Once again all of my love to Sascake for beta'ing this and to petrichorus for leaving me such a nice pm this morning!


Niels was glad when he could finally shut off his computer and leave. Of course, he was doing his best to comply and go home directly after work. Sleep had been nipping at his heels all day and with his dull job, it was a wonder he was able to stay awake the whole time. As usual, he had to put up Thomas' snide remarks; something about how he looked like shit and shouldn't stay up doing make up sex with Mathias. God, he had been so tired Niels hadn't even fully comprehended the Dutch man.

Thus, he happily left his work place, jogging down to the bus stop trying to catch an earlier bus than he usually got. Sliding into a seat towards the back, he texted Mathias telling him he was on the bus home. Niels felt relieved to know that nothing had gotten in his way of going home. He knew that Mathias wanted him home, probably to talk and do something. Niels tried to concentrate on what it could possibly be, but before he knew it, his eyes closed and he fell fast asleep.

It was only when he his phone went off did he jerk awake. Looking around, Niels recognized none of the buildings and got off at the next stop to find his way back. Of course, Mathias' text was angry and full of 'where was he' and honestly, Niels didn't know where he was at. Trying to explain himself, he told Mathias that he had fallen asleep on the bus and was only 30 minutes from home. But he had failed to come straight home, and no doubt Mathias would be upset. Running a hand threw his hair, Niels sighed roughly and wanted to rip all his hair out.

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Mathias no doubt thought Niels had only done as usual and sent him a reassuring text only to soothe him… but still. He waited. He waited for Niels to come back. He didn't plan to speak with him, no. He planned something else.

He wandered around the apartment, staring at his damn phone, waiting for Niels to come back home. He looked around, replaced stuff, and even went to Eirik's urn to grab it and examine it. Poor boy… each time he looked at the little blue urn his heart painfully squeezed. No doubt Niels would think about that day everyday. It was his little brother, and only family, after all…

And yet, Mathias didn't realise that all the answers of his worries were there, right in his hands. Regardless, he put the urn back on its stand and continued to wander around.

Finally, around forty-five minutes later, Niels showed up and the Dane had to push his anger away, for he really didn't want to waste the time he had with him.

Without a word, Mathias walked to the Norwegian and gently helped him remove his coat, then took his hands to drag him into the bedroom. He was more than glad they now had a bed for themselves- it was nothing extreme, but it was perfect for them. Mathias had made the bed a little before, and slowly, he made Niels sit on the edge to kneel astride him, sitting on his knees.

He gave Niels a warm look with a tender smile and held his head with his two hands to make the Norwegian's head drop backward so he could massage his neck and scalp. The Dane leaned forward to kiss his lover's chin and whispered, "Don't force anythin'… please…", making his best to caress him slowly, slow enough to be agreeable and just the right pace for he wouldn't flip out of impatience… or he wished he wouldn't.

And then, he kissed his well exposed neck with the tip of his lips and tongue. He was slightly trembling, for all his muscles were tensed, but he kept the slow movement of his fingers in Niels' hair and neck. He kept one hand holding his head while the other cupped his cheek and brushed his thumb over Niels' eyes, skin and lips while he kissed further down, parting his shirt as he kissed right between his collarbones.

"Just enjoy…"

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Out of all of the things that Niels had speculated on the way home, this was not one of them. Leaning back and letting Mathias wander his body with kisses and touches were wiping away all the sleepiness he once possessed. Now, all he could do was sit back and experience Mathias' attention as his body started to flush. Sitting up, he watched Mathias open his shirt up even more, his pink tongue flicking over his skin. Niels took in several, quick deep breaths as his body jumped in reaction.

Why was Mathias doing this? Niels thought, confused. For the past week or so they had been fighting non-stop and Niels had failed to do as he was told. Even though he was enjoying every moment of this, he felt apprehensive and unsure. No matter the pleasure Mathias was giving, Niels felt totally lost. It took everything in him to not demand an explanation. Luckily, these thoughts melted away when he felt Mathias' hot tongue roll over one of his nipples. Taking in more deep breaths, Niels decided that instead of sitting there trying to figure out Mathias, he should react.

Timidly, he placed one of his hands in Mathias' hair and pushed the man's head further south, but gently. The tips of his fingers brushed behind the man's ear before sliding down his neck in soft movements similar to the ones Niels was receiving, and arched his body when Mathias' rough hand brushed over his ribs and sides. Swallowing thickly, Niels tried to bite back his moans as he started to becoming startling turned on.

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Mathias' body jolted in surprise when he felt Niels trying to give him the same treatment, and softly sighed against his skin. He felt numb, but continued to slowly roll his tongue over the man's perked nipple, gently nipping and sucking on the very sensitive area while both his hands caressed his now nude back and sides. He didn't remove the shirt though and kept it on… he didn't want to brusque things, as they really needed to go slowly.

If they were to skip a step, everything would fall again like a house of cards. Their relation was basically standing on eggs, and Mathias truly hoped that they would both come out stronger after this little… love session.

Mathias switched to Niels' other nipple to give it the same treatment while one of his hands snaked in front of the man's pants to unbutton them, though he didn't push them down yet. Instead, he helped Niels lie on his back, pulling him higher on the bed and helped him remove his shirt. Giving him a loving look, he kept staring at him as he grabbed the rim on his pants and pulled them down along with his underwear, revealing his half-erect member but not giving it any attention. No; he simply continued pulling the pants down until they were on the floor.

Mathias then knelt over Niels and looked at his body for what seemed like an endless amount of time before smiling. He was happy to see how he had grown a tad healthier, though still not enough for him. Sitting on Niels' lap while the man was lying on his back, Mathias ran his hands over his pale skin, caressing every single inch of his body in soothing strokes. He leaned down on him to press their lips together as he snaked his hands under him, giving his back long strokes.

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Niels was becoming drunk off of Mathias' touches. The kiss made Niels jolt in a hot pleasure as Mathias pressed their lips together firmly. Everything in Niels body were crying out for him to link his hands behind Mathias' head and push their lips roughly together, but he didn't simply to the fact he was enjoying the light, teasing kisses. Quickly, Niels began to join in with the kissing, lazily brushing his lips against the Dane's and snaking out his tongue to taste the other man's lips.

He loved the feeling, but his heart began to beat furiously as he became increasingly unsure on what to do. It was clear that Mathias wanted to go slow, but it occurred Niels he never had, not even on his very first time. Laying back he simply looked up at Mathias, seeing the happy, lopsided smile. But Niels couldn't shake off his wide eyed stare and his slightly parted lips. Cautiously, he ran his hands over Mathias' clothed shirt, down his arms then back up to his neck. The nervousness that he felt started to become more defined as Niels concluded that for the first time in his sexual history, he didn't know what to do. In this area, Niels was inexperienced.

Stroking Mathias' face and just looking at him seemed unnatural and clumsy. Niels was half glad when Mathias leaned down and captured his lips once again in a more heated way before departing and going a little further down.

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Mathias was more than happy to see how receptive Niels was, how he didn't protested and seemed to want more of what his lover wanted to give him. And this innocent look on his face worth everything in the world: he looked like a fourteen- or fifteen-year-old teenager who was having his first time with a more experienced man and didn't know what to do. This soothed Mathias' feeling about the fact he thought Niels had never made love with anyone before.

He couldn't believe Niels had always sold his body and he had actually believed that before doing so, Niels once led a very normal life…

But instead of continuing further down, Mathias lay on his side next to Niels and kept the loving look on him while he moved one hand over his chest and stomach, making slow, soothing circles to caress his skin. He went to brush his finger in the other male's happy way, all the way up and down it to brush his pubic hair, but kept the touches sensual yet chaste. Just like with a woman… he knew it was a tad weird trying to do the same on a man, but it seemed to work… no doubt he was probably already being impatient, but Mathias still wanted to keep things slow.

He leaned to kiss Niels again in a more heated kiss. His hand gripped his hip and stroked it as he pushed himself into a kneeling position again until their lips and tongues parted, and he placed himself between the man's legs. Mathias stroked Niels's legs from his hips to his knees in long and strong strokes, making his fingers brush his butt each time. He wandered his gaze over Niels' nude body, continually returning to his eyes. He was so glad he simply looked normal for a change… he was happy he had requested him to come back home right after work even if it didn't really happened…

The Dane lifted his lover's legs up against his stomach to have access to his exposed butt, and with one free hand that wasn't holding his legs, he groped his soft buttocks, gently clenching his fingers into its tender flesh and massaged it. Damn, he just loved his ass… it was so perfect. Mathias was also slowly being turned on, but all his touches seemed a lot more effective on the Norwegian who had a pre-cum puddle on his stomach. He hadn't even touched it, nor gave it any attention, and still wouldn't.

