HEYY! Sorry I haven't updated in a while but I have been struggling with Ideas, my internet is being stupid and I have been on was so funny because our campsight was right next to a skydiving place and we were woken up one morning to this woman screaming her lungs out all the way down 10,000 feat. Anyway thank you to all the reviews I have got, you people are brilliant. Once again this chapter will be quite short but please read and review because they will make me update quicker and I still need ideas. Hope you enjoy!
"Call a paediatric doctor, they must know something more" Jac advised, although this was the first time he had seen this she was able to think rationally. At that moment Elliot walked in and Jonny told him to do exactly what Jac said. Jonny saw a single tear role don her cheek. He wanted to offer her some words of comfort but he knew none. Instead her walked around to her and placed a hand on her shoulder. She looked up at him and stared into his eyes. She knew what he was wanting to say but was not wanting to lie either. Just then Emma shuffled a little and made a small gurgling noise. Jac and Jonny turned their heads back to their child and watched as she innocently opened here eves and puckered her lips before letting out a yawn bigger than thought possible. The parents let out a soft laugh. Jonny saw this as another moment to continue his plan, so riskily; he moved his hand down her arm and curled his big fingers around Jac's soft hand. It surprised him when she didn't pull away and instead returned the favour entwining her dainty digits with his.
Half an hour later and Jonny was sat in the chair next to the bed while he watched Jac tenderly playing with her daughter, tickling her feet and in return Emma would kick out and point to her mum. If only Jac could see herself with Emma, Jonny thought. He really wanted to bring the three of them together as a family. Both parents had stood, grasping each others hand gently for only 2 minutes but in his eyes it was 1 step closer to getting her back. The door gently swung open and DR Thomas, the paediatric consultant, walked in. he cleared his throat to make his presence known.
"Hi, I'm DR Thomas, the paediatric consultant, and I take it this is Emma?" Jac and Jonny nodded as they observed him walking to the end of the bed and picking up the notes. Dr Thomas was quite an ordinary looking man; he fitted the clichéd descripted man of every woman's dreams. He was tall around 6 ft. in height. He had chocolate brown, wavy hair with a neat edge, his eyes were big and blue and his body and face were in perfect per potion.
"Right ok, can you talk me through everything that has happened with symptoms and any concerns you might have?" he asked softly. Jac looked towards Jonny since he was the one who brought her in.
"Ok, um. Well I got up at night because she was crying and I couldn't settle her, I think he was in pain but I'm not sure and I think she was so exhausted he just fell asleep. Then in the morning she was still asleep and I started stroking her head and then when I looked the was a clump of her hair in my hands and then I tried to wake her up but she wouldn't so I brought her in here. I was just stroking hear head again not long ago and…" Jonny let his voice trail off as he nodded to the table beside Emma's bed were the little urbourn hairs lay.
"Ok-"DR Thomas was cut off by Jac
"Um, I just have one concern: she does look a bit small for her age. I was just wondering if that was normal or…" she let her voice trail off as she saw the doctor thinking and taking in the apprence of the little girl.
"I agree she does look a little small and her skin isn't really… I'm just going to take a blood sample." He had a very thoughtful look on his face and this made Jac and Jonny slightly suspicious.
"Do you think you know what it is? Is it something serious?" Jonny asked quickly. Dr Thomas finished taking the blood sample and looked at the parents. He wants really sure how to answer. He quickly held up the blood a rushed out of the room. Jac noticed that he was taking it down himself. She looked to Jonny but he was already engrossed in his daughter. A million and one thoughts were going through their heads. What was wrong? Is it serious? Would it go away or affect her for the rest of her life? But for Jac one question stuck out the most, was she sitting on borrowed time? Just then Jac noticed something with her baby.
"Jonny, look at her face" Jac nodded towards Emma.
"What?" he asked confusedly looking up at her then back at his little girl "I don't see anything "
"Exactly, look harder" Jonny studied his daughters face intently, straining his features into a frown as he realised. He stroked his finger just above Emma's eye. Nothing. Surly he should feel something.
"No eyebrows" he stated rather than asked. Jac nodded in response "or eyelashes" he didn't understand. What was going on?
Over an hour had passed since the realisation of Emma's hair loss. Jac looked up at Jonny, staring at the worn out look on his face. He was tired, Jac could tell. Well it was to be expected. He hadn't slept for just under 48 hours, living only off of coffee; how he managed Jac didn't know. Well, she did considering she pretty much used to do that when she worked a double shift and instead of sleeping when he got home she just watched TV.
