Authors Note: Thank you for all the reviews, Penny will not hurt herself again, it will be tough and Sheldon is going to get hurt at times but he is not alone. Leonard may return if only to make himself feel important.

Disclaimer Big Bang its characters belong to someone else. The story belongs to me

Two months before.

Sheldon stared at Penny as the paramedics moved to begin working on her.

"Sir" the paramedic said trying to get Sheldon's attention.

"Sir" she said again.

Sheldon comes out of the shock at the question of the paramedic

"Yes ummm yes" Sheldon replied still think that this was all a dream.

"What tablets did this young lady take?" the paramedic asked.

"There are on the counter, I do not know how many, please help her" Sheldon replied, pointing to the tablet packets on the kitchen island.

"We are doing all we can" the paramedic said as she tried to reassure Sheldon.

The paramedic stood and grabbed the packets of pills from the counter, examining each one, and writing done the details.

"She's stop breathing, No pulse" the other paramedic said suddenly.

"Move" she said as she dropped to the floor beside Penny, bumping Sheldon on the way through.

Sheldon scrambled out of the way of the paramedic "PENNY" he screamed as he tried to stand, but felt his legs give way underneath him.

"Come on, 1, 2, 3, damn it breathe" as the paramedics attempted CPR.

"PENNY, Hang on please" Sheldon screamed as the paramedics worked to get her breathing again.

"Got a pulse, she breathing again" the other paramedic said pulling the gurney towards them.

"Right let's get her out of here, sir" the senior paramedic said helping to lift her up.

"Sheldon "she asked.

"Sheldon are you alright, is there someone who can be with you" she asked again.

"Howard and Bernadette will be here soon" Sheldon said still not believing what was going on.

"Penny" screamed Bernadette from the door as she and Howard rushed in

"Out of the way, we have to get her to the hospital" the Paramedic screamed as they moved Penny towards to the door.

"Sheldon what happened" Howard asked as he and Bernadette helped Sheldon to his feet.

"I came home, hear a loud crash, Penny" Sheldon said unable to focus, tears beginning to form in his eyes.

"I failed her, I was not there when she needed me" Sheldon ranted, looking around helpless and confused.

"Okay we off to the ER, she breathing and stable" the senior paramedic said before following her partner out the door.

"Come on Sheldon, we will go to the ER" Bernadette said trying to move Sheldon after the paramedics.

"I failed her" Sheldon said meekly as they helped him to the door

Bernadette and Howard helped Sheldon down the stairs and out the door to car. Sheldon wanted to sit in the front seat, after getting the glare from Bernadette when he protested, Howard helped him into seat and buckled him in, "Just this once Sheldon because this is my spot ok".

Sheldon grinned weakly as Howard got in the back, Bernadette started the car and they backed out and sped off after Penny's ambulance.

Present Day

Sheldon exited the elevator on the fourth floor, he turned and started to walk down the corridor as he had done for the past two months to the ward where Penny was staying.

He nodded to the nurses as he made his way to room 234.

"Today will be the day Sheldon, today you open the door and Penny will be smiling brightly at you" he said as he approached the door.

He knocked three times before entering the room.

The nurse attending to Penny turned.

"Look Penny, Sheldon is here" Nurse Walker said quietly to Penny as she tidied her hair.

Sheldon looked at Penny, seeing what he had seen for the past months, no expression, cold empty eyes, Penny just staring out into space. Whether she knew he was here or not, he did not know. He hoped that somewhere behind the hurt and pain, there was Penny.

"Hi Penny, How are you today" Sheldon asked softly.

Sheldon moved to sit next to Penny, the nurse excused herself and smiled as she exited the room.

As he did every morning and every evening, he filled Penny in on the events of the day.

"Momma and Meemaw are coming to visit for Christmas Penny as is Missy" he said.

"Your parents send you their love, and will visit before New Year's, I have stocked the fridge for them and made sure the apartment is clean" Sheldon keep talking holding Penny's hand gently.

"Howard and Bernadette are coming over Christmas Day and we are all going to have lunch together, I am not sure I want to though, I would rather come here but Bernie said that I had to because it was family" Sheldon continued pulling a face to show his discomfort at the idea.

"I said that you were family, and I needed to be here with you" Sheldon said softly to Penny.

"So Christmas day, we are all coming here and Doctor Wallace has arranged for us to use the rec hall so that you can join us for lunch" Sheldon said hoping to chance a glimpse of anything from Penny.

Sheldon looked and prayed that he could see some response but he could see none.

Sheldon opened his bag and took out the book that he had been reading Penny each day, when he first started to read to her he had made sure that Bernadette had selected something that she knew Penny would like, they had started with the first book of Hunger Games and were now on the second.

Sheldon would always read just two chapters to her each time he visited, ironically he found that while the books may not have been something he would have considered worthy of his time, there was an enjoyment in reading to Penny that seemed to quieten his soul for a while.

There was not too many times since Penny's incident that Sheldon truly felt at peace, normally working on his equations would calm whatever thoughts were swirling in his mind, but since then it seemed that only being here with Penny, reading and talking gave him a peace and calmness that he had never felt before.

"Well Penny, it is time for me to go, I will see you tomorrow morning. Penny please come back to me, I miss you, and I need you" Sheldon said placing a kiss on her forehead.

Sheldon got up and walked to the door, "Cheesecake Factory tonight, though I do not know why Bernadette and Howard still want to go there, they never get my order right not since you "he stopped.

He turned and slowly made his way back to Penny, leaning down, he kissed Penny on the cheek and said "I love you Penny".

Straightening himself as he turned and made his way out the door. He quickly made his way to the elevator, he stopped thinking he heard something but thinking it was just his imagination, and he entered the lift and was gone.

Meanwhile in Penny's room.

A tear formed in Penny's eye and silently she whispered "Moonpie" as the tears began to flow.