel a lot more stuff without it. It was already amazing, but without it, he would have already cum and get the satisfaction of watching his seed leak from his partner's ass. But no; he would have to fill a piece of plastic instead.

Now, he was the one who had to muffle his moans. Being so damn close to his climax and often brushing it, Mathias had problems to breathe and control the heretic sounds coming out of his panting mouths. It was annoying, really annoying, but he wanted it to last a lot longer.

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Watching Mathias come undone was the icing on the cake. Niels could easily go on for a little while longer, but knowing that Mathias was at his wits end Niels needed to push himself closer to his own orgasm. Leaning back on one arm, Niels had the pleasure of watching Mathias heave inconsistent breaths while having the wonderful view of his own cock being stroked. Between the fiery look in Mathias' eyes to watching the man buck up every time Niels brought his hips down were enough to make himself close.

Wrapping his own fingers around Mathias', Niels began to stroke himself with Mathias, all the while he kept his hips moving at a rapid pace. And the sounds that were coming from Mathias' lips were driving him nuts. He really did wish they did this more often. Mathias looked simply amazing to him with or without cocaine. Biting his lips he could feel the hot sensation boiling in his loins. Niels was going nuts, his body wanted to come but his drug was making it difficult. The huge downside to cocaine was biting him in the ass. No matter how fast he moved his hand or hips, his body kept at the same mind curdling pressure.

The fact that he was hiding his cocaine inside of Eirik's urn should have been a warning sign that Niels needed to get off drugs, but yet another sign was rearing its ugly head. Sure, in the past with clients Niels would never finish himself during a session because it was too tedious. Not to mention he had zero interest in the people he slept with for profit. But it wasn't and shouldn't be the same with Mathias. His body should have orgasm a long time ago when Mathias' started making low soft moans. But he simply couldn't.

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Mathias couldn't hold back longer. He waited for Niels to cum before him , being a way to assure him he was making a good job, but damn it, it was too fucking long and he had already stopped himself two times by pressing on the base of his erection to stop the sperm from spreading out. He was deadly exhausted and only wanted his final relief.

Giving one last effort into pumping Niels the fastest he could while making an almost furious grunt, he climaxed, feeling like his loins had just exploded from the intense pleasure as he dropped his head backward and bit inside his hand to stop himself from being too loud. He slowly decreased the speed of his movements, being cut by spasms of pleasure, and gave Niels a flushed look. He frowned, seeing the man hadn't cum yet.

"Damn Niels," he whispered, trying to continue bucking his hips despite the big orgasm he had just come through. His muscles were not responding well enough and he had to change of hand to masturbate the man. Though, it wasn't a really good idea to continue with the rubber still on, and without noticing, it ripped.

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Feeling the less tired hand around his erection, Niels slid his eyes shut focusing on the hand. His breath began to quicken as he tried to loosen his body and go into orgasm. After a few minutes, Niels stiffened before he his cum poured into Mathias hand. His body felt light and tingly from his body being in such a sexual tense state for so long. Leaning forward, Niels kissed Mathias fervently.

Panting Niels decided that he should not snort up just before sex any time soon, his body felt so sore. Mathias was soaked in sweat, which was amusing considering he just got out of the shower. Slipping off the man he let out a wonderful sigh, stretching his cramped legs. Niels smiled contently for a few moments, feeling the man's seed leak from his ass. But, he knew that Mathias was going to be extremely horrified at any moment.

Looking over his shoulder, he could see Mathias sitting in semi darkness with his head bowed. "Sorry." he whispered softly but not with all that much concern. No he felt too good to worry over anything. Besides he'd sucked the man off, Mathias had sucked him off, if they were going to catch anything they would have already caught it. That and it wasn't Niels who was worrying, rather it was Mathias.

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The moment Niels had moved away from him and he had felt drips of cum end their fall on his stomach, Mathias had rapidly sat up to look at the destroyed condom still hanging on him limping erection. He opened wide eyes and felt his body tremble for a moment. Yes, yes, they already had oral sex in the past and yes, he could already have caught some stuff this way, but at least, he still had a chance to not catch anything by there…

And the way Niels seemed completely off about it deeply bugged him. He almost felt hurt by it.

