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Lauren stirred as the blinding light from the sun shone in her face. She groaned and tried to roll on her side so she wasn't facing the bright light but when she tried to move she couldn't. Lauren frowned and tried again but she was unable to. She then realised that Bo's bed was a lot more lumpy than usual and the bed sheet was missing. Lauren's sleep fogged brain worked through what was going on and she finally realised that she was lying on top of Bo and that Bo was holding her in place. Lauren stopped trying to move her whole body and just turned her head the other way and mumbled, "The curtains are open."

Bo kissed the top of her head and murmured, "I know." Then she sighed. Lauren noticed that there was something off about it.

She sat up and looked at her, "What's the matter?" Bo slowly ran her hand up and down Lauren's naked back as she looked at her with a contemplative look on her face. It wasn't Bo's normal thinking face. Her eyes normally held a playful glint in them but at this moment they were serious and it was the flurry of emotion in them that made Lauren worry. "Bo?"

Bo took a deep breath then asked, "What happened last night?"

"What are you talking about?" Lauren wondered not understanding where this conversation was going or why Bo looked so serious.

Bo got an annoyed look on her face. Lauren became even more worried because the only time that she had seen Bo's annoyed face was when she playing around and she knew that Bo wasn't playing around at the moment. Bo gave her a pointed look, "You seriously don't remember what happened last night?" Lauren cautiously shook her head no and Bo let out a frustrated sigh, "We-" She looked up at the ceiling then when she spoke again her voice was quiet and heavy with emotion, "We made love Lauren."

Lauren stared at Bo who was now looking at her again. And as they looked at each other everything came rushing back to Lauren. The dream, the feelings, the love...Oh shit I told Bo I loved her. Her pulse quickened as the memories overwhelmed her brain. I can't believe I did that. Shit. Shit. Shit. Stupid nightmare and with its stupid feelings. Shit. Lauren hadn't said anything for the longest moment and Bo started to get upset. "You don't remember?" Bo asked the patient tone being replaced with and incredulous one. Lauren remained quiet unable to find the words to explain to Bo what had happened tonight. Bo scoffed in disbelief then pushed Lauren off of her. She landed on the other side of the bed and watched as Bo got up.

Crap. Crap. Crap. Lauren jumped off the bed and said, "Bo hold on."

"No Lauren I'm not going to hold on." Bo shook her head, "I can't believe I-"She threw her hands up in frustration and exclaimed, "I don't know what the fuck I believed but this...this isn't how I pictured the first time we made love." Bo stalked over to her dresser, "And I can't believe that you fucking didn't remember it. " She turned around to look at Lauren, "Are you fucking serious Lauren?"

An upset Bo was something that she had never had to deal with before because she was normally mellow and patient with Lauren. But Lauren had screwed up and now she had to deal with the consequences that came from her unintentionally hurting Bo which meant she now had to make everything right between them. Bo pulled open her dresser drawer with a rough pull and took out a shirt mumbling about how she shouldn't have given into Lauren. Lauren took a deep breath then carefully said, "Bo can you stop for a moment?"

Bo slammed the drawer close and retorted, "Why so you can lie to me?"

Her voice wavered at the end of the sentence and that destroyed Lauren. Bo was about to pull the shirt on but Lauren took it from her then moved to where she was standing in front Bo so she could wrap her arms around her. Bo stood ramrod straight and when she didn't relax Lauren started to explain, "I didn't forget Bo. How could I forget something that was so…." Lauren tried to find the perfect word that described the indescribable but all she came up with and she felt it did a disservice to their first time making love, "Monumental for us. I-" She paused again when her thoughts began to jumble together as she tried to figure out the best way to explain to Bo what had happened and what she was feeling, "I freaked out. I remembered what happened and I freaked out." She felt Bo tense up more and she quickly backpedalled, "I didn't freak out because of what we did or what we said Bo. I freaked out because some middle of the night declaration of my love for you wasn't how that was supposed to happen. Or it wasn't how I wished for it to happen." Lauren sighed and rested her head on Bo's shoulder then rambled, "That stupid dream screwed with me and I woke up needing you. I felt like I was empty on the inside. And I-" The tears came to her eyes as she confessed, "I need to feel you. I needed to feel complete again."

