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well its been a very long time since i've updated this, more than a year in fact, but here it is, an update.
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Chapter five – a misunderstanding
My breath leaves me as I hear the alien, pained sound, so soft and raw that it is almost inaudible. I slowly rise from my neglected bed and make my way to the door, my steps are careful, as though to be anything but delicate in approaching his room would cause the spell to break. I hear the sound a second time, and for a selfish nanosecond hope swells within me that he somehow remembers what he had so quickly forgotten. As I reach his bedroom door his troubling words from earlier echo in my mind once more
"I'm not okay, I haven't been for a while".
Unsure how to proceed, I stand there and simply listen, my heart breaking with every hitch in my partner's breathing. Unable to take any more I place a quaking hand on the handle, I quickly twist as though ripping off a band aid, and force open the only thing keeping me from knowing the truth about what his words had truly meant. I see my Soul eater scrunched up at the foot of his bed, vermilion eyes redder than I thought possible with crying, and a look about his stunned face that told me two things about the situation.
One, he most certainly did not want me seeing him cry, most certainly not by busting into his room in the early hours of the morning like a policewoman with a search warrant.
And two, I was undeniably linked to why he was crying like this in the early hours of the morning while I busted into his room like a policewoman with a search warrant.
"Soul I…"
With the pallor of his skin attempting to copy the red of his eyes, Soul shields his face with his forearm and wipes at the tears, his teeth clench in what appears to be a mixture of frustration and embarrassment. "Maka what are you doing in my room?" he mutters, his voice hoarse from crying. Without speaking I make my way to his side, and cautiously place my arms around him in a lose hug, testing the waters. "I heard you crying" I meet his gaze searchingly, putting my embarrassment aside, knowing that I must be strong now, he needs me. He attempts half-heartedly to smile, but the simple gesture only triggers something within him that causes him to cry even harder, and I fiercely tighten my grip on him, my body seemly holding him together as his shoulders tremor violently.
"I'm so sorry Maka…" he whispers between labored breaths, and my blood runs cold with the realization.
"You knew didn't you Soul, you remember that night as well as I do." My voice was suddenly as stiff and unfeeling as my body had become, the wound was fully reopened and a struggle between fury and betrayal soon raged within me.
"Yes."
I promptly released him and stood, my eyes boring into his with a thousand unspoken questions between us, tears threatening to spill from me yet again. "Maka please it's not what you think!" Soul jumps to his feet and frantically tries to explain, but his words cannot reach me where I am now, in my orange glade with a purple sky, as purple and raw as the bruise that is forming on Soul's jaw where I have just sucker punched him. My tears are stinging persistent and hot, blurring my vision so that I cannot see my Soul eater stand from where he had stumbled back, and take my face gently in his hands.
"…It's just because, I love you Maka"
My attention snaps back to reality, to Soul, and to the outrageous statement he has just had the audacity to make. His eyes are pleading, and I suddenly get the feeling that I may have just blanked out his whole explanation in a fit of rage. I let him guide me down with him to the comfort of his bed, and with my hands held tightly in his own he explains to me his side of the story.
"I told you, you see, I know that it seems really lame coming from such a generally cool guy like me but, that night I knew exactly what I was doing, I seriously had wanted to do that for a long time, almost since I'd met you actually, and afterwards while watching you lay there asleep I knew I had made the best decision I'd made since becoming your weapon, Maka." A hot blush and a combination of confusion and premature relief dared to flood through me as he spoke.
"But why, why did you pretend that it never happened? Why would you do that to me?"
"It was dumb, It was sheer panic really, because when I woke up expecting you to be beside me, I saw that you'd left, so I stupidly assumed that you were ashamed or something and that you'd rather pretend that it'd never happened, but when I saw the signs that you were shocked I 'didn't remember' it was too late to take it back and say 'hey, actually I remember we had sex last night how could I forget oh well' y'know?"
"Please don't hate me for being an idiot, Maka, I love you, and I've loved you all this time but my dumb pride has been stopping me from telling you the mistake I'd made, until it was so long ago it seemed impossible to tell you and for it to be acceptable." His gaze fell from my face to the ground, and his entire countenance seemed to be bracing for something unpleasant.
The utter stupidity of the situation hit me like a tonne of bricks, but despite myself I couldn't help but smile a little, he was an idiot alright but he was still my idiot. Still watching the floor intently he continues to gush apologetically, as I raise my hand above his head, and bring it down on his cranium to chop him.
"OUCH!" he looks up at me with a confused yet hopeful expression "I know it was dumb but there's no need to get violent…" despite himself a grateful smile plays on his lips, "thank you" he tells me, and with that I lean slowly forward to kiss him.
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maybe the final chapter? maybe there is smut to come, maybe i'm too lazy, hmm.
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