"I'm going to grab a coffee, do you want anything" she asked.
"Can you get me a black coffee with sugar please?" he asked. He usually hated black coffee, it was too bitter, but he needed the caffeine and the sugar would give him energy too. Jac nodded and got up off the chair and headed out of the room and down to pulses. She had just ordered herself a hot chocolate and Jonny's coffee when she saw Sacha approaching her.
"Hi, how is Emma?" the surgeon asked softly as he enveloped Jac into his arms and for once Jac accepted it, wrapping her arms around him and not caring who saw.
"Well, she looks perfectly happy, but she is on a little bit of morphine to help settle her so she was obviously in pain. We still don't know what's wrong with her though" she answered Sacha exhaustedly, looking down at the floor, hoping her watery eyes would go unnoticed.
"She'll be fine, if she is anything like her mum that is" he joked hoping to cheer he up a bit, but unfortunately, it had the reverse effect.
"God, why does everybody keep saying that?" she asked rhetorically as she picked up her coffees and started walking away.
"Because it's true" Sacha said as he caught up with her as she walked towards the stairs.
"No it's not. I'm not strong- I'm ignorant, I'm not determined- I'm scared, I'm not amazing; I gave up my baby for crying out loud. I'm not a saint I'm just a cruel, thoughtless woman with a heart made of stone" she babbled on climbing the stairs at a quick pace before she turned to look at Sacha just as she reached the double doors to her ward. He began to slowly shake his head looking down at the floor in disbelief before raising his had to look her in the eye.
"No, you see, that's not what I see when I look at you. When I look at you I see a vulnerable little girl who has built walls around her, isolating herself from the outside world in order to stop herself being hurt again. Now this little girls' walls have given her a fake personality that made people talk about her and say horrible things to her. She has been misled to believe those words, when they are simply not true" he spoke meaningfully. A small tear escaped Jac's eye at what he said. No one had ever spoken to her like that before. No, there was one other person- Jonny.
"Come and see her, Emma" she said quietly. Sacha nodded in return and opened the door for her then followed her through to Emma's side bay. As they entered they found Jonny asleep in the chair so Jac put his coffee down on the side and went over and stood at the end of Emma's as Sacha went round to play with her.
"Hello my little fray cake!" Sacha said loudly earning himself a little giggle from her. Jac watched as her best friend made funny faces to Emma making her giggle louder and louder each time. Jac loved it when she laughed, to her ears there was no better sound. She wouldn't deny that she missed her daughter but neither would she admit it. Maybe Jonny had a point about buying a house together so Emma could live with both her parents. But Jonny had also said that they didn't need to be together and they could sleep in separate rooms, however, what about when they entered relationships with different people. It would simply be too hard for her, although she would never say it she still loved Jonny and seeing him with someone else would hurt too much. Jonny would get snapped up pretty quickly, he's funny, goofy, can be romantic, understanding and sympathetic, handsome and his thick Scottish accent was truly irresistible. He was perfect in every way possible. Maybe Jonny loves her too? Why would he be trying so hard if he didn't? She had to find out. An idea struck her just as Sacha's pager went off. Perfect.
"Oh, sorry princess I have to go, bye Jac I hope she gets better soon. Would it be ok if I came and saw her after my shift?" he asked solemnly.
"Yes" she replied gratefully. She was happy she had Sacha to support her. Jac watched as Sacha left the room and walk off the ward. Jonny was still asleep in the chair and Jac gazed at him as his chest rose and fell in a slow rhythm, synchronised to his breaths. She slowly walked over to him and crouched down in front of the chair. It's now or never, she thought. She lent in and tenderly kissed his sleeping lips. It took Jonny a couple of seconds before he woke properly and still with his eyes closed he responded passionately, pulling Jac up to sit on his knee.
"What?" Jonny asked smiling as they pulled apart.
"You're right, about me, you and Emma moving in together. But..." she took a deep breathe, was she finally opening up to him? "..I can't live in the same house as you and not be with you and waiting for you to bring home a girlfriend and then for you to marry her and leave me and I just. I can't. I-"Jac began speaking faster and faster as her eyes darted around the room rapidly, unable to make eye contact but was interrupted by Jonny's lips on hers.
"It's ok, I know" he said softly. Jac laid her head down on his chest as they watched their daughter happily looking around and fiddling with her toes.
THANK YOU! Ok, This chapter was longer than I thought it would be and I'm sorry if moves to fast or whatever. I hope you liked it please review. I love reading them! Xx
