HEYY! Ok this is where my writing starts to get a little rubbish because I haven't got any further chapters written up so the next chapters will probably be shorter and absolutely bull poo! But oh well and I am sorry I haven't updated in a while (I don't really have an excuse). As always please read and review.

"He said that he needed a better life for harry, his son. He asked me to go with him, but I guess at that point in time we just needed different things, but it certainly didn't help with what had gone on between us in the past. We had a relationship that you could describe like ours- fractious. But when things were plain sailing…it was so good" she closed her eyes and screwed up her face as she thought of the times when they were happy together. A single tear slipped from her eye. "But our problem was that we were both so career driven. We were sneaky and vicious towards each other. He did some really bad things but the things I did were worse. I'm sure you've heard the rumours." She laughed a little trying to stop her voice from cracking "But in the end we always came back together. I think if we could have found out our problem before he left, then…I don't know… would we be engaged? Married?" she looked at Jonny and they looked meaningfully at each other. Jonny was holding back the tears and so was Jac. "Sorry. I shouldn't have told you all that." She cleared her throat pushing back the emotion and went to stand up. Jonny did the same. She wiped here cheeks with the back of her hands and left the room. Jonny stayed behind taking in what he had just heard. He was more determined than ever now to make her realise their feelings were still there, just clouded by guilt and fear.

(In the oncall room)

Jonny smoothed his hand over the spiky stubble that occupied his chin. He took a couple of steps back, until the edge of the bed collided with the back of his knees forcing him to sit down. He was still trying to process all that Jac had said. It seemed that she really was head over heels for this man, but Jac had said that she was in love with him now not Joseph, but that still worried him a little. What if Joseph suddenly turned up out of the blue proclaiming that he had come back for her, would she take him back with open arms and push Jonny to the side. Maybe, but that was unlikely after what he had done to her, leaving her alone and Jac knew, Jonny hoped, that he would never leave her. They weren't together but that was all about to change, he thought.

(In the side bay)

Jac walking into the room where Elliot sat in the chair by her ill baby girl. She had gone into the toilets to put on a fresh layer of make up so that it didn't look like she had been upset, but you could still tell because her eyes were red and blotchy. If only you could put make up on your actual eyes, was the very weird thought that popped into Jac's head she reapplied her eye shadow.

"Jac, I'm just waiting for Emma to wake up, I have taken her off sedation. Are you alright?" Elliot started kindly.

"I'm fine Elliot" Jac replied but it was blatant that she was lying; he could see that she had been crying. The professor nodded. He knew not to intrude on what was going on in Jac's head. Sometimes she would talk to him but he could see that she wasn't going to do that today; she just wanted to be left alone. He stood up and patted her on the arm.

"I'll come back in a bit when she is awake to do more tests" he whispered softly in her ear, and then he left Emma, Jac and her thoughts together.

Twenty minutes later Jac found herself leaning forward in the chair previously vacated by Elliot. Her finger was enclosed in Emma's small, tight fist. It was only when Jac let her thoughts wander to her daughter, when she realised how small she was, she was still quite tiny. Well, tiny for a 16 month old baby anyway. But Jac put that own to her being delivered a month early and her CDH, though she wasn't quite sure how CDH factored in this equation and Emma was still full term when she did go into labour. She started to think about what this situation would be like if the circumstances were different and if Bonnie had never been on the scene. If Bonnie had never turned up, Jonny would have taken her key and they would be together now!

Her thoughts were interrupted as Jonny came in. she looked up at him and smiled briefly as he walked round and slowly started to stoke his little girls auburn hair again. Jac looked at his hand, and saw how much she meant to him, he only wanted the best for her and maybe he had a point about her traits of bloody minded determination rubbing of on Emma was a blessing more than a curse.

"Jonny!" her voice sounded with alarm. Once again Emma's hair was coming out in big clumps. Jonny looked down, following Jac's gaze. They stared at the short hairs that Jonny held in great quantity. What was happening with their baby?

"This I what happened this morning, what do we do?" he asked his voice dripping with panic; exaustedness.

"Call a paediatric doctor, they must know something more" Jac advised, although this was the first time he had seen this she was able to think rationally. At that moment Elliot walked in and Jonny told him to do exactly what Jac said. Jonny saw a single tear role don her cheek. He wanted to offer her some words of comfort but he knew none. Instead her walked around to her and placed a hand on her shoulder. She looked up at him and stared into his eyes. She knew what he was wanting to say but was not wanting to lie either. Just then Emma shuffled a little and made a small gurgling noise. Jac and Jonny turned their heads back to their child and watched as she innocently opened here eves and puckered her lips before letting out a yawn bigger than thought possible. The parents let out a soft laugh. Jonny saw this as another moment to continue his plan, so riskily; he moved his hand down her arm and curled his big fingers around Jac's soft hand. It surprised him when she didn't pull away and instead returned the favour entwining her dainty digits with his.

THNK YOU! Sorry this chapter isn't very long but I hope you like it and could I have some ideas please because I have ran out; that may contribute to the short chapter as well? if I receive some I can update quicker and I would like to say that it is very likely that I will be doing a sequel for 'lift babies' but only after I have finished the fic. Please review. xx