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Chapter 18
Bella pushes up in bed holding the sheet to her chest. She is sure he forgot for the night. But it is mid morning. Both of them were exhausted, him from the grief and sex, and her from the flight and sex.
Shifting from the bed she looks at him snoring, she grabs her scattered clothing and puts them back on. Standing she looks at him sleeping on his stomach, his face resting peacefully. Both hands run up into her hair, licking her lips she is not sure what to do.
Bella places a hand on her stomach and sighs softly thinking. Turning moments after, she leaves the room.
Edward groans, he actually for a few moments wonders if all of last night was a dream. Rolling over he lifts his head. His eyes focus and spot some black underwear on the floor. They aren't his, it clearly wasn't a dream.
She is so beautiful and just all around amazing. Rubbing his forehead he sits up and reaches down to grab his pants.
Bella pours the coffee. Lifting the cup she turns slowly to rest it on the set up tray. She had to go hunting a bit for something's. Like the tray, through the cupboards for the dishes.
Edward looks at her in his kitchen. His eyes travel over the table with a tray on it which is full of food, not a lot of food because he didn't have much to start with. But there is toast, and coffee or tea, and some fruit.
Looking up she sees him. Licking her lips she is not sure if he is in a talking mood. He is just wearing his dress suit pants and nothing else. Her eyes run over him from head to toe.
"Hey"
"Hi" She breathes out a sigh of relief at hearing his voice.
Edward says nothing more.
"I made you something to eat, I didn't know if you had eaten recently, and" Bella rambles. She is not in confident work mode. Stopping she bites her lower lip. "I-I um"
"That is nice of you" He says walking into the kitchen and sitting, he watches her push the tray closer to him.
"I can bring it up to the bed for you" Bella offers.
"Are you going to join me in bed?"
"Um" She is not sure what to say. "I-I um, wasn't going to"
"Well I will eat here" He glances at her take a seat.
"I want to talk"
"Tell me why you are here" Edward says chewing.
"Edward, you know why I am here"
"No, I don't" He says pointedly almost to the point of being rude in his tone.
Bella feels a crushing in her chest. "I tried to; I know how much Nonna meant to you"
"Means" He corrects her roughly.
"Means to you"
"I actually don't want to talk about this"
"Edward" Bella places her hand on top of his. She feels it stiffen nothing like he was last night. She wants him to touch her and she wants it to be okay to touch him. But she doesn't feel like that and takes her hand off of his.
"I want you to go"
"What?"
He doesn't know what he wants. Her here is just too much good he wants to wallow right now. "Yeah, I think you need to leave"
Bella looks away from him and stares forward. "Well"
Edward looks at her profile. He is making it a life goal to hurt this woman. Clearly.
"I can do that" Bella pushes out with her chair and stands leaving the kitchen quickly.
Bella shuts herself into the bathroom in the room she stayed in last time. Not last night because, last night she was with him all night. "Stupid" She whispers at the clenching in her stomach from the pleasure she felt. It betrays her, her memory. Sighing softly she runs a hand into her hair. 'You knew it was just sex for him last night Bells' She tells herself. Going to the sink Bella washes her face.
Turning on the shower she steps under the stream once it becomes very hot. Resting her body on the side of the shower she starts to cry. There is no reason in her mind for this. No reason in her lucid mind, for her to be crying in the shower over a man, her soon to be ex-boss man.
Bella turns right to face the marble wall of the shower she cries as her head rests on the shower wall. She is so sad for him, and sad that Nonna is gone. Even though she didn't know Nonna like Edward did, the lady offered things and said things which just seemed right.
"I didn't mean to hurt you" Edward whispers shutting the shower door as he stands slightly behind her.
Jumping out of her skin Bella turns and hides her body with her hands. "Get out"
"Listen to me" He demands lightly.
"I understand you want to be alone" She puts a hand up just hovering his chest. "I really do Edward"
"No, listen to me" Edward feels tears warm his eyes and cloud his vision which is already obscured due to the shower stream between and over them.
Bella looks at his face, she feels his hands pull hers up and he pins them to her sides.
Leaning in Edward kisses her warm neck. "I need you"
"I am" Bella swallows and licks her lips as he continues to kiss her neck.
He presses against her, his hands slide up her arms as her arms don't move from her sides. He cups her face and looks at her, his body is pretty much shielding all of the water from her face and body.
She feels him hard between them and shakes her head. "I can't just be this for you" She sighs out, grasping his semi-hard cock between them, she nibbles her lower lip.