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Biting his lip, Niels tried to get a hold of himself but his whole body shivered from the light touches. During one of Mathias' many sweeps of his body, Niels broke out in goosebumps and moved his hand to touch his painfully abused erection only to have his hand slapped away. Now that Mathias began to stroke his ass, Niels was at full attention. His body began to shake in anticipation of Mathias brushing his fingers against his hole. But, just like his neglected member, it never came.

Sighing in frustration, Niels tried to cool himself down and let Mathias have his way. Instead he kept his eyes on the Dane, watching Mathias as he looked down on him in a way that made Niels blush. When Mathias turned his head to kiss the sensitive spot behind his knee, the man kept his eyes on Niels. The red hot sensation flooded to his cheeks as he kept wrapped himself up with the view. Enraptured by the darting tongue of Mathias, Niels found himself looking forward to every twist and dip of the muscle. It almost kept Niels' mind off the growing pressure in his groin as it faded into the background, adding to the excitement of watching Mathias mouth move up and down his thighs, getting close to his hipbones then fleeing back up to his calves.

"My god, Mathias." Niels choked on the words.

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Oh yes, he was getting impatient- in a way, Mathias was enjoying himself looking at Niels slightly twist in arousal and still not being able to satisfy himself in the way he was used to. The Dane was certainly willing to teach him other ways to sexually satisfy himself in the same way he always did; by satisfying his partner.

Backing up, Mathias sensually removed his shirt by passing it over his head, messing even more with his rebellious blond hair. Electric blue eyes stared right back at the Norwegian, furnished by a cheeky grin. He replaced Niels' legs and knelt astride him again to grab his hands and brush their fingers and palms on one another. Hands were too often neglected during sex, but to be honest, it was probably the most sensitive area of the human body. Caressing each other's hands sent shivers down Mathias' body and he silently chuckled as he stared at their hands.

And then, Mathias brought Niels' hands to lie on his sides and made them move up and down his ribs and hips. As the Norwegian understood and made the slow stroking movements, the Dane shivered and let out a satisfied sound. While Niels was caressing him, he reached for his own pants and unbuttoned them. He then pushed himself down the bed to stand in front of it, and, staring Niels in the eye, slowly pushed his pants down, leaving his boxers on as he shrugged the jeans off and kicked them away. He did the same with the boxers, in lot more teasing way. They could clearly see his erection through the fabric of the underwear, and he made it even more obvious when he pulled on the cloth to pull the arousal to the horizontal until it sprung back up when the boxers were low enough to reveal it fully, and he discarded them.

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Niels felt like crying because of how teasingly good Mathias was. When Mathias had finally discarded his boxers, Niels couldn't help but stare hungrily at the man's cock. Licking his lips, he knew Mathias wouldn't allow him to touch that area yet. As Mathias slid onto the bed, the look in his eyes confirmed it. Once Mathias was hovering above Niels, he couldn't help but to reach up and kiss him in the most eager way. Usually Niels would do this to speed things up to the main course, sex. But tonight he was kissing Mathias with such a passionate force because he wanted to enjoy the man. Slipping his tongue inside, Niels let out a throaty moan as he started to caress the now bare shoulders.

Everything felt so wonderful under his hands, almost like his brain was paying attention to detail. Breaking the heated kiss, Niels tried to go back to the more reserved pace, keeping his touches light as he trailed them down Mathias sides and down to his ass. At the same time, Niels kissed and sucked on Mathias' neck, leaving small red marks. He had an urge to cover Mathias' body with these marks but with the Dane on top and playing with his chest, Niels was trapped. It didn't help that he desperately wanted to touch himself, just so he could feel some sort of relief. Mathias' body grazed the tip of his erection, causing Niels to shamelessly whimper. He didn't even feel the warm lips pecking him on the forehead and along his nose.

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Mathias was tempted to give them both some relief and grind their erections together, but he didn't want to break their loving mood. He loved it more than anything. He was so happy Niels also seemed to like it. Unlike all the other time, Mathias had been willing to give them a loving pace and Niels had changed it to his own needy sexual one- now, it was simply perfect. Normally, at this time, they would have both cum and probably be sleeping. And yet now, they had not even started to touch each other's private areas…

Both weren't thinking about their worries, neither what they dislikes about the other… it was a soothing feeling to be relieved of all depressive thoughts. The longer the love making was, the longer Mathias' head was free of all dark thoughts. He had to concentrate on pleasuring his lover, and it made any other thought impossible to reach his brain.

Finally, Mathias moved down, leaving a track of kissed all the way down Niels' chest and stomach until he reached his pubic hair. He used his hands to stroke the man's inner thighs, this so soft area, while making sure his fingers never truly touched both his sack and erection but brushed them. Each time, he could feel the man's body react as his arousal throbbed.

Looking up at least with a little cocky grin, he breathed on his erection, parting his lips and making them come dangerously close to the very hard member. He slipped his tongue out, and, finally, slid the moist muscle on Niels' cock's slit, tasting his pre-cum, and slowly swirled it around the crown. Leaning on his elbows, he gently grabbed the erection and licked it from the base to the tip before taking the head in his mouth and sucking on it.

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Niels almost came unhinged when he felt the very tip of Mathias' tongue swirling around his head. But when Mathias' whole mouth enveloped his cock, Niels let out a high pitched sound. It made his ears turn red, but he couldn't peel his eyes away and hide his face. All he could do was watch Mathias bob his head up and down and suck. Each time it threatened to make Niels come, but he bit his inner cheek so he could keep going. All of the wonderful things that Mathias had done to him made his whole body feel hyper sensitive. Everything felt better.

The whole time Mathias worked his mouth on him, his eyes kept locked with his. To feel the wonderful hot and sucking mouth accompanied by the most smouldering stare he had ever seen made his chest heave in excitement. Niels' breath started coming in short and quick bursts and he gripped for anything to keep him from coming hard into the perfect mouth of his. His hand found Mathias' spare hand and slipped his fingers around it as he squeezed lightly. And those dark eyes called his other hand to brush Mathias' cheeks and and bangs. Niels vaguely wondered how in the hell Mathias had got his body to react so wonderfully.

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Mathias went almost teasingly slow at first, but slowly went a lot more serious into his treating of Niels' cock and ended deep throating him. He didn't plan on making his lover cum, but only give him intense pleasure before doing more… or not… Mathias really needed to be touched. He felt like he could kill for Niels to touch him, to stroke him, to show him he cared for him and at least liked him. It had been so long since Niels had touched him down and he almost felt a bit of rage bubbling in his throat.

Though, he had to calm himself. He had begun to go into sexual sucks for tiny seconds before he slowed down and finally moved away from Niels' inner thighs, giving a last little peck on his proudly standing and pleased arousal.

Mathias then leaned up to kiss the man, giving him a taste of his own pre-cum as he swirled his tongue inside his mouth and leaned back enough for their nose to brush together, "Touch me…" he half-asked with pleading eyes and a slightly impatient sigh. Being the one to top was a hard exhausting job even if it was always worth it… and Niels didn't seem to realise it as he almost never tried to pleasure him before they went further.

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Niels had to get himself together before doing as Mathias commanded. His brain felt like it had been chucked out the window from all of Mathias' touching and kisses. Smiling, slyly, Niels gladly forced Mathias to lay on his back. Since fore his blow job, Niels had developed a sweet tooth for Mathias' flesh.

Settling himself on top of Mathias, Niels began to kiss and suck his way down, enjoying the feel of the man's bare skin on his lips. Niels also kept a firm grip on Mathias' hips so he couldn't even wiggle to get rid of any sexual frustration he would develop. Latching onto one of Mathias nipple's Niels his lightly bucked into Mathis thigh. He couldn't help it, he loved this man's body a bit too much. Eventually Niels had to allow himself to the Dane. But he did the similar process that Mathias had done to him, grazing his fingers along his inner thighs but never getting too close the man's erection.

But Niels unlike Mathias was an eager person and his mouth was practically watering in want. So after leaving an angry red mark on Mathias' collarbone, Niels moved downwards, kissing a light and quick trail straight to the tip of Mathias' cock. Before Mathias could get his next breath, Niels sucked in as much of the man's cock as he could and hummed happily.

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Mathias almost felt like crying at this; it felt way too good, he had missed this sensation so much. He should have asked Niels to have more of it in the past instead of waiting to receive one. Damn god he loved blowjobs… if Niels were to want to ask him something Mathias would normally refuse, with his cock in his mouth, he was assured an automatic yes to whatever he would request.

Though, unlike Niels who had been like a superman staring at him when giving him the same treat, each time Mathias was looking down at his lover, he would drop the head back with a throaty moan. He went a lot more sexual than him, and even if he didn't feel like it, the Dane had to keep Niels to go too fast. He maybe shouldn't have let him take control over the whole situation… everything was turning into his own same sick sexual game he always played with Mathias, and the Dane feared his whole plan would fail.

