Be still my Fragile Heart
Loki fiddles with his bed linen. It is a black cover now instead of the forest green one that he and Natalia had made love on after their date. Tonight he wants things to be discrete and so decided to pick up some take out so they can stay in and not risk being seen again. He got Chinese and didn't know if she even liked it… so he just got double of what he liked and hoped she'd enjoy it. He set up some large candles on his dresser and left the lighter near them so he can light the candles after they eat and before he'd lead her in here for the yummy dessert that she really enjoyed receiving Monday night.
"Everything appears to be in order." He whispers to himself as he surveys his made bed with its black cover and deep green sheets underneath, the candles are arranged perfectly so. The Chinese take out is on his small dining room table in his kitchen with a single tall taper candle in the center ready to be lit. Loki checks his nice casual attire… He is wearing a simple dark green v-neck shirt with black slacks. He runs his hands nervously through his hair as he then walks into his living room and plops down upon his couch… huffing out a sigh as he does so.
He then checks his gold wrist watch… 7:24. He drums his hands on the couch cushions absentmindedly for a minute then twiddles his thumbs. He huffs again and looks at his watch… 7:25. He groans willing time to go faster so his lovely Natalia will get here sooner.
"What if something bad has happened?" He frets then and worry dances across his face as he imagines her being in a horrible car wreck or being jumped by a mugger… or not wanting to see him anymore. Loki quickly shakes his head at these thoughts. They are falsehoods conjured up by his doubts.
"She WILL come. She'll be here any minute now." He then says determined to chase away all his fears. Then comes a light tapping at his door… and Loki practically bounds off his couch and sprints the short distance with his long legs. He opens the door and grins at the beautiful redhead on the other side.
"My heart rejoices at the sight of you, my lovely perfect Natalia." Loki says as she enters, puts her overnight bag down, and he pulls her close. She grips him tightly, much tighter than she has ever done so before. Loki finds it puzzling, so he pulls away and tilts her chin up gently with his right hand.
"Is something troubling you, Natalia?" Loki inquires with a touch of worry to his voice as he caresses her chin with his thumb slowly. His eyes study her lovely face and blue eyes closely. Her eyes are a touch redder at the edges… as though she has been crying… and the light in them seems dimmer than normal.
"There's nothing for you to worry about." She says with a small smile and shakes her head free of his gentle touch to look down and away from his concerned emerald gaze. He knows a lie when he sees one.
"Natalia, if something is ever bothering you… please feel free to tell me." Loki says then puts his forehead to the top of her red wavy hair as he holds her in his arms. "I love you… and nothing can change that now. Not even… not even if the Dean discovers our relationship and I am fired. I will still love you." He then adds in a whisper and she tenses up in his arms. He hopes he hasn't just scared her away with his confession… then Loki realizes that this is the first time he has uttered those three simple yet magnanimous words to her… and he meant every one.
"That's the second time that you've told me that you love me." Natalia replies with a smile and looks back up at him. Her eyes regain some of their former glimmer.
"I'm certain I would've remembered uttering those sincere words to you… but alas, I cannot recall saying them before tonight." Loki then says puzzled. Natalia can't help but giggle.
"You said them Tuesday morning while you were poking my leg." She retorts with a wink and continues to smile at him. 'Of course, the dream!' The surprise and realization washes over him and Loki can't help but chuckle.
"So I was apparently talking in my sleep at the time… What exactly did I say?" Loki then asks curiously of the lovely redhead in his arms.
"Well, you told me that you loved me… and…" Natalia starts and the mischief in her eyes brightens them further.
"And? What else? Tell me, my love." Loki asks eagerly and Natalia's smile widens into a grin.
"Something about how I make you feel better about your life… and the rest you sort of just mumbled as I kissed my way down your body." Natalia replies and her fingers run through his long hair slowly, tenderly. Almost as though she were memorizing the softness of his ebony tresses. "It was very sweet." She then adds and kisses him soft and gentle.
"I meant every word." He whispers sincerely as their lips part briefly. He then captures hers in another kiss. This one more heated as her grip on him tightens almost as though she were kissing him for the last time.