They stood there for a moment then Bo tried to break the hold Lauren had on her. She held on tighter because she wasn't going to give Bo the opportunity to walk away from her. "Lauren can I get my arms back please?" Lauren shook her head no against Bo's shoulder and Bo let out a light chuckle, "I want to hold you so can I please get my arms back?" Lauren cautiously unwrapped her arms from around Bo then she felt Bo's arms envelope her. The two of them stood there in a brief silence then Bo kissed the top of Lauren's head before saying, "I'm sorry I went off on you."

Lauren smiled and told her, "You don't have to apologise. You didn't have a clue as to what was going on with me."

Bo rubbed her back and admitted, "You're right but I knew something was wrong last night and I should have put two and two together instead of jumping to conclusions."

Lauren lifted her head and looked in Bo's eyes, "Sweetie you were dealing with your own emotions about last night. I understand."

Bo chuckled and smirked, "You certain you don't want to become a shrink? I think you'd be very good at."

Lauren smiled and joked, "This relationship is only big enough for one shrink and you're filling that position quite well." Lauren sighed, "So are we okay?" Bo shook her head no and Lauren scrunched eyebrows together, "What's wrong?"

"Your dream Lauren. What happened?" Bo asked her with genuine concern in her voice. Lauren let her head drop to Bo's shoulder. Bo rubbed her back and insisted, "Lauren..."

Lauren took a deep breath then let it out before mumbling, "It's not important Bo. I overreacted."

"You waking me up in the middle of the night to make love is an overreaction?" Bo questioned. She kissed the side of Lauren's head before wondering, "I'd hate to see what a normal reaction would be."

Lauren pinched Bo's side causing her to hiss then she lifted her head, "We really did make love last night didn't we?" Bo got a look on her face that confirmed her question and shook her head yes. Lauren smiled then gave Bo a light kiss before pulling back, "It was everything I hoped it would be." She sighed and rested her head on Bo's shoulder then started to tell her about the dream, "You left me. Well you were leaving me." Her throat tightened as the feelings that the dream provoked came back to her as she recalled it. She swallowed then continued, "We were in an airport and you were about to leave. And I was begging for you to take me with you because it felt like you were leaving me for good. But you kept saying you'd be back but I didn't believe you." Lauren bit her lip hoping to keep her emotions under control but they were too strong and she tearfully finished, "Then you left."

Lauren sniffed in an attempt to prevent herself from crying but a tear slid out the corner of her eye. Bo rubbed her back and said, "Come on let's go lie down." They headed for the bed and lied down on it. Bo was holding Lauren and they were quiet for several minutes. Then Bo just started talking and Lauren wasn't sure if she was talking to her or thinking out loud, "You woke me up last night and you needed something from me. And with no hesitation and no questions I willingly gave it to you. I've-" Bo played with Lauren's hair and she patiently waited for Bo to finish whatever she was going to say. "I told you I've had two previous relationships where I thought they were going somewhere." Lauren nodded, "But the reason why they stopped going anywhere is because I stopped them. They didn't feel right to me and I was starting to feel like I was losing parts of myself while I was in them. But being with you it's different. I don't think twice about giving you parts of myself and it scares me. So you're not the only one who freaked Lauren." Lauren sat up and looked at Bo and Bo smiled, "That's right I freaked. I stayed up all night because I was so afraid of what had happened between us. I'm afraid that since I've given this part of myself to you so easily that I'd do what I did in those others relationships, which is continuing to give you pieces of myself until things go bad, and I don't want that to happen." Bo took a deep breath then brushed away a strand of hair that was in Lauren's face, "You give me something that I didn't know I needed." She paused for a second then continued, "You give me a sanctuary from this crazy ass world. I look at you and I just know that this is where I'm supposed to be. Right here with you."

Lauren continued to look Bo in her eyes. The love was obvious in her them and it was powerful. She was stunned by the overpowering nature of the emotional connection that they shared and she had to look away from Bo before it overwhelmed her. She took a moment and waited for the intensity of the emotions to lessen before she cleared her throat then asked, "Why are you telling me this Bo?"

Bo sighed and said, "I don't know." She chuckled then surmised, "I think it goes hand in hand with your dream. I'll always come back to you Lauren. I have to come back to you. If I don't then I'll be missing the one place I know my heart is safe." Bo took Lauren's hand in hers and placed it on her chest, "Right?"

