Diclaimer: ALL SMs
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This story will have both Bella and Pauls POV, i won't repeat the chapters from each POV.
This one is filled with bad language just to warn you, the reason why it is a M rating.
This will have conversations throught the wolf mind link, let me know if it works the thoughts will be in italics. I have not done this before so im not sure how to go about it.
I have changed it to italics and bold now.
Not my Life
PPOV
I thought my dad killing himself, my mom leaving La Push so she could chase her latest boyfriend around the world was one of the worst times of my life. Turning into a wolf the size of a horse, being trapped in La Push not able to continue my education like I always dreamed I would be able to do, having the temper of a two year old is worst.
I now have to protect the Reservation from bloodsuckers, be an upstanding citizen of the tribe so the teenage boys of the tribe can look up to me. That means no women, no alcohol and no drugs and also help old women cross the road, my life is a load of shit and I have no choice in it. When I lose my temper that's it the wolf wants to come out to play, but the wolf has to stay a secret from the rest of the tribe, the pack and Elders are the only ones that can ever know about it.
The Elders keep telling me that I should feel honourable because the great spirits chose me to phase into a wolf, I think said great spirits are watching and laughing that they have fucked up my life.
"Paul you ok?" Sam asked as he joined me sat on the beach.
"Never better" I replied sarcastically.
"We have not seen you around the house for a few days and we only see you when you patrol, you are quiet Paul and your thoughts when you are phased are about the forest and killing. What are you hiding?" Sam asked being a wolf means that my own thoughts are shared amongst the pack no secrets there.
"Nothing Sam what I can possibly be hiding, nothing happens here."
"Is it that time of year again?" Sam asked and I could hear the pity coming out of his mouth.
"Yep tomorrow will be nine years since that selfish bastard killed himself" I growled out.
"Take the rest of the day off and tomorrow, if you want to go wolf and run its fine but not too far."
"Sure thanks Sam."
"Anytime brother, stay away from second beach Billy is there fishing with Jacob and the Swans today" Sam replied before getting up and jogging up the beach.
Charlie Swan was a good man, the amount of times that man would catch me fighting or drinking and he would let me off while most other cops would have put my butt in county jail at the first sign of trouble. His daughter on the other hand is a pain in the ass, to willingly get involved with a bunch of bloodsuckers and when the bloodsuckers left she acts like they have died. She puts her life at risk trying to follow one of them in the forest, it is then up to the pack to find her and not do what we should be doing by protecting the Reservation.
If I could get away with it I would grab that girl and give her a damn hard shake back into this reality, to stop being so weak and to pull herself together. She surely must have known they would eventually leave her they don't age it was only a matter of time before the humans of Forks would started asking questions, but nope I can't do that. Charlie Swan is a good cop but I think I might be pushing it if I was to do that to his precious daughter. I wonder what he would do if he ever found out the truth about the Cullen's would he shake some sense into her?
With that last thought I get up and start to jog into the forest, a run right now sounds good I will do as Sam said and not go too far, yet running to a different state and never returning would be good. But with my toddler like temper I wouldn't last a day with not phasing then Sam would be on my ass to come back to the Reservation.
Once I was hidden in the trees I quickly took my cut offs of and tied them to my ankle, I arched my back and started to think about my useless parents before jumping up and phasing into my wolf. I made sure to blank my mind and think of trees and dirt, I have no choice but reveal all my thoughts but over the year since I first phased it is getting easier and easier to hide something's. I could sense Jared's thoughts but chose to ignore them before running.
Minutes later I found myself in the forest looking out across second beach, I could see Billy and Jacob Black with Charlie Swan but his daughter was not there. As I was turning to leave I spotted her a sat away from the group watching the waves like she does on first beach, I then watched as Jacob walked to her and sat down he was trying to get her attention but she was ignoring him. His faced showed all the signs that he had a crush on her but she quite clearly was not interested, I felt sorry for him but surely he must know that she is heartbroken why make his chances of ever getting with her less make being so pushy now.
I slowly stepped back and then turned around and ran taking no notice of what direction I was running in, it felt good feeling the mud under my paws and the wind rush past my ears. When I had ran straight for at least fifty miles I turned around and started running back towards the Reservation, I stopped abruptly when I picked up a bloodsucker scent that was only a day old.
It was heading towards Forks I stopped and howled when I noticed that nobody else was phased.
"Paul what is it, I thought you were going for a run?" Sam asked being the first to phase in.
"Fresh bloodsucker scent" I replied before showing Sam where I was.
"This better be good I was eating" Jared moaned as he phased in a couple of seconds later.
"Paul picked up a new scent, run to where Paul is waiting for us" Sam told him showing Jared where I was.
A few minutes later they both stopped in front of me, each of them sniffing at the ground and trying to work out where the bloodsucker was going.
"Jared run patrol around the Reservation, make sure this scent is not near there, Paul can you help me follow this scent?"