In his own disappointment, Mathias gently pulled on Niels' chin to move him away and pull him up to kiss his moist lips. He grabbed one of the man's hands and placed it on his wet arousal for him to stroke it instead. Mathias lowly hummed in approval while his hands massaged Niels's back. At least, he had gotten a taste of an eventual wonderful blowjob…

While the Norwegian worked on the Dane's arousal with one forced slow hand, Mathias reached for the discarded lube right next to the bed and poured some on his fingers to snake his hand on Niels' lower back and brush one wet finger on his entrance. He kept a teasing motion, making circles and only inserting the tip of one finger in, adding a little more each times. His other hand also reached for Niels' hard member and slowly pumped it, especially caressed the tip and crown with slightly lubricated fingers, making the whole stroking a lot easier. And he made their lips brush on each other along with the tip of their tongues, sending shivers through his body.

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The teasing touches of both his hole and cock drove Niels to moan sensually into Mathias' mouth. It was so good, he couldn't stop vocalizing it. He broke the kiss just so he could look at him, sit there and acknowledge that this man in front of was driving him nuts. Leaning forward he kissed the man's cheeks and neck. This whole sexual encounter was so strange and new to Niels that he couldn't stop touching him. With his free hand he roamed everywhere he could touch.

When he felt the second finger began to tease his hole, Niels slung one arm around the man's shoulders and snuggle into the man's neck. "Oh dear god.. Mathias." he breathed in between ragged breaths. Desperately he wanted to ask Mathias to go quicker because he wanted to feel this same intensity while being fucked. But he knew Mathias was doing all these wonderful things for a reason so Niels just whispered Mathias name and a few loving words before returning to the man's lips.

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Mathias continued his slow preparation. Though, since he knew just how Niels loved it, he allowed himself to go a little bit faster as he removed his lone finger and pushed two all the way in. He tried to concentrate on synchronising his preparation movements and his pumping hand, though, Mathias was very bad at multitasking. Even kissing while doing all of this was almost confusing, though, he made his best to keep the whole thing slow and loving. As long as Niels was close to him, everything seemed perfect.

Finally, when he was finished with a third finger, Mathias slowly pulled them out and gave his lover a little tap on the butt for their switched of places, letting Niels lie on his back while Mathias stretched to get the lube. He lubricated his arousal and looked down at the Norwegian with a tender cheeky grin while stroking his leg.

He then lifted his legs to expose his butt and teased him a moment by rubbing the tip of his lubricated erection on his hole. Oh, he could feel the man slightly wiggling with impatience, but before pushing in, the Dane leaned over his lover to wrap his arms around his petite frame and rub his nose in the crook of his neck. And then, he pushed in.

Both their bodies got covered of goose bumps at the same time by the time Mathias pushed all the way in. Slightly trembling, the bigger man settled a pace, which consisted into deep, quick and hard way in and slow pull almost completely out. His entire brain was concentrate on this, on making the whole intercourse perfect and loving while still being extremely good for both Niels and he.

They were so squeezed on each other, there wasn't really space between them for a hand to masturbate the Norwegian, but Mathias still snaked a cramped hand and simply rubbed the head of his arousal against their pressed stomachs. In fact, he didn't need to do anything with his hand, only press it against his moving abdomen.

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The wonderful movements were turning Niels into putty. All he could was grip Mathias and stroke his hair. With the Dane's face pushed into his shoulder Niels could only kiss top of his head. Eventually he lifted Mathias' chin up so he could capture his lips lightly. Things were going to strange between them. Niels didn't even feel the need to have the quick, hard sex he was used to. Everything simply felt good and not just his ass for once.

Being too breathless to continue kissing, Niels tipped his head back on the mattress enjoying everything that Mathias was offering. It was toe curling good to feel the head of his cock sliding against Mathias' stomach and Niels wasn't quiet about it. From the slowness of their touches and caresses, Niels had become taunt and knew he wouldn't last long. Lightly he rolled his hips in synch with Mathias.

In the back of his head, he half wondered why Mathias hadn't done this with him and what changed.

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Mathias had feared Niels would try to ruin his plans and go to his own used rhythm even with his request about him staying calm. He was way too glad everything had turned perfect, just as he wished it would had… and so, they could enjoy their first real love making. It felt so good… it was the first time for Mathias actually enjoying making love to a man, and it was very certainly Niels' first time in all of this kind of experience. They both knew very little or nothing at all about the other's sexual past, if not past at all, and the Dane planned to discover Niels with time, little by little.

That was what he had planned earlier too, but they had very little time lately to have real discussion, Niels always being away for quite long, either to work and have his own personal fun after work…

Mathias really hoped this would make them closer and tie the Norwegian to him a little more.

After a moment, the bigger man straightened back to pull Niels with him tight into his arms and continued the slow but still strong hip movements sat back on his heels. Like this, they had a better position to kiss, which Mathias did right away by tilting his head on the side, on his lover's shoulder to close the distance between their panting lips and make their tongue swirl together freely with their mouths open to breath. One of Mathias hand was still occupied holding his lover, though the other didn't stay inactive and kept caressing the other man's body, gripping and stroking everything he could from his leg and thigh to his sides, arms and back.

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A white hot feeling pooled in his stomach at the new angle and pace. Niels was practically wriggling his whole body, trying to have something, anything stroke him. He was so close it hurt. In between kisses, Niels unhooked one arm from around Mathias' neck and trailed his hand downwards, taking control of his own member. He wished that it was Mathias doing this, but he was enjoying that wandering hand too much to ask. Niels honestly didn't mind, for it turned him on more and more.

His hand moved at a quicker pace than Mathias' hips, but it didn't take his mind away from the wonderful things Mathias was doing. It was almost as if his brain was absorbing every touch, kiss and stroke from the man. Niels let loose a long moan into Mathias' mouth as a strong orgasm wrecked his whole body.

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Mathias didn't want to stop Niels from reaching his orgasm so fast, though, they could have lasted a whole lot longer if he had stayed a bit more patient. But, well, when the Dane felt his lover coming close, he accelerated to be able to come close to him, wrapping his holding arm tighter around him and kissing him harder. Just when Niels released, Mathias felt himself getting very close and come shortly after. Both their bodies felt the aftermath chill of them being covered in sweat and goose bumps and rapidly went back hot and panting.

Trembling like mad, Mathias tried to keep them both in their final position, but his arms were giving up on him and he dropped his lover back on the bed, following him in the fall. He stayed in the Norwegian's arms for a long moment, both deeply panting and burning each other with their searing skin.

Exhausted, Mathias had felt his face down on the mattress and lazily turned it to look at Niels.

"T-thanks…" he whispered out of breath, weakly rubbing his fingers on the Norwegian's chest with a cocky grin and sweat running on his forehead. It felt like forever since the last time Mathias had made love to someone; and yet, it indeed was forever ago he had last had such good loving sex. but not with a male. He had really treated Niels like a woman, but, well, it was the only way he knew how to make love. He would eventually learn how the man worked and find his own way to make love to him eventually, just like Niels needed to learned how to make love.

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Niels lay there in Mathias' arms, trying to catch his breath. At first he felt light and wonderful, but then a terrible chilly sick feeling pooled all over his body. He didn't understand it, but Niels heart race kept up at terribly fast pace, and his body wouldn't stop shaking or relax. Sitting up and trying to keep a smooth expression, Niels climbed out of the bed. "I gotta piss," he announced before heading into the bathroom and locking the door.

Slumping in front of the mirror, Niels looked at himself over a few times. He looked absolutely haunted, even though his skin was flushed. His mind kept asking what had just happened, and Niels couldn't answer. What had just taken place place had been wonderful, but it scared Niels for a reason he couldn't really figure out. Over the years there had been many men that he had slept with and none had been like that. Mathias had left something warm and constricting in his chest, an experience Niels had never encountered.

Slumping down on the ground, Niels cradled his head for a moment. Niels wasn't one to deny trying new things, but what had been introduced to him that night was too foreign for his brain to process. Why couldn't Mathias be like normal guys that Niels had been with and simply kept a distance from him-? That was it. Mathias had gotten closer to Niels that night in a way he never honestly experienced and he didn't know how to take it.

Getting a hold of himself, Niels realized he had been softly crying and wiped his cheeks. Blowing his nose, Niels tried to come to terms with whatever he was feeling, but remained feeling miserable all the same. Giving up, he left the bathroom and returned to the bed, keeping eye contact from Mathias until he could turn off the lamp. Slowly he crawled back into bed and was instantly taken by Mathias' still sweaty arms. Niels cleared his mind before snuggling closer into the man and trying to get some sleep.

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Mathias couldn't conceive just how this new experience could be hard on Niels. Yes, it was new and foreign but for the Dane, it was something that everyone had inside of them and that they simply needed to tame or something. He couldn't believe no one in Niels' live could have behaved like this with him and the idea never crossed his mind one second. Making love was a simple step into the life of a couple, simple as that. He was happy to have his lover back into his arms for the night. Unlike Niels, he felt like sleeping, but he also felt like having more awake time with him.

