"He would still be alive if it wasn't for me." Ethan mumbled as he turned his head on the pillow to look way from Cal.

Cal looked at him, he hadn't spoken since they got him back to the room. "Ethan, it wasn't your fault. It wasn't anyone's fault it was an accident."

"I was driving!" Ethan snapped turning his head quickly toward Cal causing him to call out in pain.

Cal got to his feet and hovered over Ethan trying to make him stay still. "Ethan you have to relax, you're going to cause yourself more damage if you go on like this."

"Get off me." Ethan pushed his away feebly. "Just leave me alone will you? I preferred you as bully."

Cal sighed, not wanting to distress him anymore he just left and walked down to the ED.

Once in the ED Cal got himself hanged into his scrubs, placed his stethoscope around his neck and went into the department. He collected his first patient's notes and after a quick glance through called them over to a cubicle.

Cal's shift went well over all but Ethan was constantly in the back of his mind, as well as Jeff. The whole department was in mourning and not one person had asked about his brother. He could understand why but for a second he did wonder if they blamed him too.

After a few hours Cal watched as the clock hit 9pm. End of shift, quick change over and he was back in his normal clothes in the staffroom. He had never known that room to be so quiet at that time, it was normally full of people asking who was buying the first round at the pub.

Cal closed his locker and looked up catching eyes with Rita, he smiled slightly and she smiled back before making her way over to him.

"Hey," she spoke softly. "How's Ethan doing?"

"You know you're the only one to ask that." He sighed a little. "Physically he is getting there. Mentally, he's not so good. Blames himself for Jeff."

Rita nodded. "Everyone has been shell shocked today, no one has spoken about anything to do with yesterday." She told him. "It isn't Ethan's fault. Jeff was slow to get out of the car, it was totally unexpected that it was going to go up like that."

"I know that and you know that but Ethan doesn't. I've not seen him like this before. It's weird." He sighed.

"I'll come and talk to him if you think it will help?" Rita asked placing a hand on Cal's arm.

He nodded in response. "Yeah, it would probably be better if it came from someone other than me."

Rita smiled. "Let me get my things and I'll go straight up."

Once Rita had sorted herself out they both went to Ethan's room. Cal waited outside anxiously while Rita went in.

She approached the bed and could see the gentle rise and fall of Ethan's chest as he breathed.

"Ethan?" She asked but didn't get a response. "I know you can hear me, come on."

Ethan groaned. "I just want to be left alone Rita."

"Yes I know but Cal is worried about you." She told him. "He said you think it's your fault."

"Cal should keep his mouth shut." He mumbled.

"He is trying to look out for you. It wasn't your fault it was a complete accident. If it was down to you the police would be stood here right now not me." Rita sighed and sat down.

"I was driving, we were lost. I didn't know the roads and didn't know where I was going. The map was too old." He sighed. "I wanted to use the sat-nav on my phone but Mrs Beauchamp wouldn't let me. I just backed down and did it her way like the coward I am. I should have at least pulled over while we figured out where we were going."

"Ethan, life is full of ifs and buts but that doesn't make what you did actually do wrong." Rita said leaning over placing a hand on Ethan's arm. "No one is blaming you…"

Ethan sniffed a little and with his spare hand wiped his eyes before finally looking at Rita. "I'm so sorry."

"You have nothing to be sorry for, only for giving us a scare like that." She smiled kindly. "Is there anything you want or need that I can get you?"

Ethan laughed to himself slightly. "The only thing I want right now no one can get for me."

Rita smiled proudly. "Try me."

"I just want my Mum." Ethan spoke as his eyes filled again. Rita stopped smiling and put her arms around the young doctor. She knew it was out of character for Ethan to act like this, but shock and grief did strange things to people. You just had to look at how Cal had been to see that.

With Ethan crying softly into her shoulder Rita looked up to see Cal looking through the window. She beckoned him in and he did as he was told.

Cal made his way slowly over to Ethan and carefully swapped placed with Rita so he was now holding his little brother. He felt uncomfortable for a second, the only time he had got the close to Ethan was when he was born and Cal was fascinated as to how small he was and was always wanting to hold him.

He rubbed his hand in small circles on Ethan's back in an attempt to comfort him as he relaxed and focused more on Ethan than his own discomforts.

Rita smiled gently at Cal as she picked up her bag and left the brothers to it.

Not sure whether to continue or to leave this one where it is. I'm enjoying writing for these two right now so any ideas are welcome for fics. Doesn't have to be related to this can be anything. Also if you want me to continue with this fic some ideas of where it could go would be a big help.

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