A/N: Et voila, this one-shot contains Magnus's first kiss and a bit addition how he discovered that he likes guys.
All characters belongs to Cassie Clare, except for Justin. he's mine.
Enjoy reading.
The First Kiss
(or how Magnus discovered that he likes boys)
He moved in the house next to mine not so long ago. To be exact it was 46 days, 13 hours and 22 minutes. Not that I counted or something.
His name was Justin.
And god, he was the most beautiful boy I've ever seen.
He has black, short hair, that he puts a gel on it. his eyes. I don't think I've seen that kind of beauty before. His eyes were like two pools of the ocean at the night. So magnificent. I could drown in them for whole days. Not that he knew about that.
My room was just across his. I could see him every night through my bedroom window. And never in my life I'd expect that it would be so pleasant view.
Especially at night. When he was changing. I could easily see his muscles, and he has them, oh he does. By now I knew every line of muscles that he has on his body. And sometimes I dreamed about touching those muscles.
It wasn't that I started to dream about him at the very first night he moved here. No. it started later. When I saw him without shirt and in tight shorts in the water for the first time.
We were playing around in his pool at a sunny day. It was summer holidays for both of us. In the autumn he was about to attend his senior year, while I was about to get to Freshmen's year. So there was not so big difference in age between us. Only three years. We were playing in the water, splashing each other, joking around, laughing. We liked to spend time together. We were great friends, but not that great as me and Ragnor and Cate. But still I really liked him. And that was when I saw him. he was going out of the pool, when I was sitting on the plastic chair, drying myself. Justin just stepped out of the pool and stood right in front of me. Water was trailing down his body. His tight blue shorts were soaked and clinging to his body so I could perfectly see the size of his lower parts as well as the shape of his butt. And god damn me, in one moment my whole body went on fire. I didn't know what was happening to me other that I felt a bit of hardness in my lower section. I was getting hard. I knew that feeling, because it happened to me one time before when I saw almost naked Lucy in school. In no time I ran from Justin's place to my home, but the images of Justin stayed in my mind.
And so from that day was 20 days and every night I was observing him through my window. When nights were coming I was granting by sweet, pleasure dreams of him.
I was trying to understand what was happening to me. why all of sudden I liked watching guys? What has changed?
I knew that liking boys in that way wasn't something new in this world. I've read about it and to be honest, one time I looked through the internet for some videos. And that truly freaked me out when I took a pleasure of looking on two guys kissing and touching each other's. with a pure shock I discovered that looking at something like this makes me hot on my body and gives me that weird feeling down my abdomen.
Does that mean I'm gay?
It bugged me for a long time and to be honest I didn't have anyone to talk about it. my mom wasn't the best in advice especially now when she was working her ass off so I could go to school and we could live in a nice house on Brooklyn.
And it truly took me in a surprise when my best friend started to talk to me about it.
Me and Ragnor were sitting in the swings in a local park. Even when we were thirteen we liked to come here to act like kids.
"What's wrong Mags, you've been acting really weird lately, we're worried" he started to swing higher than me, but eventually he stopped himself and looked at me concerned "Mags?"
"I don't know…" he was confused "I don't know what's happening to me"
"What do you mean?"
"Just don't hate me ok?" Ragnor rolled his eyes on me.
"I couldn't, you know you're my best friend. I love you"
"I think I like boys" Fell still looked at me confused "You know…like like boys"
"Oh…" for a while there was silence between us "Are you sure?"
"I don't know…but…emm…." I lowered my voice "You know Justin, the guy who lives next to me?" Ragnor nodded "Well…am…lately…I'm having dreams about him…and in that dreams…I'm seeing him without shirt…and sometimes in that dreams…we're touching each other…and then I'm…I'm…" I looked at my lower parts "hard"
"So you're having" Ragnor whispered "Wet dreams about him?" I could only nod, feeling as my cheeks burning. "So…you're gay?"
"I don't know…I mean I didn't even kissed a guy to be sure but I like girls too"
Once again there was a silence between us. Ragnor had a thoughtful look and it bit me not knowing what he's thinking now. What if he hates me now? What if he'd like to stop befriending with me.
"Kiss me" he said and god knows that surprised me so I fell off the swing straight to the ground.
"What?"
"Kiss me, so you could see if you like guys. Simple" I thought about it for a second. Maybe it was a good idea, maybe it could help me. I only nodded before I started to lean to him.
When our lips connected I didn't know what to expect. I never kissed before with anyone, not like Ragnor. He had his first kiss with Annabelle on the last school dance. My eyes were closed and Ragnor's as well. He was the one who lead the kiss because I didn't know what to do or how to move my lips. But the kiss was nothing like I've read or heard about. It didn't make me see fireworks, nor make my knees jelly. In fact it was horrible. It even tasted horrible. And not because he ate pizza before. I don't know how to describe it but it was like kissing a family member. Not what I've been waiting so eager for.
Finally we've pulled away.
"And?" he asked.
"It was like kissing a brother, a family" I chuckled "Bleh"
"Yeah…same here" Ragnor just shrugged his arms and went back to swaying.
I was left with my feelings and thoughts alone. And I needed to find out whether I liked boys or not.
And one day I did it.
It was some party at Justin's place. Some of his friends were there, having fun and drinking. And he invited me as well. I was so happy that he did it. in there after a while I located him chatting with some girls and guys. So I decide that it's not polite to cut out his talk. But after a while he came to look for me, he was happy to see me. We talked, laughed, joked and I didn't even know when I did it. one moment we're talking about the party, me looking at his delicious, full lips. The next I'm pressing my lips to his. He was surprised but he kissed me back. And the god only knows that I was about to fall down the floor when my knees went all jelly and there was some tingle in my stomach. I couldn't stop myself from giggling. But then Justin recovered and when he saw that he's kissing me he brutally pulled away and stared at me shocked.
"Magnus…we can't…I'm not gay…"
I never knew that I could run so fast. After a few days Justin came to my place and we talked, I apologized for kissing him and he apologized as though it wasn't his fault.
The year quickly disappeared and soon I stopped seeing Justin so my crush on him wore off.
Even when he rejected my feelings, he helped me with one thing.
He helped me understand that I like boys as well, if not more.
And definitely he helped me getting to know that black hair and blue eyes are my favorite combination.
A/N: Did you like it?
So, what would you like to read next? Maybe a full scene how Magnus, Ragnor and Woolsey wanted to destroy a theater room? Or maybe something else that was mentioned in the original story?
Review if you feel like to
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