Keeping his eyes shut into the darkness of the room, Mathias pulled the smaller man closer."We can… do somethin' similar tomorrow if ye want," he proposed while caressing the man in his arms. Damn, he felt so hot- he simply wanted to rip anything covering him off.

He conceived that he had acted with Niels just like he had been a woman, and that even for him, being Niels, he would probably have been pissed of the waiting. He would readjust for the next time, and get into the real interesting things more rapidly and longer. Women needed a lot more foreplay.

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Opening his eyes for a moment, Niels nodded silently, though he wasn't sure if he wanted to. It had been wonderful, the best thing he had ever felt, but the whole night was just so weird. The two of them had been fighting, to the point that they couldn't stand each other, then Niels comes home late and he gets treated to the best sex he had ever had. It was funny. The previous night he had claimed that the drugged out sex he had had with Gilbert was the best. But Mathias had just hit it out of the ball park, and then some. Now he questioned where they truly stood. Were they one of those romantic couples Niels had seen on T.V? Or was he just simply treated to really good and slow sex?

Swallowing thickly, Niels tried his best to form some words. "It was... fun tonight."

All he could agree on was that he needed some sleep before his spinning head caused him a headache. Wrapping an arm around Mathias, Niels got comfortable before closing his eyes once again.

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Mathias felt warm inside at his lover's tired words. So, he really did like it… he was truly happy. He was truly happy to see it had worked it some ways; nothing was better than good sex to make two individuals closer, especially when they were guys controlled by their hormones.

"Ya…" he smoothly replied, pulling Niels even closer into his arms and kissed his temple. Yes, they did have real hard moments lately, enough to make Mathias want to give up on everything and flee the hard life he was having with his lover- but on his last energy, he had played a good card that had brought a little bit of joy in their weird couple. He simply hoped it would last a certain time, enough for their would have time to know a bit more each other and see if they were indeed made for each other, which they didn't truly know.

Sure, they had a really different life. Very different, but they met on so many things they didn't even know yet. It was certainly worth it to know more about each other. They were no girl with some form they wanted to make the other fill to have the answers to their questions, those answers would certainly come with time, but many of them very certainly needed to be voiced.

And so, trying to set his mind off, Mathias slowly wandered his hands all over Niels' body to caress him until their both felt into relaxing slumbers, one their had never shared together.

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When Niels woke the next morning, he felt groggy and didn't want to move an inch. But, peeking at the alarm clock near his bed, he saw it was past noon. Jolting further awake, Niels began to gather his clothes and headed for the shower. Work began at two and it took him at least an hour to get there. Fuming, Niels knew that he could half blame Mathias for their time together for sleeping in. Of course, neither of them had bothered to set an alarm. It didn't help matters that Mathias was still asleep in bed.

Grumbling and still wet, Niels began to toss on his clothes before grabbing a slice of bread, eating as he tried to pack himself a lunch.

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Mathias was slowly taken out of his sleep when he realised his side warmth wasn't there any more. It wasn't the Norwegian's rummaging noise that pulled him out of his slumbers; the Dane was too far of a heavy sleeper to be awakened with exterior noises. It was when he realised what hour it was that he finally heard Niels' quick movements in the kitchen.

Pulling himself out of bed, he stumbled to his boxers to pull them up and made his way to the kitchen as quickly as possible to catch his lover before he would leave for work. Not really caring about what he was doing, preparing himself some sandwich or whatever, Mathias slipped behind him to embrace him and kiss his neck.

"Will ye come back early like yesterday again?" he softly asked in the man's ear. He wished they would have another good moment like the one they had the last evening…

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Niels froze for a moment, looking at his messy sandwich as he tried to form his words. His body hummed excitedly at the thought of repeating last night, but Niels mind was in another ball park. There was still a very uncomfortable feeling in his gut. Taking a deep breath, Niels began to smear his bread with mayonnaise. "Don't you want to do something else?" Niels asked lightly, trying to shake off those troubled feelings. "Other than sex."

Since they left Norway, that was all they were doing. Niels of course was fine with that, but sometimes... he wanted something a little different. Dropping the butter knife Niels whirled around and wrapped his arms around Mathias' neck. "I get paid again soon, so why don't I leave an extra kroner and you hound some garage sales while I'm gone and find a cheap T.V, VCR, and buy some movie and we just enjoy ourselves after work. If we go that way, we go that way." Niels asked smoothly before kissing Mathias. He wrapped himself around the Dane, enjoying the feel of the rough beard that had grown over night.

Shuttering, Niels realized that, even though he didn't want to admit it, his body wanted to have another round with Mathias. When he tried to break away from the man so he could return to preparing for work, Niels kept pecking Mathias' lips playfully. His mind almost begged him to just call in, tell them he would be an hour late and return to Mathias. That in itself was alarming Niels and doused him cold. Besides... Mathias didn't like having sex in the mornings as he had learned.

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Mathias felt a bit dizzy to have just awakened and stumbled to the kitchen, but after analysing the man's words, he nodded with a pleased hum as he kissed the man back, "Sounds like an excellent idea," he whispered, voice tired. He also really loved having long silent moment with Niels, only lying on a couch with the smaller man hidden in his big arms and watching a movie. Sure, since they had left Norway, their couple life had only turned around sex and fights and Mathias was really tired of this rhythm, but after the perfect evening they had passed the last time… it felt like this could be repeated without any harm.

Mathias liked to take things slow in a relation, though in this particular one, he always felt like being the only one interested into having some kind of real relation in the first place. Niels had warned him on that night on the beach that he was very certainly the worst person to start a relation with, but Mathias didn't care at that time… nowm maybe yes.

They were very slowly making progress, he felt. He was happy about it. But the man's obliviousness was always hitting him back in the face. He was almost forgetting about all the things that made him want to leave Niels in the first place. Mathias passed a hand in his lover's still wet hair to brush them with his fingers as he pulled him against his bare chest and kissed the top of his head, "We can talk if ye want too," he proposed, "I'll go see in pawn shops for the T.V. and VCR."

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Niels sighed into Mathias' chest, enjoying the feel of being held. He stayed there longer than needed, thinking about the relaxing night he could have making work seem undesirable. But he had work, and nothing was changing that. Reaching into his bag he withdrew enough money for the task. Sadly, Niels knew he would have to revisit Gilbert later that week to replenish what he was losing in money. The idea hurt more than it usually did, but he needed to keep his supply in cocaine up. "I'll see you tonight," he said lightly before leaving.

Catching the next bus, Niels kept pondering about his relationship with Mathias. Where was it going? Would he allow it to go anywhere? And, if yes, did that mean he would have to change his lifestyle? It was funny- in the beginning, Niels believed that he would be done with cocaine and whoring around as soon as Eirik graduated. But now Eirik was gone, and he still used it. Almost like a hunger, Niels wanted some so badly. It would calm his nerves, he would stop over thinking last night and just go on with his day. Thomas had already told him on his first day to not come to work high, and doing so would be reckless. Gritting his teeth, Niels denied himself the opportunity to be high. Instead he would do some after work. Who cares if he was high when at home?

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Sure Mathias would care, if he were bright enough to understand what Niels was on when he was coming back home looking different. In fact, he would always tell himself it wasn't important, that it was probably only the stress of work that made him act weird. Sure, working in a call centre was certainly not the most relaxing work, and for how he knew Niels, the man didn't like to speak to strangers.

And so, when his lover left for work, Mathias jumped in the shower and made his way to one pawn shop he knew in the deepest place in Copenhagen's down town. He knew it was one of the places his brother Chris used to sell his stuff to get drugs afterwards, and stuff there was pretty cheap. He managed to get them a very good T.V. even if it lacked a controller, and he got them a cheap DVD reader that still worked pretty well with the rest of the money, leaving him enough to go get a movie or two at the closest movie store.

He went to take his stuff back to his apartment, and, just went he stepped into the main hall to his door, Anne came across him and helped him get in, taking the DVD reader. Mathias wished he hadn't seen her that day; he didn't want her to see where he lived.

Though she did, and she didn't look pleased at all. When she stepped in, discarding her charge on the kitchen's counter, she looked around the place and could clearly see Mathias wasn't leaving alone, and certainly not with a woman. She could have believed he was leaving with a woman, but by the discarded boxers everywhere and the manly scent that was floating among the musk odour, it was obvious. The Dane said he was living in collocation with a friend, though, the lack of second bed or couch where the other guy could sleep proved him wrong and his ex-girlfriend automatically knew what was going on.

"You're gay, right?" she asked, looking slightly disappointed. By the look on her face, Mathias felt like if there had any chances between them seconds ago, they were now dead. But the Dane tried to change her suspicions about it, explaining her that he was more bi-curious or bisexual than gay. and that he still loved women, that it was only different. She clearly had problems believing him- it confirmed many weird things about Mathias, especially that one time they had kissed and that he had left without any reason.