Lauren met Bo's gaze and told her, "Of course it is Bo. I would never do anything to hurt you." Lauren interlocked her fingers with Bo, "Just as I am all those things for you, you are the same for me. When I'm with you Bo I don't have a care in the world. It's just you and I and nothing else matters. You give me a version of love that I've only been able to imagine. But here I am living it and I don't want to lose that."

Bo smiled then brought her head up and Lauren met her for a tender kiss. It didn't go any further but through it they conveyed to each other that they were in this for however long they were going to be together. Bo broke the kiss then she glanced at the clock before asking, "Are you hungry right now or do you think I can sleep for an hour? Then we can have brunch when I wake up."

Lauren grinned and said, "Brunch will be fine but clothes the curtains first."

Bo got out of bed and closed the curtain then rejoined Lauren in bed. They got comfortable and eventually they both fell asleep feeling mentally and emotionally better about their relationship and where it was headed.


Lauren was sitting at the island with her school work laid out in front of her and she was concentrating it while Bo was making them lunch. They had woken up at two instead of the hour catnap they had planned but they were both better for it. Lauren wasn't paying Bo any attention and she was writing out some notes when she heard, "Lauren Lewis."

She looked at Bo, who didn't look happy, and said with hesitation in her voice, "Yes Bo?" She then saw what Bo was holding and internally groaned. She had her "sex journal" and had it opened which meant she had read it.

"What the fuck is this? I know I said it was up to your discretion of what you wrote about but to blatantly call this project asinine and not worth the time is just disrespectful and an insult to me as an educator." Bo scolded as she threw the notebook on the counter. "Furthermore this asinine project has helped many of my students in the past become very aware of their sexual self." Bo let out an aggravated breath, "Not everyone has the privilege of knowing themselves by the time they've reached college, and even then those that do, have learned something more about themselves." Bo shook her head, "And your small minded approach to this project shows how even the most intelligent person can be ridiculously close minded."

Lauren sat there astonished by the dressing down that she had received from Bo. She had never been admonished for her schoolwork before and the fact that her teacher was her girlfriend made her a little confused on how to respond. "Are you yelling at me as my girlfriend or as my professor?"

Bo glared at her and shot back, "Both."

Lauren got off the stool she was sitting on then picked up the notebook. She flipped through a few pages then handed it back to her. Bo eyed the notebook then took it from Lauren and read it. The angry look gradually changed into a happy one that included a smile that widened the more Bo read. When Bo finished reading the journal she put the notebook down on the counter then walked closer to Lauren and took her face in her hands before giving her a kiss that took Lauren's breath away. It lasted only a moment but it was enough to have Lauren yearning for more. Bo pulled back and whispered, "I have never-" Bo's eyes began to shimmer with tears , "That was so beautiful." Bo kissed her again then apologised, "I'm sorry I yelled at you."

Lauren smirked and said, "It's okay Bo and that's nothing. I started writing that bullshit entry then I got serious and the next thing I know I'm practically confessing my love for you on paper." She gave her a small smile, "But it's what I feel Bo. The thoughts that go through my mind when I think about you or when you touch me is always the same...I can never get enough and I surrender myself completely over to you. No matter where we are or who's around I feel like it's you and I and I can't wait until the next time we're together. You're in me Bo. All of me. And I never want to lose that feeling."

Bo kissed her again and the passion behind it along with the urgency let Lauren know that the kiss would lead to something else which made all the right body parts respond to it. Bo had a firm hold of her waist and as she deepened the kiss she manoeuvred them to where she had Lauren pinned between her body and the island. Lauren's skin began to tingle as Bo's hand slipped under the hem of her tank top and her stomach tightened as the graceful fingertips grazed lightly across her skin. Bo then moved her fingers into the waistband of the boxer shorts that she was wearing. Lauren looked into Bo's eyes as she felt the digits make their way further down the shorts and as they got closer to their destination the more excited she became. Bo leaned in close to give Lauren a light kiss then whispered, "I love you Lauren." She wanted to return the sentiment but right when she had opened her mouth Bo buried a finger deep inside of her and all that came out was a soft gasp. The pace was slow at first but then the momentum picked up and Lauren's quiet moans and gasps turned into cries of pleasure.

