So, I got this chapter out...sooner than the others. Yay me! As soon as I posted chapter 3, I started working on this one. I hit MAJOR writer's block, though, so it took longer to get out. This chapter is a little shorter than the other ones, and I'm sorry. I had a lot more planned, but like in Tori's chapter, I had to cut back so I would have more for future chapters.
WARNING: There is explicit sex and drug use in this chapter, so behave kiddos!
All of this chapter is just...new material and I really hope you like it. It was very...difficult for me to write.
Anyway, leave a review telling me what you think! Thank you to Mermaid Monster and Mrs. Spiderman Penguin for the reviews! You guys are great.
-Sky
"Chapter 4 – Chicago is So Two Years Ago"
"My heart is on my sleeve. Wear it like a bruise or black eye. My badge, my witness, that means that I believed every single lie you said." – Fall Out Boy
Monday night.
"I'm gonna let you try again," Natalie announced, "But we do 'puff-puff-pass.' You get a hit and you give it to Joey. Got it?"
Cat gave a sharp nod as the girl beside her took a short drag. "Kay, kay," she breathed. By the time Natalie handed it back to her, she was already starting to feel lightheaded. She was about to take another drag when Joey let out a loud gasp and shocked her. He laughed at her reaction and had to take a step back to keep from falling.
And though she couldn't help it, Cat snickered.
She was starting to feel a little tingly. She could feel her blood bubbling beneath her skin, and it seemed to concentrate on the sides of the bridge of her nose and beneath her bottom eyelids. She tried blinking, but she could only move one eyelid at a time. Joey snickered at her and Natalie gasped for air, falling back on the bed as she laughed uncontrollably.
Trying to suppress her giggles, Cat took another small drag from the joint and handed it back to Joey who gladly took it from her. She tried her hardest to keep the smoke in her mouth, but slender fingers danced along her hips and she couldn't help but let all the smoke out through her nose and her mouth as she laughed.
She fell back into Natalie's arms and both girls giggled wildly. Everything started to blur around Cat as she looked around the room, and she wasn't entirely sure she could feel Natalie's arms around her waist anymore.
Nothing could register.
Her eyelids felt heavy and she was sure that she kept falling asleep. She would wake up when she felt something touch her neck, and her eyes would shoot open. She could see the top of Natalie's head as the girl kissed her neck, but she felt the kisses in a different places, like she was a lagging computer. When Natalie kissed her lips, she wasn't sure she felt it.
Everything moved too fast for her to stop.
By the time Natalie's hands were reaching into her underwear, Cat finally recognized what was happening. Well, somewhat. What was Natalie doing? Why was she doing it? Girls didn't touch girls that way, did they? She was touching her the way Danny used to touch her (in one of the rare occasions where he played with her before they had sex).
Maybe it was the weed making her forget how to breathe.
She wanted to tell Natalie to stop because she wasn't supposed to be doing this, but she couldn't steady her breathing. She could only stare at the ceiling as her chest rose and fell.
And just as she was starting to feel a little pleasure in the aftermath of her new friend's hand, the blaring music downstairs cut off, leaving a heavy ringing in her ears. Shouts and screams billowed up the stairs only partially audible.
"Raid!"
"Shit," Joey cursed under his breath. He tore his eyes from the beautiful and increasingly de-robing girls in front of him and ran to the door. He pulled it open to find people scrambling about in the hallway, mumbling about the police. He slammed the door and turned back to Natalie who now sat up. "We gotta go!"
With a quick nod, she grabbed Cat's hand and pulled the tiny girl off the bed. "We'll go out the window," she announced, walking with her around the edge of the bed.
"The window?" Cat repeated a little too loudly with a wide grin as she stumbled across the room. "Are we gonna fly?"
"Yeah, yeah," Natalie nodded off as she pushed the window open. "Just don't get hurt on the way down." She stuck her head out into the dark night, checking for any police. Car lights flashed wildly as people flooded out of the house. Some were half dressed, and some still held crushed Solo cups. But other than that, there were no officers outside.
Then, she jumped out, falling the two stories and landing on her ass with a loud thud. She groaned out in pain, but quickly stumbled to her feet. She looked up to Cat who had her head out the window with terrified eyes. "Come on!" she urged, waving her hands. "Jump and I'll catch you."
The little redhead didn't have time to react, however, as Joey's burly hand pushed her out. She flew headfirst outside and crashed into the raven-haired girl below. The both hit the grass, and she caught Natalie's eye. The girl smiled, letting her know that she was okay, and that was the reassurance she needed to keep going.