When she left, Mathias felt slightly relieved, but still nervous.

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Once work was over, Niels went to the nearest alleyway and snorted a small amount, nothing that would make him too weird. Niels really just needed the edge of life taken off, and he was worried about his relationship status with Mathias. At first, he had believed that things between them would remain casual until Mathias moved on. Now things seem to be moving into a more serious relationship. Niels really didn't know how to handle it, so he decided he simply wouldn't handle it.

Taking the bus back home, Niels was actually looking forward to laying in bed and watching a movie with Mathias, all snuggled up and happy. It was funny how just a small amount of cocaine could smooth Niels' nerves enough that he could accept how things were becoming between the two of them. There was no anxiety about getting to close to Mathias, nor the fact one day Mathias just might break his heart. On cocaine, Niels might as well not have a heart.

So, hopping off the bus, Niels rushed home with a small smile on his lips.

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Anne had stayed with Mathias long enough for when Niels came back from work, somewhat early compared to normally; the Dane had just finished installing their new acquisitions in their bedroom. His discussion with his ex-girlfriend hadn't gone farther than Niels' name and where he had met him, how they had ended up together and stuff like that. She almost seemed happy for him, which was very weird in fact. He wasn't used to be treated like this to be honest about his sexual orientation.

She seemed excited to now have a gay friend, which Mathias really didn't want her to see him like this. He wasn't gay, damn it and he didn't want things to change between her and he. If he still had chances back then, he still wanted them! But thinking like this made him feel weird; it was like he was mentally planning to cheat his boyfriend, which he didn't want at all.

When he had finished placing things, Niels showed himself in the door frame. Mathias winked at him and stepped closer to grab his hands, showing the new T.V. and DVD player with two movie boxes laying on it, "What d'ye think?" he asked, somewhat proud of him. Slowly, their apartment was looking like something. They still lacked a complete living room and a dining room, but things were going smoothly with money. Mathias still needed to find a job, but it was really hard…

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To be honest, Niels was shocked at how big the T.V was and the fact that Mathias had found a dvd player. Inspecting everything he smiled broadly and pecked Mathias on the lips a few times. Already Niels could tell the cocaine was having its effect on him, his body wanted to keep his lips on Mathias' and touch the man all over. Breaking the kiss roughly, Niels had to combat his now unusually horny self. It wasn't no secret cocaine did that to him, it was one of the reasons he had been so successful as a prostitute. Trying to shake the effect off, Niels went to sit on the bed, but he kept a hungry look on Mathias.

"I'm surprised you were able to find such a nice T.V." he admitted lightly, but he was also reminding himself that they were watching a movie first, then maybe sex. Well with the mood Niels was in, he was adding sex to the list. "I'm impressed," he said as he caught eye of the DVD player and two movies. This man was extremely resourceful it stunned him.

Kicking off his shoes, Niels felt relief as he began to wind down from work. But oddly, he could smell something sweet in the air... almost like perfume. Shaking his head, Niels decided it was his nose messing with him.

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Knowing he hadn't done anything wrong with Anne when she had passed earlier, Mathias wasn't nervous at all about the impression she could have left in the apartment, along with the scent. They sure had share a hug or two and very certainly she had impregnated the man with her strong womanly perfume that always turned Mathias completely crazy. Though, if for her they were nothing more than friends now, it wasn't the same for the Dane and very certainly, if Niels was to find out about her, he would feel extremely nervous.

"I know my town," he cockily said when he prepared the T.V. and DVD to welcome a movie. He realised he didn't know Niels' type of movies at all, and so, he had taken some popular ones that had good critics. Setting everything for they could watch the movie without having to move one inch, Mathias rapidly went to the kitchen to grab them food and drink and came back in the bedroom to lie next to his lover, keeping their consummations close.

He pulled the Norwegian against him and enlaced him in his arms. Damn, he just loved having Niels in his arms like this. Mathias hadn't notice about Niels being high. He sure had seen how happy he looked and it indeed looked odd, but he had guessed it was simply things changing between them… They were getting closer and maybe he liked it.

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Niels had to admit one of his favorite pastimes was laying in bed and watching movies. It was rare for him to have another man next to him, so having Mathias to snuggle next to was wonderful. The perfumed scent that he had early smelled had disappeared and replaced with Mathias' musty one. Inhaling deeply, Niels didn't want to move, not for food or drinks.

The first movie had been pretty good, Niels had to admit, but the one that Mathias had put in was not keeping his interests. Maybe because he was distracted by Mathias' small soft touches, or he was purely just bored Niels didn't care to find out. Removing his head from Mathias' chest, he tilted his head up and kissed and sucked his neck. Oh he had a devilish smile on his face and couldn't help it, he was high and interested in Mathias' previous offer that morning.

Though, knowing Mathias' game from the previous night, he kept his kisses and touches light and still managed to watch the movie.

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Knowing he hadn't done anything wrong with Anne when she had passed earlier, Mathias wasn't nervous at all about the impression she could have left in the apartment, along with the scent. They sure had share a hug or two and very certainly she had impregnated the man with her strong womanly perfume that always turned Mathias completely crazy. Though, if for her they were nothing more than friends now, it wasn't the same for the Dane and very certainly, if Niels was to find out about her, he would feel extremely nervous.

"I know my town," he cockily said when he prepared the T.V. and DVD to welcome a movie. He realised he didn't know Niels' type of movies at all, and so, he had taken some popular ones that had good reviews. Setting everything for they could watch the movie without having to move one inch, Mathias rapidly went to the kitchen to grab them food and drink and came back in the bedroom to lie next to his lover, keeping their consummations close.

He pulled the Norwegian against him and enlaced him in his arms. Damn, he just loved having Niels in his arms like this. Mathias hadn't notice about Niels being high. He sure had seen how happy he looked, and it indeed looked odd, but he had guessed it was simply things changing between them. They were getting closer and maybe he liked it.

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Niels had to admit one of his favorite pastimes was laying in bed and watching movies. It was rare for him to have another man next to him, so having Mathias to snuggle next to was wonderful. The perfumed scent that he had early smelled had disappeared and replaced with Mathias' musty one. Inhaling deeply, Niels didn't want to move, not for food or drinks.

The first movie had been pretty good, Niels had to admit, but the one that Mathias had put in was not keeping his interests. Maybe because he was distracted by Mathias' small soft touches, or he was purely just bored; Niels didn't care to find out. Removing his head from Mathias' chest, he tilted his head up and kissed and sucked his neck. Oh, he had a devilish smile on his face and couldn't help it: he was high and interested in Mathias' previous offer that morning.

Though, knowing Mathias' game from the previous night, he kept his kisses and touches light and still managed to watch the movie.

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Niels' soft kisses were more than welcomed. For once since they were officially together did Mathias felt really appreciated and not simply a body to have sex with. Or ,well, maybe if he still were, then he didn't realise it, and Niels had learned well enough from their first love making that his subtle touches and kisses weren't interpreted by Mathias as eventually sexual, but simply loving.

He still felt Niels was being horny, just like so many times when he came back late from work, though this time, he had no reasons to suspect the Norwegian to be high or something since he had came back early, right after work.

While keeping an eye on the T.V, Mathias tilted his head for the man to have better access to his neck. He let Niels play like he wanted until he found himself shivering under his touches, and there his body felt like he wanted more.

Slightly biting on his lower lip, the Dane turned the head and moved a hand to gently pull on Niels' chin to make their lips meet. They shared a soft loving kiss and the moist sound of their lips parting to allow their tongues to get into a wet fight was buried by the T.V. After a moment, Mathias unwillingly lost interest in their movie and turned on his side to have a better kissing angle. His free hand caressed his lover's opposite side, slowly stroking his hip and slipped his fingers on his butt, all the way under his leg to pull it over his own hips and gently make slow circular rubs on his exposed, still clothed buttock.

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Niels really did love the feeling of Mathias' hand on his ass, clothed or not. But he had a sweet tooth for the Dane's flesh, so Niels flipped Mathias on his back, keeping his back arched as his ass was revealed to the man's hands. Slowly, and in the same fashion of the previous night, Niels removed Mathias' shirt inch by inch, devouring every bit of flesh revealed to him. It was pay back for making Niels feel so good and needy to the point Mathias drove him nuts, or so he thought silently as he swirled his tongue over one of Mathias' nipples.

Unlike Mathias last night, Niels had been turned on before he started touching Mathias, so after minutes of just touching and kissing the man's skin, Niels felt painfully aroused. Several times he had to grind himself against Mathias' thigh just so he could gather his wits long enough to continue the gruelling slow pace. Being under the influence, Niels didn't associate this as loving but just pure lust. Niels was just happy when he finally finished with Mathias' torso and could move onto more important things, like the bulge in front of his eyes.

