Chapter 3


I still feel Jack on me and I screamed myself and Christian awake. Me being instantly in tears.

'Jezze Ana!' Christian held me tightly in his arms till I calmed down.

'I'm sorry!' I just repeated over and over through my streams of tears.

'Shhh… baby, calm down. I have you. You're safe now. You're safe now.' He just said over and over. All I could do is cry and nod my head. I tried to bring my breathing back to normal but it took a while. After thirty minutes or so I started to calm down quite a bit and exhaustion took me and I finally fell asleep, but everything the Jack incident somehow seeps back and I would jolt awake and it would wake Christian as well. Later I got up and go get myself a glass of water in the kitchen. Christian fell back asleep.

I went to my old bedroom upstairs and growled under the covers there so I could give Christian a proper nights rest. Since I am awake every hour. Also I know he is really worried over me and I want him to rest. He gets why too little sleep as is already. I curled up in a ball and fell asleep too tired to think of anything else and I cried myself to sleep. Luckily this time without any Jack nightmares.

'Ana… Ana…' Christian must have been up looking for me, when my name woke me. He was searching for me. I just open my eyes and he was not in my room.

'Up here Christian!' I called to him.

'Here you are. I was so worried about you.'

'I just seem I worry you all the time. I am really sorry for all the trouble I am causing you.'

'You are no trouble baby. None at all. Your side of the bed were cold and I was just worried you passed out somewhere.'

'I hated waking you every hour so I came up here so you can rest. I know you normally get to little sleep so I came to bed here.'

'It's alright baby. I don't mind if you wake me up every twenty minutes if you have to. As long as, I could look after you. I have called Dr Flynn and arranged a few session for you with him this morning.'

'What?'

'I just think he can help Ana. Even if you just go to two or three sessions with him so you can work through this. Please?'

'If it makes you happy, then alright.'

'Ana, it's not for me. It's to help you, I am really concerned about you and what I witnessed last night.'

'See, I just make you worry over me for nothing. I feel so guilty already.'

'Ana please. You don't need to feel guilty about anything. What happened to you was not at all your fault, do you hear me.'

'Yes, sir.' He kissed my forehead and pulled me into his lap, hold me to him. Sawyer drove me later that morning to Dr Flynn's office and we had an hour long session and it turns out I really do need this therapy sessions more than I thought. We only scratched the surface of my trauma. After my therapy session we went back to Escala. I couldn't handle sitting around like this and I gave Roach a call and he told me to only work through the newly submitted manuscripts so long and we have a nice long talk face to face once I am all better.

So I work from home on some manuscripts. I wrote my reports and submitted them at the end of the day. Mrs Jones brought me lunch near lunch time. A nice sub sandwich with a large mug of tea. I ate while I worked and drank my tea. Christian only got home late I sat down and ate my dinner. After I was done taking a nice bath and was laying on the couch in the family room when Christian came home and found me fast asleep on the couch.

He carried me to bed. He cradled me to his chest as he walked the short distance to our room. He lay me down and covered me with blankets. He got on his phone as he left our room and I fell back on comfortable darkness.

He was on the phone with Flynn. I am sure Flynn is giving him a summary of our session this morning. Now he know everything. I feel so embarrassed about everything. I heard Christian talk down the hall on his phone.

'She has… no-no… that's great John. I am glad she took a session and that you can help her. Yes… I'll talk to her… yes. I was just so concerned about her she barely slept last night. Of course… Good. Yes, very well. Talk to you tomorrow.' He closed his phone and I was already in the hallway in the shadows.

'I know your there baby. Come.' He spoke as he kept staring out the large wall of windows overlooking Seattle below. I walked over to him and wrap my arms around his waist.

'So what does Flynn say. Do I need to locked up in a padded room and be forgotten?'

'No, not all that bad baby. He said he is really glad that you came round to talk to him what happened to you. And even though what happened to you only a few days ago you are making progress. He mentioned something disturbing to me though.'

'What is it?'

'He said you think in some unconscious way you provoked Jack to do to you what he has done.'

'Yes, I do. Are you mad at me about that?'

'Ana, I know you. You're not really a good communicator but I know you won't provoked just anyone to do what was done to you so violently. This is not at all your fault, do you understand me, Miss Steele?'

'Yes. I do.' I answered as I looked up at his determined eyes.

'Good. Now please sit with me while I eat dinner.' We sat down and he had his dinner. I told him I phone Roach today and I started to work again, from home. Christian had a strange look on his face but he said nothing. After he ate we head back to our room where Christian took a shower and I lay waiting for him, but I fell asleep and dreamed our happy times we had together on the Grace and when we went gliding in Georgia. It was a really happy relieve.

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