Joey jumped, landing effortless on his feet beside the girls as they stumbled to their feet.
"I parked around back," Natalie told him, holding Cat's hand tightly and running toward the back of the house. She quickly unlocked her Escalade and the three college students quickly jumped inside.
She laughed in triumph as she drove away from the busted party.
And I know I should be home.
"I want to do it again," Cat said suddenly as she looked up from the bowl of popcorn in her hands. She sat between Natalie and Joey back in Natalie's apartment. They were watching some action movie that Joey found online.
"Do what?" the dark haired girl questioned with a raised brow as she took some of Cat's popcorn.
"Smoke," the petite girl answered simply, as if it were obvious. She smiled broadly. "I want to feel tingly again!"
"I think Nat knows another way to make you feel tingly," Joey mumbled with a small snicker.
Natalie reached over Cat's head and plucked him on the ear. "Light up another joint."
The blond boy shrugged and pulled out a silver cigarette case from his pocket. Cat watched curiously as he opened it to reveal five joints inside. He popped one out and closed the case, shoving it back in his pocket. He held the joint in the corner of his mouth as he fished around in his other pocket for his lighter. "It's gonna cost you," he told her, speaking through only half of his mouth.
"You know I'm good for it," she returned, taking the weed from him once it had been lit. She smirked at Cat. "Wanna try something?"
"Whatie?" she questioned, her eyes wide with wonder.
"The best high is a second hand high," her taller friend said. "Open your mouth and when I blow, you breathe in."
Cat opened her mouth as wide as she could and Natalie suppressed a laugh. She breathed in and held it for a short moment before making a small 'o' with her lips and blowing a single, steady stream into the tiny girl's mouth. As instructed, Cat inhaled loudly and fell back into Joey who took this as his opportunity to wrap his arms beneath her chest.
He rested his chin on her shoulder, his lips close to her ear. "Don't breathe out," he ordered in a quiet whisper before she could protest. He ran his hands down the sides of her little red dress slowly, hooking his fingers around the hem. "Don't breathe," he repeated quietly. He pulled her dress up just enough to expose her favorite pair of frilly white underwear.
Realizing this as her cue, Natalie reached forward and gently touched the quivering girl, lightly rubbing her fingers along the fabric of her panties. Cat clenched her eyes shut, trying to keep all the smoke in. She was starting to get dizzy and she could have sworn that her skin was starting to bubble.
As Natalie continued to touch her, she started to feel the need she felt when she occasionally wanted to have sex with Robbie. She took in small gusts of air through her nose, her lungs beginning to hurt.
She opened her eyes when Natalie slid her hand inside of her panties and started to rub her clit. She let out all of the air she held in a manic coughing fit. Natalie and Josh just laughed at her, his voice ricocheting through her shoulder.
"You lose," he whispered, planting a soft kiss on her neck as she gasped for air. For some strange reason, she had the urge to look down and saw that he'd lifted her dress above her chest and was already playing with her bare breasts. Why didn't she feel him take her bra off?
Before she could say anything, Natalie pulled her underwear down to her knees and spread her legs. "This is what we do to losers," she spoke, leaning closer to the redhead's vagina. She smirked, looking up at Cat through her lashes. "I didn't peg you for a shaver."
Cat snickered and covered her mouth, making small noises when she felt Joey's fingers playing with her nipples. "I don't like hair down there," she confessed after moving one of her fingers out of the way so she could open her mouth. When she was dating Danny, he'd asked her if she would mind shaving or waxing, so she shaved for him. She liked the bare feeling, so she continued doing it.
The girl between her legs chuckled and kissed the lips of her vagina, sending shivers running down her spine. She let out small whimpers when Natalie's tongue gently caressed those lips. It tickled, but it also gave her this strange feeling, a kind of yearning. She didn't know what she was yearning for, exactly, and she hoped Natalie knew what to do.
The room started to swirl around her and her noises of pleasure grew louder when Natalie's tongue found its way to her clit and Joey played a little rougher with her nipples. Out of innate reflex, her hips bucked at the new, pleasurable feeling. Luckily, Natalie was fast enough to move away from the blow. She laughed softly and looked at Cat with seductive eyes.
"Have you ever been eaten out before?"
She wanted to ask what that meant, but she simply shook her head. The weed was getting to her and she wasn't sure if she could remember how to talk. That, and she just wanted Natalie back between her legs.
Natalie went back and started flicking her tongue against her clit, eliciting soft purrs from the little redhead. She closed her eyes and leaned her head back against Joey's shoulder. Blood bubbled beneath her skin, and every touch made it stop momentarily. She wanted Natalie to make the bubbling stop, and she also wanted her to keep making her feel this foreign pleasure between her thighs.