Without a word, the Dane stretched to take some tissue and cleaned his dick, removed the ripped used robber, rolled it into paper and threw them in the trashcan. Tomorrow, the second he would come back from work, he would go in a clinic to get tested, no matter what. He couldn't wait longer now. Even if in Mathias' head Niels and he would stay together for a really long moment, chances were that they could part one day and the Dane would sleep with other people, other guys or other women and he could give them his diseases, if diseases he had.

Bitterly, he lied on his back and wiped his sweaty forehead in a grunted sigh, avoiding looking at the Norwegian. Oh, it wasn't his fault… he shouldn't be mad at him, but it was like he was. He didn't like his attitude; it wasn't like he had waited for him to be all sorry for him and cling on his arm, promising they would get tested the next day… but whatever. He was pissed, exhausted, tired, irritated… he had been there for Niels all this time and the man couldn't even have a sincere sorry look on his face.

It wasn't his fault anyway… Mathias should have pulled out and only finish with his hands… Still, he felt extremely bitter, tensed and selfish, which he didn't like and made him feel even worse.

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Oh Mathias was mad, but Niels was too high to care. His body felt good and light and he wanted to cling onto the feeling. No one mattered at the moment, not Mathias and not even Eirik, just his pure bliss. Besides, what did Mathias want to hear? How Niels used a condom each time for his clients? Well when he could he did, but there were those times that his clients had slipped Niels some weird drug and a condom was the last thing on his mind. Then sometimes, there were the inevitable things that would happen such as a broken condom.

He knew he was being cruel to Mathias, but the Dane would have to either deal with what Niels was or move on. A painful pain clutched his chest at the thought. If Mathias left him, Niels would be alone. Letting the feel good hormones wear off Niels clambered onto the bed before collapsing next to Mathias and pulling the blankets above their naked forms. When Niels thought of being alone, he still imagined that he would have Eirik somewhere secretly in his life. Even then and now he could not imagine being totally alone. It wasn't that Niels didn't mind solitude, but it was still unnerving to know that Mathias was officially all that he had.

The cocaine was making it impossible to take the situation serious, no matter how much he tried. Niels even selfishly wrapped and arm around Mathias and snuggled his nose into the Dane's sweaty and flower scented hair. Whispering behind the man's ear, Niels muttered his tomorrow plans as if it were little consequence, "Leave the directions to the nearest clinic in the morning." he didn't need to divulge if he was being tested or not, that was a personal problem.

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Mathias sighed and nodded, allowing the man to snuggle while turning on his side to wrap an arm around him. Would he always be like this? Uncaring? It bugged Mathias to a level he had never really considered before. It was stupid, it was a little something that normally wouldn't annoy him… but it was still playing with his health. And if his parents were to find out about them? Was Niels so unattached to him? Maybe the Dane was simply just meaning nothing to the Norwegian in the end… maybe was he speaking the truth.

No, it was ridiculous. Mathias shoved the dark thoughts away, thinking it was no time to get into confusing thoughts. He had to think about the man's well being. Damn, he just had lost his only family and was forced to leave his home to go live in a stranger's family, abandoning his past life in the same way. He thought it was slightly normal that he would act like this. Mathias had to be understanding, but still, rethinking about the present event made the Dane's heart beat a tad faster in a really unpleasant way, just like someone was pinching on it.

Caressing the man's face, Mathias pecked his lips several times before going to shut off the music and the lamp. Tomorrow would be a big day on the building site for Mathias, and he would have to flee to the clinic right after and find some excuse to tell his father. Though, before coming back in the bed, the Dane rummaged into his luggage and fetched two pajama pants and gave one to Niels. Oh, he really disliked sleeping clothed, but he simply knew what would happen during the night; his father wasn't back yet…

And just as he had expected, several hours later when they were both deeply asleep, they got woken up by the clash of glasses on the first floor, and without even thinking, Mathias was up on his feet and running downstairs, telling Niels to stay there.

