Chapter III: Pieces Of A Broken Heart
Little does anyone know, little does she knows, the only one who notice the gap in the royal family was the young princess, it was always her who notice it, while others, they didn't.
She spend her time singing for a door, but yet, a door was just a door, it can't sing back, it can't answer her, it can't tell her how much it miss her, it loves her, it want to scream for every line the princess sang, but yet in the end, it was just a door.
A door that can't talk, can't sing, but can hear and shed unseen tears, sometime just a whisper, sound like a '' wait'' but then, it realized it can't leave where it was standing.
But through all that, the princess keeps coming back, sing the song about a past that was hard to forget, but, time doesn't came back, and the door just keep standing there, its silence mocking the young princess.
Time doesn't come back, and so did the princess, after so many lines, so many wasted hours of singing to a thing that can't even talk, so many days waiting for the door to gave way, waiting so many years so she see that person again, but then, it was always only her who wait, who notice it, while others just passed by and say nothing.
While the young princess desperately waited for the door to say something, time passed, everything moved on, she grow up without the one she loves most.
''Do you want to build a snowman?''
''Do you want to eat some chocolate?''
''Do you want to see the snow?''
''Do you want to come out and play?''
''Do you even love me anymore?''
Idun watched her daughters grow without each other, on both sides of the door, the queen would just guest that the young princess would just bore out and go, children bore fast, but what children could stand in front of the door for 10 years singing the same song? Waiting for something that never wanted to come out love her again?.
And right in front of her, she saw it all, every line cut through her heart, from the ghost who was the 8 years old princess, singing and knocking gleefully, and now she suddenly grow into a young and beautiful woman who was still had a past to cling on to.
And why does she have to do that?, while she have so much more thing to do than sitting and wait, drag her blanket all the way to the door and sleep there on the cold floor despite her parents call her to back to her own room.
In the end, the young princess named Anna was the one who notice the disappearance of the heir, while others didn't, she know nothing, while they know all too well.
And they knew all too well what Idun and her husband have to do, to keep them both safe, but at what cost?, a cost that was so expensive that it hurt. It hurt every single night when she sleep, it was her fault, her fault that they have to do this, to live on 2 different worlds, the other was free do to anything she like, anything she wants, but the other one, she have no choice but to conceal, don't feel, do anything that her parents wanted her to do, for the betterment of the future.
A future that Idun will not be there
The queen didn't notice that she was standing right in front of the door, she doesn't know when she moved there, maybe her thoughts commands her legs, and her regrets held her back from just stepping through the wooden door.
Footsteps bouncing rapidly through the open space, it was heavy, light was fading of all the sudden, and the ghost that was the one who hug her goodbye, dress in black, and walks heavily, toward the door the queen was facing.
''Now it's just you and me…..''
The tune is still the same, but it was nothing gleeful, joyful song she used to hear anymore, instead it's just heavy to listen to.
The hallway suddenly devolved of light, and the princess was staring right at her, her eyes fill with tears that no end will be there to shed for her, to said words of comfort that she and her husband was gone, and that was the last goodbye she ever heard from her daughter again.
The eyes with the shade of blue look straight at her, even she was not there, it felt like a spear running through her heart, but all Anna was looking at the ceiling, at the window with the world outside, and thinking about an unforeseen future.
Idun doesn't belong to this world anymore, she can't just step out of the darkness that cover her, embrace her, stepping out of the memories her daughter are mourning, stepping out of a world that she cannot leave, to hug, to comfort, but instead, she was force only to watch, and quietly collect those pieces of her own broken heart, to see them this way, because of her she sees them this way.
And that's how they will remember her?, a mother done her best to keep them apart from the rest of their lives? Is that the way she wants them to remember her and her husband?.
Idun never got the chance to say sorry, to explain, to love her daughters fully the way she used to.
No, she will not end this way, let the memories behind that door tear her apart, tear her heart apart, but she will not leave, without seeing that person, and say the unsaid apologies.
Slowly, one step to another, she was ready to confront what's inside, to confront the one, the one she left behind, the one she never said goodbye, the one she have made the greatest mistake of her life.
She closed her eyes, and walk through.