"Are you sure nothing is wrong?" Loki asks curiously as they break away for air.
"I've really missed you… because I-I…" Natalia hesitates for a moment then she takes a deep breath and just says it, "I love you too, Loki."
"Excellent… then we are in agreement." He says with a warm smile then gives her one last small soft kiss before pulling away. "Come. I hope you like Chinese. I got us some take out since apparently it is 'too risky' for us to go out together in public." Loki then says with a short chuckle as he holds her hand and leads her to his kitchen. He lights the candle and gestures at the spread of Chinese take out boxes and gives an enthusiastic, "Tada!" He then pulls her chair out for her and Natalia sits as he pushes it up.
"I love Chinese food." Natalia says with a genuine smile and opens a box containing Chicken and Broccoli. She pours some onto the plate set before her then grabs some crab rangoon, some pork fried rice, and one of those sugar coated fried rolls. She starts eating eagerly with a fork while Loki sets up his own plate and eats with chopsticks. She gives him a hard time for eating with sticks though to Loki's credit, he is fairly skilled at the use of the utensils and manages to clear his plate before Natalia does. They put away the take out boxes, placing them in the fridge, and Loki excuses himself for a moment.
He hurriedly lights the candles in his bedroom, makes a quick stop in his bathroom, and runs back to the kitchen to get her. He is about to tell her he has a surprise for her, when Loki notices that Natalia is holding herself and shivering. He thinks she's is cold at first but takes note that the temperature feels fine… to himself at least. He is about to ask what's the matter when he notices that she is crying.
"Shhh…" Loki whispers soothingly as he approaches from behind and slowly wraps his arms around her waist to draw her close to him. She tenses once more so he nuzzles her neck and whispers softly into her left ear. "Natalia… If I have done anything to offend you in any way, I am truly sorry for it."
"It's not you…" Natalia whispers and Loki almost misses it. He is about to say something when Natalia turns in his arms. "Loki… you're… you're perfect. No man has ever treated me so respectfully, so genuinely."
"Is this a guilty conscious I hear?" Loki quips with a small chuckle but Natalia tenses in his arms and won't look at him. "Please, tell me what is on your mind?" Loki then pleads softly.
"I don't want to lose you. I don't want to be alone ever again." She says and breaks down in his arms. Loki holds her close and lets her cry on his shoulder as he rubs her back and does his best to sooth her troubled heart.
"I can promise you… Natalia… that I'm not going anywhere without you by my side." He then says as he feels his own emotions start to stir. He can feel tears beginning to pool in his eyes and he knows now that this young woman is who he wants to spend the rest of his life with. He will have to have a pointed conversation with his parents, his mother especially. He already knows his adopted father is going to disapprove… Odin disapproves of EVERYTHING Loki does or will ever do…
"Come with me." Loki whispers and leads Natalia down his narrow hallway to his bedroom. Once inside, Natalia tenses and gives a small gasp at the warm candlelight that illuminates his otherwise dark room.
"Trying to outdo yourself on the romance?" Natalia whispers as she turns to look him in the eyes.
"Maybe… maybe this will be outdone another day." Loki says as he shuts his bedroom door.
"Guess I'm going to have to stick around and find out." Natalia replies and Loki is suddenly before her. His long arms surround her and their foreheads touch.
"By all means… linger." He whispers and kisses her deeply. He pulls at her red long sleeve top and removes it and they kiss again only to pull away as she pulls his top off. She makes to kiss her way down his neck but he stops her. Instead he grabs her and lifts her by her thighs then drops her roughly down on his bed. She can't help but giggle as she bounces and suddenly he is on top of her. Their lips meet in a heated kiss and Loki moves down her neck feathering her with soft tender kisses.
"Oh… Loki." Natalia whispers as he goes. He stops at her ample chest and reaches a hand under her back to unclasp her red bra which he quickly removes. He takes a moment to admire her light pink nipples and then he leans down to swirl his tongue in slow circles around one perky nub. His left hand slides up her flat stomach tracing his finger tips along her skin. Natalia moans and shivers at the sensations. As his left hand starts to massage her right breast, he curls his tongue around her nipple and then suckles on her left breast eagerly but slow. His tongue continues to swirl and flick the hard nipple as he suckles.