Downstairs, his father was threatening his mother with a broken bottle, yelling her how deep of a whore she was and stupid drunken stuff like these, and Mathias was rapidly trying to hold back his father from harming his mom, helped by Christoffer, while their younger brother, Jan, was taking his mother away. Before they could calm the very strong drunken man, both sons received several fists blows and Mathias was cut on the shoulder by the broken bottle.

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Niels jumped to his feat when he heard Mathias engage with his father. He obeyed Mathias by staying in the room, even though it sounded as if the whole house was being broken apart down below. A strong fear began to thrum in his chest when the father of the family started spitting death threats. Niels knew that those type of drunks said those things as no empty threat.

When Mathias appeared in their room once again, the house back to its calm and quiet atmosphere, Niels almost came undone on the Dane. "You made me move from Norway to live in a house with a violent drunk?" he said flatly, but Niels was actually more worried than mad. Spotting his cut, Niels took a shaky breath before leading the Dane to the bed. "Idiot..." a brave idiot. Niels probably wouldn't get in the way of his drunken dad for his mother. But, then again he didn't care for his parents.

Telling Mathias to sit there, Niels went into the bathroom searching high and low for medical supplies, which he found under the sink. Returning to the Dane, he began to clean the cut as carefully as possible.

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Mathias was still pumped with adrenaline and rage from the recent fight with his father. He remembered a time when Christoffer was still too young to help him steady his dad and he had to fight the man alone; he would have come back to Niels with a lot more than a simple cut on the shoulder. His dad had certainly broken his nose more than thrice along with some ribs and once or twice his arm. But in that time, when he was younger, all these fights were rarer. Now, for what he had heard from Chris, it came at least once a week, if not more.

Slightly hissing as he felt the burning medicine bubble on his wound, the Dane slightly smirked, "Sorry… We won't stay for long, I promise…" he whispered, tenderly caressing the Norwegian's cheek. He had almost added 'This is nothing' concerning the cut, but he didn't want the man to worry or ask more about his past or whatever he would do. He couldn't bear grudge against his father for his past violent actions toward him. What was done was done and he could never change it, neither did he want to lose connection with his family for such things. It wasn't his mother's fault, it wasn't his siblings' fault… neither his, he believed.

"It only happens when he comes back from down town's pub late after work," he précised, letting Niels put a bandage on his wound and dispose of the medical stuff, "And he never gets up the stairs, so, ye don't have to worry," he reassured the Norwegian as he lied back on the mattress, pulling the pajama pants off. Haaa, yeah, that was better. Now that he had no more worries, he could go back to his old nakedness habits.

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Niels cuddled up close to Mathias, feeling better about his answer. He really didn't want to be in this house much longer that was crawling with kids and apparently had a drunken and abusive father. Niels tried to get his mind off of it all, but the cocaine was wearing off and the negative feelings were coming back. Slowly he stroked Mathias' stomach feeling the contrast of smooth to rough. The small motions and quietness of the room began to lull him back to sleep. Before he fully passed out, Niels kissed Mathias temple. When he wasn't on drugs, he felt deep caring for the man. But he wasn't one to show it.

Slipping asleep Niels slept unrelenting until morning. When he woke, he saw Mathias' side of the bed empty. The Dane had already left for work but the directions he asked for were waiting for him on the table along with a cool plate of food. Mathias was very self conscious about Niels gaining weight. He ate it despite being cold and quickly dressed not wanting to be around the children for long.

Going to the clinic he had to wait awhile before being accepted. To say the least, it was the most rough moment of his life. Nothing like taking a urine test, having his blood taken, a q-tip shoved up his urethra, and having his anus prodded. The whole time he had to bite his lip to keep himself from slapping the nurse away. Under his breath he wanted to mutter how Mathias wasn't worth it.

By the end of the day, the nurse called him back in saying that they found major traces of cocaine in his urine and they wanted to inspect his nose. Tilting his head back, it wasn't any news to him when they informed him that the stuff was deteriorating the cartilage between his nostrils. The nurse advised that he quite. Niels simply ignored.

To say the least he was happy when he walked back to Mathias' parent's house to find that the Dane's father's truck was home.