Joey pressed himself closer to her and started to grind against her. She felt something poking at her lower back, but she ignored it, desperately trying to focus on the girl playing with her so she wouldn't forgot the euphoric feeling.
It didn't take long for her quivering form to shake with an orgasm. She clenched her eyes shut tightly and her hands automatically snapped to Joey's hair, pulling at his sandy blond tresses as she came loudly.
When she settled and released him, he chuckled softly. "I like her," he breathed. He let go of one of her breasts to push Natalie away. "My turn."
Still reeling from her orgasm, Cat couldn't process anything.
She opened and closed her eyes on occasion as the room changed around her, and Natalie grew increasingly nude while Joey shifted around behind her. She squeaked softly when he picked her up and Natalie grabbed her face gently. "Just watch me, okay?" she instructed.
Cat nodded and gasped when Joey placed her down on his fully erect penis. Natalie leaned forward to kiss her, leaving a strange taste behind. Then, she sat back toward the edge of the couch and spread her legs.
It was the first time Cat had ever seen a vagina other than her own.
It took her a minute, but she felt Joey's hands grasp her hips tightly. He grunted behind her as he pulled her up and down on his dick and she let out delayed moans, her eyes locked on the naked girl in front of her playing with herself.
She wasn't entirely sure what she was seeing. She never paid attention in biology or anatomy or whatever because it made her blush, so she didn't know what Natalie was even rubbing as she fondled her left breast. She locked eyes with Cat and smirked, rubbing herself faster.
The room started to bounce too fast, so she closed her eyes and covered her mouth to keep any other noises from coming out.
"Don't take your eyes off me!" Natalie ordered loudly, shocking her a little.
Her eyes snapped open and she looked on in wonder with her hands still over her mouth as the girl stuck two fingers inside herself. She gasped behind her hands, wondering if it would hurt, but Natalie tilted her head back and moaned to tell her otherwise.
She wasn't sure how long the scene played out; all sense of time was lost.
Her back arched as she reached another point of orgasm, and she dug her nails into her cheeks to keep the moans from escaping. Joey let out a loud groan and fell back on the couch, breathing loudly. "It's about time," he mumbled.
Natalie smiled warmly and leaned forward to kiss her redheaded friend once more. "You did good, kid," she congratulated. She pulled the tiny girl close, making her gasp as she rose off of Joey, and curled up next to her on their side of the couch. "I'll take you home first thing in the morning," she whispered as she wrapped her arms around the girl, patting her bare bottom.
Dazed and not completely aware of what had just happened, Cat hummed a soft response and quickly fell asleep.
And I know I should be home.
Wednesday night.
"I love you, Cat," Robbie whispered as he draped one of his arms around her waist. He snuggled up closer to her on the bed, and she was thankful that he couldn't see the nervous look on her face.
"I love you, too," she responded, clenching her eyes shut. She couldn't bring herself to look at him. She felt dirty, and she didn't want him to hate her. She was ashamed of her dirty dreams. She never should have smoked weed.
The first time she smoked was strange.
She dreamt that she had been locked in the highest tower of the tallest castle that was under attack by evil dragons. She dreamt that the dragons wanted to hurt her, but there was a knight and another princess there to keep her safe. But…she kissed the other princess. She kissed her a lot…and she liked it. And when the dragons attacked and the knight made her leap from the tall tower and crash into the princess's arms on the ground below, she felt like she did whenever she would almost have sex with Robbie.
She shouldn't have asked for another smoke.
That dream was worse.
This time, she dreamt that she was on a boat. Natalie was there, too, but she looked way more like Jade than she already did. She started doing naughty things, like touching herself in places that her mommy told her not to. She started touching Cat in those bad places as well, but she liked it. She liked the feeling of her lips pressed against Natalie's, but she liked it more that she thought she was kissing Jade.
She felt lonely when Natalie stopped kissing her, but then she started touching herself again. She did it without wearing clothes and the boat rocked wildly, filling Cat with so much wonder. The rocking went on for a really long time, but she only looked away from Natalie when her body shook with the most euphoric feeling she'd ever felt. Her toes had curled and her back had clenched. She didn't know what was happening, and her body was moving in ways she could never imagine.
And then she woke up in her bed without her dress on.
