HEYY! Sorry that I haven't updated in a couple of days but I have been quite busy. I also just want to say, I did do research beforehand, but I needed a way to get Emma to hospital, but the 'not waking up thing' isn't a sign of the syndrome she has got, so sorry for that and I hope that made sense. Just pretend she is sedated now. Please read and review I really love them. Enjoy!

"Fine" she sighed, putting her hands up in surrender, too tired to argue with him. He started to usher Jac out of the room guiding her gently with his hands on her hips, making sure she could change her mind and turn back. As they entered the room, Jonny pulled back the covers enough for Jac to slide in. He receive a questioning look from Jac and a roll of her eyes but pushed her look to the back of his mind and just nodded to the bed unaffected. She climbed in and he caringly pulled the covers up to her shoulders, as he had done with Emma last night and sat back in the chair next to the tall lamp. He turned the light down, but not off, bathing the room in an ocean of warm gold you would imagine to be given off in the most glorious of sunsets.

Every so often Jonny would pop his head round the door of the on-call room to look at the big hospital bed of his little girl and make sure everything was ok, as he promised he would, and so far not a signal problem would catch his eye. He got lost in the thought of how that hughmongus bed seemed to drown his baby girl in an ocean of white. Within only an hour of sleep a problem did arise, but it didn't come from Emma, the cause was Jac. She was becoming restless kicking and punching out at the air; mumbling incomprehensible words under her breath. Jonny gently said her name, but she didn't wake up. He stroked her arm and said her name a little bit louder, but that did not work. He stood up, looking over her and shook her roughly, yelling at her to wake up. Jac shot up and Jonny only just got out of the way before he had a head full of Naylor coming to knock him out. She was breathing heavily and her heart was booming out of her chest. She looked around the room frantically and as soon as her eyes set upon Jonny tears instantly began streaming rapidly down her face .again.

Jonny quickly, and on impulse, got up and sat down next to Jac on the bed, cupping her face in his hands, making Jac look him in the eyes.

"Calm down, you're ok" he reassured her softly, wiping his thumbs across her cheeks to rid her of the hot salty tears. If Jac was in her normal state of mind she would have yanked his hands away and start to yell at him, but she didn't. Jonny could see sh was still panicked. He saw this as his chance to make her think about moving in with him again, so he shuffled her up to him and cradled her gently to show her he wasn't going anywhere. He had a plan all laid out in his mind. He wanted him and Jac to get back together and he was getting closer. First he apologised and showed her it was his entire fault and now they were cuddling in a tight embrace. It didn't matter how it came round as long as it brought them closer. Next was to get her to open up to him. This isn't going to be easy, he thought.

Jac moved slightly and buried her head into Jonny's chest; they stayed like that for a little while longer. Jac had calmed down now and she knew what was happening, her barriers were falling. I shouldn't be letting him hold me like this, she thought. But now they were like this, she missed him; she missed his touch, his smell and the way he spoke softly to her. She was brought out of her thoughts when she felt jonny pull away from her slightly. He placed his hands on her shoulders and held her at arm's length. He looked in her eyes and she returned it.

"What's wrong? I have never seen you look that scared before" he asked her in the softest voice. He brought his hands up to her face so he couldn't look away.

"Nothing, I'm fine" she said pulling away as Jonny let his hands fall down onto his knees. Having jonny hold her and talk to her again hurt her. Yes they saw each other on a regular basis when Jac came round once a week to see Emma, but it was always awkward. They would hardly talk to each other and if they did it was always with spiteful hostility. Yesterday, they weren't even on speaking terms and now they he was staring at her; his face riddled with concern. It was all going a bit fast, but she couldn't stop it no matter how hard she fought.

"That wasn't 'nothing. You weren't even that distressed when you were in labour" he laughed a little hoping it would help her to talk to him.

"Why should I tell you?" she retorted

"Because…i-I care, and talking about it, can help" he spoke cautiously but there was a hidden tone of desperation as well. Jac sighed and gave up. She knew Jonny could be the most persistent person on earth if he wanted to.

"You-you spoke about…" She took a deep breath "… about Allan Clooney and- and Joseph." She stopped it was too hard to say their names never mind talk about them. She looked up at Jonny; he nodded so she carried on. "I loved Joseph so much, and… I guess part of me still does; I doubt I will ever stop loving him." Jonny's heart sank. Jac would never say anything like that about him so maybe he was just filling in the gap for her that Joseph made when he left. "But when I met you… and the first time I said that I loved you… I realised that I'm not in love with him anymore. It's just the memories I love." This was so much harder than she thought it would be and she really appreciated that he just listened to her rather than trying to comfort her.

"Why did he leave?" he asked carefully

"He said that he needed a better life for harry, his son. He asked me to go with him, but I guess at that point in time we just needed different things, but it certainly didn't help with what had gone on between us in the past. We had a relationship that you could describe like ours- fractious. But when things were plain sailing…it was so good" she closed her eyes and screwed up her face as she thought of the times when they were happy together. A single tear slipped from her eye. "But our problem was that we were both so career driven. We were sneaky and vicious towards each other. He did some really bad things but the things I did were worse. I'm sure you've heard the rumours." She laughed a little trying to stop her voice from cracking "But in the end we always came back together. I think if we could have found out our problem before he left, then…I don't know… would we be engaged? Married?" she looked at Jonny and they looked meaningfully at each other. Jonny was holding back the tears and so was Jac. "Sorry. I shouldn't have told you all that." She cleared her throat pushing back the emotion and went to stand up. Jonny did the same. She wiped here cheeks with the back of her hands and left the room. Jonny stayed behind taking in what he had just heard. He was more determined than ever now to make her realise their feelings were still there, just clouded by guilt and fear.

Sorry for the crap ending but thank you for reading and I hope you enjoyed it. Please drop me in a review.