"Ahhh… Oh, Loki." Natalia moans out a little louder and her left hand digs into his hair to keep him in place. Loki hums and his mouth vibrates around her breast drawing another moan from her lips. Loki then releases her nipple with a pop and kisses over to the other breast and repositions himself between her legs. He gives her right nipple the same swirl, curl, and suckle treatment… just as enticingly slow as the first. Natalia moans more eagerly and her legs wrap around his waist. Her jeans rustle as she tries to draw him closer to her. After a few minutes, he releases that nipple with a pop and looks down at her breasts noting the now darker pink of her nipples as well as their perkiness.
"Perfect." He whispers and looks up into her blue eyes. Natalia licks her lips and then fondles her own breasts as Loki pulls away. He slowly unbuttons her jeans and then removes them revealing her matching red panties. He kisses up her outer left thigh gently and hooks his tongue under the outside of her panties as his thumb hooks the other side. His teeth clamp down on the fabric and he pulls it down as he slides down to the foot of his bed. He leans there holding her panties in his wide grin.
"You and that tongue of yours." Natalia says lasciviously as she wiggles slowly on the bed to entice this wonderful man whom has captured her fragile heart just so.
"I've merely just begun." Loki retorts after spitting the panties out. He then undoes his belt and lets his slacks fall to the floor. He is bare and quite aroused as he crawls back onto the bed and slips up slowly between Natalia's thighs. He kisses down both of her inner thighs and Natalia spreads her legs wide for him. Loki kisses around her womanhood gently, lovingly then slowly swirls his tongue around her exposed clit.
"Ahhh! Oh my god… YES! Ahh…. LOKI!" Natalia starts to moan as he gets faster and faster even clamping down and sucking hard on her clit. Natalia screams when he does this and her thighs squeeze around him, or try to but Loki holds her thighs with his own strong grasp. He then releases her clit and traces his right index finger around her now very wet outer lips. She moans and shivers so enticingly as his finger rubs and swirls around her sensitive clit.
"Don't stop. Please, don't ever stop." Natalia whispers pleadingly to him. Loki smiles at this.
"My… how the tables have turned since our first coupling." Loki whispers a little darkly to the young beauty in his bed. He slips his finger inside of her wet core and Natalia moans slightly and wiggles around him as he works her. "How eager you are to want me inside of you." Loki states as he watches her palm her breasts and look at him with such desire and love in her eyes. Loki removes his finger and sucks it clean. He then repositions himself over her and Natalia's legs wrap around his waist.
"I don't just WANT you inside of me…" She starts then wiggles under him driving her hips up against his, stimulating his hard cock between them. "I NEED you inside of me." She adds and Loki responds by crashing his lips into hers. Her legs loosen just enough to allow him to reposition and slide inside of her. She moans into his mouth as he fits every last inch of his impressive self deeply within then slowly starts to thrust in and out of her. Natalia's legs grip him and she rocks her hips in time with his thrusts. She controls her muscles in her core and so she pulses around him. Squeezing and pushing him.
Loki moans into her mouth as they kiss. Natalia's hands flow over his shoulders and into his hair. She clings to him as though he is life itself and if she lets go, then she will be lost forever.
"Oh, my sweet Natalia. There's nothing I want more than you, right now." Loki moans as their lips part and he keeps a steady pace. Her hands flow around his neck and down his chest as he then repositions himself to lean over her. He looks down at her illuminated so perfectly by the soft candle light… her fiery red hair is now a darker shade and her eyes sparkle and shine with genuine emotion.
"Fuck me…Ahhh… harder, faster… Mmmm… please, Loki. I need you." Natalia whispers pleadingly through her moans as her hands slide over his toned torso. Loki responds with a deep growl and grins down at her. He then hooks his left elbow under the bend of her right knee and curls her as he lifts up more onto his knees. He anchors his right hand to his headboard and starts a harder quickened pace. Natalia closes her eyes and cries out her pleasure as he hammers more deeply into her. She gives him all she's got and clamps down… her walls tighten around his cock like a vice and it feels so fucking amazing!