She didn't want to tell Robbie about her dreams, yet she wondered if she should. She was so confused. She was sure she loved him, and she was sure that she would want him intimately, to be with him in the ways she was with Danny because she knew it would be better, but why did it feel like she wanted that with Natalie? Or maybe she wanted it with Jade…
Jade was pretty. She was one of the prettiest girls Cat had ever met. Yes, she was mean to everyone—even her boyfriend and now-fiancé—but she was always nice to Cat, at least in private. One time, Jade came to stay the night at her house and she caught a glimpse of her friend changing into her night clothes. It was the first time she'd ever seen another girl topless, and she wanted to see more of Jade in that way.
But wasn't that wrong?
She shouldn't be thinking of her best friend that way, right?
She clenched her eyes shut tightly, trying to force herself to go to sleep. It was bad enough that she was upset about how horrible Jade had been to Tori; she didn't need these confusing feelings to accompany it.
She'd tried calling Tori about an hour after she left, but her phone was turned off and went straight to voicemail. She wanted to call Beck and tell him that something was wrong, but she wasn't sure if he'd want to hear it. After all, Jade kicked him out earlier that morning and he was gonna be in Canada until Friday afternoon.
She wished Natalie didn't have to go out of town. If Natalie's stupid sister hadn't unexpectedly gone into labor, then she wouldn't have to feel so trapped in this house.
She wouldn't have to be scared of Jade or Robbie.
And I know I should be home.
Thursday morning.
She woke up alone in her bed, and—despite her small sense of loneliness—sighed in relief. She turned to the empty spot beside her on the bed and found a note on Robbie's pillow. She pulled it close and dropped it back down after reading that he'd left early for school because of this sculpting project he was working on.
She crawled out of bed and went straight for the shower. Normally she went to check on her daughter and make sure the baby girl was still sleeping well, but she desperately wanted a shower.
She loved showers, baths, pools, and anything wet. She felt calm in the water. Her mommy said it was because she was born in a swimming pool, and she always laughed about that story. She was a swimming baby!
She didn't wait for the water to warm up when she turned it on, and she squeaked loudly with a broad grin as the cold water bombarded her skin. That was her favorite part about showers; it made her appreciate the warmth even more.
The majority of her shower consisted of her holding herself as the water flowed freely while she thought about what to do. Should she tell Robbie about her naughty dreams? Did that mean she was cheating on him?
Normally, she would ask Jade because she trusted her about everything, but her friend's new and terrifying mood turned her off of that idea. Beck helped her with her problems sometimes, but he and his family were sad about his great aunt dying; he wouldn't have time to worry about her. On rare occasions, she asked her brother for his crazy advice, but he was on his honeymoon with that girl she didn't like.
She could ask her mommy!
Her mommy was smart and didn't have anything else to worry about. And even if she did, she always had time for her little girl. She'd know what to do.
Cat jumped out of the shower, uncaring if she got all of the soap off of her body or not. She grabbed the nearest towel and ran it over her skin quickly before wrapping it around herself and bouncing back to her room. Though her skin was still damp, she hurriedly got dressed, throwing on a baby blue crop top and a pair of white skinny jeans. She hopped into a pair of white platforms and slung her wet hair up into a scrunchie she picked up off of her dresser.
Then she hurried to her room and gathered her daughter and her baby necessities before heading downstairs, grabbing one of the strollers by the front door, and leaving the house.
And I know I should be home.
It had been a while since she'd taken Cassie out for a walk.
She almost wished she'd worn more sensible shoes for the long walk to her old house. But she was a trooper and didn't like feeling short. The extra exercise would be good for her anyway.
Cassie didn't seem to mind the change of scenery and gurgled happily as she looked around at the world passing her by. She pointed at various animals and shouted 'play' on multiple occasions, and it nearly broke her mother's heart to tell her 'no.'
Cat smiled when she saw her mother's car in her old driveway. She probably should have called before just coming over—she remembered how Jade used to get mad at her for it when she still lived with her mean brother—but there was no stopping her when an idea popped into her head and she really wanted to do something.
She practically ran with her stroller up to the front door, making sure she didn't trip over the bumps and breaks in the sidewalk. Once there, she rang the doorbell frantically, hoping it would make her mother answer faster.
A few seconds later, her mother pulled the door open with a confused look. She wore the tight black sweatpants she'd gotten when she was in high school as well as a white tank top. Her usually impeccable hair had been pulled into a high ponytail. "What are you doing here, baby?" she asked. "Is everything okay?"
"They will be," Cat answered cheerfully with a nod that rattled the messy bun atop her head. "I really wanted to talk to you about something."