Bo had her other hand on the back of Lauren's neck and was driving two of her fingers deep inside Lauren and they were looking into each other's eyes. And it was in this moment, the moment between enjoying the feeling of being fucked right before her orgasm, did Lauren realise that the connection they had had always been there and she had been too busy fighting it to realise it. But now that she had acknowledged her love for Bo she now recognised the look in Bo's eyes that had always been hard to figure out. Bo loved her for the longest time but she was too blind to realise it. And just before she lost herself to her orgasm she told Bo, "I love you Bo." Then her head dropped to the brunette's shoulder and her body shuddered as she came. Lauren had recovered from her orgasm but Bo's fingers remained inside of her. Bo was holding Lauren closely to her while Lauren's head remained on her shoulder. Several minutes passed then Lauren asked, "Is it always going to be this intense now?"

Bo let out a small laugh and as she pulled out of Lauren she remarked, "I hope not. If it does I might explode from all the emotion." She paused then pointed out, "It has always been intense Lauren. But now you just know why it's intense and I guess it makes you more aware of the intensity"

Lauren thought about what Bo had said and realised that she was right. Even when she was fighting it and denying what was between them her body always conveyed her true feelings. And every time she was with Bo the way she touched her and the way Bo touched her was always on a deeper level and was never superficial. Lauren thought back to the first time they had sex and she remembered the way Bo had pinned her against the wall and fucked her. She had fucked her with passion, emotion, and with all she had. Lauren brought her head up and looked Bo in her eyes, "How long have you loved me?"

Bo smirked and responded, "From the moment my eyes laid on you." She chuckled, "I know it sounds cliché, but it's true. I saw you and I was drawn to you in an instant. Sure I chalked it up to you being amazingly gorgeous but then when we started getting together it sort of happened all at once and I've haven't been able to turn it off since."

Lauren gave Bo a brief kiss then smiled, "Come on Professor. I want to show you how much I love you." Bo's eyebrow arched up and Lauren grinned as she took Bo's hand to lead her out of the kitchen to go upstairs. She wanted to show Bo that as much as she loved Lauren, Lauren loved her just as much if not more. Lauren looked back at Bo and her heart swelled with love for the woman. And she would spend the rest of the day showing Bo that.


Two Months Later….

Lauren sat in her desk chewing on her bottom lip. She had been chewing on it for the last ten minutes. Bo was wearing a tight red blouse with the sleeves rolled up and an even tighter gray skirt. And to complete the outfit she was wearing heels that accentuated her well toned legs. The entire ensemble was driving Lauren insane especially since she and Bo hadn't seen each other for the last two weeks thanks to mid-terms and Lauren getting everything in order for medical school. They had talked and seen each other sporadically during the two weeks but there wasn't enough time for them to really be together which meant neither of them had had sex in the last two weeks. Bo was wrapping up her lecture and Lauren started packing up her bag then she heard Alex whisper, "Snarky don't forget that you're on ice duty for the party tonight."

Lauren turned in her seat to look at the dark haired woman and pointed out in a quiet voice, "I never agreed to this stupid party therefore I am not on ice duty. I will be locked in my room and hoping no drunk chicks or frat boys try to come into it thinking it's the bathroom." Lauren then scowled, "You two still owe me a rug for my room by the way."

Alex held her hands up and told her, "I gave Piper the money to have it replaced so take it up with her."

"Alright so that's tonight's class. I should have your mid-term papers back to you in a few days if not next week. I'll see you guys on Monday. Have a good weekend." Bo said to the class right before she started to pack up her notes.

Lauren got up and headed to the front of the class so she could talk to Bo. As she approached the desk she said, "Professor Dennis." Bo looked up at her and there was a fire in her eyes that only Lauren saw which provoked a tingling sensation between her legs. But as quickly as the look had appeared it was gone.

Bo smiled and said, "Dr. Lewis how can I help you?"

Lauren bit the inside of her lip as tried her best not to flirt with the woman. She cleared her throat and asked, "I was wondering if you had time to go over my mid-term paper with me. I think I might have missed some points that you were looking for and I'm a little worried about my grade."

Bo pressed her lips together and Lauren could tell she was trying not to smile. She nodded her head and said, "If you want to come with me to my office I certainly can spend a few minutes going over it with you."

Before Lauren could say anything Alex walked by her and said, "Lauren don't forget the ice for the party."

"Okay fine." Lauren told her. She had one thing on her mind and Alex was only delaying it for her. "I'll get it after I talk with Professor Dennis about my paper."

Alex rolled her eyes and commented, "I'm certain you got an A. You get those in your sleep right?" Lauren narrowed her eyes at her and Alex held her hands up, "Sorry. I forget good grades are like a religion for you. I'll see you later."

