Authors Note: Thank you for all the reviews, it is time for Penny and Sheldon to talk for the first time
Disclaimer Big Bang its characters belong to someone else. The story belongs to me
Two months ago
Howard, Bernadette and Sheldon arrived back at the apartment from the Hospital
"Are you sure you do not want us to come in, we can you know"
"No I will be fine, I will clean up Penny's apartment and then go to sleep, I need to call her parents in the morning and then I will walk to the hospital"
"Ok if you are"
"Yes Howard, I will see you at work tomorrow, Thank you both from taking me to the hospital and being there for Penny"
"It was no hassle, we would do anything for Penny"
Howard and Bernadette pulled away from the kerb and heading home.
"I really hope he will be okay, Howie"
"With Sheldon, you never know, might be good if one of us rings his mother tomorrow so she knows what has happened"
"I'll do that, you keep an eye on him at work, we will visit Penny with Sheldon that night"
Sheldon watched and waved until Bernadette's car had gone out of sight, then he went inside and climbed to the stairs to the fourth floor.
Pausing for a minute, he calmed himself before unlocking the door to Penny's apartment before going in.
He surveyed the scene, the broken glass and pills scattered on the floor, the empty packets on the bench.
For a moment Sheldon was frozen unable to move as he played the scene from earlier in the night. Sighing he moved to the kitchen and got what cleaning stuff he could find.
"Penny, Penny, Penny" he thought "you really need to keep your cleaning equipment in good condition and your supplies fully stocked"
For a moment he waited for Penny's "Sheldon, Sheldon, Sheldon" but then he realised that it could not come. He started cleaning up the mess, moving silently around the kitchen, until he came to an overturned piece of paper.
He turned it over and froze when he saw what was written
I am sorry but I cannot go on, I am a failure as an actress and a person. I have no one and the world will be better off without me. I am sorry Mum, Dad but I am so alone and this is the only way I can be at peace. He left me when I needed him and I cannot go on without him, I never thought my beautiful mind would abandon me. I am sorry
Penny Queen
Sheldon felt his knees collapse and he struggled to get to the couch, he read the note over and over, tears being to flow from his eyes, he had no idea that she was hurting this bad, why had he abandoned her, why had he not made time for her. Sheldon curled up in a ball on the couch and cried himself to sleep.
Present Day
"Right let's begin" Dr Wallace said opening up her folder.
"Now Sheldon, I want you to allow Penny to say what she needs to say, Penny needs to be able to say how she is feeling no matter how hurtful it may seem"
"Okay Doctor Wallace"
"Penny, last night when we talked you said that you had enough, you were a failure as an actress, you always pick the wrong guys as boyfriends, you were broke, your job sucked and your best friend had abandoned you"
"Yes"
"And you said that you felt that he had abandoned you because you had not spoken for weeks"
"Yes not since I walked in on Leonard with that actress"
"Sheldon why did you not talk to Penny for those weeks"
"I was told by Leonard that Penny had broken up with him and that she did not want to have anything to do with me, I thought about asking Penny herself but Leonard keep inviting Amy to things with his new whore and I felt that I had an obligation to accompany Amy"
"You never thought that he could be lying Sheldon" Penny snapped at him "That maybe it was Leonard who had cheated on her, or did you assume because I am the big five O that I must have been to blame"
"I tried to go and see you but work and Amy, Leonard they got in the way, I failed you so badly I hurt you, and I did not know what to be believe"
"So Leonard shacking up with some brunette slut five seconds after we broke up, did not seem strange to you"
"No"
"Why did it not seem strange Sheldon" Dr Wallace asked
"Because every time they broke up Leonard would met someone new and sleep with them and Penny would get drunk and sleep with some guy, no one told me it was different"
"Is what Sheldon saying plausible?" Dr Wallace enquired of Penny
"Maybe, yes I would get drunk and sleep with some random guy" Penny replied "But Sheldon did not ask me, he just assumed"
"But"
"Did you not notice Leonard lusting after her while they were shooting?"
"Penny, Penny, Penny"
"Sheldon, Sheldon, Sheldon, stop avoiding the question"
"The little troll always lusts after pretty girls, he called dibs on you after meeting you for 5 minutes"
"True"
"I did not know he had cheated and humiliated you, I did not find that out until a few weeks later, when Amy asked her when they had first had coitus"
"Sounds like an Amy question"
"Amy only realised she was getting used by Leonard when we broke up and he started not inviting her to parties etc."
"So it was seemed that the little troll sorry I mean Leonard" Doctor Wallace queried "seemed to be controlling the information as to what had happened"
"Yes but I should have checked on Penny"
"Penny, had you tried to talk to Sheldon"
"A couple of times but he was not home or Leonard was there with his girlfriend so I kind of did not want to be made to look pathetic"
"You could have sent me a message"
"Yes but if you did not answer then it would have meant that he were ignoring me and if I caused a fight between you and Leonard then you may have been mad at me."
"I would have seen you if you had asked me over"
"And you go through all that effort you did when you came over to have spaghetti with hot dogs that time"
"I would not have, we did not have any hot dogs"
"Sheldon"
"Penny if you had said you needed me I would have dropped everything for you, true Leonard "the troll" Hofstadter would have chucked a sissy fit but at least you would have known I cared."
"Well it looks like if you want to lay blame then both of you forgot to ask the other what was happening" Doctor Wallace mused "Just by seeing you two interact this little bit, I can see that you both need each other, but in a healthy way.
"What do you mean Doc" Penny asked
"Well Sheldon is very much for what I have observed compelled by what he thinks while you Penny from what little I have seen and from speaking to Doctor Cooper, Bernadette and Howard, are someone who is compelled by your heart."
"Your lack of confidence in the one area is compensated by the others strength in that area."
"Unlike Hofstadter who from what I understand looks for what makes him feel important or special"
"I am not quite following your logic here Doctor" Sheldon asked
"Sheldon you have become accustomed to Penny helping you with certain things and Penny has been accustomed to you doing the same for her. It is not a weakness but a sign of a healthy relationship"
"Penny you always picked the wrong boyfriends, which is probably true in the romantic sense but not sure where you valued friendship first, Sheldon was the perfect choice for you"
"Let's for a moment, not talk and you both think of one situation where together you both just know the other has your back"
"No talking, just think"