He knew that he should avoid this spot for last, but Niels indulged himself some. After all, Mathias should be happy that Niels was in a mood to give the man a blow job. Niels revealed the head from Mathias' boxers and gave it a few kisses and licks before sucking on it. Minutes passed, and Niels began to forget about Mathias thighs and just wanted to tease the man as he licked and sucked the head and turning to his hipbones for a few seconds before returning back. Eventually, Niels left alone the shaft all together and trailed kisses back up to Mathias' lips.

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All Mathias' inside was wiggling with joy and arousal, like a funny inward tickling. Why, why was Niels so sexy and sensual? It was turning the Dane completely crazy, just by how he would slowly but still eagerly caress the bigger man and damn… When he was teasing him down, he had to keep himself from moaning too loudly by biting the inside of his cheek.

When Niels came back to kiss him, they shared a loving yet very hot and wet opened mouth kiss and the Dane took advantage of this moment to pull his boxers back up but both their pants down to their knees to grind their clothed erections together. They slowly rolled their hips on each other, helped by Mathias' hands holding Niels' thighs right under his butt. He caressed this very sensitive area, brushing his fingers in the inside of Niels' legs and the very tender flesh of his ass.

No, this whole foreplay looked like nothing from the last one they had gotten into, but it still felt somewhat loving. The way Mathias was caressing Niels wasn't the same as all the other fucks he had had previously in Norway with other guys, or even with all the girls he had gotten laid with.

But damn it, this blowjob tease had gotten into Mathias' head and he really wanted it. And so, parting from their wet kiss and leaving a slight trickle of thick saliva break between their tongues, Mathias gently pushed his lover on his side and aimed for his inner thigh, placing them both into a sixty-nine position, though lying on their sides. The Dane rubbed his nose against Niels' clothed erection, using his teeth to tease the head through the fabric of his boxers. He slowly pulled the underwear down to cause a pressure on the tip of Niels' arousal until it slapped down, revealing the man's cock pleading for attention as he hungrily licked clean and teased a bit more with his tongue and teeth before sucking the head.

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Niels had to pop Mathias back out of his mouth as he felt the teasing sensations. Wiggling his hips, he could feel his cock drag across Mathias' cheek. God, that man sure knew how to make him beg like crazy. Once he felt Mathias' warmth mouth take in his head once again, Niels lowered his lips down the man's waiting shaft. Happily, Niels went to work like many times he had before, but this time he began to multitask. His hands slid over Mathias' thighs, and his fingers dipped behind his knees, teasing the sensitive flesh before tracing them back up to his ass and lower back.

He could have been in heaven, feeling the wet, hot mouth and vibrating moans he often received. Unfortunately Niels couldn't take in as much as he had wanted to, but he did his damnedest to make the Dane moan constantly. He even played a little with the man's sack. Niels always did get into his blow jobs. Wanting just a little more stimulation, Niels guided one of Mathias hands towards his hole. No, he wasn't looking to get prepped just yet, but Niels did love being teased there.

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Complying with his lover's silent but not so silent request, Mathias rapidly wetted his fingers to slowly draw circles around the other man's hole, while keeping one of his legs in the air to have a better access. Though, the Dane was really bad into multitasking and had problems concentrating on his own pleasure, into giving the man pleasure and moving his fingers on his sensitive hole.

To get turn things easier for him, Mathias simply shifted their position a bit, only to turn himself on his back and have Niels' ass above him while he would have a better angle to suck him. Helping the littler man removing his pants and underwear, Mathias pulled his ass down to lick and play with his hole while one of his hand worked on slowly pumping the Norwegian's dripping erection.

He didn't stay on his ass too long before going back to suck on his neglected cock, pushing his ass up and slipping a bit lower. The angle wasn't comfortable, but any time he could simply pull the man's ass down and lick him again, and while he wasn't, his fingers made the job.

He moaned and grunted in pleasure as his own erection was being given the best treatment it could ever get, but still in a slow loving motion. Shit shit shit shit… it was so good!

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Niels began to shiver from the playful teases he was being given. It made his brain go dead for moments at a time, stopping his progress on his blow job. But he would remember that he had Mathias' cock between his lips and start up again. Sucking eagerly, Niels was able to deep throat the man, his nose brushing against Mathias' pubes. He would hum long notes before coming back up for air and swirling his tongue around the crown playfully. Niels kept this pace up, trying to focus on his charge even though Mathias' fingers were getting increasingly more playful.

He had to stop for a moment, laying his head heavily on Mathias' hip bone when he felt Mathias insert one finger inside. Stroking the man, Niels almost drooled on the spot when he felt Mathias' lips skim his tip. "D-Dear god..." he gasped, before leaning his head down and looking beneath him to see Mathias and his tongue. The image enough made his whole body flush in a hot heat. God, Mathias looked so good licking and sucking him.

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Mathias was way too concentrated on all the things he was doing to even think about taking time to look at Niels. What he was doing was way too demanding to let place for anything else. His brain was too focused. As he kept pushing one finger inside his partner's hole, he slowly sucked on his throbbing erection. His neck felt infinitely sore from how he was positioned, but he sincerely didn't mind.

All the sounds he could hear from Niels were worth it, along with his body heat, and the shivers and caressed he received. Maybe he had stopped sucking on him, but with all Mathias was giving him, he thought that he himself would have felt numb and blank too.

Mathias pushed a second finger inside his lover's ass and moved away from his cock to put more saliva to help him slip the fingers in and out without fearing to hurt Niels. Oh well, he was never hurt anyway. The sad truth was that he had probably gotten very used to it with time… It was always hitting Mathias right back in the face when he was faced with this truth. Well, every single time they were getting back to bed, it was obvious.

After having finished with a third finger, both clearly wanted to move on for more, and after Niels let slip a whole lot of saliva on Mathias' erection, the Dane made him simply turn around to have him ride him. Oh yes… he always had the bed view of his lover like this and dear God, he made the most beautiful pleasured faces in the world.

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Niels slide his eyes shut as he slid down Mathias' shaft. He knew he still looked high, and didn't want to ruin the moment by Mathias noticing and getting angry. Instead, Niels pretended he had his eyes shut just so he could concentrate on the wonderful sensations. Blindly, Niels reached for Mathias' hands, gripping them before bringing them to his mouth where he gave them each several kiss before sliding them down his chest and back onto his hips. Everything felt good, even better than last night in Niels' opinion. They had both gone slow, but at the same time indulged on each other that had left them both hot and bothered at the same time.

The wonderful gyrating motion left Niels breathless and in need to touch and explore the man below him. So ,risking Mathias noticing Niels' condition, he cracked his eyes a bit so he looked heavy lidded in pleasure rather than squinting, Niels raked his eyes sight over the man he was riding. Shivering at the sight, Niels brought his hands on Mathias' chest and stroked his body and sides before settling on tweaking with Mathias' nipples. Leaning down, he took a few moments to kiss and suck on patches of skin. There were still a few red spots on Mathias' collarbone from the previous night and Niels latched onto to darken before continuing up to kiss Mathias on the lips. While swirling his tongue into the other man's mouth he could feel Mathias thrusting into him causing Niels to moan in approval.

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And yet again, Mathias was too blinded by the whole intercourse, caressing and love sharing that even if he would notice something strange was happening with Niels, he wouldn't even bother wondering what it was. Damn it, he had the sexiest Norwegian completely naked and riding him at the moment… and fuck, the faces he was making were adorable.

When the man leaned to kiss his body, Mathias moved his hands over his back and neck, lightly, almost to tickle him and cause goose bumps to grow on his silky skin.

After a moment, knowing they both liked sloppy and lazy sex, Mathias wanted to bring this into their loving intercourse and made his lover turn around to face his back. He pulled him against his chest so Niels had his back lied on Mathias' front and he enlaced the man with his arms, wandering one hand down to caress the inner of his thighs and eventually take hold of his erection and slowly pump it. Mathias kept strong but long trusts, rolling his hips up and down. He pulled on the man's chin so he could reach his lips in a messy kiss, as his other hand brushed over one of Niels' nipples, rolling it between his fingers.

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There was nothing like leaning back and enjoying the ride. Mathias' touches felt so wonderful that Niels eventually started to get close, even though it was often times hard to come when high. But surely enough, Niels came, letting out a string of loud words. Collapsing heavily against Mathias, Niels closed his eyes, letting the Dane finish beneath him. Mathias had dropped his light caresses for a quick bucking, but because of their position the freedom to move was limiting. Coming back down from his orgasm, Niels lazily sat up and leaned forward giving Mathias all he needed for movement. It wasn't long before Niels felt his lover stiffen and a wet seed leaking out as Mathias thrusted a few final times.