"I don't want…"
"I can't just be sex filling the void" She pulls her head back away from his face and stares at him. "That hurts too much"
Edward stares at her holding her face for a long time. "You need to listen to me, I want you"
Lowering her eyelids she sighs. "Edward"
"No, no I mean I don't want to hurt you"
She lifts her eyes because she is confused.
"I love you"
"What?"
"I do"
"It is your grief talking, you don't" She moves her hands up and pushes him away some, he doesn't budge. "Please just go"
"I love you" Edward re-grips her face and kisses her deeply. "I've loved you since we went to yoga together" He laughs a bit.
"No" Bella shakes her head. He is just hurt and is putting every other emotion he is feeling into her because she is there and present.
He slides a hand down her neck and he cups her breasts, sliding it further down Edward reaches her and pulls her left leg up holding it high on his hip.
Moaning softly she kisses him back, her fingers pulling and pressing and touching his chin.
Tipping down he thrusts up into her. "I love you" He grunts against her mouth. "I love every time you put me in line" He whispers between panting breaths.
Bella wants to cry and run away from him. Her hands do just the opposite, she moans and purrs gripping him tightly.
"I love how bossy you are, god you are bossy, and innocent, completely perfect" Edward groans.
"Shh" Bella pushes her mouth to his kissing him deeply.
"I didn't mean to hurt you" He says in breathless short words.
Bella feels her hot tears come down her face as he whispers these words into her mouth and cheeks. Shaking as she grips him she cums quickly.
Edward presses a hand on the wall next to her head and nips at her lower lip while he cums, he feels her as she continues. Moving his mouth he kisses her slowly until she is done.
Bella says nothing; she just hangs her head back as her arms are still around him holding him tightly.
Edward kisses up her exposed throat. He moves his hand from the wall and wraps it around her waist, pulling her closer on him.
"No more" She begs him her hands pressing against his chest.
"I'm sorry, are you okay?"
"Yes, yes" Bella can barely get it out as her heart is racing. She feels him leave her body and her eyes fall shut with such a satisfying good feeling.
"I didn't want to tell you about the center because I couldn't face seeing you hurt" Edward says kissing her lips lightly.
"What?"
"I couldn't hurt you, I just couldn't say and hurt you" Edward whispers against her mouth as he continues to kiss her slowly. His hand slides up her body both are around her middle keeping her pressed tightly against him.
"What does that mean?" She questions softly into his mouth before tipping her neck a bit to kiss him more deeply.
"I love you"
"You can't" She whispers into his mouth as he kisses her a bit more now.
"Yes" Edward nods. There is no other explanation for what he feels for her. How he wants to make sure she is protected, even from himself. He just can't stop it anymore.
Making a small sound in the back of her throat she looks at him, her mouth coming away from his and looking at him. Her eyes scan over his. "The water is going to run out" She says softly.
"I don't care, stay with me here"
Bella lifts her arms and smoothes them up and down his arms. "I am here with you"
"No, stay, just stay here"
"What, in Italy?"
"Yes, with me, I want you here"
"Edward you" Bella stops and shakes her head seeing this is not real. He just wants to stay away from the real world to stop himself form facing reality. "I need to go" She can see he doesn't love her; he loves how she can take him to another place, with sex.
"No" Edward growls roughly not letting her move. "Do you hear me?"
Looking at him. "YES! You are saying everything right" She actually yells in his face, he is so close there was really no other place to yell. It is what every woman wants to hear, especially when she is feeling the same; the same being what he thinks he is feeling for her. It can't be any other reason she feels like kissing him and crying over him all in one go. She loves him, like Nonna said. "I want to believe it, I do, but you are hurt, and in pain"
He is hurt and in pain but it is not the reason he is saying what he has felt for weeks now. "I am not just saying this" He says firmly. "I mean it, hurting you, I never wanted to do that, and I did over and over"
Bella looks away for a moment. He did hurt her, a lot. That is not forgotten. "You know we can't stay in Italy forever" She feels him acknowledge what she is saying as truth.
"I am so sorry" Edward whispers resting his cheek against hers, he feels her cheek quiver and knows she is crying.
"I should be" Bella hugs around his neck. "Comforting you"
He smiles. "You knowing I love you, and you loving me back is comfort enough" He whispers turning his head a bit to kiss her ear. "Do you love me?"
"Yes" She holds onto him more tightly.
