A/N: In this one, Alec and Jake are talking for the first time, since Magnus came back.
Jake and Lily are mine, Alec and Magnus belongs to Cassie.
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"I could never replace him in your heart"
The day was truly nice, the sun was warming Alec's face, as he was sitting in the local cafe. The light breeze was licking his cheeks, when he sipped his black coffee. Today, was the day, he was meeting Jake, for the first time for three weeks. He hadn't seen him since the night Magnus came back. Truth to be told, he wanted to meet with Jake, but he didn't know what he should say to him. Alec didn't even know what he could say to Jake, to not hurt him. And that was the last thing he wanted to do. Jake didn't deserve to be hurt by him.
"Hey" he heard a familiar voice behind his back. Next, Jake sat down in front of him "How's it going?"
"Good, I guess" he smiled a little at him. Then, the awkward silence formed between them, before Alec decided to break it. "I feel like a dick, for not calling you for so long"
"It's ok" Jake reassured him, grabbing his hand in his own, and brushing it gently "You must have been confused that night. I mean, who wouldn't be. Your ex…I mean your husband came back out of nowhere, when you started to moving on…everyone would be lost in this"
"I'm so sorry" Alec squeezed Jake's hand "I don't know what to say more"
"You don't have to apologize" the other man, brought his chair closer to Alec's and placed his arm around Alec's shoulder. "How are you and Magnus?"
"We're not together" Jake's eyes were puzzled "I mean, he lives with me, but that's only because of Lily. She needs both of her parents. And I like it that or not, Magnus is her father too. But…but me and him…I think it's a case closed"
"I think you're lying to yourself" by that Alec was taken aback.
"What?"
"I've seen the way you looked at him that night" Alexander looked into his green eyes, that sparkled in the sunlight "He hurt you so much, but yet, when your eyes landed on him, they were filled with love. You may say to yourself, that you don't want to be with him, because he hurt you beyond anything. But you love him. Truly love him. Believe me. What you two have it's the true love, that writers are describing in their books, something that doesn't happen very often. Yet, you have it"
"But he hurt me" Alec's voice was quiet now, and tears were slowly escaping his eyes. "And my daughter"
"Yet, you love him, the same way you loved him for all those years, right?"
"Yes" almost an inaudible whisper came out of his mouth.
"You know" he started, with a barley heard pain in his voice "I think I knew it all along. No matter how much you'd like me, maybe even loved me, I could never replace him in your heart. He would always be there, like a third person in our relationship"
"I'm sorry…I wanted us to work out"
"I know, and I wanted it too" he stroked Alec's hair lightly " But we weren't meant to be together. You are meant to be with Magnus, no matter how much you deny it now. You love him. And I think that you should try to work it out with him. You deserve to be happy Alec, and I know that Magnus is the only one that can make you happy again. Just let him inside your heart, again"
"You think so?"
"I know so. As much as I'd like to be the guy that makes you happy, I could never be the one for you, and I know this." Jake kissed the top of Alec's hand, making him slightly blush. "Because your heart belongs to Magnus forever"
"But I don't wanna lose you" Alec tugged Jake's hand more to himself, and with the other he caressed his cheek.
"I'm not going anywhere" the beautiful smile crept onto the lawyer's face. "I'm still here, for you. Whenever you want. I don't want to lose you too, Alec. You're a great guy, and the first one that I'm feeling good around. That I can be myself around"
"So what are we going to do now?" Alec asked unsurely.
"Just because we're not together, that doesn't mean that we can't see each other" Alec was confused "I still want you around. So, how 'bout we stay friends?"
"Yes, I'd like that, very much" Lightwood smiled widely at him, granting a wide smile from the other man too.
"Great" Jake looked at his watch, and cringed his nose "I gotta go, or your dad is going to fire me"
"I'll see you?" Jake nodded.
"I'll call you, so we can go for some coffee or so?" he leaned down, and kissed Alec's cheek "Bye. And Alec, let yourself be happy with Magnus again"
"Bye, Jake. And thank you, for everything"
Later, when Alec was back at home, Lily and Magnus were eating dinner.
"Papa! You're finally home!" Lily jumped off the chair and bounced straight to Alec's arms. "Where were you?"
"I met with my friend" he kissed the top of her head.
"With Jake?"
"Yes" Alec saw, in the corner of his eye, that Magnus scowled at this, but didn't say a word.
At the evening, when Alec finished reading her bedtime story, Lily looked up at him, with quizzical look.
"Papa?"
"Yes, Princess?"
"But you won't leave daddy, for Jake, right?" Alec tugged her in covers, and kissed her forehead. Then he looked into her eyes, blue into blue, and whispered.
"I won't leave your daddy. I love him"
In that moment, Alec realized that Jake was right. He couldn't replace Magnus in his heart, no matter how much Bane have hurt Alec.
Because Alec loved Magnus, and will love him forever.
A/N: Did you like it?
The next one, and the last one will be about Oliver, because I really want to write about his own demons.
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