A/N: As I promised, here's like Alec told his parents that he's gay, and more, how he discovered that he likes boys. It's written in Third POV, because I wanted to show you what Maryse and Robert were thinking at that moment, so you could better understand why they were so accepting in the original story.
This one is dedicated to Red wolf, runwithwarlocks, Faking A Smile , Peoplelikeus13 and Love-Ice-Rose .
PS. runwithwarlocks: If you have a tumblr PM me, than I'll give you COHF in epub.
Enjoy reading.
"Mom, Dad…I'm gay"
Alec Lightwood, a fifteen years old boy, was truly afraid. He was shaking like a leaf, waiting for his parents response, that now were silent for ten minutes. His heart was racing, his palms were sweating, his face was blank.
Finally Maryse Lightwood spoke.
"Alexander…"
But let's get back to the beginning.
It was a really nice day. The sun was up, birds were singing outside. The warm air of June came through an open window.
Alec was in the hospital only for three weeks. He was partly glad that the school was finished, and that he won't miss any day from his sophomore year. If the chemo will work, he may be able to get to his Junior year in St. Raziel's High School. It wasn't that he wanted to get back there for education. No. he could get it in every other school. There was another reason that he wanted to be healthy and get back.
The reason was named Magnus Bane.
The boy came to the school six months ago, and if Alec was honest with himself, he enchanted him. No other boy drew so much attention from Alec, like Magnus Bane. The moment he saw him, on the very first day, when he spotted him in the math class, was the moment his heart started to beat faster. At first he didn't understand all this. But the more he was seeing him, the more he fancied him. And finally he started to dream about the cat-like-eyed boy.
Sure, before that Alec had some suspicious. More, he was questioning himself, why he doesn't like girls the way his younger brother Jace does. Jace could go all day with blabbing about girls, and how hot they are, even if he was only barely fourteen. Whenever Alec looked at some girl, he didn't feel what he supposed to. They didn't seem to be attractive to him. Not like boys. It wasn't that he didn't find girls beautiful. He did. His girl friends were beautiful, his sister was beautiful. But that wasn't the beauty that attracted him. not at all.
And he was sure of it after a second date with Caroline, one of the most beautiful girls in school. Jace set that date for him. She was really nice girl, and looked really smoky-hot like Jace described her. But it wasn't arousing for Alec. Not at all.
"Maybe you're gay?" Jace and Isabelle said after his fail of a date.
Alec was thinking about it for a long time.
Maybe he was gay? Maybe that's why he felt this weird attraction towards Magnus Bane.
And boy, curse his siblings for a way to find it out. It was a one night, that they were alone in home. Maryse and Robert took Max to their grandparents, leaving Alec in the charge. Of course Isabelle wanted to sneak out on the party, like she did often, even if she was only thirteen years old. After all, Jace was the one who stayed with Alec, since temporally he was a single man. Alexander should know better, than trust his brother on finding if Alec likes boys.
Jonathan Lightwood brought for him R18 movies.
This was one of the most horrid things in Alexander's life so far.
The first movie, where was a woman and a man, Alec watched with a disgust on his face, most of it, he watched through fingers. The other movie, was with two men. And Alec had to admit that when they kissed and touched, and did the other stuff, he found it really arousing. At some point he had to turn off the movie and kick Jace out of his room, to make himself relaxed.
Yes, from that day Alec knew that he likes boys, not girls.
From that day it's been five months. Alec found out that he's sick, and that he might not survive it. no matter how hard he was trying to fight it off.
"So, when will you tell them?" Ellie asked one day, after their usual walk on the hospital's garden.
"Soon"
And 'soon' finally came.
Alec knew he didn't have anything to lose, so why not tell them the truth? Even if his parents won't accept that he could live with it, live as many days as he had left. And he had a feeling that it won't be too long.
"Mom, Dad…I'm gay…"
Alec Lightwood, a fifteen years old boy, was truly afraid. He was shaking like a leaf, waiting for his parents response, that now were silent for ten minutes. His heart was racing, his palms were sweating, his face was blank.
Finally Maryse Lightwood spoke.
"Alexander…" he raised his gaze at her.
Maryse's face was a puzzle. You could try and try but you would never read her emotions. She learned how to hide them for years. Now she was looking at her oldest child, her first born. He just revealed to them his biggest secret. Maryse was wondering for how long he was struggle with this all by himself. Her sweet boy, who was going through the hell, now was shaking in front of her and her husband. Cleary being afraid of them.
She dared to look over her husband. She knew how Robert felt about homosexuality in the world. And she feared his reaction. She knew that she will protect her baby with every power she has. She might not like the idea that her son is gay, but that's her son. Her own blood. Her baby. And she loves her babies the way they are.
"Dad…" Alexander whispered "Mom…say something"
"What do you want us to say?" Robert spoke, trying to not be angry. He loved his son, very much, but it was something that he would never expect. He dreamed that Alexander will marry a beautiful girl, give him and his wife a bunch of grandchildren. And now this. his first born, his proudness is telling him that he's homosexual. This was too much for him.
But on the other hand, his boy went through so much. He was so sick. And Robert never wanted to lose his child. He didn't want to fight with Alexander when he wasn't sure how long his boy will be with him.
Maybe one day he will learn to accept that fully. Maybe one day he will.
"Honey" Maryse kissed now bald head of Alec "We're your parents"
She looked at Robert and read from his eyes that he feels the same. That this is still their boy. That one day they will accept that Alec likes boys. It's not like they can do something with it. She knew that love doesn't choose. She knew that Alec can't help with whom he like. And she and Robert need to learn to accept that. And they will. One day. They will.
"And we love you" added Robert "The way you are. Even… if you like boys. It… doesn't matter to us"
Through years Robert and Maryse finally fully accepted the fact that Alec, their first born is gay. Especially now, when Alexander found a love, they see how happy he is. And that was what matter to them. To their boy be as happy as he can, when they don't know when his time will be.
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