"OH, god Natalia! You're so PERFECT! NATALIA-AHHH!" Loki cries out in ecstasy as he releases her right leg and grabs her hips to fuck her harder than ever before. His head whips back and her hands claw down his chest and stomach as her legs grip his slim waist.
"OH YES! LOKI GIVE ME EVERYTHING YOU'VE GOT!" Natalia screams as Loki pounds away into her. It's more than he can take and with a ragged cry of his own, Loki spills into her hard and deep. The explosion of warmth inside of her is perfect. It washes away all thoughts from her mind… and for now, Natalia only lives in this moment. The Past is past.
"Oh, my perfect Natalia." Loki whispers as he rolls over and holds her to him as he remains inside of her. Natalia follows the flip easily and savors straddling him. She kisses him as he just lays there spent below her, basking in the afterglow of their intense love-making. He slowly opens his eyes and drinks in the sight of her lovely naked body above him. There's a slight sheen to her skin from sweat and it makes her look like her flesh is made of porcelain or glass. She leans down and kisses him sweetly, feathering soft kisses upon his neck and pouts her lower lip out at the sight of the now bloody scratches that run down his beautiful toned chest and abdomen. Her fingers trace the marks lightly and Loki winces slightly.
"I'm sorry." Natalia whispers apologetically. Loki only smiles and clasps her small hands in his larger ones.
"There's nothing to apologize for. I've grown accustom to your painful pleasures." Loki says softly with a warm smile as he eyes her. The candle light catches in her hair giving it fiery highlights. He then kisses her hands softly and places them at his shoulders. His hands then flow up her arms around her shoulders and down her voluptuous curves to grip her perfect hips. He squeezes the ample swell of her ass firmly as her hands find their way into his hair and they kiss softly and let their tongues dance slowly in each others mouths. It is deep and full of love. Loki's hands then flow up her curvy body to caress her back then palm her breasts.
Natalia breaks away from the kiss as she feels Loki's cock begin to swell within her once more and so she swivels her hips and smiles wickedly down at him. There are no words… just looks of desire and love as she leans back and straightens above him to slowly rise and fall upon his hardening cock. Loki moans and licks his lips as he eyes Natalia riding him. Her eyes are locked with his and she quickens her pace and grabs his hands to bring them up to her bouncing chest.
"Yes. Oh, Loki!" She moans so prettily and she tightens her channel down upon his manhood causing Loki to moan louder. He twists her nipples which brings a scream of pleasure from her lips as her head goes back. She starts to lose herself in the pleasure as she bounces up and down hard upon him. Loki then lowers his right hand and finds her clit with his thumb.
Natalia screams out in Russian and starts fucking Loki like there's no tomorrow. He now has his left hand on her hip and his right hand on her lower stomach so he can stimulate her clit. She gets so tight again and Loki starts to lose all sense of self-control and his hips buck up to meet hers as she comes down. They both cry out screams of exquisite ecstasy and Loki releases for a second time inside of his beautiful Natalia. He then runs his hands up her body as she collapses forwards onto his chest… utterly spent. They are both slick with sweat and Loki holds her close as they both relearn how to breathe and try to catch it.
"Natalia… you are the dearest thing to my heart…" Loki starts to say as he just holds her. "And I will love you to my last breath. Never forget that." He adds in a breathy whisper. Natalia smiles and tears slip from her blue eyes as her own arms move up so that her hands find their way into his hair as she rests her head on his shoulder. Her reply is sweet, soft kisses on his collarbone.
"I love you." She then whispers after a few moments pass and nestles into him. They just lay there and enjoy each other for several minutes until Loki realizes he is starting to nod off. He then slowly rolls Natalia off of him since she had fallen asleep and he moves his cover then picks her up and repositions her on his bed. He tucks her in then blows out the candles and darkness closes down upon his room, but shafts of pale silvery moonlight shine in through the windows. Loki smiles and slips under the covers to nestle in next to the young woman he loves so dearly. She rolls into him and he soon falls fast asleep with a happy smile upon his lips as Natalia resides within his arms. Where she belongs.