"You can talk to me about anything, sweetie," Ms. Valentine assured her, the confused expression still scribbled on her face. She stepped aside to allow her daughter to push the stroller inside the house. Once her daughter and granddaughter were inside and the door was closed, Alicia enveloped her daughter into a warm hug. "I've missed you, baby girl."
"I'm sorry," Cat apologized, returning the hug. "I've been really busy!"
After the hug disbanded, Alicia put her hand on Cat's back, leading her into the living room. Then she picked Cassie up out of her stroller and sat down on the couch with her in her lap. "So what did you need, Kitten?"
Cat sighed as she took a spot on the couch by her mother. "Is it," she began nervously, "How do you…What…? Can girls like girls…the way they like boys?"
The question took her mother by surprise. Her eyes widened slightly and she opened her mouth to speak before closing it and opening it again. "Well," she started skeptically, looking down at her granddaughter playing with her necklace, "Uh…sometimes, a girl will like another girl like she likes a boy. She'll want to do things that are supposed to be between a boy and a girl." She twirled a lock of Cassie's hair and looked back up to her daughter. "Sometimes she'll want to do what you did with Daniel, even though it's…different, I think. Boys do it too—liking other boys. And sometimes, a girl can like boys and girls; she can't help how she feels."
"Oh," the little redhead mumbled, looking down at her hands in her lap.
"Do…do you think you have feelings for a girl?" Alicia questioned hesitantly, never expecting to have this conversation. "I-it's okay if you do." Reluctantly, she placed a calming hand on her daughter's knee. "I'll love you no matter who you love."
With a groan, Cat threw her head backward, bumping it on the back of the couch. She clenched her eyes shut and let out a small 'ow.' She took in a deep breath through her nose. "I think I do," she finally admitted quietly.
"So what about Robbie?"
"I still love him!" the tiny girl exclaimed, snapping her body to her mother with pained eyes. "I love him, but there's this really pretty girl and she does…things that I've never seen a girl do and I really like them. They…make me feel funny, but it's the good kind of funny that Robbie makes me feel." She groaned again and dramatically fell onto the rest of the couch, burying her face into one of the decorative pillows.
"You can't help how you feel about someone," her mother told her, "But you need to decide what you want to do about it. Robbie's been through so much with you; he wouldn't have if he didn't love you. If you want to throw all of that away because of this new girl, then that's your decision."
"I want to be with Robbie," the redhead confessed, her voice muffled by the pillow. "I love him so, so, so, so much, but I'm scared."
"Well, why are you scared, honey?" Alicia questioned.
There was a brief silence. Suddenly, Cat felt awkward about telling her mommy her fears. It was a little…weird, even weirder than her asking if girls could like girls. But she never hid anything from her mother for too long, so there was no use in holding it in.
"I'm really scared of getting pregnant again if I sleep with Robbie!" she spoke hurriedly, her words mixing together.
Her mother choked on her spit and fell into a small coughing fit, unsettling her granddaughter in her lap. She quickly regained her composure, placing her hand on her chest as if it would help. "I should have told you about safe sex a long time ago," she admitted glumly. She tapped Cassie's nose with her finger and a small smile. "If you're worried about another pregnancy, ask Robbie to buy condoms. If he says no, then you tell me and we'll have to have another discussion."
"But condoms break!" Cat cried, shooting up into a sitting position.
Her mother laughed softly and reached out to gently stroke her thumb over her daughter's forearm. "Then I'll take you to see a gynecologist," she offered. "They're special lady doctors that can prescribe you birth control. If you have that and condoms, then there's no way you'll get pregnant."
Cat lowered her head in shame, feeling bad that she didn't try to get any birth control when she was dating Danny. "Can we go right now?" she asked quietly.
Her mother stirred on the couch and put Cassie on the floor, much to the tiny toddler's dismay. "Sure," she said. "Just let me run upstairs and get changed really quickly."
She looked up with a bright smile, her eyes full of hope. "Kay, kay!"
And I know I should be home.
She expected her mother to take her to the women's clinic where she got her ultrasounds done. But they went a ways away to a city she hadn't ever heard of. Her mom said that this was where she used to go when she was growing up, and she still came here on rare occasions. She trusted the doctors and staff in Santa Monica, so Cat would too.
She was nervous about being in the tiny little room with her mom sitting in the corner, but she didn't say anything. She was here for a specific reason, and that reason was Robbie. If she had this bad feeling about Natalie, and if she couldn't shake it away, then it was wrong and it needed to stop. She needed to spend more time with him, to get back into the habit of being with him. If being with him meant sleeping with him, she'd do it. She wanted to do it anyway, and this would finally give her what she wanted.
