Warnings rating: M. Sexual content. Strong language. Bella exotic dancing underaged. In the story she is seventeen.
Disclaimer: Unfortunetly I own nothing. and i only have notepad on the computer so sorry for any problems.xx
Note: There are a few references to blood flow in this. Stephenie Meyer wasn't very clear on that so i just went with it. Also timeline may not be exactly accurate to Twilight series. Also the logic i used to stop Alices visions, is completly made up to suit my story. And sorry if Alice sounds a little Victorian, it just seemed to happen.
Ch 4
Bella had stopped running about half an hour ago. It didn't matter how far away she got, Edward could always find her in a second if he felt like it. Not that he would ever feel like it again, not after finding THAT out. Bella rubbed her face desparetly trying to scrub away the tears. God it was all so unfair, she knew what it made her look like, but Edward didn't understand, it just wasn't fair.
"What a night huh"
Bella spun round. Alice was sitting cross legged on a rock just behind her. Bella clenched her fists as she felt a scream of fury welling up inside
herself. But before she could unleash it, Bella saw Alices face. Her usualy bright pixie features, were dark and pitiful. Her eyes full of sorrow and
hopelessness.
"Hated by both my brother and my best friend. And hit with the realisation that I am cruel, unthinking and dreadfully selfish." Alice gazed into
Bellas eyes. "Even at this moment, when you must feel so rotten and terrible, all I can think of is myself. The pain I feel. And yet you, who must
think she has lost everything, is looking at me, with such concern... oh Bella! Bella please forgive me! If I had had any idea I would never have
shown it. I just assumed it was some funny tape of you as a kid doing wonky ballet. I would NEVER have suspected you of..of"
"Stripping?" Bella smiled bitterly. "Yeah its a long story"
"Yeah I'll bet."Alice said. "I mean you were so"
"Slutty?" Bella supplied.
Alice winced. "No. I was going to say graceful. I mean it was still, you know" she made a vaugue jesture with her hand. " But Bella usually you
can't even stand let alone do a floorshow"
"I may have...exaggerated my clumsy tendencies. It's not that I ever thought Edward would guess what I used to do but this way I could always
deny it if anybody I used to do it with ever turned up. I mean would you ever have believed it if you hadn't seen it with your own eyes?"
Alice almost smiled. "No Bella, I still don't really believe it. Or understand. You were underaged. How and why did you become a stripper"
Bella closed her eyes and sank to the ground in front of Alices rock. "Like I said, its a long story"
Alice raised an eyebrow. "Bella, you are talking to a vampire. Time I got"
Bella actually giggled, then sighed.
"Well my mom has never been exactly what you'd call "stable." She's in and out of jobs sometimes and well, when I was sixteen I found a notice
from our gas company threatening to cut us off. I heard my mom crying that same night. She was so...afraid. So I decided to get a job to try and
earn my keep a bit"
Alice nodded, trying to encourage Bella and show she wasn't being judgemental. Bella swollowed.
"So I asked around, left a resume into a few places, but I couldn't get hired anywhere. I was fairly pissed off with the whole thing, until this girl
from my dance classes whos Dad ran a shop I had applied for a job in offered me something. She was a year older then me and worked in this club
called "Sugar and Spice." She said she could get me a waitressing job there. I had never heard of the club before but I was desparate so I took the
job. What she didn't tell me was that it was a strip club"
"At first all I had to do was wait tables and clean up after everybody was gone. I told my mum I had a job, but I didn't tell her where. I tried to dress
plainly, to avoid unwanted attention, but I got less tips then some of the other girls. One night when I was clearing up, some of the dancers stayed
behind to practise one of their routines. They were a girl short, and they knew I could dance, all they needed was a quick rehersal. But I was better
then they expected, Hell I was better then I expected. Word got back to the owner that I had some moves and he offered me a job as one of the
preformers. He knew I was underaged, but it ment good cash for him, and I still needed money. So I took the job, made the money and kept it a
secret from everyone I loved. Until now."
Bella went quiet and stared at her hands in her lap. Alice was silent for a minute.
"Bella, how did the video tape happen and why, if you were so desparate to keep this a secret, didn't you get rid of it"
"What you saw was my farewell preformance. One of the girls, Buttons, hid at the back of the club and filmed it as a present to me. They called it
"Ballet Bella" as a joke because I started dancing in ballet. I suppose I kept it because as odd as it sounds, I had a great time working there. The
girls were always so sweet, looking out for each other, warning all the new dancers about men to avoid. They weren't just work mates, but my
friends. It felt wrong to throw it away when theyhad given it to me. And-"
Bella hesitated. "God I can't believe I'm admitting this, but part of me felt...sexy... and powerful. Being on that stage, I was a Goddess. The men
who watched me were completly in awe of me. Don't get me wrong, I wish to God I hadn't done it. Especially because now, Edward knows I'm not
as sweet and innocent as he thought. Perhaps he might re-think me not going to Hell thing"
Alice grabbed Bellas chin and forced her to look into her eyes.
"Bella, what you did may not have been smart or even legal, but you did it to help your mother. You did it for good reasons. You are not going to
Hell for it. I know it took a lot of courage to tell me that. Thank you"
Bella sighed and laid her head in Alices lap. Alice stroked her hair soothingly. Bellas mind wandered over the past few minutes.Suddenly
she sat bolt upright. Something Alice had said just hit her.
"You said "think"
Alice looked at her as if she had two heads. "What"
"Earlier you said I must think I have lost everything. Why just think"
A smile crept onto Alices face. "Edward isn't prepared to give up on you just yet. He was going to get you himself, but I asked if I could go for him,
because I wanted some time alone with you to talk. I can't see anything certain exactly, but something tells me he isn't going to finish it with you"
Bella squealed and jumped into Alices arms, hugging her tight. It felt like a giant weight had been lifted from her chest. Edward wasn't ending it.
Even after seeing Bellas darkest moment. Bella made herself the silent promise never to keep secrets from her love again.
"Wait Alice I just thought of something, why didn't you see what was going to happen"
Alice shrugged. "I don't see every little thing.And you have a talent for throwing a vampires talent out of whack. Maybe whatever or whoever sends
me my visions decided it was time that your...secret came out." Alice rushed on holding her hands up . "I'm not defending what I did, it was wrong
but I mean"
Bella stopped her "You're right, Edward should know. I should have told, him. Lets just put this behind us. Okay"
Alice smiled and pulled Bella into a gentle hug. "Bella, Edward is lucky to have you.. no matter what you've done. Now lets get you back to the lucky
bastard before he comes looking for you"
Alice lifted Bella with ease and took off at a great pace back to the Cullens house.
The next chapter might be the last. Hope it answered most questions. XX Thanks for the support.