Collapsing back onto the bed, Niels felt wonderful. He just wanted to sit there and hold and cuddle next to Mathias. But he wasn't tired at all; in fact Niels was fully alert. Smiling widely, Niels rolled on top of Mathias, kissing his lips. "We should go out." After all, Niels knew he would be visiting Gilbert again that week, so why not spend the rest of his money he made?

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The movie was still playing in background, but at the moment, even Niels' words were getting to Mathias' brain slow enough so he would understand some seconds later. "What now?" he asked, slowly coming back from a strong orgasm. That man was an alien for the Dane; how he could be so energetic right after sex was out of his comprehension. Mathias would rather go sleep for four hours straight and take a shower, but his lover's proposition was interesting, "Where?" he asked. Never the idea of going into a bar or a club passed through the still panting Dane since he clearly knew Niels didn't really like these places since they were too crowded.

"J-just… gimme a minute," he finally said, rolling on his stomach to reach the back pocket of his pants to extract the cigarette pack he had bought earlier in the week, along with a lighter. He returned to lay on his back and pit a smoke between his lips, giving an unsure look at his lover, waiting for an approval of any sort before lighting his cigarette.

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Oh, Niels knew that Mathias was tired after sex. So would he, if it weren't for the stimulating cocaine he was on. In truth, Niels was happy to be on it, for he vaguely remember the first night he and Mathias had first gone out. Though Niels wasn't planning on getting that wild with the Dane, it was still a good memory. Besides, where they were going was quiet, and where he and Thomas often went for drinks.

Niels cleaned himself of all the cum while Mathias was in the shower before searching for appropriate clothes. He still wore Eirik's old clothing, which had a studious look. But seeing how he already had gotten laid, Niels didn't believe he needed to seduce him again.

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When Mathias had finished showering, he went to put some appropriate clothes, the best good looking he had been able to take out of his parents' house being a dark shirt and black pants. Giving a last look at Niels before leaving for the place he wanted to take them, he winked at him, thinking he looked really gorgeous in those clothes. Normally, the Norwegian would either wear normal clothes or whorish looking ones… in fact, he had rarely witnessed the man in his whore clothes, though, in those rare times, he had always felt a bit betrayed.

But this time, he just looked fine, just perfect… and Mathias knew that almost all of his clothes now previously belonged to Eirik. Though with their time together, Niels had taken some weight and most of his brother's clothes were not fitting any more. They needed to get him some new ones.

And they left. They decided to make all their way walking, hand in hand. Mathias really felt that this time their holdings hands had a real signification. The Dane felt the urge to light himself another cigarette, which he did with slight shame. Oh well, he had stopped a year or two ago for his ex-girlfriend, and because of some frustrating event that had turned him very nervous and anxious, he had started back.

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Niels dragged Mathias onto the bus to sit in the back. Because of it being so late, the bus was empty. The lack of people made Niels feel comfortable and didn't mind showing a little affection towards Mathias by leaning his head on his shoulder as he watched Copenhagen flash by. Niels almost wanted to stay on the bus with just Mathias all night and ride around the city, but he knew that Mathias probably would get really bored. At least to go to a decent bar, they had to travel out of their crummy neighborhood.

Seeing their stop, Niels pulled Mathias to his feet and started their short walk. It was hidden almost, with only a neon sign sticking out. As soon as they entered, they were both greeted with loud music and cigarette smoke. Taking his usual spot on his stool, Niels waved the bar man over whom automatically concocted Niels' usual drink. He came here that often with Thomas. Like Niels predicted, the place wasn't over packed, and it was more comfortable than anything. The total opposite of Niels' usual night life bars and clubs he usually went to in Norway, and he had Thomas to thank for showing him this place.

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Mathias was a tad surprised when they got in the place as he didn't know it. Back when he lived at his parents' and used to go drink with his father after work, they usually went into pubs where his father was well known, but never in such downtown bars. It looked calm though, nothing like the club they had gone in Norway; only a drinking place.

He was even more surprised when he saw the bartender give Niels his drink without him even asking. Well, he was surprised, but in a way in was only confirming what his lover was doing every night he came back late from work, and it hurt him a bit to know he went drinking without him every night. Not only a bit to be honest. He honestly felt betrayed, but he didn't show it and simply asked for a beer.

"So ye… come here often, uh?" he asked, sipping on his mug as he tried his best to not look jealous, but it was nearly impossible. He should have shut himself up on this one. He just knew Niels was coming here every night or almost with his co-worker Thomas, when he thought he could have all those moments with him instead.

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Niels sipped his drink, even though it was hard alcohol and burned his throat. Cocking an eyebrow, Niels shrugged. "I do. Thomas showed me this place and its not too far from work so.." But he could see the pout on Mathias' face. Surely Mathias knew that Thomas was straight as a ruler, so why would he be worried? Or maybe it was jealousy- Niels wasn't sure. Of course, twice a week this wasn't where Niels went. Twice a week he was either with Gilbert, or scumming it with Thomas at that Latino dance school.

Mathias had a right to be jealous because he didn't know that Niels was cheating on him once a week for drugs. But Mathias didn't know that, or even have a hint, so to Niels it was like Mathias was jealous at the fact that Niels liked to have private time to himself. Hell, Thomas wasn't even at the bar with him every night. Once in a while Niels came here just to be by himself. But he knew he really did need to pay attention to Mathias a little bit more, but if the man was asking for all of his time then Mathias had another thing coming.

"Is something wrong?" Niels asked flatly.

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A disagreeable feeling was growing inside of Mathias, and he simply felt like it wasn't the time for that right now. Oh yes, yes he was jealous. He didn't want to acknowledge it, he didn't feel like he had any right to be jealous. Sure, he didn't know about him being cheated or anything like this… he was suspicious, but he didn't like to be; what if he was completely wrong and simply put the wrong blames on the wrong person? He didn't want that, and knowing he was feeling jealous was making him turn even madder.

He needed to calm down, and so he lit himself another smoke. He was upset, and he didn't like it. Who would? Blowing the smoke away as he took a mouthful of soothing beer, he shrugged as if nothing was wrong, which was clearly not the case. "Oh, no, nothin's wrong, I just use to worry sick for my boyfriend to come back home safe after work even if he always texts me he's comin' back late, since I don't know where he is and I simply hope nothin' bad's happenin'… ye know, he had problems in the past and I still worry for him," he said bitterly, still wearing a cocky grin. He really hoped Niels' realised his side of the story…

He felt really pumped and anxious. He hadn't want these things to be known like this, when he would be mad. He sucked on his smoke, looking away from the Norwegian.

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Rolling his eyes like a teenager, Niels returned to his drink. "Oh, didn't you once freak out at this said bo friend when he came home after having a smoke?" He plucked the smoke from Mathias taking a deep drag before exhaling through his nose and pressing the cigarette back into Mathias' lips. "Look what we have here," Niels said sarcastically.

Turning towards Mathias fully so their knees bumped, Niels looked at him seriously. "I brought you here to have fun. This is where I go after work. As you can see it's a nice place and not plum full of scum bags. Now can we please try to enjoy our night?" Niels gritted his teeth and he felt anger beginning to rise. He knew that having drinks with Thomas after work almost every night had been wrong, and by taking Mathias here Niels had been trying to make it up to him. Now Mathias was focusing on what he had done, and not on what he was trying to do.

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Nibbling on his cigarette, Mathias sighed and took it between his thumb and middle finger to take a good mouthful of beer and downing it. "Sorry babe," he said with a frown. Even if he wasn't finished with things he wanted to say, he stopped. It was true Niels had brought them here to have a good time, and Mathias didn't quite realise the effort his man was putting into their relation. He was way too blinded by his own efforts and all the bad moments they had in the last few weeks and months that it was pretty hard to see the good things among the pile of mistakes.

The Dane didn't feel good at all, both physically and mentally. He felt exhausted, though the last few days had shown promising for them both. He was happy Niels seemed to go in the same direction as him, and that things were going for the best…

And Mathias just had to screw everything up with his jealousy.

Soon, he crushed his cigarette into a nearby ashtray and sighed the remaining smoke, rubbing his face with both hands before asking for another beer and turned the head resting in his hand to face Niels with corner smile. "So, what 'bout ye? There are so many thin's we still don't know 'bout each other, ye know…" he said with a slight laugh as he stretched one hand on the counter to grab Niels' fingers and gently caress them, reaching for his beer mug and drinking from it.

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Niels smirked as he felt Mathias' hand on his. The atmosphere seem to lift a little, and Niels was willing to drop things for now. "Well I guess I can tell you some stuff. I was born on May 17. Lived most of my life in Trondheim, not Oslo. Favorite color is blue, and I prefer cats over dogs. You?" Niels smiled, giving Mathias a generic description of his likes. Besides, he was pretty sure that Mathias would ask something more worth it than what he had just revealed. "Oh, when is your birthday, so I don't miss it." Niels added lightly.