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Mathias had planned to go to the clinic right after work to get tested for STDs. After the oh so good sex with Niels that had ended in a broken rubber, he was very nervous about the chance of having caught something from the former prostitute. Though, when he was about to walk back out and take his car, Niels was back. He wanted to know first. In the hallway while his family was busy chitchatting in the kitchen as usual, Mathias looked at Niels with a caring frown and simply said, "Wasn't that bad, mh?" though, he knew how disagreeable those tests were, having already passed them in the past before each of his stable relationships.

"Got anythin' yet?" he asked, putting a hand on the handle, nervous as he was ready to rapidly leave and make his tests. At least, the Dane would risk being a little less nervous if he knew some of Niels' results now… or even more, depending.

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"I'm clear for about five different STDs, I should have everything back by next week. The nurse said I seemed healthy and had a low chance of having anything in her eyes. Though I didn't tell her I was prostitute." he said blandly before walking over to the Dane and grabbing his hand, hidden by the car from the house. Niels squeezed his hand in comfort, even though he wanted to slip around the Dane's neck and kiss him.

It was odd that he actually thought of such things. Since when had he become so... close to Mathias. Probably since his brother's death. Dark moments in people's lives often brought people together. Yet Niels felt like not revealing his serious issue with his nasal canal. He would keep that to himself. "Good luck, I'm sure you're clean." he murmured softly before leaving, feeling hungry and he could smell dinner inside.

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With a slight smirk, Mathias watched Niels go back inside the house before slipping inside the car and leaving for the clinic. Everything went alright, except the fact that peeing for the urinal test, just like in the morning when he had taken his morning piss, was pretty painful and the nurse, informing herself on the Dane's sexual habits, told him it was normal he had caught such things due to the anus not being a really germs and bacteria clear area. Many guys having unprotected anal sex would contract urinal infections. He had a simple urinal infection, though, she still had to make sure it wasn't due to some STDs he could have contracted.

Outside of that, he passed the other tests while making stupid jokes to smooth the atmosphere and chase his nervousness. He came back home with antibiotics he had to take every day for three days.

He seemed clear just like Niels had told him, but that urinal infection was bugging him; he really wished it wasn't related to some STDs… His family had already eaten, and supposing Niels hadn't dared coming down to eat alone with his entire family, Mathias prepared them both a plate and went up. In the room, he gave a warm plate to the Norwegian, and sitting on the bed right in front of him, he fished in his pocket for the pill bottle and threw it at the man, taking a bite of his food.

He wore a mocking corner grin to show the man he wasn't mad, but still rather nervous about it.

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Niels picked up the bottle his heart hammering thinking that Mathias was on pills for an STD only turning it over to read that it was for urinary infection. Tossing it back at Mathias roughly, he feigned an angry face. But, he let out a small smirk before too long and began to eat. Though, Niels had eaten earlier, the good had been good and he didn't mind the second helping. Besides, he wasn't high at the moment.

"I take it once we confirmed we're both clean you will be wearing a condom?"

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The Dane feigned to be in deep thought as he munched on his mouthful and took the pills to look at them, "Well, this only lasts three days, and I don't think I might catch one each times we'll have sex sooo… nope, no condoms. It'll be worth it anyway," Mathias said with an amused smirk, finishing his plate hungrily. He was still wearing his work clothes full or dust and plaster. Dear God he needed a shower and he would love to take one with the Norwegian… but well.

"Well, unless ye're against me not usin' condoms in yer beautiful clean-from-any-disease ass…" he said mockingly, looking up at the man as he took one of the antibiotics now and put the rest on his discarded bag.

Discarding his plate on the floor, the Dane sighed and plopped himself right next to Niels, dropping himself on his back, "Personally, I don't wanna be stuck with those unfaithful pieces of rubber if we're clean and are to make love on a regular basis…" he said with his eyes closed and a childish pout.

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Niels looked at Mathias a moment, taking in that pout. Shaking his head how the Dane could still look sexy. And if he agreed, Niels would officially tying himself to Mathias for a long stable relationship. It'd been too long and he felt all of a sudden not so sure with himself. But blame the pouting lip, Niels nodded slightly. "Ya, sure." he said neutrally before leaning over and capturing that protruding bottom lip with his own.