Alex left out of the classroom and she was the last to leave so Bo and Lauren had the room to themselves. Lauren looked around and saw that the room was clear so she walked around the desk then walked up behind Bo. After wrapping her arm around Bo's waist she brushed her dark hair to the side then softly kissed her neck and whispered against the skin, "I want you so much right now. Do you know how beautiful you look?"

Bo turned around in her embrace and smiled, "I think I'm drop dead gorgeous but why don't you tell me?"

Lauren let her hands drift to Bo's ass then she leaned in close to give her kiss. And as she pulled back she murmured, "You are devastatingly beautiful and I want to take you right here." She placed a light kiss on Bo's neck, "Glide my fingers deep inside of you and enjoy the feeling of having you wrapped around them." Lauren brought her hand up to Bo's chest and she took a firm hold of her breast causing Bo to let out a low moan. "What do you say Professor?"

Bo let out a quiet chuckle then muttered, "I think when you haven't had sex in a couple weeks you get really needy and risky. I like it. Also party?"

Lauren sighed and rolled her eyes, "Piper and Alex are throwing a party to celebrate the end of mid-terms. I, of course, have other things in mind but I told Piper I would at least show up for an hour of it before disappearing. I was going to call you after to see if I could come over."

Bo ran her hand through Lauren's hair, "And you're more than welcome to come over. You know you have an open invitation to my house."

Lauren smiled then rested her head on Bo's shoulder and Bo wrapped her arms around her, "I've missed you so much these last two weeks."

Bo kissed her forehead, "I've missed you too, but you're the one who was on a no-Bo moratorium."

Lauren closed her eyes and enjoyed the feeling of being in Bo's arms. The last two months they had gotten closer and their emotional connection was deeper than either of them was willing to admit. It was because of this Lauren was always at Bo's house every other day and she was also spending every other weekend there as well. She was spending so much time at Bo's that one night while she and Piper were out to dinner Piper had joked about her having a secret girlfriend but then she speculated that Lauren had another roommate and was cheating on her. Keeping her relationship with Bo a secret had been a challenge. But they were managing. The semester was coming to close and then it wouldn't be a problem for either of them. "I had to study Bo. Flunking undergrad classes while also being enrolled in medical school seems a little stupid."

Bo chuckled and told her, "Which you are not. Hey speaking of medical school when are you officially in medical school and where are you going to medical school?"

Lauren sat her head up and looked at Bo. They had never talked about her post-graduate plans. In fact they hadn't even discussed anything about their future. Lauren wondered how to answer the question because she knew Bo wasn't going to like the answer, "Why?"

Bo shrugged and said, "Just curious. I um…" Bo got an uncertain look on her face then sighed, "I was invited by a school in Italy to come teach."

"Oh." Lauren said not really knowing how to respond. "When would you start over there?"

Bo tightened her hold on Lauren and Lauren knew the answer was going to upset her, "February and they want me to be there for two semesters. I'd be there for almost a year."

"Oh."

Bo got a sceptical look on her face and asked, "That's all you have to say is oh?"

Lauren was actually having a hard time processing their conversation at the moment and she nodded and said, "Yeah what else do you want me to say Bo? It's what you do. You leave and travel so you can go educate the world about sex." Lauren shook her head. She wasn't okay with the sudden turn of their conversation "I have to go get ice for this party."

She tried to leave Bo's embrace but Bo wouldn't let her. "I know it's what I do Lauren but I haven't said yes. I wanted to talk to you first."

"Why?" Lauren asked.

Bo gave her small smile and answered, "Because you're what's important to me Lauren. I don't want to be away from you if I don't have to."

Lauren smiled and said, "Bo you get to go teach in Italy. This is a big deal for you and I don't think you should pass it up."

"So you want me to go to Italy?" Bo asked her with uncertainty in her voice.

No Lauren didn't want Bo to go to Italy but she didn't want to stand in the way of Bo's work. They would be able to make their relationship work. It was only a year. Lauren's heart began to ache at the thought of being away from Bo for so long and the words she spoke to her sounded cheerful but they were empty with emotion, "Yeah Bo. I want you to go to Italy."

Bo smiled and said, "I guess I'm headed to Italy then."


For those actively following me on Twitter I know I said this was the last chapter but it turned out longer than expected. So this is the second to last chapter. Have fun. Thank you for all the reviews and for reading this story.