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Mathias took a rapid mental note on Niels' birth date, drilling it into his mind as he thought, rolling his eyes up as he was looking directly into his mind, "I was born on the 5th of June 1987 in Copenhagen and I lived all my life here, though, we moved from apartments to apartments until my dad built ou—his actual house," he began, telling the same things Niels had previously stated. "Favourite colour is very certainly red and… I do love both cats and dogs. We had many cats in apartments, and we had dogs in the house…"

He shrugged and laughed. "But yeah… what about… yer love life?" he asked, mimicking a girl who would ask her boyfriend. "Seriously, had… anything serious before?"

He was curious- not that he hoped he was Niels' first serious type story, but both being in their twenties, they certainly had many stories about it.

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Revealing his past in that aspect wasn't something he was used to. It was almost embarrassing to tell Mathias. Not that Niels had been a virgin when he started, but he had been pretty damn close. He knew that because Mathias was his boyfriend, and a steady one. At that, Niels should reveal that part of his past, but he took another route. "Oh yes, there was this one boyfriend I had. He was about 5'11; blonde hair that he never bothered combing; and had the prettiest blue eyes I've ever seen." Niels started rattling off Mathias' appearance. "Not to mention he spoke garbled Norwegian, had a nasty habit of worrying about things, and he had a nasty streak of being quite naive." He took Mathias' hand and kissed his palm lightly. "But I suppose he was the sweetest guy I've ever met, not to mention he gave killer blowjobs." Niels smiled widely at the last part.

Taking a drink, Niels looked Mathias over he could see a flicker of jealousy- no doubt Mathias thought this man wasn't him. "Mathias, whose description fits this perfectly?" he laughed, before returning a question. "What about you? Anything serious? I hardly doubt you're inexperienced."

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Mathias mentally slapped himself when he realised Niels was describing him. He chuckled and rolled the eyes at his own naivety… oh, if he thought his lover didn't know him, there he knew he was wrong. Killer blowjobs, uh? The Dane bit his lip at the thought, muffling a giggle. Speaking about his own love life to his very obviously love inexperienced boyfriend was like speaking about the money the other man never had- though, if they were to know about each other's love life-

"I… yeah, I already some quite serious relations before, but one in particular that ended right before I moved to Norway; we were 'bout to get married," he said, raising eyebrows at the other male. "But," he continued with a sigh as he frowned, "I was too close minded, not cultured enough, and so, she sent me to college in Norway before leavin' me." He didn't speak about the fact she did wait for him to come back in Denmark changed and that she would take him back and finally get back to where they were before they parted… he had no real intention on doing it. It had hurt him to be left like this because he wasn't good enough for her, and to think everything would be all right when he would come back, he didn't believe it any more.

"Yeah," he said, taking a mouthful of beer, "that's my ex-girlfriend…" It was a tad embarrassing to speak about that, but well, he had to, "And well… you're my real first boyfriend experience…" He chuckled, putting his mug back down.

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Niels felt his face twitch into a quick frown before returning to his more placid expression. So Mathias had almost gotten married. For some odd reason that made his gut twist in jealousy, and he didn't know why. Maybe it was the fact that they were back in Copenhagen where she no doubt lived. What if they were to meet again? Would Mathias ditch him for her? A few more of these negative questions crossed his mind, causing him to go quiet. After a few moments of heavy silence, Niels commented briskly, "What type of person breaks up with someone over experience with the outside world?"

It was more soothing to Niels to hear than probably Mathias for he felt as if he needed reassuring that they were threw. After all, could someone like Mathias go back to someone whom broke up with him over something so minor? To Niels it seemed like his old girlfriend couldn't accept Mathias for who he was. A typically shallow woman, one of the many reasons Niels didn't do females. "I hope that you're enjoying your first experience." Niels tried to smile, but he knew that Mathias was more than likely miserable.

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Slightly shrugging as he sipped on his beer, he clarified "Well, it wasn't the only reason I left for Norway…" There were so many reasons he couldn't even state them all; his family, his drinking problems, his need to see the world… "I'm glad it happened," he said, gently stroking Niels' fingers. He wanted to say more, he wanted to say that despite all their problems together, Niels and he that he was glad they were together. That they were still together. So many times Mathias had wanted to give up and leave, but he simply couldn't. He was so scared about what could happen to Niels if he were to leave him.

"I do," he simply replied, giving the man a gentle cheeky grin and downed his beer. Dear God, he felt like it had been forever since the last time he had drank alcohol.

Asking for another mug, he kept stroking his lover's hand and frowned. "What 'bout yer parents? Ye… don't seem to be quite close to them… I mean… did something happen?" he asked, hesitant. Niels had never really spoken to him about his family. He knew that he had been living with his brother for a while, without his parents, and that they were distant or whatever. And, well, even Mathias had encouraged his lover not to send the ashes to them since they had never been there for them, but he still didn't know the real reason of all this.

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Niels smiled sadly at Mathias. He knew one day someone would ask this question, and he had hoped that Eirik would be able to explain. Niels liked to keep his past life private, while Eirik did as well he was simply more forward. But Eirik wasn't an option any more so he took a deep breath. "Him and I were mistakes. Birth control failed and, wel,l they were rich and getting rid of a child is sort of scandalous. So they kept us, even though they didn't want children. Eirik and I weren't allowed to be ones either; I think by grade school we had gotten into the routine come home, do the dishes, pick up the living room, and go to our rooms. We were allowed books, and that was about it. When I graduated, they decided to go on a grand trip. They left Eirik and simply never came home. When I found out, I took my brother in and did my best to raise him. That sums my parents up."

Sighing heavily, Niels felt his chest tighten. Really, without Eirik he had no one, and Niels wondered bitterly if he were to send them some of Eirik's ashes with the accounts of their daily lives, if they would feel ashamed. Or would they simply dump the ashes in the garden they often escaped to and forget that they had ever existed. Niels didn't know and he probably never would. The likelyhood of them feeling like shit over how their careless choices lead to Niels bad decisions and then Eirik's death weren't high. It would be odd if they came to Denmark with open arms trying to win back their only remaining son.

"I've talked about my parents, now you talk about yours," Niels stated smoothly, knowing that Mathias had probably a worse situation growing up than he had.

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Mathias had problems believing his lover's words. He had grown up in a big family where mostly everyone was welcomed… it was hard to think that parents didn't want their own children- though, thinking about it, it was pretty much the same that was happening with his own family.

"Well, ye already know…" he said, sipping on his new mug. He didn't like to remind the last day he had spent with them. But by the look on Niels' face, he really wanted him to speak.

"Well, I was a lone child during the five first years of my life. I don't remember them so well, but I was kind of an accident as well, though my parents were good Christians and despite their lack of money and young age, they still raised me the best they could. Chris came along and since then, we moved from place to place with each new siblin' we had. My father was the only one workin' to brin' incomes and… I suppose it was hard for him, and he got alcohol problems, ye know… and I was mostly his main target when he came back home drunk and angry about my mom not bein' able to keep the house clean or stuff like that…" Mathias said resting his chin in his hand as he kept blindly stroking Niels' hand. "But… I just didn't want mom to get hurt… he… once he hit her in the stomach while she was pregnant and she… she lost it."

It hurt to remember these moments, but with time, he had been able to not get mad when thinking about this particular event. "She almost died," he clarified, sighing and sipped on his beer. "But well, I'm tellin' ye all the bad moments, but they are not so bad as parents, I swear. I did have a nice childhood," he said, though he mentally corrected himself by the fact he didn't have any childhood to begin with. "I used to help my mom with raisin' my siblings, and I started to work with my dad pretty early along with school… eventually, I dropped out when I was fifteen or fourteen and I only finished high school when I was twenty-three to be able to go to College."

When he realised he had talked a whole lot, he chuckled and winked at his Norwegian lover, keeping the gentle stokes or his fingers, "Anythin' else ye wanna know?" he asked with a mocking grin.

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Shaking his head, Niels finished off his drink. He could feel the warmth from being slightly drunk, and he knew that in the morning he would call in sick to work. The prospect of laying in bed all day with Mathias was welcoming. Taking Mathias' hand, Niels pulled him from their stool. It was late, and well past one, going on two am. "I think we should get back home," Niels said softly. He had to stop himself from reaching up and kissing the man softly on the lips, for they were in public; but the alcohol was hampering his judgement, so Niels allowed himself to give Mathias a very brisk kiss.

He wasn't sure how Mathias felt, but to him, Niels had learned all he wanted to know for the night. And, for some odd reason, he felt closer than when they had started that night. To Niels, all the bad air had been fanned out and they were back on good terms. But Niels knew deep down that this would only last momentarily. He still did cocaine and whored around to get the money. Even though this night had been the best time in a long time, Niels knew it hadn't changed anything in him. After tonight he would still be a scum bag, no matter how his view of Mathias may had changed.