"But don't you think having sex here is a tad risky." It was a wonder that they hadn't been caught the previous night. Niels hadn't been exactly quiet and in the end, neither had Mathias. It made Niels want to move out quicker. But at the same time he felt nervous about the whole thing. The relationship, the type of sex, the possibility of getting an apartment together. God he needed something to calm his nerves. Niels looked up at the shelf above them, knowing Eirik and his cocaine inside were near.

He couldn't stop taking the stuff. It was too much of a help for Niels.

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"Ya," Mathias said with a cocky grin, kissing Niels again of the lips. He looked up at him, observing the beauty he had leaned on him. Oh, the Dane didn't know if it was love he was feeling for the Norwegian, but it was something dangerously brushing the idea. He really cared for him, for unknown reasons. At the very beginning, all he did for him were out of him wanting to get his attention, to be acknowledged by the man… but now, it was really out of deep affections. He truly wanted Niels to be happy, but especially to be happy with him. Not knowing what were the other male's feelings toward him were making him rather nervous, and he was always really confused about his jumpy personality.

The last night, Niels had been deeply horny but uncaring, selfish… and there, he was all snugly and didn't wear the same look he had the last night. He looked sincere, yet bashful sometimes and it was adorable. He liked both sides, but it was still very confusing. And yet, he felt it wasn't normal…

"Yeah it is…" he finally said. Oh… the last thing he wanted was one of his siblings catching him while having sex with Niels, or even worse his dad. Though… he sincerely didn't know how far it could go if his father would catch them, and sincerely, he didn't want to test him.

"We can always… dunno… try to doing it durin' the night, mh?" he proposed, slipping a hand to support his head on the mattress and moved a hand up to caress Niels' cheek.

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Leaning into his touch Niels gave him a coy smile. "As long as you take a shower." he said lightly before rubbing some of the paint off Mathias' hand. Niels wouldn't lie though, he loved dirty men who worked hard. Everything about Mathias screamed that. If they had not been staying at his parents' house, Niels would have assaulted the man as soon as he walked through the door. There a few things that could get Niels' pulse humming and Mathias held a few of those qualities.

He leaned down and kissed Mathias before standing and taking their empty plates. "Go hop in the shower, I'll take these down stairs." he ordered more than offered a suggestion.

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Deeply sighing, Mathias did just as ordered and jumped in the shower.

Downstairs were most of the family in the living room watching some sitcom and laughing all at the same time on good moments. Christoffer was in the kitchen pouring himself a glass of milk just when Niels was coming down with the plates. The Dane rapidly looked at the man and greeted him with a sign of the head as he put the milk aside and looked behind the Norwegian. Seconds later, he heard the shower run upstairs and he knew his brother was in it.

"Life's good?" he asked uninterested, putting the milk back in the fridge, "How's the job searchin'?" he asked more interested as he sipped on his drink, leaning on the counter.

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Niels shrugged, "Alright I guess. I'm still searching." he answered smoothly knowing that Christoffer really was asking if he had a job yet and money. Niels really hoped he found one soon. He needed to be able to support his addiction. No doubt Mathias' brother would not give him another bag free. That meant even though he had an urge to take some now, he would be skipping out on his cocaine tonight. He needed it to last until he got the money to pay Christoffer and to pay for the next bag.

"I'll have to admit, what you gave me is high quality." he complimented the brother as much as he could. Niels felt simply awkward around the drug dealer that was also the man he was sleeping with brother.

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Christoffer let out a soft chuckle, downing his drink and wiping his mouth, "Ya, they don't cut it with shit," he said, walking to return to the living room, "Tell me when ye get a job," he said as he waved the man goodnight. If Niels could become one of his regular clients, Christoffer was a winner in this story.

That night, when Mathias and Niels tried to have sex, the Dane couldn't do anything due to a really uncomfortable pain in his urethra. The nurse had told him that with the pills he would take, the symptoms should fade after one day, and thus, the horny couple had to wait a complete day, craving for each other, before being able to do anything. Still, Mathias gave Niels a blowjob to sooth his partner's desire. They had to muffle his sounds with a pillow for he wouldn't wake up his younger siblings right next to his room.

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