"Sure I'm in the mood to destroy something."
Jared ran back in the direction towards the Reservation while Sam and I followed the scent we were all concentrating on the scent that all our thoughts were quiet, we followed the scent all through the forest surrounding Forks. We stopped in the tree line when we hit a residential area and the scent was heading towards a house.
"Shit that house is the Swan's" Sam swore.
"Could it be a Cullen?" I asked hoping that that they have not returned and started the process for more boys to phase into wolves.
"No, this is a new scent it is different somehow"
"Could the Swan girl know who this new bloodsucker is?" I asked.
"I don't know Paul, I'm trying to remember why the scent smells different" Sam replied and I could see Sam going through all his memories when he was patrolling and picking up different scents.
"The bloodsucker who this scent belongs to is a human drinker, the Cullen's scent is different because they claim to only drink animal blood" Sam suddenly thought.
"So Bella Swan attracts bloodsuckers?"
"I'm pretty sure that this bloodsucker is not going to be friendly, what is it with this girl and bloodsuckers?" Sam asked.
"Her blood must be special to all bloodsuckers" Jared thought wondering if that could be the answer.
"I'm sure the Cullen's never drank from her, she would be dead by now plus they would have broken the treaty" Sam thought.
"So what is the plan now?" I asked
"We tell Billy and then he invites Miss Swan to stay on the Reservation" Jared suggested.
"Why should we protect her?" I growled out.
"Because her father is a friend to the tribe and a brother to Billy, Bella is on the Reservation a lot she could lead the bloodsucker there" Sam reasoned.
"Stop her from coming on the Reservation then" Jared thought just as images of Kim his imprint was running through his head.
"No she is still human, we will have to include the Swan's house in our patrols" Sam ordered.
"For how long Sam, my parents think I am on drugs. My imprint is complaining that she never sees me, I am failing school" Jared complained, I was suddenly glad that I graduated last year.
"I'm sorry Jared but it is our responsibility to protect the humans, Chief Swan is respected by the tribe we owe him protection. Emily is also complaining but she understands that I can't always be with her, I will ask Billy to contact the school and come up with some excuse ok" Sam told him but we could both see the regret that he could not do anything else to help.
"I'm sorry Paul but I need you tonight to patrol but you can have the day off tomorrow, and then back on patrol tomorrow night. I know you need some time but the protection of the Reservation and friends have to come first." Sam explained and I could see the pity that he was thinking for not giving me some space and time off.
"It is fine Sam; maybe I will get lucky and catch the bloodsucker myself."
"Jared go home and spend some time with your family and imprint, but I need you on patrol at nine tonight until two." Sam ordered Jared before we both felt his thoughts disappear.
"Paul can you patrol until four and then again in the morning to take over from Jared, I will patrol from four and then from late morning until Jared finishes school so you can have some time to yourself."
"Thanks Sam, I will stay on the Reservation tomorrow. If the bloodsucker turns up I will come straight away" I thought to him before running back to the Reservation.
I phased back in the tree line at the back of my house before running through the unlocked back door; I grabbed some food that Emily left walking into the lounge and watched TV.
AT two in the morning I took over from Jared and ran a continuous loop around the Reservation a few times before running to Forks stopping in the treeline behind the Swan house sniffing the air for any fresh scents and checking that I could hear two heart beats.
Just as I turned around to run back to the Reservation I was stopped in my tracks by a high pitch scream, I ran out of the forest and stopped underneath an upstairs window, I considered walking into the house just in case the bloodsucker had managed to slip pass me when I heard Charlie reassuring Bella. The girl was having a nightmare; she really was going to keep the pack busy if she screams like that every night.
I stay outside the Swan's for a few more minutes until I hear Bella's heart rate slow down indicating that she had gone back to sleep before going back to the Reservation. When Sam phases in I go through my memories of the night when Bella started to scream.
"I'm glad that it was you on patrol, I would have entered the house and checked it out."
"I did come close to doing that Sam, that Cullen bloodsucker really did a number on her" I thought.
"He did leave her in the forest at night that must have really messed her up" Sam commented.
"Are you going soft for her Sam?"
"I feel sorry for her because of having her heart broken" Sam replied while remembering how Leah was when he ended their relationship once he imprinted on Emily.
"But the fact that she was knowingly with a bloodsucker, I have no sympathy for her" Sam continued.
"She deserves this to make her realise that a bloodsucker is not human" I harshly thought just as I stopped in the tree line by first beach.
"Listen out for my howl if I find a fresh scent, Paul don't be a stranger come to Emily's for dinner tonight she is worried about you."
"Sure Sam" I thought just before I phased back.
I walked out to the beach and sat looking at the shore line; I kept looking behind me to the spot where I found my father's body. When I could feel myself start to shake at the memories I jogged back to my house jumping in the shower before getting into bed forcing myself to sleep hopefully the whole day unless Sam needed me.
