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Chapter 9: the Grief of Loss
Sarah was sitting down on the couch when I came back with a glass of water. "What did he mean when he said you killed Marie?"
She looked at me, tears falling from her eyes. "When Rose died, we only had a handful of fighters left… we sent them all home… and… we both knew that we couldn't allow ourselves to die at their hands, they would win, the world we knew wouldn't exist anymore. So… she handed me her dagger… and told me to kill her…"
Sarah put her face in her hands and sobbed "and I didn't want to but I knew she was right… it had to be done…"
She looked at me and shook her head "when I stood before the judges… they said what I had done was honorable, that I had done what was necessary to save the Palace… that it wasn't murder, it was sacrifice… I… I've never heard such crap in my lifetimes." She laughed while tears rolled down her cheeks.
"She apologized to me Will… Marie, she apologized to me… said she was sorry that she had asked me to do such a thing… that she was sorry she had to leave me alone in the end… I had stabbed her, and SHE was apologizing…" Sarah looked at the wall across from her and said "and then she was gone, and I was alone, and in that moment, I hated everyone, I hated my parents for having me, I hated Luke, Nico and you for leaving Marie, Rose and I all alone… I hated Rose for dying in battle… I hated Marie for asking me to kill her… for leaving me alone for my own death…"
She took a shuttering breath "but most of all, I hated myself… for hating everyone, for blaming them for things they had no control over… for not being strong enough to face my fate alone…"
She looked at me and whispered "I killed myself Will, I took the cowards way out, I stabbed myself with the same dagger I had killed Marie with." Tears were flowing from her eyes. "I didn't deserve Elysium Will… I killed my own sister, the one who guided me watched over me, taught me so much of what I know… and I killed her… and I couldn't face my death at Alexander's hands… so I cast a spell over the Palace… and I killed myself."
I hugged her tightly as she sobbed into my chest "Sarah, you did what she asked you to do… you didn't do anything wrong… you had watched as we died one by one, and in the final hours your sister asked you to kill her… and suddenly you found yourself alone… no one can blame you for killing yourself, you were still young then, we all were Sarah, no one could ask you to willingly die at the hands of another… no one could even expect you to stay sane after killing your sister…"
I kissed her forehead and looked into her eyes "What you did wasn't out of Revenge, Greed, Jealousy… you did what she asked because you loved her… how can anyone fault you for that?"
Sarah sobbed and rested her forehead in the crook of my neck. I rubbed her back and whispered "I know you upset right now sweetheart, but we need to find out what to do about your father."
Sarah took a deep breath and whispered "we need to call the authorities."
I wiped her tears away and whispered "What will happen to you? You're not 18"
She sighed "there is a friend of the family, she promised my father to watch over me if anything happened to him before I came of age, she'll move here, she doesn't live or work that far away. I'll be fine."
I nodded and went to call the sheriff.
When I came back Sarah was beside her father on the floor, her hand on his cheek "I'm so sorry daddy… I'm so sorry." She took his hand and kissed it "I love you… I wish I could tell you that one more time…"
I went next to her and held her while we waited for the sheriff to come with her crying all the while.
alright one more chapter i think then i think i need to move on to the second cross over story because i am running out of fuel for this story sadly enough
