AN: I do not own Twilight. Any characters, places, events, etc. belong to Stephenie Meyer.
Chapter 15
"Elizabeth? Are you okay?" It was my mother, peeking in to see why I was crying.
"Yes. I just…had a bad dream." My dream was actually just a summary of what my life felt like at the moment, just portrayed in a different way.
"Are you sure? I've done a lot of crying about something that's been ripped away from me." She smiled as she sat next to me on my bed.
"How did you know that's what I was dreaming about?" I had a hunch…
"Your father was checking your thoughts." Yep. My hunch was right.
"Ughh. Well…I can't help it, Mom. I mean…I love him. It's impossible for me to stay away from him."
"I know. I understand exactly how you feel."
"Not exactly, mom. No one knew that dad was a vampire…" I felt like crying right here and now. Everyone in the house probably knew Josh was becoming a werewolf.
"No, no one knew that. But when he left me for, oh, however many months that was, I didn't feel like I could be happy again because he had ripped himself away from me. And then when Josh's father went through what Josh is going through now, it felt like my entire heart was ripped away."
"Mom…what do you think about…me and Josh?" I wanted to know her opinion. I knew everyone else's, and I knew Alice wanted to help us.
"I don't care what he is or what you are; I just want you to be happy. I know that this whole vampires and werewolves thing is what makes everyone else unhappy about it, but I honestly don't care. I'm just glad that he makes you happy."
"Thanks, Mom.
But…I'm scared. I don't want to become a vampire." I could
feel the tears coming down my cheeks as I cried. She gently wiped
them away with her finger.
"I don't know how to help you on
that one, dear. I chose to become a vampire. I have no clue how it
occurs by hereditariness, force, or whatever you want to it is. Maybe
you should talk to Carlisle." I got up to go ask him but then my
Mom gently pushed me down. "Not now, love. Go back to sleep." She
pulled the covers back over me and kissed me on the forehead. "I
love you, Elizabeth." And then she left me to myself, falling
asleep as I thought about what she had said.
Talking with my mom made me feel better inside. It was nice to know that someone didn't care about what we were, but only my happiness.
As much as I wanted to talk to Carlisle, I had to go see Josh. It would be very rude of me to break a promise. When I got to his house after school, I remember which window it was and I gently knocked on it. Josh's face lit up when he saw it was me. Just like yesterday, he slowly opened the window so he wouldn't cause himself anymore pain than moving already does.
When the window was open, I hopped in and made him lie back down. Then, I bent down and kissed him passionately. I had to pull away, due to the lack of time we had, but I could tell we both wanted more.
"Did you ask your dad about the werewolf thing?" I asked as I sat on the edge of his bed.
"Yeah. He said 'it'll take as long as it wants to and you'll know when it's complete.'"
"Oh." I wanted to tell him…so, so badly…
"Are you okay, Liz?" I hadn't heard him call me Liz in a while. Or maybe I was just being forgetful…
"Yes. Well, no, actually…there's something I need to tell you…" I could feel my eyes watering. I didn't want to tell him. I didn't even want this to be part of reality!
"What is it?" He smiled at me so sweetly, as if nothing was wrong. As if we didn't have to sneak around to see each other.
"Josh…eventually, I'm going to become…a monster…" I could hardly get the words out. I could barely keep from crying.
"A monster as in…a full vampire?"
"Josh!!! Do you want dinner?!" It was his father, again ruining our converstation.
"I'll tell you more tomorrow, after I took to my grandpa." I whispered in his ear. Then, I kissed his forehead and leaped out the window, running home to talk to Carlisle.
(YES!! Another chapter! And I have to leave for school in five minutes! XD I hope you enjoy this one and now I need to think of what Carlisle should tell Elizabeth!)
